我不是你想像的那么勇敢

敗犬

I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart.

I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web.
Love is an addiction I can't quit.
Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings.
Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance?
Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs.
When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece.

Monday, June 28, 2010

Moan-day

6/28/2010 11:24:00 am

@ the office now, rched at 840 :\ nvr meet Shihui so I just take my own sweet time, Idont rlly want to go to work :( just want to rot @ home, like Zi Bao Zi Qi but tt will be stupid. I am trying to pick myself up but it's freaking hard :( It's freaking hard to wake up and accept reality :(

On a random note, I watched KILLERS online ytd, awesome show. AK FTW! I think I only watched the show because of AK but whatever, it was a good movie! I totally enjoyed it! However, Islept @ 3AM! that left me with only like 4hr & 30mins of sleep! hence, I was late 4 work :\ but i dont care. Alrdy feeeeeling super low, even if I get fired, I wont be emo. When you have hit rock bottom, nth can bring you down anymore.

ACTUALLY I RLLY WANT TO STAY POSITIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I RLLY WANT TO BELIEVE FOR A MIRACLE. WAS SUPER HAPPY WHEN MY PHONE PLAYED "TIME FOR MIRACLE" JUST NOW. cheered me up for a lilltle while (:

still v thankful for all the friends around me who cared.. thanks Bff for the chocolate (: It's awe(high pitch)some. thanks Jo who encouraged me about SIM too.. and thank God for the strength to survive these few days. It's not easy but I am crying lesser, so it is a good sign?

Not that I think I am too great & mighty for SIM but some things in life, it is hard to compromise.. I just wish better for myself. For all the people out there, I am sure SIM wasn't in their top list initially, all of us wanted a local U. Only when we get rejected, we turn to SIM. Not that it is bad, I appreciate that it is there for students who cant make it there, just that it is not what I want.. I just hope my miracle will come :( I rlly rlly want a miracle, or rather I NEED a miracle..

Sy & C are the only ones in the office today and seeing that I was so moody they actually talked to me and cheered me up a bit. I promise I appreciate every little effort ok! Even for C, I appreciate him for being so nice even though I have been so KP towards him since like FOREVER :( feel soguilty now, everytime he gets scolded by M I just sit by and do nth but when I am so emo and down, he gives me comfort. I feel damn bad :( :( :( All I want is just a local U and it is so difficult..

Sth tt motivated me was some video tt Jx showed me, it was Steve apeaking abt hw he got kicked out of Apple and stuff then it was so encouraging and touching.. still cant escape reality.. :\

As the deadline for appeal draws closer, it gets harder and harder to breathe..

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Overdue Sermons :(

6/27/2010 07:27:00 pm

Seowli - Cg - 28/11/2009 - The Power Of Connect Groups

Matt 16: 18-19, Matt 18: 18-20

spiritual birth is similar to natural birth because there is conception & gestation

John 4; 35

Harvest = act of gathering

1. Season for soul winning is now - have harvest eyes
2. Identify who is ready to be saved
3. Be involved in the act of soul winning
4. Always want to see increase in the souls saved
5. Bring a new believer into commitment to the church - it is nt a matter of time but a matter of who we treat people

Evangelism is about winning people with love.

Ways to win people:
1. Believe in people
2. Be interested in people
3. Empathise with people
4. Smile
5. Help people
6. Agree and not contradict
7. Do not argue with theology - share your testimony instead

Melissa - Cg - 16/01/2010

Matt 9: 29

Faith is the key that unlocks the power of God in my life - Law of Expectation
words you say determines your destiny

3 Reasons Why We Should Expect The Best
1. Honours God - we should expect from God, attempt for God and honour the Lord
2. Increases our ability
3. Encourages others

How to be +ve in down times
1. Start your day with faith - This is the day that the Lord has made, I'll rejoice and be glad in it
2. Look for the +ve in every situation - Romans 8: 28
3. Gives worries to God - Luke 12: 22, 1 Peters 5: 7
worries come when you assume responsibility
4. Stop speaking -vely - Eph 4: 29
5. Know your future is blessed by God

Pastor Kong - 17/01/2010

God has a vision and dream that needs to be birth in my life - Luke 1:18
Your prayer is not complete until you can receive it in your heart what you are praying for
Mark 11: 24

4D living
1. Thinking Pro 23: 7
2. Visions and dreams
3. Faith
4. Speaking

Melissa - Cg - 20/02/2010

Psalm 92: 13-14

Flourish - full, prosperity, healthy

1. When I flourish in the house of God, I align my life with the will of God - John 10: 10
2. It empowers me to make a difference in the life of others - Matt 5: 16
3. If you do not flourish in the house of God, you will not stay planted - 1 Tim 6: 17-18

4 levels of commitment
1. Enjoyment
2. Do good
3. Ready to give
4. Willing to share

Pastor Kong - 28/02/2010

Revelation 2: 1-5, 1 Thess 1:3

1. The Holy Spirit is a person
2. The Holy Spirit has a prescence
3. The Holy Spirit carries a power(the annointing)

Acts 10: 38
1. Oil lubricates
2. Oil burns
3. Oil moisturizes

Spiritual hunger and thirst

Pastor Kong - 15/03/2010

Judges 13

1. Consecration - Isaiah 7: 24-25, Judges 15: 4
2. Campus Ministry
Foxes - sharp ears, long muzzles, cunning(problem solvers), sharp looking creatures

3. Contemporary - Judges 15: 15-16, Psalm 29
4. Committed to calling - Judges 16: 28-30

Holding
On
Praying
Expectantly

Melissa - Cg - 27/03/2010

Judges 6: 3-7, 11-15

God uses common people

Gideon was obedient despite his fears and doubts, that was why God used him to lead the army of 300.
Conviction is the faithfulness to obey.
From 32000, the group was reduced to 10000 and finally to 300 who were lead by Gideon to fight.

Pastor Kong - 28/03/2010

1. Dream - Matt 14: 28
2. Decision - Matt 14: 29
3. Difficulties - Matt 14: 30
4. Delays - Matt 14: 30
5. Dead end - Matt 4: 19, Jer 33: 3
6. Deliever - Isa 40

Withstand - Eph 6: 13
Anticipate - Psalm 27: 13
Interceed - Luke 18: 1
Trust - Pro 3: 5

Expecatation is the atmosphere for miracles

Melissa - Cg - 10/04/2010

Godliness can ensure protection in your life

If you belong to God, you can be ensured of protection from God

1 Cor 6: 19, Acts 27: 10-15

When you put God above everything, you can have confidence in God

Psalm 34: 19

God deliever us all

2 John 8

Pastor Kong - 25/04/2010 - 4 Things God Dislike

1. When we stop trying (He hates it when we stop trying, He hates laziness)
lazy = no progress
Matt 25: 14-30, Acts 2: 17
2. Regret - Eph 5: 15-16
3. Waste
4. Ungratefulness

Melissa - Cg - 01/05/2010

Faith is a process/progress

1. Hear
2. Believe - Commit to the word of God
3. Ask God
4. Receive
5. Confessing
6.Visualizing
7a. Acting - Faith is a fact and an act
7b. Meditation - Speak to yourself the word of God and visualizing it
8. Praising the word

Praise and faith are together. Praise will bring you from where you are to where you want to be - Psalm 34:3
When we magnify God, we change our perspectives. We see more of God and less of our problems. God is our problem solver - Jonah 1: 17, 2: 3-10

Psalm 50: 23

Pastor Kong - 02/05/2010

Exhaustion, trauma and ungratefulness causes depression

Judges 15, Hebrews 6

1. God has a refreshing for you - 1 kings 19: 5-7
He refreshed Elijah 3 times
2. God has an encounter for you - 1Kings19: 8
3. God has a word for you - 1 Kings 19: 11-12

God is not found in the stormy wind or flaming fire, He is found in a still small voice.

