anw sth random, HJ's mum is rlly sweet and so is HJ! HJ's mum is sweet because she makes breakfast for him ^^ ham and cheese :D :D and HJ is sweet because he shares that tiny bread with ALL OF US. anyone who shares food is awesome!

after breakfast went w Cheryl & Hansel to RP MRT basement to find food but don't have :( Daniel and Lina were looking for fooooood too but don't have! ): disappointed much. Hansel gave up and ate choc bread instead.

Ok, main point is here. I really want to say that PEH ZHEN TANG is really a nice person. Like realllllly. He didn't have to buy extra bread and drinks but he did. Last night he emailed us to ask what flavor of bread we wanted. Although the convo ended up talking abt anything but flavor of bread.. still, ZT turned up with like so much food. really thoughtful I must say, everyone depended on the $10 we paid to club fund to feed us but ZT went the extra mile to look into our welfare. it wasn't like for the entire team, but he thought about his closer friends, even if I am not included, I feel glad that there is someone like tt in the team!

ok next I think it was WARM UP. the scariest part :O because today we ran with the guys! luckily it was still ok. thanks BAO for always looking out for me :D and TQ was nice too, although the pace was probably a crawling speed for him, he noticed that I was dying and he asked me if I was ok. normally, people who ran damn fast don't care abt pple who are lagging behind. it is not tt they intentionally heck care but just nvr pay special attention. so I am super thankful for ANYONE who runs with me. actually today's run ain't tt bad, I managed to keep in time (: nt tt cui (: and after all, according to A LOT OF PEOPLE (mostly the seniors), WE ONLY GET STRONGER (:

now must give Bao a paragraph! thanks Bao for the note that has the shape of a pussy(I mean cat hehe) punched out and the power gooey gel from GNC that tastes like OMGCUILIKEMAX. best thing is Chia Ming told me to share with her, then she ate first and when it tasted cui, she gave me MORE THAN HALF. I nearly died from eating that gooey thing but it was supposedly helpful hehe.

rested a lil while before gg for visualization. it looked kinda demonic in the 1st place but actually all the team were doing it la. I must admit I was quite scared initially. It was LIKE A CULT, really frightened me ): but it helped (: the cui part was air paddling. it was the most FML part of warm up. I rather go race than do AP. during AP, I couldn't catch the timing and I was always out of timing ): it was like mega sian and then I got so scared I cried, like so loser I know. wahlau ): I just cnnt twist and swing my arms with the rest!!! rawr ): I felt so bad I nearly wanted to ask Erxena and Long Wang to take me out and activate the reserveeeee ): AP is my weak pt, after running of course.

went for our set and it was like ok lurh, think got 3rd so only got into Plates Finals and not Grand Finals :( I felt really weird during the set because I think I didn't trust JK enough, he was like saying BACK PADDLE and I was like thinking SIMISAI BACK PADDLE?!?!?! but I followed his instructions nonetheless. it was like kinda scaryyy to BP when competition is abt the start :\ the set didn't turn out damn well lurh, although we improved. after every race I am just cui, I look cui and feel damn tired, like as life someone drained all my energy. I mean all my energy duno transfer where la, since energy cnnt be created or destroyed but converted from one form to another. HAHA I HAD TO WRITE THAT DEFINITION OUT. to show that I passed Pri Sch Science, very nice, Evan Yap will be damn proud of meeeee (:

went for lunch, or rather, wanted to go for lunch but didn't. just drank Mr Bean :\ and cried thanks to 2 people. cuizx, I am damn cuizx. It is like race day and I let crazy stuff affect me ): not professional at all :(

did warm up for finals and I cui at AP agn, wahlau. ate 2 bananas to boooooost myself then guessed what I FELL ASLEEP. wahlau. I am Miss Cui, confirm. I drink coffee, I yawn. I eat banana, I sleep. I am how jialat.

went for the final set. trusted JK this time! he patted me on the back and he said " Xueting you're the longest in the boat ah, go long ah". Sounds like a super caring father, hehe. Sorry Cynthia :p anw the seniors felt like it was a damn awesome set. for heats I didn't shout much. then semis I shouted "I wanted the medal (about 24242422424 times)" and the finals I shouted "I am not tired (about 4532535135351 times)"! I guess I motivate myself in a different way! after the set just super tired then waited for like FINALLLLLE.

