ting;XUE

swing, let your mood swing

2012-02-05T17:52:00.002+08:00

It's easy to move forward but difficult to move backwards. So keep that in mind and be careful where you move. Don't jump into situations which will leave you with regrets.

Officially Yours

2012-01-26T23:59:00.001+08:00

I'll never neglect you. A promise is a promise.

Discharged

2012-01-25T14:12:00.001+08:00

With new social role comes new social expectations. It’s been long since I last stepped into this role. I am afraid yet determined at the same time. Afraid that I can’t excel, but determined to excel for you. So much has happened since the most magical Thursday of my life; when you first told me you like me. And it feels like we have been together for so long since then. But I know this is just the beginning of a lifelong journey. I am really afraid of commitment because the last time I prepared myself to commit, I didn’t get a chance at it. I was left to pick myself up. I am using the word lifelong now not because I know we will last forever. No one knows what’s going to happen in the future. I am using the word lifelong because I want to make an effort to stay together with you for a lifetime. It’s a personal goal. Challenges are going to come our way but I’m ready to overcome them with you. Forever is not a word to be said, it is a word to be lived out. Only when you leave the world having spent your life with the same person for decades, then you can say you have been together forever.

Ever since you stepped into my life, I have been through many ups and downs, tears and joy, but none quite like last Saturday. I never felt so vulnerable until Saturday. When I was outside the OT waiting for your op to be over. I was in a frenzy but I had to remain cool and calm because it felt like the right thing to do. You weren’t in a life threatening condition but I was nonetheless in fear. Fear of what would happen to you. I was overwhelmed when you were pushed out of the OT. It was a moment of relief for me, for D, you bro and dad. I guessed we never really know how much someone means to us until something like that happens. It’s not to say that I have taken you for granted. I have never, and will strive never to take you for granted. It wasn’t easy for the both of us and I will always remember that. It’s just that I never knew something like this would happen to us. I’m glad to see that it brought us closer. And I know for sure that when I said yes, I meant it without a doubt. No doubt about you, no doubt about me, and no doubt about us.

Last but not least, a foreverphobic person wants to tell you: Forever is a long time, but I wouldn’t mind spending it with you.

I'll rather break my own heart, than let you break it.

2012-01-13T21:03:00.003+08:00

Tiring, emotionally and mentally. You thought you could do it. But you're not strong enough. Maybe you don't want to be. You just want to have a simple life. You just want to be a normal nobody in school. Unrecognized. So nobody will give a fuck about who you are, or who you like.

this video is totally for me.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IZD49weSFk

crumble

2012-01-07T16:20:00.002+08:00

Ingredients
3 apples - peeled, cored and sliced
3 fresh peaches - peeled, pitted and sliced
3 ripe plums, peeled, pitted and sliced
4 large strawberries, sliced
1 tablespoon white sugar (optional)
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon (optional)
1/2 cup water
1/2 cup melted butter
1 cup white sugar
1/2 cup apricot nectar
1 cup all-purpose flour
1/2 cup quick-cooking rolled oats
1/2 cup graham cracker crumbs
1 tablespoon ground cinnamon

Directions
1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Grease a 9x13-inch baking dish.
2. Scatter the apples, peaches, plums, and strawberries into the bottom of the prepared baking dish, mixing the fruit well. Sprinkle with 1 tablespoon of sugar and 1/2 teaspoon of cinnamon if desired. Pour the water over the fruit.
3. Mix together the butter, 1 cup of sugar, the apricot nectar, flour, rolled oats, graham cracker crumbs, and 1 tablespoon of cinnamon in a bowl until the mixture is crumbly and well combined. Sprinkle the crumbly mixture over the pan of fruit.
4. Bake in the preheated oven until the topping is lightly browned and the fruit is tender, about 45 minutes.

what do I mean to you

2012-01-05T12:34:00.003+08:00

I hate this feeling, this feeling of uncertainty. Even though it might be quite evident that you have some positive feelings for me at least, I just cannot be sure. I have so much to ask you about her, but I cannot. I have to pretend that I am not affected by her, or your past with her. I have to fake a smile even though I am always thinking about what you're thinking. Sometimes, I doubt you and I doubt myself. I doubt your liking for me. And I doubt my own ability to make myself believe that you are over her. And I don't see the point in me convincing myself that you're over her if you're not. So I'm stuck once again.

New Year's Eve

2011-12-18T23:16:00.001+08:00

"...it's (the ball) suspended there to remind us before we pop the champagne and celebrate the new year, to stop and reflect on the year that has gone by.

To remember both our triumphs and missteps, our promises made and broken. The times we opened ourselves up to great adventures or closed ourselves down for fear of getting hurt. Because that's what new year is all about -- getting another chance. A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about what if and start embracing what would be.

So when the ball drops at midnight, and it will drop, let's remember to be nice to each other, kind to each other. And not just tonight but all year long."

The Seven Secrets of Happiness - Sharon Owens

2011-12-14T22:26:00.001+08:00

1. emotionally independent

2. good health

3. banish envy

4. hold on to your friends

5. good deeds

6. see the beauty in small things

7. let go of the past

2 awesome quotes frm the book:

We were so happy together. I only wish I'd realized just how happy we were before it was too late.

I had so much time with him, I had all that time. We had all that time. Why didn't we spend more time together? Why didn't we spend our time together doing nice things?

stuck in reverse

2011-12-05T21:34:00.003+08:00

Between tears and smiles I have learnt many lessons about life, and love. Sometimes it sucks to know that you can never have the person you want so badly. But it is not always your fault. Sometimes it is them. They can't let go of their past to embrace the future which is you. You don't have to punish yourself by being upset just because you can't get their love. You just move on, and heal yourself.

Fade Into Darkness

2011-11-26T12:22:00.000+08:00

Danielle Tay Xue Ting, 11:00am, Bus124, Moulmein Rd
Kinda dawned on me that I haven’t been blogging for a long, long time. School work is just keeping me down, and Tumblr seems like a perfect substitute. Reblogging pictures that are actually “words”. Easy as ABC, or maybe even easier. It is week 15, which means yes, I am almost done with exams. But not yet, not till Wednesday. I should be studying, but here I am typing on Microsoft Word because there’s no internet on the bus. Just feel like pening down my thoughts before I lose them, again.