Bennie - Cg - 08/05/2010

Eph 4: 1-3, Matt 5: 23-24, 1 Cor 1: 10-17, Matt 18: 15-18,30

1. Have the right attitude - Matt 18: 4 - humble oursleves
2. Approach conflict with humility - do not act in the flesh(tends to sin)
3. Have the right approach

4 steps to resolving conflicts

A. Have a private conversation with the person involved ASAP (do not gossip, talk face to face, affirm the r/s by making observations not accusations, get the facts right, promote resolution)
B. Take a witness(mediator) with you
C. Take it to the church
D. Break off the r/s

Romans 12: 17-20 - Forgiveness is the key to resolving most conflict

Bennie - Cg - 22/05/2010

Matt 18: 19-20, Acts 2: 1-2

Praise and worship

Pastor Kong - 22/05/2010

Acts 10: 38, Matt 4: 23-25, Matt 5:1, Matt 8

Jesus was ready to heal

Matt 9

Pastor Derek - 06/06/2010

1 Sam 30: 1-5

We can strengthen ourselves in the Lord:

1. Through prayer - Eph 3:16, Eph 6:10
2. Through the word
3. By receiving revelation, encouragement and strength from the Lord

Pastor Kong

Goliath ---> a gigantic overwhelming power

5 smooth stones = 5 decisions

1. Pick up the stone of the Past - Psalm 51:6, 1 Sam 17: 34-36, 1 Cor 16: 12
2. Pick up the stone of Prayer - Psalm 57: 2, Psalm 27: 8, 1 Cor 14: 2
We can change ourselves by praying(in tongues)
3. Pick up the stone of Priority - 1 Sam 17: 46-47, Matt 6: 33
4. Pick up the stones of Passion - 1 Sam 17: 48-49
5. Pick up the stones of Persistence - get up again

You Can Lose What You Work For

6/27/2010 07:27:00 pm

If there is a full award, then it means there is also a possibility of no full reward.

Overdue Sermons :(

6/27/2010 06:32:00 pm

Bennie - Cg - 08/05/2010

Eph 4: 1-3, Matt 5: 23-24, 1 Cor 1: 10-17, Matt 18: 15-18,30

1. Have the right attitude - Matt 18: 4 - humble oursleves
2. Approach conflict with humility - do not act in the flesh(tends to sin)
3. Have the right approach

4 steps to resolving conflicts

A. Have a private conversation with the person involved ASAP (do not gossip, talk face to face, affirm the r/s by making observations not accusations, get the facts right, promote resolution)
B. Take a witness(mediator) with you
C. Take it to the church
D. Break off the r/s

Romans 12: 17-20 - Forgiveness is the key to resolving most conflict

Pastor Kong Hee - 7 Things We Can Thank God For

6/27/2010 05:58:00 pm

1. Our Love - love attracts & draws people like a magnet, love is practical
2. Flexibility - time and again we change venue for our place of praise of worship
3. Sacrifices - time, effort, money
4. Faith
5. Vision - Isaiah 43:18
6. Love For The Lost - w/o Jesus, people will go into a Christ-less eternity
7. Love For His House

Do not lose sight of your spiritual DNA.

Yup, that was the sermon preached by Ps Kong. I was shocked that he preached today, after all my parents didn't give me a great start this morning abt Ps Kong.

I am just gg to type in English even though they were speaking Mandarin. I dunno hw to switch type in Chinese w my laptop :\ noob I know :(

Dad: the Kang Xi dunnid to carry on liao la, no more alrdy
Mother: ya lor, no more alrdy

then silence... for like 2 seconds .. which I thought to myself the show "Kang Xi Lai Le" is gg to stop broadcasting or sth. like the show is gg to stop or sth. then..

Dad: got so much $ on the table you won't take meh?

then it dawned on me tt Kang Xi is Ps Kong Hee. of course of course, it is a Sunday, they have their "weekly duty" to "drop hints" that they don't want me to go church. I was kinda irritated lah but I didn't say much. I don't believe in quarreling in the morning, esp when I am rushing out.

Anw, back to church, had a great time during svc because the sermon was short and Pastor just told us to hug our own members, hug our cell group leaders and sing all the family family songs (:

had lunchw EBC & Raymond after svc @ Tampines! then came home to slp..

plus,quarrel w mum b4 I sleep.. I am sure if I get into some local Uni she wont be so mean to me :(

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Zhen Ying - The Presence Of God

6/26/2010 10:06:00 pm

Psalm 27: 1-4 (King David was going through a tough time)
The foundation of victory in life is in God.

Psalm 63:1
Seeking God ensures prosperity in everything we do.

2 Chronicles 26: 3-5
1 Kings 15: 9
2 Chronicles 15: 2

5 Things That Will Happen In The Presence Of God
Psalm 27: 5

1. There is protection.
2. There is confidence and strength.
3. We are transformed. (2 Chronicles 3: 18)
4. There is the annointing of the Holy Spirit. (Psalm 68: 8, James 15: 17-18)
5. There is deliverance. (Acts 16: 23-26)

In the darkest seasons, we must pray and give praise to God.
Psalm 27: 13-14

notes tt I took down in cg today! shall post all the blog. It will definitely be so much easier to keep track!

had breakfast w mum & aunt this morning. guess who we saw?!?! MY DAD! haha, he was about to eat breakfast too so we ate together! yummy (:

then went Fair Price to shop! my aunt super nice to me la, bought so much stuff for me just because I bought her a bag that she wanted. she saw the one I bought for my mum then told me to get one for her. haha, luckily can find! I bought the last one from Isetan for my mum, luckily Shihui told me BHG should have! b4 my aunt went home she said she will buy stuff from Penang for me! She alrdy spent so much on me today and all my life she bought so many things for me, always stuff $ into my hands too.. I should appreciate her more.. have alrdy decided to dedicate every saturday morning to eat breakfast w her & mum (:

after Fair Price trip, came home to bathe then went cg. Zy shared an awesome word & testimony.. I think it was just what I needed (:

went home after cg to just rest. sort out some files on the laptop. freaking hard to use. I am not used to it AT ALL. guess I will get used to it..

Svc tml @ HAll 8! Super happy cause dunnid walk to Hall 1. Ebc can meet up again (:

thanks again to everyone who is concerned about my situation. Rlly hope I dunnid go SIM.. Really not looking down @ the school, it's not like I get all A damn awesome, I know my limits.. just feel I shouldn't settle for 2nd best! Hope God can give a miracle!

Thank you everyone (:

6/26/2010 05:05:00 pm

woke up this morning then saw Yuxin's msg.. tot he wanted to organise dinner outing or sth but it wasn't!

Yx: Hey xue ting, jus read ur blog..don b sad n demoralised man..SIM jiu SIM..u wl do well de as long as u work hard 4 e course u like man..its not dat cui de..cheer up!SIM oso near my NP,i can go find u n dixiao u la..so cool!haha..anw hpe dat u feel beta, n TAY SUET THENG WILL NVR SAY DIE MAN,GANBATTE~!

Yx: Bcos u r my frend.

Yx: *blah blah* .. dun so stressed.. :)

just what he sent me .. so nice of Yuxin to show concern even though he kaopehs me the most! :D thank you yuxin :D

other than yuxin, all my friends have been great (:

Lis: Don't worry,what path you take doesn't matter as much as how you take it, as long as you're still working towards your end goal :) I guess now you just got to ask yourself what exactly it is you want to do and how you're going to do it. Don't give up just because something doesn't go your way! Cheer up babe :)

Mel: Standing and believing together with you girl! (and 16 smileys)

Bro: Morning. Feeling better? *so nice of him to sms & check on me :) maybe I sounded really awful on the phone *

Amanda Wee: Hm.. In your case.. my advice would be to change your mindset and accept what Uve got. Because really, its all in your perspective! From what i see, you still get to study at a uni and get a degree. Its not the end. You're offered another path to take. Its all in your attitude how you want to take it. Don't hold on so tight to the ideal situation you want. Just accept that life's like that and there are MANY opportunities for you! You just need to Open Your Heart ok? TRUST ME,its not that bad. Life doesn't fail so easily. There's so many different route you can take! It is ALWAYS up to you to see things. Accept what you have,and if you're still keen to go after social science ltr, You Still Can! No one can stop you except yourself! You just need to be willing to take the steps to chase after what you want, even if it means taking the longer route. And that's okay! You're leading your life the way you control it to be!