actually SMU mixed team A had a race but "insert complex situation" happened so we got another chance, kindaaaa. then it was like super exciting. 5 GF boats raced then SMU rowed solo. the best timing among the 5 was 1:26:49, then Wysen took timing for SMU's solo set, 1:24:XX!!! XX because I forgot the number haha. SMU IS AWESOMEEEEE. watching at the side makes me excited :D

had debrief then went for prize presentation. fun part was doing "challenging acts" haha, nice one. took lots of photos then team dinner (:

walked to Liang Court! Chian damn nice, he talked to me throughout (: like very rare for seniors to approach juniors and actually hold a proper conversation! so I rlly appreciate ppke who go the extra mile and put in that extra effort. very naise. he was telling me abt my blogggg and how he heard it was inspirational. nth of tt sort! it is just all my life in SMU, study paddle study paddle study paddle!!! actually it is just paddle paddle paddle paddle study paddle. hehe, but my mother doesn't know. when I am paddling, I wished I was solving some shit qns but when I am studying I just want to notes and go paddle in the deep, blue sea. I mean the not damn deep, brown Kallang River. cui :(

ate w Amanda & Cynthia, damn funny la both of them. Cynthia whole dinner just talk shit. Just like me, CJC poison our minds :\ talked abt a lot of things and Cynthia told me about JK and his experience in DB and that I should rlly trust him when he ask us to do ANYTHING. like NO MATTER what shit, even though we dont uds, we still must follow and TRUSTTT. I felt really enlightened because srsly compared to JK I am a freaking nooooob, I will nvr uds why he ask us to do certain stuff but yeah, TRUST.

Amanda wanted pics with the seniors so we stayed for a while to talk talk. the seniors are damn jokeeeeeeeeeee. we just suan each other and keep laughing and laughing and laughing. I guess this is how having a family feels. To have brothers and sisters (: nicee feeling

trained home till Boon Keng because Bao refuses to let me alight at Farrer Park. simiiiiiii. ok lah could digest and reflect at the same time. so kinda kill 2 birds with 1 stone hehe. DB is not just abt physical power man. It's a lot abt the mental power too. and all about your heart. OK I SUCK I JUST REPEATED WHAT VERA SMS-ED! According to Allen Poon, the 1st third of the race is about the physical, the 2nd third is about the mental, the last third is all about the heart (as cited from Poi, 2010).

I rmb the time where we had our Mega Meeting and we had to decide if we are gg for SRR. I didn't know what was gg on then. I didn't even expect to race. it is really a privilege to row, not a RIGHT, definitely not. I feel super honored to have a place on the boat.

every detail of my DB life has to be in my blog, because I need to read all these whenever I feel like I am losing the passion or whatever. I just want myself to rmb all the details. from indicating on the FTB booklet to signing up for Splash! to gg for Splash! to gg for my 1st water and land training to NOW, SRR. every training in between is significant. every drip of sweat and every tear is significant. everything, means damn a lot to me. for everyone DB is a different experience and to everyone, it is special. i don't want to forget anything that is happening. when I am training damn hard and I want to give up in future, I want to rmb how hard I fought and train now, how much I wanted to win. how much 4milliseconds meant to me. how much I believed in myself and my team mates. how much I went against all those who didn't approved of me being in DB. how much I feel tired and want to give up but didn't. how much my seniors cared and pushed me and guided me step by step, or rather, stroke my stroke. how much extra effort I have to put in to catch up with everyone else. the beginning is damn tough but when the going gets tough, the TOUGH(me) gets going.

my aim for DB is simple but yet hard to achieve.

1. be much much fitter by my 150th training, meaning able to keep up with other people's stroke rate and running pace

2. be as awesome as my seniors to my juniors. give them the guidance that was once given to me. help them become like me or even better.

3. never be the liability, but the ASSET. like what I told Kim weeks ago.

I believe for every sportsman, there is this period where he felt like he is nt gg to make it or when he feel tht he had had enough. that is the period when I want myself to push on and not give up. if DB is damn smooth sailing, I will take it for granted. the more grueling the training is, the more I rmb I worked hard for where I will be.

it i 12:13 now. MONDAY MORNING. everybody get ready for school because school is COOL. having an awesome CCA is even COOLER.

different feel on the boat as compared to Kallang and I was quite cui. Haha, I din expect it to be such a fast race lor, as in I thought the start will take some time then suddenly "Paddles Up" my first response is "FML" !! I am how cui ): but yup, definitely a good experience today! =D I likeeeeeeeeeeeee (:

anw Amber & Kim super sweet, gave the girls notes (: so blessed to have awesome seniors like them! damn thankful lah! :D

a lot went through my mind today but the headache since forever is killing me so I must sleeeep soooon! :(

Xt: results cui. below class avg AGAIN
Weepeng: aiyo xueting result no good is it? no worries kay, I < 3 youuuu, later we go library and club hard hard ok! dont be ): , dont give up. if you quit school then who will club in the library with meeee

I also love Weepeng because she is sillllly. Hah (:

hello xueting

i know you cant sing

you're weird and tall

like a quirky stone wall

haha i kid

it was all in a bid

to tell you im cool,

and not a useless fool

so i hope you can tell

i am rather swell

im gifted, i know.

unlike you, who's slow.