This semester is crazy fast. Actually Summer was crazy fast. Within 4 months of holidays, I have been to at least 10 camps, some of which I was a facilitator, some clan head, some crashie, some a dog (db training camp). Summer has changed so many things. It brought me closer to people who were my FIRST friends in SMU, by that I meant Jiawei Perng and Belinda Teo. We 1^st met at FTB2010, Incendia 3. Then we kinda broke contact when school started. Well, at least during my 1^st sem I still had Jiawei, thanks to RMSS. But the 2^nd sem wasn’t that great, we only met each other in week 6. But FTB changed everything. We were in DYQ and Scholars, and then all 4 runs of Vardar with Belinda. Gosh, I love these 2 girls. Although I didn’t see Belinda much during the 1^st two sems, but it was great working with her during FTB. It’s like all those memories just rushed back into my brain. I have an awesome hippocampus. And before I go all nostalgic, let me just go back on track again. Summer also caused me to drift away from the people I used to call FAMILY. Yes, you got it right, the dragonboaters. Sometimes I look back and think what things would be now if we were still as close. I still love all my friends there, but I love them because they are my friends, not just people who go through shit together, but I recognize them as people who have been there for a major part of my life. They have given me the best freshmen year I could ever ask for. However, we all move on. In different directions – SMUSA, SSU and what not; with the same friendship in our hearts.

Back to the focus, this sem. This sem is coming to an end, but I still feel like it is week 2 or week 3. It could be a sign that I am not studying hard enough, some of my friends say I look too chill for someone who is taking 5.5modules, TA, SMUSA and part DB. I would like to say I have good time management or actually NO management. The only praise I can sing for myself is that I am really consistent in updating my schedule book. Every class, meeting, training, meet up with friends, important reminders – you name it, I got it. I just like to think that my day is packed and I am not wasting time away. But like what Social Psychology teaches me, it is all about perceptions. That’s right.

11:23am, Stamford Rd
Alighting

11:25am, SMU Gymnasium
Met BFF (Hann Khee) outside the gym so we went in for some pull ups session! The last time I did pull ups was like erm, weeks ago. Feeling the guilt now. Did some pull ups and I went to deposit money. Thank God for semi-awesome mum. Semi awesome cause she nags a lot, otherwise, she would be perfect. Oh wells.

11:47am, SMU Library, Level 5
Here with D2, who is going for his LAST PAPER 1pm. And yup, back to what I set out to blog. This sem, this sem, this sem. In 15 weeks I have been through so much, not so much with regard to school work, but friends and family, and love (or the lack of it). Maybe I will just focus on the recent weeks. These few weeks were (and still is) crazy, because it seems to me that my silly little heart has disobeyed me (again). Sigh, I will never be able to control it. It’s like it has a mind of its own. It just trails off wherever it thinks it can venture to. And when it returns back, all hurt and wrenched, it expects me to be able to take it back and heal it. With what, I would ask. With my mind? Or with all the tears I drown myself in? If someone can come up with a prescription for heartaches/ heartbreaks, that person would make it big. That person would be richer than Bill Gates. My prescription for heartaches is sleep. But it only works if you can sleep forever. So for now, I am still clueless about what I can do about my heart. Thought watching an emo film like One Day would help, but no, it didn’t. It just resulted in tears and very swollen eyes. Double sigh. I semi expect things to get better after the exams. When all the SMUSA activities kick in, I will be fine. I can spend all day burying my nose in SMUSA events, making Christmas cards, organizing parties. It wouldn’t entirely take my mind off things, but still, it helps a little.

Actually, if I really have to say, I think Stats really helped to take things off my mind. Was telling Julius and Jonathan that Stats really helped me to temporarily forget about unhappy and unnecessary thoughts. it is unnecessary not because the person is unimportant, it is unnecessary because I am bothered but I am not doing anything about the situation. And I only have myself to blame. I can be super honest and blatant about people, about things, but not when it comes to a topic such as love, or emotions. If I dislike you, you will experience my signature black face; if I like you as a friend, I will be an angel around you; but once I like you more than a friend, I will be an idiot around you because I get all flustered when you’re around. Sad to face the fact that behind my strong front I am such a weakling. Was trying to pretend to be happy in front of Jiawei but she saw RIGHT through me, and she exposed me. But it shows one thing, she is one friend I will never let go off. Not everyone can see through the master of disguise. I promised her that I will talk to her about all this emo nemo elmo stuff after the exams, and I will. Before she flies off, sigh. I really need some girl time with my ever supportive girlfriends. Those I can bullshit with and cry with. For now, it’s just me and my notes and textbooks. And Facebook, and Tumblr, and this blog.

sigh

2011-11-17T21:03:00.003+08:00

i just want to come over and be the one person you wanted to talk to about whatever is troubling you

pls know tt when you say sth like that, you make me fall deeper.
I hope you'll catch me, cause I'm alrdy falling.

11/11/11 @ 11:11:11

2011-11-11T11:11:00.001+08:00

At this moment in my life, I made a wish. I wished you'd love me back.

just saying

2011-10-24T11:11:00.002+08:00

12th SMUSA Exco, Events Secretary :)

I am sitting in TWC class, lot as usual but OH WELLS, don't care, done with individual assignment so I am chill. but but but, it is 15%, like WHATTTT.

nvm, shall chill before I chiong shit again tonight D:
chiong stats and career essay!
and yes, I am going back to CJC tml ^^
can't wait to eat CHEAP and AWESOME food :)
and meet my lovely friends.
MISS THEM SO DAMN MUCH LUHHHHHH ):

CJC ignite, flame on!

drinkdrankdrunk

2011-10-02T11:24:00.002+08:00

outing w the girls was awesome :)
shoppppppppping @ H&M and Editor's Market was a success.
but we failed at F21. totally went in when they were closing in 15mins, like a cui only D:
ended up buying nth! ):
was supposed to go cycling w C5 but I had no bicycle! basket ):
so went out w DD, P & V :D
to my fav spot near a river. and then all I can say is I love Pratas and Playground :)
and yup, that concludes my Saturday night!

Spontaneous Saturdays are as awesome as Spontaneous Sundays :)
it's not the day, it's the peopleeeeee.
crazy ass girls nvr fail to make me laugh like some crazy bitch.