Bestie: People focus too much on being the best. We forget that we just need to focus on being the best that WE can be. Anw u think u didn't give ur all for a's but it's over rmb. From now on, life is about moving forward and changing what you CAN. No point brooding ok !

Bestie: Take it that u are too good for sim. U can go in, top the class, get honours or sth. U will also get a bright future. U still can make a difference if u work hard.

Bestie: No one stops at sim. Ppl who go sim normally gets a cert first and further their studies elsewhere. Like masters or whatever. So maybe u can go there first. No one said u have to END there. U just start there. You could end up w a better cert afterwards. Definitely. For masters u need work experience. So u can work and earn money to support ur masters! U need to start planning

Vp: Oh its alright la p.sim still open right?jut go for it.and i can help u appeal for smu.at least you will be in a u:)

anw sth from bestie tht rlly made sense.. "You gotta be strong now cause crying doesn't help" .. i have cried so much my eyes are tired :(

Lastest sms.. from bff..

Bff: Just read your blog. Cheer up k(: love you bff!

I don't even think I deserve so much love.. I haven been a great friend to anyone yet when I needed all the love & concern, all my friends seem to be here for me, trying to help me get out of this crap. I love you all!

Last but nt least, thanks SH too (:

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Done with crying, what up

6/24/2010 11:46:00 pm

Done with crying downstiars, at the bloody void deck. Holding it in for too long resulted in lots of tears & mucous(awesomeness stuck in my nose). Told bro abt it then asked him to call, when he was still in army, bet his phone bill this month cui :( but thanks for calling and just listening to me cry like an idiot. All my crying interjected with blowing of nose sure sounds like crap :(

so I guessed SIM is my final stop. I am still trying to convince myself that it aint tt bad, it probably ain't bad at all. It is not as if I wanted Social Science my whole life. Maybe the professor @ SMU was right, I might not be cut out for SS after all. Maybe at some point in my life someone suggested SS and I went after it, I might be cut out for Maths & Econs. I just want to do well in SIM, get a CCA and just enjoy my uni life. It will be awesome(Barney Stinson style)!

Still can't believe I cried like an idiot downstairs for so long. B4 bro hung up he told me to go up in 5mins, I stayed there for like another 40minutes. I think I scared a cat :( it was so innocent sitting there then I kept wailing & wailing. Poor cat :( must have thought I went crazy :\ I attempted to call Shiuan but couldn't, I rlly wanted to talk to her & just cry like there is no tml but couldn't get her :\ one reason I stopped crying is that I have limited tissue and I want to make sure I have enough tissue to last. In the end, told bestie to call me and I tried to cheer up as much as possible so I look ok when I got home. Was so scared my mum would find out but I managed to fake it through with all the fake laughter. I guess talking on the fone as I walked through the door was helping (:

HIMYM ALL 5 SEASONS COMPLETE!

6/24/2010 03:31:00 pm

I am so glad I finished all 5 seasons of HIMYM but I am so sad that the mother haven even appear yet. Basket, keep me hanging on. I am so hooked! Season 6 hurrrry air pls! I am suffering from HIMYM withdrawal symptoms! :( although I just finished season 5's last episode like 2mins ago :p I want season 6 so badly!

best part? I watched it in the office :p today was an ok day & I managed to watch my show in peace because M didn't come into the office, not even ONCE to kaopeh anyone in particular(shit I just jinxed the rest of the day).

thking of gg to the library later to pick up some Carmen Reid books! I need some romance in my life, even if it is just fictional. I totally miss reading! I guess my reading fire died when Bestie Yap when to U.S but now she is back! Kinda found my motivation! Can't wait for Astons outing w Bestie Yap (: I love her!

was reading some blogs a few days back & I realised that a person's facebook profile, no matter how detailed, can never help you to be a close friend with that person. Yes, we can tell the person's area of interest through the fb grps he/joins and his/her r/s status, the birth date, age, blah etc etc but we cannot know how this person feels. Even the "status" doesn't show a person's true side. Sometimes, people express themselves better through blogs, because not everyone bothers about reading your blog, you can talk about anything, you don't exactly have to be pretentious, but through fb, everyone can see what you're up to. I was reading a blog, which was super wordy & I finally understood why everyone dreads reading my blog. My blog is so damn wordy too :( the main point is, if you want to know a person fully, you can't expect just a summary of their life. You have got to want the whole scoop. If you read a blog and you just want a 150word summary of that person's day, then when you meet up with that person, all you want to hear is just 150words. You are not interested in sharing what you feel and neither are you interested in listening. I am not saying this just so ALL OF YOU BORED READERS will read my post instead of looking out for key words (ok maybe I am, just a tenny weeny bit). I just really feel that when I look at people on the outside, they seem fine, they seem happy but you will never know how they really feel if you don't bother to ask beyond what they show. Sure we can't go around probing in other people's lives but how about just those people you care for? I think it is funny how people try to sum me up with a few words or try to know how I am just through my fb profile. It's not that I am fake on fb but it is just that I have a side of me that I dun want the fb popn to know but rather just for a few close friends to know. If you have never read till the end of this post because you hate wordy posts, you would never know how much I appreciate people who read my blog(word by word) to know how I truly feel.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

goodbye my tears

6/23/2010 08:26:00 pm

wanted to cry so badly on the way home but I endured it and held back my tears. I got to be stronger than this. much much stronger.. no way am I gg home with tears in my eyes, my mum will freak. I thought I was abt to cry but I didn't, kept the tears back but eventually had to use tissue. sucks to be a weakling.. crying over stupid stuff. damn it.

nth is gg to break me, nt even AG

at least i have my laptop w me (: gg to learn how to appreciate this technology... hope it doesn't betray me..

anw some thing are just not meant to be, if it has to be so hard, then it is not meant to be.. and more like.. it is karma :( because we're so mean.. thats why we can't get what we want.. we keep planning & planning but still nth.. there is no point.. we try so hard.. we were so near but we still missed it.. it just isn't meant to be.. karma karma karma for being mean & exclusive I would say..

Family

6/23/2010 04:26:00 pm

To Mums(J & Ql) & Bro(Clcl), Ebc's VP(R) & AVP(Ys), Sis(April) & Bro-in-law(Abel) : family is more than a DNA match

you all mean the world to me (:

the long awaited XLB partehhh is TODAY.

6/23/2010 11:50:00 am

woke up super early today so I had to keep gg back to slp. miraculous! I slept @ abt 12 last night. freaking early! guessed I was tired after all the 10eps of HIMYM!

super upset last night :( shihui was 1st to know.. then bro then shiuan.. then bestie.. :(

anw on a random note, welcome home bestie yap! I have missed you much. I miss late night phone calls with you :D I know you're calling me tonight (: can't waitttttttttttttt

Have been thinking a lot lately, life is kinda miserable, screwed up. All day you wait for something, you wanteed a reply & you got it but it doesn't tell you what you want to know. Sucks big time :( How can I ever be contented? I dun think so :( crap, this sucks. I want to bang the keyboard :(

Ok I shall be like B.S: Everytime I feel upset, I stop feeling upset and feel awesome instead. True story.

Why am I reduced to such a state?? Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why? Damn it. I am so glad I quit the F word. I am so proud of myself, but I need greater achievements :( totally

EMO TO THE MAX. MY LIFE IS GG TO END UP IN THE DUMPS. SERIOUSLY GG TO SWEEP ROADS ALRDY :(

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

back @ work!