VERA ANNE POI IS DAMN FUNNNY! I LIKEEEE

had pool rowing just now! then went for brunch! in lib now REDOING my CT. cnnt emphasize how dulan I am but nvm, I am chill, because the lib is cold, haha. NEED TO FINISH CT AND RMSS TODAY! then tml can focus on LTB reflection and CT visualization presentation (: I am an organized kidddd. thurs shall practice my US presentation and I WILL BE DONE FOR THIS WEEK. need to start on AW research paper on FRIDAY.

Sat&Sun is still an unknown thing, SRR is confirm gg to happen but whether I am rowing or not, that's another issue all tgt :\

Fri

had gym w Amber then went KPT buy food to eat in class. US quiz was CUI ): rawr, after class met Ms and Zy to get present for Hy (: from NUM, yay (: I ate frolick with 2 toppings, damn gigantic cup (: YAY, ate doughnut also. DRAGONFRUIT flavor lol. anw after tt went back sch to have dinner w Amber, Kim and Terence at KPT (again). then study and THAT WAS WHERE MY ANGER BEGAN.

** and were supposed to do 1st part of CTPresentation then I do 2nd and *** do some other part. WTH I OPENED MY EMAIL SAW WHAT ** SENT AND I DIED. totally diff from mine so I called ** to ask her to change her 2 pictures so I dont have to change 60 PICTURES, guessed what. ** said she alrdy told *** to do according to what she did. LIKE WTH THEN NVR TELL ME. make me damn pissed. RAWR.

Sat

had AW quiz then went training then out w Elaine and Weepydeedee for shopping! b0ught our Nike sports bra (: Weeps and I bought turquoise! then Weeps bought YELLOW also, so chio :D then Amber, Sherrie and I have the same hot pink one :D yay, can wear for SRR (: $70 lor, wth man :\

Sun

36th training, brunch, project meeting.

iAmsuperhungryrightnow.

something tt JiaMin said tt inspired me is if you want something bad enough, you'll go all the way just to get it. Analogy: if you rlly like a guy, you will go all out to get his attention. HEHE.

SRR is like ELEVEN DAYS AWAY ONLY lor. I am like how scared but I must steady, as long as tt day dun come period or dun like laosai or anythg I shld be fine! shall go for extra gym tml to prepare myselfff (: ytd's gym was like RAWR, I up the weights then every time I push I rlly gek until my vessels going to burst but it's good, with every lift I get stronger! and long wang say my posture improve, I LIKE (: happy happy!

ok time to do work! :D

AND I WATCHED ONE EP OF HIMYM YTD. OMG SO SINFUL BUT SO HAPPY. HIMYM IS LOVE LOVE LOVE

ok just for the record, today was my 32nd DB training, I LIKE (:

Xueting jiayou! Jiayou for school and jiayou for SRR!

theoretically, I should be damn put off by a CCA that trains 5-6 times a week, a CCA that goes for all the crazy school sports events, a CCA that sends people down to support their participants, but I am not put off. On the contrary, I really like it very much. As much as I kaopeh during each training and want to cry or sometimes cry, I come back for training without fail! I am going to make it! It will get easier :D

back to today. went for training, woke up at 625. damn freaking early. dunno whats with me today, damn moody. just couldn't row properly. today I don't even have mood to ask myself: Xueting you how awesome?

ok I know I damn ego but I always ask myself that when I am tired. today I just asked myself why I put myself through all these hardship. I was so tired and cui I cried. like wth I know, damn loser.

it's ok, today was my 21st training, by my 150th training, I will be damn zai. I will nt be so loser. I will paddle like it's my last stroke. with every training I will only get better. I will not always have to rely on the seniors to correct my every stroke. not only will I be able to get a nice stroke, I will be able to go in time with the whole boat. I will improve like there is no limit. I know I can. by this time next year, I will be correcting the freshies, helping those who are in need, pushing them to their limit and encouraging them all the way.

THE GOAL IS GOLD.