SO WHAT

2011-09-29T00:35:00.000+08:00

WE ARE SO DONE W THIS SHIT :D

Everything&More - David Archuleta

2011-09-04T15:42:00.003+08:00

like a satellite we're flying
overhead where we see it all
nothing can touch us
we're everything and more
there's no turning back from this point
reaching heights like never before
nothing can touch us
we're everything and more

yes SMUDB girls, we're everything and more.

looking

2011-09-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

I wasn't looking when I met you, but you turned out to be everything I was looking for.

so true D:

2011-08-30T21:34:00.002+08:00

YOU NEVER REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU LIKE SOMEONE UNTIL YOU WATCH THEM LIKE SOMEONE ELSE.

last Thursday night

2011-08-28T13:00:00.002+08:00

Jiawei Perng: please submit a 100 word reflection on what happened to your state of consciousness between 2300 - 0400 hours of 25 - 26 August 2011.

I like a cui only :(

[FTB 2011] A few last words before we part...

2011-08-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

Hello my dear facis,

I hope the first few days of school has been treating you well. It was nice to see some of you around school, be it at CCA or around the concourse.

The end of convocation also officially marks the end of duties for you guys as facilitators. I would like to thank each and every one of you for your efforts this summer. You guys have truly made it a wonderful camp, if not the best FTB thus far. And this comes from a person who has gone through 3 FTBs. (: The energy and vibrancy is beyond par. I think it is especially telling when FTB veteran SMU staff members are still impressed with what you guys achieved.

Good job people.

This Friday would mark the 3rd event in the Freshmen Experience Calendar. While not required, it is traditionally an avenue for you guys to grab your freshies and bring them around and have fun as a group. It is also a good time to have a gathering before school really gets busy. So do come down, and give things a spin!

Lastly, I would just like to tip my hat off to you guys again. You guys made it worth it.

Cheers,

Kefei

1 summer, 11 camps, infinite memories

2011-08-14T01:19:00.002+08:00

29 Apr - FTB interview
30 Apr to 1 May - SMUDB Camp 1
3 May - meet up with EBC
8 May - PlayNation @Scape with CI
10 May - sinseh with Jia Min + Saizeriya Ristorante @City Square Mall with Sherrie, Wysen, Xiang Lin & Zhen Tang
11 May - meet up with Bff + Swee Choon with SMUDB 2010
12 May - meet up with Jia Min
14 May - Vivian's birthday with SMUDB
15 May - meet up with Vera
16 May - Marche @ 313 Somerset with SMASHed Prog Org Com
17 May - meet up with EBC + meet up with Shi Hui
18 May - PlayNation @ Scape with SMUDB 2010
21 May - coxing course
22 May - coxing course + meet up with Weeps
23 May - SDBA trainer + Dad's birthday celebration
24 May - SDBA trainer + chalet
25 May - SDBA trainer
26 May - meet up with Weeps
27 May - meet up with Shi Hui
30 May to 3 Jun - FTB training
4 Jun - SMASHed Org Com bonding @ ECP + stay-over-at-Vera's
6 Jun - meet up with Shi Hui
7 Jun - JB with SMUDB 2010
8 Jun - Blue Jazz with Diner's colleagues
10 Jun - picnic@Botanics with DYQ
11 Jun - meet up with Kang Woei & Shi Hui
12 Jun - FTB (mock Day 0)
13 to 15 Jun - FTB (mock)
16 Jun - gym with Nat + Pasta Inc with SMUDB 2010 + meet up with Jane
18 to 19 Jun - SMASHed (mock)
24 Jun - Sentosa + Bugis steamboat with DYQ
25 to 26 Jun - SMUDB Camp 2
28 Jun - FTB Run 1 Day 0
29 Jun to 1 Jul - FTB Run 1
4 to 5 Jul - The Camp That Must Not Be Named (mock)
5 Jul - Run 2 Day 0
6 to 8 Jul - FTB Run 2
9 to 10 Jul - SDBA
10 Jul - SMASHed Day 0
11 to 13 Jul - SMASHed
14 Jul - meet up with Jane + Cold Stone with Vardarians
15 Jul - durian buffet with Hao Jie & Weeps + meet up with Su Shan + meet up w ith Hong Yun
16 to 17 Jul - Starring Car Wash
18 Jul - FTB Run 3 Day 0
19 to 21 Jul - FTB Run 3
22 to 24 Jul - Bondue Run 1
25 to 27 Jul - 2 Nights In Paris
27 Jul - FTB Run 4 Day 0
28 to 30 Jul - FTB Run 4
31 Jul to 2 Aug - Bondue Run 2 + Captain America
3 Aug - The Camp That Must Not Be Named Day 0
4 to 6 Aug - The Camp That Must Not Be Named
7 to 8 Aug - Transformers + Founder's Bah Kut Teh + stay-over-at-Van's with Levantians
9 Aug - Soup Spoon with Jia Wei & Nat + Swiss Bake + neoprints + stay-over-at-Pris's
10 Aug - meet up with Calvin, Hannah, Qiao Yi & Vivien + picnic @ SOA benches + frisbee clinic
11 Aug - Timbre with Dreamgirls
12 Aug - Convocation
13 Aug - htht (and mambo) with David & Ju Er + Ryan's birthday celebration

morning blues

2011-08-11T10:42:00.002+08:00

in a heartbeat

2011-08-09T20:14:00.002+08:00

for the annoying people

hell yeah

holy shit.

post ftb

2011-08-02T18:45:00.002+08:00

Goodbye FTB 2011 :(

2011-07-30T23:00:00.001+08:00

super tired, dozed off while uploading photos to fb!
but srsly, the best part of summer has got to be FTB :)