6/22/2010 10:11:00 am

woke up @ 722 today, not thanks to my phone's alarm clock but thanks to my biological clock. My parents forgot to wake me up :(

morning was bad! damn cui because I was eating breakfast then I ate such a big mouthful I cut my gum :( sobs :(

was too late to rush for bus so I just take my time till the next bus. Iris is my best friend, totally. Thought I wont be able to meet Shihui but I saw her on the way! I was so nice to walk with her to June Bakery to buy bread. I so happy because Shihui wore her new dress! :D She was with me when she bought the MNG dress! Looks very very cute on her (: Oh my pretty girl, 屁股扭一扭! :p

Damn sian @ work cause had to do nothing. I am so kaopeh I know :p told Mich & Sy abt the zoo trip with Sh! :D I keep saying tt Sh is evil! Hehe :p

Anw most sian thing in office is I have to wear jacket nt because I am cold but to protect myself from SOMEONE who has this tendency of tapping my shoulder UNNECESSARILY. you have no idea how PEKCHEK I am right now. jitao we're COLLEAGUES not friends ok. Freaking suay that I right BESIDE tt someone :( I know I don't have the right to dislike you but sometimes you rlly get on my nerves, then all the sympathy I have towards you just vanish into thin air :( it is just this whole vicious cycle, I sympathise with you and feel bad for not being your friend and not asking you to join us for lunch or talk to you nicely then just when I start to feel guilty towards you, you do sth to make me pissed off. Seriously, I am gg bonkers balancing btw my conscience and my natural instinct to be irritated.

and M just came in into our office AGAIN. she starts this whole thing on you again. I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF HER KAOPEH SESSIONS. it's getting annoying even when I am nt the victim. She cant even speak properly, all the sarcastic remarks really puts me off. If you want your subordinate to do a good job, give clear instructions. if you do otherwise, such as making sarcastic remarks on the way they do their job, they might not get your point. and they will probably screw up again & you will be pissed AGAIN.

freaking tired now. drinking my tea & eating Shihui's biscuit & charging my phone. The company is awesome for the fact tt they provide hot water & also tea, milo & coffee. Rice is provided too, although I cnnt take :(

RLLY CNNT WAIT TO MEET WENJING LTR! haha, HIMYM brings people together (: Bugis here I come! :D

Monday, June 21, 2010

The Singapore Zoological Garden (:

6/21/2010 06:45:00 pm

woke up @ 720 thanks to my work alarm! went back to slp till 815! ate breakfast @ home then pack my stuff b4 heading to AMK! Shihui reached earlier than me! Kuazhang, I know she is excited to see me :p

we went to Fairprice buy biscuits & sweets then withdrew $ then went McDonalds so SH can eat her breakfast! took 138 to the Zoo! we were like super duper excited lahhh!!

bought tickets then off we go!! :D I am just gg to list down what we saw!

1. Cotton-top Tamarin
2. Treetop Trail - saw False Ghavials, I spotted them!! (: Shihui saw some cute deer with like damn skinny legs she wanted to kick them :( :( :(
3. Tiger Trek - White Tigers looked damn beautiful but looked like mascots! Main point: the male tiger went to hump the female tiger then everyone went like OHHHHHHHHHH. Epic moment which Shihui failed to video down(down down down down) :( Seriously the tiger was like pacing for a damn long time then it went to the female tiger & licked her body then humped her for like 5seconds then walk away. I bet he was shy ^^
4. Pygmy Hippos - fun fact: they can stay underwater for 6minutes!
5. Warthog - I forgot hw they looked like alrdy :(
6. Australian Outback - saw the Emu, Grey KangarooS(so many!), Wallaby & the Cassowary! Shihui never video the kangaroo hopping!! :( but it's ok because I watched it LIVE, hehe (:
7. Great Rift Valley of Ethiopia - Hamadryas Baboons & Nubian Ibex shared the same area! Baboon butts damn red! The newborns were super cute! Saw this tiny baboon being held by the mother, so heartwarming! One other baboon was also scratching the back of another. Family much?
8. Primate Kingdom - only saw the Arapaima & Spider Monkeys. Couldn't spot the others :(
9. Tram Ride - started @ station 4, went to 1, 2 ,3, 4 then back to 1!
10. Free Ranging Orang Utan Boardwalk - funny thing happened. I kept arguing w Shihui tt I saw a baby BOU(Bornean Orang Utan) in the water but it was actually a stone. I keep insisting & kept trying to convince her. HAHA. I rlly thought a baby BOU was taking a bath :(
11. Polar Bears - in time for feeding session! Learned a lot about Polar Bears! I feel like a Pri Sch kid again :D
12. White Rhinoceros - not really white but we happened to witness the feeding session!
13. Eland - quite cute but actually just deers
14. Zebra - I like to call them Zebraaaaaaaaaaaaaa. they keep showing their butt to Shihui HAHA.
15. Giraffe - Coincide with feeding session again! Giraffe super super cute. I absolutely love them (:
16. Wild Africa - Nyala, Gnu, Cheetah, Hunting Dog & Ostrich! Ostrich look very cute.
17. Cat Country - Lion & Jaguar. The lion dunwan to face the camera :(
18. Reptile Garden - Snake House - I was so scared :( freaking snakes looked damn bloody gross :( Shihui v brave, she kept gg close to the glass to find the snakes. I scared :(
19. Sungei Buaya - I was asking Sh what was Buaya then she said CROCODILE I was like OMG. I damn scared :( but we went to see the scaly freak(Estuarine Crocodiles) anyway! I don't like :(((
20. Kidzworld - saw horses, ponies & goats! the goats were super friendly. can touch them (: visited the "Kampong House", damn gross. they put all the bugs inside :( ALIVE, freaking gross. Eeeeeyer :(
21. Kfc - because of the drizzle!
22. Squirrel Monkey, Proboscis Monkey(Sh v bad, say the monkey's nose v ugly!), Mandrill & Chimpanzee together - Chimpanzees very cute, esp the baby ones!
23. Splash Safari Show - saw the African Penguins(oh-so-cute) & the Sealion! the sealion performed some tricks then everyone damn impressed because it was rlly impressive, heh.
24. Tram Ride - station 3 to 4
25. Elephants Of Asia - the elephants are really smart but so sad for them :( very sad that all the animals are in the zoo :( the gd thing is they get protection but the down side is that they lose their freedom. they are also vulnerable in a sense like if they are released back to the wild, they might not be able to survive :( so emo :(
26. Tram Ride - station 4 to 1
27. on the way back saw Flamingos & Gibbon
28. Visited White Tigers again, no more funny moves from the male tiger lol
29. Saw Babirusa & Malayan Tapir(I kept calling it 大便 :p)
30. visited the gift shop but didn't get anything! Shihui so emo tt the toy giraffe taller than her! HAHA, so damn funnnny :p
31. EXIT!

Took 138 back to AMK then we Sh & I trained home. I alighted @ Tpy to take bus while she went to Orchard to take bus! Super tired but super satisfied! the total fare was supposed to be $23 but we had 20% off because I donated blood during May then they sent me the coupon! Awesome la :D I exchanged it with my bloooood ok!

Pics will be up on FB soon (: Gg to tag Mich & Sh in the pics 4 our SBG outing (:

CANT WAIT TO MEET WENJING TML! Whoohoo!! :D

Friday, June 18, 2010

Awesome outing with Miss Lim Shi Hui today

6/18/2010 11:36:00 pm

Supposed to go CJ with Daryl today but didn't go, so stayed @ home to watch HIMYM till it was time to meet SH (:
walked to BK to meet SH then we ate lunch tgt. Actually I ate then she just accompanied me, hee! After tt she drank Michael Jackson AGAIN. Buay sian one! :p I drank soya bean!

visited the doctor then after tt went Chinatown. wetn Maxwell Food Center to eat awesome Oyster Biscuit & drank Horlick Soya Bean.
then we walked to some other place to eat egg tart! I had egg tart while she had coconut tart! Super food marathon. Walked to People's Park to get stuff then went to Orchard!
went to Isetan to look @ her DKNY wallet but she couldn't decide! :( so no new wallet for SH :p
had to wait for Kang Woei for dinner so we went Mango! tried on 3 long dresses! both SH & I thought the last one was just avg but in the end it looked the best on me! yay (: I need to meet my mother for shopping trip, heh heh.
just when we were done, Kw arrived! such impeccable timing! went to eat China La Mian then was so damn full so we decided to walk to Rochor Beancurd to eat supper! can digest on the way, hee.
sat there for and talked for 2hours plus then went home

was super happy when I reached home but I made a mistake, I was wrong :( so in the end, I just emo again :( but then again, nobody wants to listen to my sob story again :(

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Fear

6/17/2010 11:24:00 pm

Hope it was me but also scared :(

Anw today I heard sth that really got me emo. The last time I heard it, it drove me mad. I think that was 2yrs ago :( apparently just because I dun believe in sth doesn't mean it doesn't exist. Damn. Really affected :( :( :( :( :( :(

I am so emo right now. I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed HIMYM to cheer me up. I NEED.

Everybody In Love

6/17/2010 09:18:00 am

Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
If you’re in love, put your hands up

You know you need someone
When the need’s so strong
When they’re gone you don’t know how to go on
So the whole world is stuck in a moment
Standing still until they come back
You accept that they’ve got things to do
But sometimes in the end there’s nothing left for you
If hurt is missing your baby,
I’ve done too much of it lately

Every minutes like an hour
Every hours like a day
Every day lasts forever
But what else am I gonna do
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up
I can’t eat, I can’t sleep
What else could it be
Missing you so deep
Long as I’m where you’re going to
I’d wait forever and a day for you
I wait up, wait up for you

And even when we mad, and say we’re through
Deep inside you feel the same way I do
Might as well turn around and just end this
Cause it’s harder trying to stay mad
I could tell you that you can’t stay here
Knowing just as soon as you disappear
That I’ll be missing you baby
Soon as you get up and you walk away

Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
Everybody in love, go on put your hands up
If you’re in love, put your hands up

This song keep playing in my head(& in my phone). I loveeeeeee it! At the office now, gt nth to do. Helped Chris with his work then ltr gg to help Shihui make a call!

TODAY NO GOVT! Ytd Mich was damn happy when she knew tt M is nt coming in today. Super funny, she volunteered to bring board games HAHAHA. Awesome colleagues made my day! (:

Anw there is so much of FML, MLIA, GMH & LGMH. I wna start a MMD. It stands for Made My Day.

Eg: Today, my colleague fell down and rolled down the stairs. MMD.

Ytd I was trying it out then I got suaned by Shihui :(
Mich was like bullying me so I said: Today, I got bullied by my colleague. FML.
Then Shihui said: Today, my colleague got bullied. MMD.

BASKET BASKET!

Okay, back to today! Ate chocolate&cheese truffles and cheesecake tartlets!

Mich & I like the cheesecake tartlets better! The rest like the c&c truffles(turtles, haha shihui very funny :p)! I should improve my recipe! I am so ready to be a housewife! When my kids are gg to bring their friends home, I am gg to make yummy treats for them, it will be AWEEEEESOME.

I am rlly super looooooooking 4ward to Sundayyyy! Can wear Hugh Puppies Polo Tee w EBC!
Me aka P: turquoise
Ryan aka Lion aka VP: lime green
Yishi aka Bff aka AVP: bright orange
I thought it was so coool! The way the colour of our shirts is gg to stand out is just gg to be too cool for school! but HPPT make me emooo also. Thanks to my mum. When I bought it last Sat with EBC then I told my mum I wna wear with her & daddy too but she tot it was a stupid idea for 3 adults to wear it tgt. As in with my mum & dad because it will look awkward. She suggested tt I wear with my future husband & our kids when they are young so will look cute. If I don't get married then I won't be able to wear HPPT w my family :( but EBC is family too! Hee, so nt tt bad??

Ebc is gg to celebrate it's 2yr anniversary this Nov. Haha, v thankful for my awesome friends. We rlly been through thick & thin & hot(SG) & cold(GENTING). Super excitedd for our 2yr anniversaryyy! but quite sian.. Ryan having his A lvls then.. sianzxzx will celebrate somehow! Probably in HK. I am looking 4ward to HK trip with EBC too! yay (:

told Bff tt Ebc will buy more family polo tees tgt :D

1. HP Polo Tee
2. Ralph Lauren Tee
3. Lacoste
4. Fred Perry

even though all damn ex, it should be ok. We only need 4 polo tees our whole life HAHA. I want Ebc to stay tgt! Can't wait to buy our 1st HDB flat hahaha. With only 3 sofa beds. We ain't having any house warming HAHAHA because we dunwan to warm up our house. Gotta stay in HDB for a few yrs then move on to Condo. I am motivated to work hard & earn lots of $$! Ok, probably should be motivated to study hard :\

I keep thking abt this major decision I am gg to make. Freaking scared.. & Bestie is nt in SG, I rlly duno what to do :(

it's 9:41AM & I am yawning. Too much of HIMYM is bad. I am gg to read GMH & LGMH now. Freaking emo one, don't give me hope :\ Make me cry in the office only. Ytd M & SH & I cried in the office because the stories were too touching :(

Bye!!!

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

iTired

6/16/2010 03:42:00 pm

Finished my work @ 230 :D how awesome is tt? Oh wait, I must emphasise, I started at 130 (:
actually considered slow because I only had to handle 11application forms :\
nt tt efficient huh..

anw had an ok day. but the rain is rlly unbearable ok. frigging rain keep soaking up my awesome new socks from my bff :( but today's rain nt as bad as ytd's .. ytd's rain was AW (wait for it) FUL. I was totally drenched, even though I had an umbrella. Just imagine that.

Ate breakfast in office just now & I was hungry @ 1030! Like 2hrs b4 lunch.. took Chris's Oreo & started feasting on them (: Oh-so-yummy.com

waited for time to slip past me then OH YEAH FINALLY LUNCH. guess what? the Beef Hor Fun uncle betrayed me. HE CHOSE TO NOT PREPARE HIS INGREDIENTS ON TIME. Make me so emo :( In the end SH had chicky rice while I ate fishy bee hoon :( then we both drank Michael Jackson. Walking to & fro in the rain SUCKS but the best part is we got Mr Bean's vouchers! Means I can eat my ice cream @ $1.20 ^^ so frigggging happy. & we saw Ben Yeo @ Army Market. Shihui was skeptical abt Ben Yeo hanging out with JUST his co host. Then slowly the crew appeared :p

decided what I want to make tonight alrdy! Cheesecake Tartlets & Chocolate Cheese Truffles :D Oh yeah, I hear stomachs rumbling :p just realised both dunnid bake. GOOOOOOOD (:

cnnt wait for CSO ltr! Cold Storage Outing (:
got to try out new recipes ltr! highly exciteedddddd.

AND YES TO SHIHUI: I AM GG TO BE A HOUSEWIFE! & thanks for being so AWESOME to accompany me on Friday :D I love you! Although you don't love me :( because I am not 173cm, my surname is not Kim, my name is not Jong Hyun and I cnnt play the guitar & piano :(

2morehourstillworkend,iamofficiallyboreddddddddddd.somebodysaveme :(

Monday, June 14, 2010

No work for me today!

6/14/2010 11:19:00 am

Woke up @ 10:52AM, awesome not. But I slept @ 4AM, so I guess it aint tt bad.

Haven blogged since Friday(from the office)! So I'll do it now. When I am old, I am gg to read my blog & think abt all the happy moments when I was younger..