I'mdamnbloodytired.com

2011-07-19T01:14:00.002+08:00

haven blogged for the longest time. a hell lot of shit (stirring) have happened since ftb run 1 started. but seriously ftb is the sex. damn tiring but damn fulfilling :)

run 1 was 27 June (day 0) to 1 July
run 2 was 5 July (day 0) to 8 July
after break camp went to visit Miss Teo and baby!!!
PM CUP was 09 July to 10 July
then straight away Sports Camp from 10 July (day 0) to 13 July
like a 1 x camp whore !
and garang me went for DYQ outing right after Sports Camp!
reached home, bathed, then head out to Chomp2 till 4am !
then Thursday went to meet Jane, b4 gym-ing
Friday went GWP Durian buffet w hjchua.2010 & weepengyeo.2010
then met Su Shan b4 heading to school and finally met up with Xiao Hong :)
did Starring shit on Sat and Sun.
TOTALLY WASTED MY TIME CAUSE THEY SCREWED UP ONTRAC AND I AINT GETTING ANY HOURS
like wtf. wasted my 2 precious day. waste time waste money
but Cepheus 3 was really awesome :)
love my cutezxzx freshies :)
gym-ed ytd b4 meeting my run 3 freshies.
then went for Vardar prep b4 attending day 0 briefing.
I am rlly a camp whore.
but ftb is really awesome.
super happy now tt I can stay w my freshies. and I can sleep.
no more training to take away my precious sleep.
but I kinda miss training too.
Mum was saying tt I haven touched my paddle for a while, totally agree!!!
but I'm nt prepared to paddle again. sigh.
shall nt thk abt it anymoreeeeeeee :(

goodnight world.

run 3 day 0, SOB SR 3-4, 20:51

2011-07-18T20:51:00.002+08:00

omg so sweeeeeet :)

sad much?

2011-07-15T10:26:00.001+08:00

last warning to myself

2011-07-11T03:40:00.001+08:00

PM CUP 2011

2011-07-09T20:03:00.001+08:00

I WANT :D

ftb run 1

2011-07-01T23:54:00.002+08:00

it's true

2011-06-21T23:32:00.002+08:00

exactly.

2011-06-19T18:07:00.001+08:00

Sports Camp is tired max :(

2011-06-18T18:32:00.002+08:00

WALLET :(

2011-06-17T17:42:00.001+08:00

LOST MY FREAKING WALLET. BACK TO BILLABONG AGAIN D:

sian ttm :( :( :(

I want to be your favourite hello and hardest goodbye.

2011-06-17T09:10:00.002+08:00

it better not happen to me. HAHAHAHA

I am not acting yi ge sick.

2011-06-15T22:48:00.000+08:00

totally love this. even though it looks like it has grammatical errors. lol.

come on

2011-06-10T23:05:00.002+08:00

Erlina: Boat, ready for 5?
Xt: ready
Erlina: Go!
Xt: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, go long, go long, go long, go long, long, hard, pull ah, lai ah

so in Psy we learn ASSIMILATION from Jean Piaget ...

Life: Xueting, ready for moving on?
Xt: ready
Life: Go!
Xt: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, forget, forget, forget, forget, I, will, slowly, forget

eat

2011-06-09T21:49:00.001+08:00

12 slices of luncheon meat
8 eggs
7 slices of bread
5 pieces of fishcakes

3 cups of milo

2 bowls of porridge

gives you

1 obese Xueting Zheng.

OMG I EAT LIKE A FREAKING MONSTER.

anw had a good sleep last night :) 8 hours :) woke up at 830 to do Sports Camp stuff then went TPY to deposit $, borrow books and shop for groceries!
came back, cooked lunch and headed out for tuition!
then came home, cooked dinner and NUAAAAAA.
Nua = tumblr + google for recipes for picnic tml with the gifted kids from FTB.

looking forward to PIGnic @ Botanics tml!
but before that, have to go through morning training D:
oh wells, no rain, no rainbow.
shall aim to sleep by 11 so that I get enough rest to survive training + pignic + otot gym!
Sat and Sun have training and Sun night need to report for FTB Mock Camp Day 0.
then Monday training + FTB Mock Camp Day 1.
Tuesday = Monday
Wednesday will be FTB Mock Camp Day 3 with gym training at night D:
Thursday will be awesome because it's Pasta Inc Day!
and guess what, NO TUITION :)
plus plus shopping with Jane at night :)
aiming to shop from 5 to 10, b4 I head home to prepare for Friday's morning training again D:
I will be as busy as a beeeeeeee next week.
but I am sure I will be happy.
And this happiness will help me survive weekend trainings, HOPEFULLY.
gold medal gold medal, just give me the damn gold medal!

true that

2011-06-08T23:54:00.002+08:00

rain rain you fuck off please

2011-06-06T22:51:00.001+08:00

ineedsleep,com

2011-05-31T23:57:00.001+08:00

TIRED MAX

it's been so long

2011-05-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

so freaking tired, aiming to sleep by 10 tonight?
tml is gg to be a long day :(
trng, ftb and tuition! contemplating baking now but I am too lazy D:
shall wait for Sat night :)
can't wait to make Summer Pudding with Anne Poi :)

higher (:

2011-05-29T19:13:00.002+08:00

it's taking me higher, higher, high off the ground :D
dreading the week ahead but fuckkkkkk it, I will survive!

looking at my schedule book alone scares me :(
oh wells, that's what I get for signing up for so darn many camps I guess!

ok emo nemo time.
from awkwardmoments: that awkward moment when you see two people hug and you feel like a loner :(

and I came up with my own awkward moment!

THAT AWKWARD MOMENT WHEN YOUR CAPTAIN IS READING OUT THE LINE UP FOR THE RACE AND YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE IN THE ROOM WHOSE NAME SHE DIDN'T CALL OUT.

that one is really holy crap.

anw just had HTHT was my dad in the kitchen, over dinner. asked about his love story.
I was like thinking my dad damn brave la, go through all the bullshit then finally found courage to love again.
but he is like muttering lots of "knnbccb" now because he didn't strike lottery
BACK TO THE STORYYY
I rlly thk he damn bloody tough and damn bloody lucky to have gotten rid of the ex-wife.

another amazing love story I heard recently was about my uncle and his gf of THIRTY FIVE YEARS.
my uncle was 21 when he got tgt with his gf, like freaking more than half his life with her :)
totally sweet.
no marriage certificate, no wedding, no kids, no obligations to be together
but they lasted for so long :) :)
sweet like (fructose)x(sucrose)x(glucose)

papa Tay is off to fetch mama Tay back from work, everyday without fail :)

Glee - Pretending (:

2011-05-28T22:35:00.002+08:00

Face to face and heart to heart
We’re so close yet so far apart
I close my eyes I look away
That’s just because I’m not okay
But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we’re feeling
Reach out underneath and
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
We will always be pretending

How long do I fantasize
Make believe that it’s still alive
Imagine that I am good enough
If we can choose the ones we love
But I hold on I stay strong
Wondering if we still belong

Will we ever say the words we’re feeling
Deep down underneath it
Tear down all the walls
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending

Keeping secrets safe
Every move we make
Seems like no one’s letting go
And it’s such a shame
Cause if you feel the same
How am i supposed to know

Will we ever say the words we’re feeling
Deep down underneath it
Tear down all the walls bloglyrics.net
Will we ever have a happy ending
Or will we forever only be pretending
Will we (oh oh) always (oh oh) be pretending

anw this is sth cool
Brittany: Acceptance. I know that all the kids in the glee club they fight and steal each others boyfriends and girlfriends and they threaten to quit like every other week. But weird stuff like that happens in families.