Friday
ate awesome lunch thanks to Abel Wang! Damn good intro (: Lunch was rlly good & awesome till M came into the office & started scolding C. I know C is kinda annoying & he pisses me off sometimes but M was rlly over the board? Seriously I was like damn shocked at her level of tolerance. She comes into the office EVERY SINGLE DAY @ LEAST ONCE to attack C. Screaming @ him in front of all the temp staff, really ridiculous. Will it kill her to speak to him in private? I have nvr seen her scream @ A b4. I HONESTLY THINK M IS BIAS. Super BIAS. I don't have any respect for her anymore.

After work went home bathe & eat dinner then met jx, Ms, Yx & Zy @ Vivo. Went SJP w Ms! Met her friend Xueli! Fellow Xue (: I think this time quite ok only, 3 of us :\ Well, I aint stepping into any club until July or better still, ever again! Drains $ out of me only! :( And no, I will not post anything about our clubbing outing. What happens in the club stays inside the club, my policy.

AFTER clubbing, took cab home. WENT HOME TO SLEEEEEP!

Saturday
went for dental.
SUPER EX :(
met EBC for FROLICK PARTY! (:
then lunch w EBC!!
Bought EBC NECKLACE @ DIVA. Super nice!
All animals, super duper cute(kidddddy).
then Bff & I went shopping & we bought new EBC shirt!
We bought Hush Puppies polo tee!
I got turquoise, Bff got orange & we got lime green for Lion! :D
awesome(go high pitchhhhh)
Went svc w Bff after tt then we went home tgt (:

Sunday
woke up early to prepare food for picnic w Michelle & Shi Hui!
I prepare pasta! ;D
met up w Mich @ FEP's bus stop then we chatted till 105 came.
MICHELLE MADE MY DAY. SHE COMMENTED ON MY MSN NICK, I LAUGHED TILL I DIED.
but her mistake was AWESOME. Now I look @ my msn nick IN A WHOLE NEW WAY. Love you Mich.
met SH near SBG then whooooo, we went in for our awesome picnic!
Mich bought sausage & nuggets, SH bought green tea & MOST AWESOME MASH POTATOES & chips! :D
super happy! random Sunday afternoon w my awesome FRIENDS.
we sat there & talked then we CLIMBED the $5 TREE! :D my favourite. I was super timid the previous time I went but this time I was damn brave. Jitao just climb all the way w/o acting like a baby! :D so proud of myself! CANT SAY THE SAME FOR MICHELLLLLLLLE. Haha. Caught an awesome pic of her "humping" the tree :p
Shihui damn brave also! (: We had to beg Mich to climb up!!!
But weh ad a great time! We walked around the SBG then finally I get to go to the Orchid Garden!
Thanks Shihui for paying for me 1st! I LOVE THIS GARDEN. IT IS SO PRETTTTY!
Spam damn a lot of pics! (:
HOW COULD I MISSED IT OUT! :D
It is rlly B-E-A-UTIFUL!
& yeah, I have no camera :(
suck shit.
thanks to Sh camcorder & camera, I took many pictures of the flowers & of myself :p
We explored a lot of areas that I didn't explore previously. Nice nice & nice (:
spent like 5.5hrs there!
went Ion after tt to drink Starbucks(yay Michelle lost :p)
then walk arnd then M & SH left so I went City Hall to meet my cousin.
To get my LAPTOP (:
OH YEAH.
Rlly appreciate my cousin & his wife (:
Very sweet.
Bought Toshiba laptop! Hope it last :\

I know if SH is reading, she must be thking why I didn't blog abt sth impt because I was texting her abt it the whole time I was @ the IT FAIR. Well, it is just btw me & SH & MMIH (:

TODAY IS MONDAY. I HOPE IT IS AWESOME.

& Sh told me ytd tt she started on Kpop because of me! Guess she made a right decision in life.

AND YAP HUAN QING HURRY COME BACK TO SG. YOUR BESTIE HERE MISSES YOU LIKE DAMN A LOT. Hurry hurry!!! :D

last but not least, thanks Bff for buying me the right socks for my flats! Super thoughtful of you to buy the right one for me after I bought the wrong one because you know I am so stingy I will just wear the wrong awful looking one :p Love you, thanks!

Friday, June 11, 2010

Legen (wait for it) dary blogs

6/11/2010 12:13:00 pm

http://bowlofmush.blogspot.com/

http://www.cooking4carnivores.com/

Wednesday, June 09, 2010

Dadadidoom JongHyun (:

6/09/2010 04:28:00 pm

Yes, I am done w my work! Ok actually I have been slacking :\ went to find recipes(again). I think I am morphing into a housewife soon :( but a capable one =D

met Shihui to come to work today (: then went June bakery to buy her breakfast (: FOR THE LAST TIME IT IS JUNE BAKERY AND NOT AH SENG. Hahah, Shihui can't get it in her headddd(because the brain is not there :p)

ate breakfast dasmn slowly then started my work. By 1030 I was freaking hungry alrdy lor. then started thinking whr to eat during lunch! it rained :( super hard to walk! but walked to KP(KeyPoint not KaoPeh) to eat so can drop cheque! OH I LOVE PAY DAY!

went to collect Daohuay from my mum @ Army Market then go back to Chicken Hor Fun Party. After lunch checked out the Korean Supermart! I like it there! Why don't they import Korean Boys? :(

after lunch napped for like 45mins, super shiok. I am not slacking, I just want to recharge myself HAHA. did some work then hunt for recipes. I viewed like 50pages of recipes. Each page has 16 individual recipes. So kuazhang right. I am too free, for real.

The best thing is I finally know hw to connect my phone to computer! Can put songs alrdy! Super duper proud of myself for understanding the manual :D

no work tml :( shld go to the dentist or Anna will screw me(literally, with her dental tools lol). Then stay home to read my story books (: CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY!! Oh yeah (:

58 more mins & I am out of this stinky office.

Sometimes I feel that you deserve sympathy but sometimes I feel that you're annoying. Dilemna. Thats the most apt word to describe how I feel right now.

BO BEEP BO BEEP (Abel has his own version, hah)

& I am loving SHINee all over again! thanks to LIM SHI HUI keep promoting JongHyun! But someone so sad cause she older than JH :( I am emo cause I taller than JH :(

Then shihui say I cannot touch her unless I am 5cm shorter :\ SOOOOOOOO BAD :( I am so holding BAHU as hostage :D

shihui is watching me type this because she finished her work alrdy (finally, so slow :p)

I am gg to be the most filial daughter today! Gg home to eat dinner w my parents & KAOPEH THE SCREWED UP AIR CON MAN. He is going to GET IT. That is if he even turns up. Bloody Hell.

Tuesday, June 08, 2010

Black Tuesday Once Again

6/08/2010 03:35:00 pm

Shit, why Tuesday always SUCKS. Screw it. My Tuesday is rlly rlly bad. Argh.

Worst part abt crying at home? I can't cry at home. Yeah thats the bloody irony.

Can only frigging cheer myself up by watching HIMYM.

Life has plenty of good parts, it is the rough parts that make you thankful that you have people to share it with. - Ted Mosby

Being a couple is hard, committing, making sacrifices is hard but if it is the right person, then it is easy. Looking at that girl and knowing she is all you really want in your life, that should be the easiest thing in the world, if it is not like that, then she is not the one. - Marshall Eriksen

that's all folks, for now. Gg to meet Violet (& hopefully Baby Jeroy)!! :D

Monday, June 07, 2010

Shihui & Elm Street (:

6/07/2010 11:39:00 am

In the office nao, just had BANEHNEH MUFFIN PARTEHHHH. haha ate APPLE CRUMBLE first then ate BANANA MUFFINS! (: Overall, had positive ratings! But Abel said BM too sweet :( haha nvm, can improve! (:

Gg for Elm Street w Shihui ltr!!! (: Yay, I a bit scared but I guess shld be fine, Shihui will protect me! :D :D

So hungry right now :( I neeeeeeeeeeeed food.

I am hungry hungry, feed me feed me!

And I am super tired from laughing in the office. Can die alrdyyyyy, keep laughing until cnnt. And I showed Abel & Chris the FML I posted. haha, super kuazhangbut TRUE STORY.

It's LEGEN ..... DARY!

Last but nt least, I am so hooked to HOW I MET YOUR MOTHER. Totally gg to psycho everyone to watch! :D Love it!

BARNEY IS MY FAVOURITE ACTOR! So frigging funnnnnny.

我不难过这不算什么

6/07/2010 12:26:00 am

不是因为寂寞才想你
而是因为想你才寂寞

Actually even b4 Bestie asked me abt BTB, I alrdy tot of BTB. Sucks, I am through with this. Maybe both Bestie and I looked too much into the whole matter.

Mummmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyy, IT'S OVER!
But my life isn't! Time to move on (:

Saturday, June 05, 2010

My Mother.

6/05/2010 11:35:00 pm

Today I woke up early to have breakfast with my mother! Such a miracle, I am not kidding. We went to Whampoa Market to eat Wanton Mee (: I tried the green noodles, delicious, slurps burps. Went to get some groceries for lunch & dinner. I bought Bananas! for my banana muffins (:

aunt came over to visit cause she recommended some air-con repair man then she just came to supervise. she bought food over :D so nice of her! then she asked abt shoes then I was so confused.. my mum bought 2 pairs of shoes for me then nvr tell me.. haha then my aunt ask abt it so my mum showed me the shoes & asked me to try them on. Nice!! but damn small :( so she ask me go change, probably to another design that has a bigger cutting? because she took the biggest size for tt pattern already :(

bro came @ 12plus then we made Banana Muffins & Apple Crumble (: YUMMMMMMMY! Bringing them to the office on Monday. Srsly talk abt office jiu sian. The fact that Diners is starting the work schedule thing just makes me sian. Like no motivation to do anything. I hate it, they did that the previous time.. Say we have a schedule, then in the end slowly cut all of us off :( I hate this. Really puts me off. I have no motivation to go work & do my work because I feel like I am hanging on this thin line, anything change & there I go again, wandering, jobless. SUCKS. Ok thats nt the point, I digressed :(

Baking session was awesome! I think Chong & I damn happy abt the results! & I love the smell of cinnamon (: so freakkkking nice!! Ilovetobake.com

after tt sent Chong off then I went home to NAPPPP. So pig :( then went TPY to change my shoes! took super long cause some rlly very tight :( Nice also I cnnt wear :( I should have stayed in China to bind my feet, hehe.

went to Library to borrow 3 new books, yay! thanks to bestie, I am so hooked to reading! anw I duno if it's just happening @ TPY Lib or what, there is this "Donate Book" station. Those of you who dun want your bks anymore can donate them! Make sure they are in good conditions! :D

Went home after walking arnd TPY. so tired :(

it is actually 1:15am now! I should be asleep! Goodbye everyone!

I need some GOOD NEWS, like sth that will make me jump & treat everyone arnd me to Rochor Daohuay. I need it so badly.

Kbox fun!

6/05/2010 12:39:00 am

forgot to update abt wednesday w Shihui & Michelle @ Chinatown Kbox! :D

had a fun time screaming and singing and jumping ON THE SOFA :D
jitao we were doing sorry sorry like mad then the person walk in!
we sing 超级白 until damn HIGH. awesome time! :D
and we took turns to eat our McDonald's burger!
I damn retarded, we settled down then I used the mike to say: "eh can eat burger liao!". HAHA, what a retardddd :(

Super fun time, I love my ~~colleagues~~ FRIENDS!

I love them for listening to me kaopeh whole day in the office, for listening to me talk about all the nonsense, for supporting "Tuesdays With Xueting", and their willingness to be part of "Under the Bloody Office(UBO)" production. HAHAHAHA :D

I love Shihui for bringing BA-HU to work everyday! I love to pull BA-HU ears :D and bring BA-HU to the toilet, in my pocket (:
I love Michelle for giving me the opportunities to help her take stuff outside :D I love gg outside, I love running errands!

Friday, June 04, 2010

This made my day!

6/04/2010 10:30:00 pm

Today, I caught my boyfriend in bed with my twin. I suppose it'd be easier to believe his "I thought it was you" excuse if we were identical, or even the same sex. FML

the DECENT blog post.

6/04/2010 09:13:00 pm

alright, it's Friday night. AND I AM AT HOME, so boring :(

shall update abt ytd and today (:

Thursday
went to work. ate my breakfast in slow motion. there was nth to do. waited and waited and waited. checked for recipes. favourited the recipes.
slacked, tried to find work to do.
chatted w Abel, Shihui, Siewyong, Michelle.
slacked some more.
facebooked. youtubed.
finally LUNCH TIME.
went army market for lunch, whoohoo. ate beef noodles, slurps, burps.
bought Michael Jackson because got discount, 1 for me and 1 for Abel.
Shihui and Siewyong bought too.
walked back to Diners. auntie giving our MR BEAN discount voucher, so grabbed.
went back to look for more recipes. nth to do AT ALL.
ate Abel's peanut butter bread. quite yummy.
chit chat and chit chat. went out print recipe.
pack up. leave office. go meet Jane.
went steamboat. keep spamming beef. oh yeah.
then went TCC. pls everybody dun ever go there to drink BERRY NUTTY. sucks like no mother.
went home. chatted with bestie.
chatted with Jane.
bathed.
chatted with bestie.

Friday
went to work. ate my breakfast in slow motion. there was nth to do. waited and waited and waited. checked for recipes. favourited the recipes.
slacked, tried to find work to do.
chatted w Shihui, Siewyong, Michelle.
slacked some more.
facebooked. youtubed.
finally LUNCH TIME.
went to bugis for lunch with Ting and Abel.
Soup Spoon is my favourite soup place.
I want to make yummy mushroom soup too.
went back to office. slept until my nose machiam Rudolph.
finally got work come in at 4pm.
for the first time in my life, I feel happy that I have to do something.
at least I am not taking $60 for using company's aircon, computer, hot water, toilet.

I am saving my ! for the following.
THANK YOU SHIHUI FOR ASKING ME TO THE TOILET! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! YOU ARE MY LOVE FOR TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alright. enough. back to the seldom and boring life of Xueting a.k.a Little Miss Kaopeh.
went home after work. so damn miraculous.
mum cooked a spread. she was so happy when I told her I was coming home for dinner.
I feel so bad. I haven been eating at home.
tried to make some apple "paste" just to try out "feel" for tml's apple crumble session with bro.
hope it turns out well.

So tired now :(

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

超级白

6/02/2010 02:13:00 pm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TU1mTxIMnBg

everyone pls watch this. PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. It's so funny I laughed NON STOP @ the office! My favourite song of the DAY.

6/02/2010 08:57:00 am

27mins since start of work and I haven done anything productive, erm except to tie my hair & eat my pandan cake! was talking abt Martyrs(eeeewk) & Nightmare On Elm Street & A Team! Bradley Cooper is my new best friend(I wish).

super sian now, neeed to do sth! & Abel is nt @ work yet, need my daily boost of abel-craptalk-and-more-craptalk. Seriously, he never come work I will die! Although gt Sh, M & Sy who always make me laugh.

BUT SHIHUI VERY BAD, I SAY WANT GO OUT TAKE WATER SHIHUI SAY I FAKE :(
If don't bully me, not Shihui liao! Just like if I don't bully Michelle, I am nt Xt liao (:

Anw my morning was kinda bad, woke up and my parents were reading & discussing the newspaper's content out LOUD. Of course, it had to be the news about CHC.

I am not siding my church, I mean, if the management is dishonest, thats not my issue. I am siding my religion. Even if CHC falls, I will still go to another church. Meaning, I will not give up on Christianity. It's just separate issues. Hopefully people can see that. Whatever the outcome, I just want to convey the message that people shouldn't jump into all sorts on conclusions before they know what they are dealing with.