49 days Xueting, 49 days

2011-05-28T19:01:00.003+08:00

49 days later I'll be at the following:

all ready to

but in 42 days ... I will be at

all ready to

:)

and last warning to this girl!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OA0_yfKPPw8&feature=share
I can only do half! basket!

damn mother sad

2011-05-28T15:22:00.002+08:00

omg omg omg omg :( this is just terrible :(

and I am so mad @ Confucius, he is a LIAR.
when he said "It does not matter how slow you go as long as you do not stop.", he forgot to add that it does not apply for dragonboating. LIARRRRRRRRRRRR

Mr Almost Right

2011-05-26T22:33:00.002+08:00

What happens when you meet Mr Right, but find out someone's got there first? Do you:
a) bury your feelings, convince yourself nothing can ever happen between the two of you and move on?

or

b) fail miserably to bury your feelings and act like an incompetent fool in front of him?

from "Mr Almost Right" :)

and here is something from the book ..

I hope he understands why I can't invite him. What am I talking about? I know he does. Today's told me we both know exactly what's going on. Now all we've got to do is slam on the brakes and avoid the cliff edge that's looming ever closer.

She's right, of course, but I'm stupidly fearful that I'll sit opposite him feeling nothing because he's not Charles. I can't stand how sad that'll be, how trapped I'll feel by an infatuation that cannot bear fruit. I come so close to telling her everything, but I don't want to pass on the melancholia that's plaguing me. Much better I nip it in the bud in private.

oh so pretty (:

2011-05-26T22:23:00.001+08:00

do you ever feel that you can't go long,
maybe you're not strong,
and every stroke is wrong?

an ok Monday but tml will be hell

2011-05-23T21:55:00.002+08:00

omg omg this is totally ME (:

I say and hear this too often, LOL.

true D:

oh no :( :(

time to sleep now. 510am everyday is nt a joke :(

harsh realityyyy

2011-05-21T20:56:00.002+08:00

New York Valentine

2011-05-19T10:19:00.004+08:00

It's our biggest challenge, working out how we can do the best for the people we love while remaining true to ourselves.

From NYV, another Carmen Reid book :)

currently reading Mr Almost Right, rather nice toooo :D :D

and I want this!

sure looks yummy :D

the following is what I feel towards DB :(

and this is just :( :( :(

one more :(

BUSY BUSY DAY AHEAD!!

today was crazy okay!

let X be the number of minutes of paddling.

I thought last friday was bad but no, today was ^&&&^%%$^#^^&*%&%%*))%^%#
last fri was X warm up
3X set
2X set
then X then end ..

so total of 7X

today we did 5X at ONE GO.
like WTFFFFFF but it was just one 5X set :D
and obviously we had 0.5X warm up!
still bloody tired. Imma die :(

but Coach said that today marks the end of our long dist trng :D
from now on, the longest set will be 1.5X :)
YAY YAY YAY

and EV made me rather happy la, obviously I slowest for run again but got improve a bit so ok :)
water ev damn cui though D:
pull ups also disappointing. as in pple were disappointed in me but for me I am rather contented :D

food heals your soul

2011-05-17T23:21:00.002+08:00

applesauce muffins

bread&hotdog&crabstick&egg bundle
toast
hard boiled eggs
charsiew rice
pear tea
Frolick
egg tart
xlb
truffle xlb
fried rice
yam xlb
veggie&pork dumplings

:) who needs Friday?

2011-05-16T14:15:00.002+08:00

I really need to sleep before gym ltr but I am stuck to Y U NO's twitter. damn funny.
here goes

Monday, Y U NO fun fun fun like friday?
Bruno Mars, Y U NO go catch grenade in Libya?
Justin Bieber, so many girls like you, Y U NO find somebody to love yet?
Dad, Y U NO buy me car like in Sweet Sixteen?
Lady Gaga, Y U NO pick up the telephone?
Rebecca Black, Y U NO like everyday?

and this is my favourite:

ABS, Y U NO HIDE MY STOMACH FATS. like what the, damn funny

16/07/2011

2011-05-16T11:21:00.001+08:00

16 JULY 2011
I AM WAITING FOR YOU
BRING IT ONNNNNN

Jet Lag

2011-05-15T22:16:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ntSBKPkk4m4

omg this song is really nice, and NEW :D

baking mania

2011-05-15T19:38:00.002+08:00

holy crap, you must in heaven if you are faced with this every day !

anyway, macaroons or no macaroons, life goes on. and my day was awesome because I spent it baking with Vera Anne Poi :)
wake up early to eat breakfast with Mum :) it has been a LONG time man.
then went to VAP's house! I am so unfit I sweat and pant like a dog by just walking 750m.
we started out with APPLESAUCE MUFFINS :D yummy like wtf man.
actually we just keep eating the applesauce as we baked, like URMMMMA
but it was damn fun.
it looks similar to
mmhmm
and then we made BERRY-BANANA SMOOTHIE MUFFIN !
it looked similar to

then to top it all off, we made Cranberry cookies :D

hooooray

and of course, I must POST THIS
Lyricist: VAP
Song Title: Dry Leh

Dry leh, dry leh, gotta get down to dry leh x infinity

like seriously, parady of Rebecca Sad Black is wtf. but I had a good time laughing!
last but not least...
I want this !

awwww so sweetzxzx

don't turn off the lights

2011-05-14T13:38:00.002+08:00

Xt: Robert Pat is too cool

Bestie: eh 你还有喜欢谁?

Xt: 你是说 angmoh 还是 ..?

Bestie: then 你是要说李南星 meh?!?!