What really pissed me off this morning was my parents talking about Sun & her fashion boutiques. Seriously what's wrong? I see nothing wrong with it, honestly. Celebrities can have their own businesses, no? Why doesn't anyone go bother and make a big fusss out of Li Teng & "Stage". More than just bringing in profits for themselves, these people who bring in clothes brands from other countries are in fact, bringing in fashion. I believe even non church go-ers wear Ed Hardy & Christian Audigier. Opening up boutiques can be a hobby for these celebrities. Passion and profession does not necessarily overlap, if you get what I mean. It is definitely not against the law.

There is nothing wrong with Sun's dressing too? Ok, I admit I don't particularly go crazy over her and I don't exactly know her songs but when the church plays some music videos and shoe some pictures, I do catch a glimpse of her every now and then. She is definitely not on top of my google list(but Bradley Cooper is, have a laugh). I do witness the changes in her from the time since I joined church in 2003. From boring Singapore girl to Stunning Angmoh Singer. So it is wrong, as gathered from the newspaper. Packaging is important for celebrities and I think they don't really have a say in what theyhave to wear when they go on screen. If people think that her dressing is inappropriate in the music videos, then don't watch for the 2nd time after you have shown your disapproval the 1st time? It would be much easier for everyone definitely. Easier to shut your eyes(& mouth) than to complain & wait for Sun do keep her heat to herself. What you don't like, you don't touch and make sure they don't touch you, easy. During events like Star Awards or other award ceremony, celebrities get both praises and criticisms when they dress "skimpily", mostly judged based on their figures. Like if they screw up the costume because they are wearing sth they don't fit, it is ok to pass criticism. Why should we judge people on the way they dressed based on their religion? We shouldn't dictate how people from different religions should dress? A pastor's wife is still a woman, NO? Pastor's wife are supposedto be wrapped up from top to toe? Covered up so even the pastor can see her? Freaking ridiculous. I suspect some women who pass such comments about Sun are just jealous. If designers can design it & manufacturers can produce it, people can wear it. Thats all I want to say.

With regards to the purchase of the Suntec building, I have my reservations too. 310million is not a small amount, even considering that it is rasied from 33,000 members. I am quite fine with Expo actually but renting it 2days a week wouldn't be cheap too. Suntec is a long term investment so we should look far right? If we use it for 50years, it would be worth it? 500000 a month. and we use it everyday? It will definitely cost more than that to rent expo everyday. It should be lesser than what we are spending now, renting various places. During conventions, we get to earn some money from the rental of the convention halls to cover up some expenses. I getwhat the commotion is about, that is even if the church profits, the members will not. Whatever they have given will not be given back to them, they do not share the profits that the church gets. Guess thats why the issue is so sensitive, anything related to $ is sensitive, I guess. Everyone expects the church to be transparent to the best it can, not easy but I guess achievable. Hopefully we know much more clearly where our money goes to.

enough of this, got to start work a bit, M just walked in to "Justin Bieber - Eenie Meenie". Not a good start for me today :\

Gg to get free lunch from my mum ltr (: Beef Noodles + Daohuay = Happy Xueting
yeah right, if only I can be so easily contented.

Ok, Iam gg to make an official vow to God, if I can get what I want so much for now, this very impt thing that means A LOT A LOT to me, I am gg to go OFF BEEEEEEEF for 1 month. Like from that day onwards! When I know about it. OFF BEEEEEEEEEEEEF IS LIKE THE BIGGEST SACRIFICE EVER! means no double cheeseburger haha or actually Ican ask for bread & pickles HAHAHAH.

okok rlly need to work liao HAHAH

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Whats the Deal?

6/01/2010 09:16:00 pm

Hectic day for me today! Just cannot believe it. Work load kinda cui for me today because it was TOO MUCH. Guess I was too inefficient :\ but I managed some nap time so I guess it aint tt bad right? I slept till damn frigging shiok! went off @ 5pm today, means I lose 1hr of pay. WHICH IS SUPER SIGNIFICANT, damn it.

I will officially be broke tml. I have exactly $10 for tml. $2 for dinner, $8 for kbox. No more fun outings for me this june, ironically, it is GSS. Seriously, no matter how much I work, I will never have enough. Each time I go out, I think I can afford all the things I want, then I go around spending. I want someone to rob me badly, tell them my POSB pin number then when they know I only have $0.26, they will be so emo they will commit suicide! Guess that will be good, maybe they might consider giving me some $ instead, or we can rob pple tgt? Sounds like a feasible idea!

went back to CJ today to meet MARK. You have no idea how grateful I am for him! & Violet too! gg to see Violet next week, YAY! I miss her & Jeroy sooooooo much :( best part today was meeting Brian, haven seen him for a long time! I miss all my juniors. But Brian damn kp, show off to me his legacyyyyy! He jitao say he not some HOD (unlike me) but still managed to change the school blazer. DAMN FREAKKKKING KUAZHANGGGG. make me feel like I this HOD dun deserve any credit! Super proud of my junior.

Saw TJS today when I was w Mark. Jitao Mark greeted TJS I just gave the cbb face. Cbb means Cannot Be Bothered. Nobody(nobody but you) have any idea how much I dislike, abhor, detest TJS. Nobody.

Oh main point, best part of My Queen now

人在黑暗的时候，眼睛瞳孔会变大，这时候，你就可以在我眼里看到你自己.

so sweeeets! (: love it. I love happy endings a lot! (:

Main point is tml I am gg to find my mama(no forgetting this time) for DAOHUAY! Nicer than Rochor I think ;)

Black Tuesday

6/01/2010 09:34:00 am

Sunday
Woke up early for svc, met bff @ 615, jitao too early :\ but got in hall 8! went for svc then lunch then svc agn! I think Ar Bernard's sermon was AWESOME. Finally I uds sth that he says, he usually damn CHEEM. went back to Whampoa Market w bff to eat dinner/supper (:

Talked to Bff a lot. like about life, studies, work, marraige, blah blah. we were like talking abt growing up and how scary it is.. then I realised if we never grow up, we will never have the answers to the questions that we have asked ourselves when we were young. Questions like: "what sec/jc will I go to?", "what CCA will I be in?", "who will I fall in love with?", "how will I look?", "who will be my friends", "what big changes will there be?" ... so many questions that we didn't have answers to.. then the answers just came out bit by bit.. so many unexpected changes.. Biggest change was when Sushan & Huimin left CJC.. so many things changed for the 3 of us..

main point is I love such talk-and-eat sessions w Bff. And I was telling Bff that I nvr saw a big big drastic change in her because we have been growing tgt all along. so we dun have the "OH MY, YOU HAVE CHANGED SO MUCH SINCE I LAST SAW YOU IN AD600". that kinda kuazhang effect. well, hope we'll grow old tgt! She still owe me my G2K jacket HAHA, must return me when we are 60! :p

Monday
worked @ Joe's! Had quite an ok day! Business nt tt bad(but also nt tt good). Read 1 book there. LIKE I COMPLETED ONE NOVEL. Owned :\ I think I am gg to be so emo when I finish Carmen Reid's series :( Love all her series! (:

when home to watch My Queen! Just in time! Bus took so long :(

Tuesday
went to sch to find Mark! my new best friend! :D thanks so much. seriously I think CF has a problem. I am so not talking to him! Grr. plan for today is to slack @ work but failed. got scolded the 1st thing in the morning. tio by M for doing stuff wrongly :\ nt a great start huh?

AND I NEED A SCANNER, FOR REAL. ARGH :\

What shit is THIS

6/01/2010 01:47:00 am

For someone who needs to wake up @ 7, I shld nt be awake. Not to mention my throbbing headache.

Will update my blog in fuller details AT WORK tml, when I am so free. However, tml morning will be rather hectic. Sucks. Damn broke (AT THE START OF THE MONTH WHEN I JUST GOT MY ALLOWANCE) so I got to bring food to work :\ so I got to wake up early to prepare! Arghzxzx

Hope everything goes well for me!

The (OWN)er

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