Xt: HAHAHAHA

why my Bestie so cool? :D

ok short update b4 I hit the streets, not literally though :D
actually I think it will be a rather long one.
because I am a blogger BUT I keep posting pictures. feeling so guilty.
so yup. let's start with Monday.
Monday was good because my breathing was rather ok. No hyperventilating. mmhmm.
then Monday did Ergo too. like wtf Ergo damn tiring.
but I think Rachel was more tired than me beause she was like screaming all over the place.
like so excited to see me on the Ergo hah. damn bloody good buddy.
Tuesday was alright because I gave way to my hyperventilating habit :(
but overall, it was still OK.
then went for tuition b4 meeting lovelies for dinner @ CSM!
yummy dinner to make up for every exhaustion
Wednesday was awesomezxzx because BFF came over :D
she bought me the best thing on Earth ... GONG CHA WITH PUDDING like OMGOMGOMG right
love it and love my bff, hee.
we had a really nice lunch tgt and an awesome time reading smartphowned.com and fmylife.com
bff outings JUST ROCKS.
then had gym b4 gg to Swee Choon for dinner/supper with my lovelies.
SMU DB 2010 is really the best thing ever (:
but of course stupid things happened and made me emo :(
however, there is always food to brighten me up. haha and that was DURIAN mmhmm :)
I am living everyday just to eat what I want.
and I just took my weight on Wednesday :D
YESSSS MAINTAIN MAINTAINNNNNN.
damn bloody happy. I don't aspire to be 50kg at my height and I don't ever want to hit 70kg.
so I am damn happy with my weight.
can go Batam and spam food again HAHA.
okay shouldn't jinx myself D:
Thursday was movie date w QJM (:
WATER FOR ELEPHANTS WAS AWESOME AND STILL IS AWESOME.
Robert Pat is the sex, hehe.
then tuition and then headed home :(
Friday was water training and then gym training before gg for 4 hours of Sports Camp meeting.
my name is Xueting Superwoman Zheng.
and today was water training plus run.
damn bloody tired now :( :(
need my right arm to recover. like wtf man. it is really killing me.
and now I need to bathe and RUSH OUT!
and WTF, I just ate at 1130 but I am hungry again.
stomach, Y U NO satisfied?

life, Y U NO chill?

2 months 4 days

2011-05-12T10:12:00.000+08:00

still regretting the vow I made 9 months and 26 days ago but it will all be over soon. was tempted to break it, but I didn't. my friends around me are even more supportive and determined in helping me fulfill this vow. lovely people (:

going movies withzxzx QUAH JIA MIN ltr :D yay yay! can't wait :D
then tuition.
and then come home for dinner and SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEPS.
because there is mornng trg tml.

can't wait for next mondayyy! (:

anw just sth to describe myself..

so full :D

2011-05-12T01:09:00.000+08:00

gooodnight world.
argh. 46. urgh.

picture for thought

2011-05-11T12:40:00.002+08:00

it is true :(

How Not To Shop

2011-05-11T10:52:00.002+08:00

Took this from a book I was reading:

If you marry for money, there will always be someone richer. If you marry for beauty, there will always be someone more beautiful. But if you marry for love, you'll never find anyone else who can compare.

so true (:

rotting @ home now, waiting for lunch with BFF ltr! I'm cooking :D :D
mmhmm :) :)
it's been so long since I spent decent time with BFF (:
and next Monday we get to spend time with Ryan too! hope he doesn't look too funny with his BOTAK head.

have gym ltr and tml will be excitingzxzx!
probably gym then meet QJM for movie! ARTHUR ARTHUR :D
and then head to Senette Lane to give tuition :)
thanks to Sherrie, I have some income now!
and Jerome is actually rather cute, when he does his homework haha :D

abrasion, Y U NO go away

2011-05-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

THIS IS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT.

and yes, a recap of AS anyone?
the following is a good example of CAUSAL SLIPPERY SLOPE

and of course, nobody leaves here happy.

totally.

this is what I SHOULD BE and NEED TO feel towards db.

damn, so true.

oh-no.

take that, weird classmates.

emotionless. there, I did it.

2011-05-09T14:51:00.002+08:00

anw sth I read ...

"We've got your cards and presents at home," Lucille told Harry.
"Don't worry. I've got everything I could want." Harry kissed the back of Suzy's knuckles again.

awww :)

No Strings Attached

2011-05-08T20:02:00.002+08:00

Hey, you can’t call me and tell me that you miss me. I don’t want to have that conversation on the phone. So you can’t text me and you can’t e-mail me and you can’t write on my wall. Like, if you really miss me, you need to grow up and get in your car and come and see me.

and and and, I love this tumblr (:
http://etiquetteforagentleman.tumblr.com/
damn bloody awesome mmhmm.

runaway

2011-05-08T11:05:00.003+08:00

when everything in love gets so complicated, it only takes a day to change it.
omg love this song by Bruno Mars. heard it some time back but never bothered to dl it. will dl it now :D
love B.M ttm!

anyway: 8 months down, 2 more to go! :D

and yes, like I said before. Nobody leaves this blog HAPPY.

yes no maybe

2011-05-07T14:03:00.005+08:00

shouting doesn't help.
and crying doesn't help either :(

spamming "Get It Right" because I can't get it right. and because the lyrics is really what I feel.

each to his own

2011-05-06T23:18:00.002+08:00

found mine in pri school and sec school :)

ytd

2011-05-06T15:13:00.002+08:00

had

at 930 ytd.
then went for

with

then I went

to nap before heading to tutor

after 3 hours I was like

so I drag myself and ate my well deserved dinner :D
forced myself to sleep early but failed :(
then a sms got me crazy!
but it was nothing serious.

today...
I wake up in the morning feeling like P Diddy?
NO
I wake up in the morning feeling like WTF IT IS 430AM.
boarded the mini van and headed to

and I realized, when Coach says "warm up the bridge" ...
he means Sheares bridge ...
anw training in the dark was like WHATTT, cannot see anything!
but slowly the sun will appear :)
after training went for breakfast @ BKM b4 heading home
DID LAUNDRY! :D
then bathe and SLEPPPPPT.
shiok only :D

):

2011-05-06T11:22:00.001+08:00

it's wednesday

2011-05-04T18:22:00.002+08:00

like totally
D:

mmhmm (:
true that.
HAHAHAHAHAH WTF

1 2 3

2011-05-03T22:13:00.002+08:00

urmaaaaaaa

2011-05-01T23:45:00.002+08:00

different does not equal wrong.
conformity is not always right.

and I have had enough of "fundamental attribution error". last warning. but oh wells, we are ALL HUMAN and we are all IMPERFECT.

this is a short post because the long ones will always be "save now". time to sleep now because seriously, 7 hours is never enough. especially when you train so hard. need to drink up to replenish for tears, sweat and blood. call me BRUISE LEE.

love & other drugs

2011-04-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

gotta love this :D

brotips

2011-04-29T19:49:00.000+08:00

works for girls too

TRUE THAT!

absolutely.

aww :)

awkward moments

2011-04-29T14:13:00.002+08:00

on the floor

2011-04-29T10:34:00.002+08:00

JENNIFER LOPEZ, Y U NO PASS ME SOME OF YOUR HOTNESS.

sitting @ SOE rotting my life (and butt) away :(
shall stop watching youtube videosssss and move my rotting butt to the gym!
haven been training pull ups.
all the mushroom risotto and raspberry cheesecake is going to weigh me down during EV.
baskettttttt :(

interview for FTB @ 1130. urghhhh. pls dont ask me to singgggggggg.

mushroom risotto

2011-04-29T00:04:00.002+08:00

mmhmm

THIS IS WTF

2011-04-28T01:59:00.001+08:00

我们可不可以不勇敢

2011-04-28T01:09:00.001+08:00

其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他

no tumblr never mind, blogger works fine

2011-04-27T14:41:00.000+08:00

I don't own a tumblr but I can still post awesome pictures :D

kids make you LOL

gym sooooon!

hoetips ftw

2011-04-27T00:39:00.002+08:00

good night.

no I don't need you

2011-04-26T22:58:00.003+08:00

范玮琪's 没那么爱他 is emo ttm :(
damn old song but damn nice, I promise.
Wen Yi's intro! (:

enjoyed myself today @ Teo Heng w my lovelies (:
but I fail because I was singing and I cried. like WHATTTT
damn paiseh :(
the last time I cried while singing at Kbox/ Teo Heng was like 3 years ago.

totally mood spoiler :(|
but had some other songs to cheer myself up.
went for dinner after Teo Heng, followed by shopping trip @ Giant :D
bakingzx Apple Pie Muffins tml :)
YAY !

back to emonemo time :(

and this is sth from some random girl's blog

Recipe for heartbreak

3 tablespoons of hope, crushed
1 cup of love and hate, mixed
1 dozen of promises, broken and beaten
3 packs of lies
Few droplets of sadness

Stir mixture thoroughly, adding in 2 teaspoons of disappointment every few stirs.
Add desired amount of absence to taste.

Preheat oven, put in small, bite sized molds to bake.

1 serving. Best eaten after 3 years.

Tastes best if lovingly made by your loved one.

healing needed

2011-04-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

Best Friends (:

2011-04-24T22:51:00.001+08:00

FRIENDS: Will comfort you when he rejects you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will go up and ask him, “It’s because you’re gay, isn’t it?”

FRIENDS: Will be there for you when he breaks up with you.

BEST FRIENDS: Will call him up and whisper, “you will die in 7 days…”

FRIENDS: Help you up when you fall.

BEST FRIENDS: Keeps on walking saying, “Walk much, dumb ass?”

FRIENDS: Help you find your prince.

BEST FRIENDS: Kidnap him and brings him to you.

FRIENDS: Will ask you if you’re okay when you’re crying.

BEST FRIENDS: Will laugh at you and say, “Ha Ha, Loser!”

FRIENDS: Will offer you a soda.

BEST FRIENDS: Will dump theirs on you.

FRIENDS: Will sit at the side of the pool with you at that time of the month.

BEST FRIENDS: Will throw you a tampon and push you in.

FRIENDS: Gives you their umbrella in the rain.

BEST FRIENDS: Takes yours and says, “Run, fucker, run!”

FRIENDS: Will help you move.

BEST FRIENDS: Will help you move the bodies.

FRIENDS: Will bail you out of jail.

BEST FRIENDS: Would be in the room next to you saying, “That was awesome! Let’s do it again!”

FRIENDS: Would bail you out of jail again.

BEST FRIENDS: Would be sitting next to you saying “DAMN! We messed up!"

FRIENDS: Never ask for anything to eat or drink.

BEST FRIENDS: Help themselves and are the reason why you have no food.

FRIENDS: Call your parents by Mr. and Mrs. and Grandpa, by Grandpa.

BEST FRIENDS: Call your parents DAD and MOM and Grandpa, GRAMPS!

FRIENDS: Have never seen you cry.

BEST FRIENDS: Wont tell everyone else you cried…just laugh about it with you in private when your not down anymore.

FRIENDS: Asks you to write down your number.

BEST FRIENDS: Have you on speed dial.

FRIENDS: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.

BEST FRIENDS: Loses your stuff and tells you, “My bad…here’s a tissue.”

FRIENDS: Only know a few things about you.

BEST FRIENDS: Could write a very embarrassing biography on your life story…

FRIENDS: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing.

BEST FRIENDS: Will kick the whole crowd’s ass that left you

FRIENDS: Would knock on your front door.

BEST FRIENDS: Walk right in and say “I’M HOME.”

FRIENDS: You have to tell them not to tell anyone.

BEST FRIENDS: Already know not to tell.

FRIENDS: Are only through high school/college. (aka: drinking buddies)

BEST FRIENDS: Are for life.

FRIENDS: Will be there to take your drink away from you when they think you’ve had enough.

BEST FRIENDS: Will look at you stumbling all over the place & say “Girl drink the rest of that ! You know we don’t waste!

FRIENDS: Would read and ignore this.

BEST FRIENDS: Will repost this!

Evan Yap

2011-04-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Suet Theng, this year has gone by very quickly. I have seen you grow up a little but perhaps, not enough. Whenever you have to do something alone, take it that it is an opportunity for you to grow and be more responsible and independent. You are clever and you can do things well. Rely on yourself a little! Don't keep pestering your friends. One day, they may get fed up, and leave. Think and be more sensitive to them.

Evan, 01/10/03

found a little card with this message among some old books. I miss Evan Yap! 2nd best primary school teacher (: he'll be damn proud of me now because I am damn bloody independent (Y). goodbye to the old Suet Theng who must go everywhere with her friends! :D

and yes, I am BACK FROM BATAM :)
awesomeszxzx trip with lovely peeps :)

you give me premature ventricular contractions

2011-04-21T23:05:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHA :D

now for some emo nemo stuff (as usual)
nobody leaves this place HAPPY. nobody.

goodnight

where should I go D:

2011-04-21T00:44:00.001+08:00

emonemoelmo

2011-04-21T00:29:00.001+08:00

so true :(

hello summer here I come :)

2011-04-19T00:24:00.003+08:00

SUMMER IS HERE

summer is finally here but I don't feel happy AT ALL.
semi looking forward to SOCI CAMP, FTB and SPORTS CAMP!
not really into Starring though :\
don't know why I Signed up for it
oh wells, we all make mistakes in life.
just that I make mistakes ALL THE TIME :\
especially during exams, wtf :(
so damn glad I am done with all FIVE PAPERS.
five papers is JUST GROSS. urgh

1st Post Exam Celebration was at Cineleisure :)
movie date with SOCI kids :D
then round 2 at Timbre Artshouse :)
all was fine until everyone sabo-ed me to sing Marry You. like omg.
and my acting failed D:

anw summer is going to be filled with SMU stuff but heck! still going to enjoy my 1st summer as a SMUGGER.

next year Sophomore.

can't wait for later, 20th, 21st, 22nd to 24th, and 26th :)
PARTY EVERYDAY PART PART PARTY EVERYDAY

the thing is now I am so free my brain is going to be filled with all kinds of nonsense :\
so many things that I have put off my mind! all going to come back to me :(
but glad tt I semi made up my mind about something.
concept of COGNITIVE DISSONANCE.
no more dissonance now.
if what i believe in and my actions don't match, I either change my beliefs or change my actions
I choose to change my beliefs.
things don't have to be important if you don't let them be.

and yes, GLEE time is now :)
last but not least, these are pretty :)
I want helium balloons to take me away!

idontwanttodie, not yet

2011-04-17T10:49:00.002+08:00

denial and isolation, anger, bargaining, depression, acceptance

hey soul sister

2011-04-17T01:44:00.004+08:00

ONE MORE :D

hey soul sister

2011-04-17T01:44:00.002+08:00

one more damn exam and yes I'll be done.

the only thing that keeps me holding on

2011-04-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

I hold on to this every single day D:
hold until my hands become

CUIIIII D:

actually I wanted to post a picture of a hand with blisters but wtf the google pics too gross
so yup, t0o bad D:
so full from lots of fooood today!

breakfast
1 x tea
2 x egg
1 x kaya toast

lunch
1 x chicky drumstick

1 x noodles

snack

1 x chicky drumstick

dinner

1 x prawn aglio

1 x almond cupcake

1 x ice tea

and lots of forbidden food :\

and now 24242424244 x pol sci readings. FML

Boring Gay Shit

2011-04-14T21:14:00.002+08:00

1. Put your music on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the memo as well as the person you got the memo from.

---------------

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
I Know You Want Me - Pitbull

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
My Tears - Lee Sang Gon

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Share The World - DBSK

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Only One - Yellowcard

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Crawling Back To You - Backstreet Boys

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
人质 - 张惠妹

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
最后的战役 - 周杰伦

WHAT IS 2+2?
Replay - SHINee

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
你不在 - 王力宏

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Miss You - DBSK

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

本草纲目 - 周杰伦

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Closer - Ne Yo

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
No Promises - Shane Ward

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
超级4th场之24hr不打烊情歌 - 曹格

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Freakshow - Britney Spears

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Broken - Sezairi Sezali

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Love Game - Lady Gaga

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
会呼吸的痛 - 梁靜茹

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
If You're Not The One - Daniel Bedingfield

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Toxic - Glee Cast

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Go Girl - Pitbull

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
发如雪 - 周杰伦

HOW WILL YOU DIE?

Juliette - SHINee

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Club No. 1 - Super Junior

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Bad Heart - T-Max

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
One In Love - A1

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Future Love - Kristina DeBarge

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

WHAT WOULD YOU SAY, WHEN YOU MEET YOUR BOSS?
Five Minutes To Midnight - Boys Like Girls

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
No One - Alicia Keys

note to self

2011-04-14T16:49:00.001+08:00

I LOVE TUMBLR!

2011-04-14T10:08:00.001+08:00

kimmy mummy

2011-04-13T23:23:00.001+08:00

damn meaningful but Kim say I am not allowed to emo, so I won't :)

http://thoughtcatalog.com/2011/letter-to-a-dead-lover/

this author damn cool :D

get it right

2011-04-13T21:38:00.003+08:00

What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
When all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many it times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me?
To get it right
To get it ri-igh-ight

Will I ever get it right? Or will I just be a liability :(

peacock, cock, cock, cock

2011-04-13T21:07:00.001+08:00

ting;XUE

swing, let your mood swing

Officially Yours

Discharged

I'll rather break my own heart, than let you break it.

crumble

Ingredients

Directions

what do I mean to you

New Year's Eve

The Seven Secrets of Happiness - Sharon Owens

stuck in reverse

Fade Into Darkness

sigh

11/11/11 @ 11:11:11

just saying

drinkdrankdrunk

SO WHAT

Everything&More - David Archuleta

looking

so true D:

last Thursday night

[FTB 2011] A few last words before we part...

1 summer, 11 camps, infinite memories

morning blues

in a heartbeat

post ftb

Goodbye FTB 2011 :(

I'mdamnbloodytired.com

run 3 day 0, SOB SR 3-4, 20:51

sad much?

last warning to myself

PM CUP 2011

ftb run 1

it's true

exactly.

Sports Camp is tired max :(

WALLET :(

I want to be your favourite hello and hardest goodbye.

I am not acting yi ge sick.

come on

eat

true that

rain rain you fuck off please

ineedsleep,com

it's been so long

higher (:

Glee - Pretending (:

49 days Xueting, 49 days

damn mother sad

Mr Almost Right

oh so pretty (:

an ok Monday but tml will be hell

harsh realityyyy

New York Valentine

food heals your soul

16/07/2011

Jet Lag

baking mania

don't turn off the lights

2 months 4 days

so full :D

picture for thought

How Not To Shop

abrasion, Y U NO go away

emotionless. there, I did it.

No Strings Attached

runaway

yes no maybe

each to his own

ytd

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it's wednesday

1 2 3

urmaaaaaaa

love & other drugs

brotips

awkward moments

on the floor

mushroom risotto