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敗 犬 |
I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart. I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web. Love is an addiction I can't quit. Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings. Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance? Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs. When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece. |
Sunday, November 29, 2009
I should be studying, no?
11/29/2009 07:45:00 pm
Had a great morning eating Mr Bean's pancake with Bff. I am so glad I am back to sunday's service! A levels are ending, all the way Xueting, you can do it. I believe you. So much for having split personality, and why would I need anyone to believe in me for a mcq paper?Had fun with EBC at tamp & bugis! EBC is all about eating right? We just want to help the economy grow, we spent like $100 on food from yesterday and today. It's gross how we waste money. We are going on a tight budget for Genting, but that doesn't mean we will compromise on the fun! EBC is all about fun, and loving each other in the family. So let's be nice to each other! Hah, no more SUANINGS and digging at each other :D Dyed chong's hair! I think I did a great job, heh :D Very pleased with myself. I spam porridge because I was hungry and now I am too full. Life sucks (me and my negative outlook on life) lol. ALL THE BEST TO PHYSICS PEOPLE. FINISH YOUR MCQ THEN COME AND LAUGH AT US OK. COME AND LAUGH AT THE BIO STUDENTS. basket Sometimes I wish I was a much kinder person. I detest the way I think. Urgh, why can't I just be a simple person who is DAMN KIND HEARTED. the 18, oh no 19 cakes
11/29/2009 02:05:00 am
Huanqing bestie has just inspired me for my wish for next year's birthday. Next year I want to receive 19 slices of cake from 19 different people. I think it is quite easy :DOn a sidenote, just read Chongloon's blog. Feeling rather nostalgic about the past. It is not really a past, but rather what had happened in these 2 years of JC ife in CJC. I wanted to blog about ONLY the highlights but everyday is pretty much a highlight to me. The washing machine stopped MOANING, i am off to hang the clothes. Something random but it affected me damn alot, MY TOE NAIL CAME OFF. THE ENTIRE CRAP. LIKE WHAT SHIT Saturday, November 28, 2009
In a state of melancholy
11/28/2009 11:54:00 pm
It is such an irony, I am listening to "happiness" but I am not feeling the slightest bit of it. I questioned myself today, what really determines my happiness. I wasn't able to give myself an answer, guess the quest for happiness all these while had been nothing but a wild goose chase.listening to "迷" now, the lyrics is rather amateur but interesting, inspirational I would say. "伤心可以变得很少 我们可以很好" Sometimes I wish I was more intellectual, or for a matter of fact, I wished I had put in more effort into being a person of intellect. It sucks to be ignorant, to be clueless about your surroundings. It just makes me feel rather shallow and I hate the fact that I have such myopic views on social issues. I do not want to be reduced to someone who feeds off the computer screen. Thats too pathetic and it makes me no different from an A.I. I am so tired now, my eyelids are giving up on me. Shall bathe and regain some consciousness. Just before I forget, I had a totally awesome day with EBC today, as usual. Since when had our outings been disappointing? Since none. I cannot wait for our Genting Trip. Highlight of this year definitely. Escape from the hustle and bustle of this city of paper chase. Sad to say, I will be starting work the following day, on the 10th! No time for break. It was a shocking news for me because I really wanted to enjoy a bit for the holidays. I have looked forward to this holiday since the beginning of last year. I know my friends envy the fact that I can settle in on a job but I would have the time for self enrichment, life ain't all about the salary and the CPF. At least not for me, at least not now. When I grow older, I will appreciate the opportunity to hold a job and earn a living. But for now, I still want to be a teenager who lives her life freely. The temporal happiness will be treasured. Did I just mention happiness? I might need to double check on that. Friday, November 27, 2009
bff & rojak :D
11/27/2009 08:38:00 pm
Woke up at 1 today, considering that I went to sleep at 230 yesterday, I slept for a long time. I feel like a snake hibernating. My mum was extremely pissed with me because I have been sleeping at 430 everyday and waking up only in the afternoon. She just hates me, period.Chatted with Chongloon before he went to the library and to the gym, I did not stalk him, he told me about his plans for the day! Text William about Seowli's gift and text Seowli about Yishi's gift. I was damn scared that I would reply the wrong thing to the wrong person, such crap happens. Then I text Chong too, I cannot get enough of him! That was a joke, obviously hah. Then we decided that next thurs we are going to sing at Kbox, and thanks to my membership, we get it cheap cheap! It was also when I got pissed off by him. I guessed it was just part of the mood swing. Mood swings are sudden and they are scary, I am shocked at the way i have mood swings too! We were texting normally then he just told me to not make any comments about his singing, then I just got agitated and told him off. I mean we do make fun of each other. Like every single day in fact! In the clique everyone just makes fun of everyone! Of course there were times where they said mean things about me and I was hurt but still I just heck and laughed along. I think it was the prom joke, I was sharing with Chongloon and Hongyun about my sec 4 prom where I was sabotaged and nominated as one of the prom queens. They started laughing hysterically in the canteen like it was the funniest thing ever. I was upset but I just laughed along. I know deep down they were just joking and they don't mean to hurt me, if I had said that I was upset, they would have stopped. Then again, it would be so awkward. I hate awkwardness. It's just weird. So I told myself it's fine, at least I am not some wallpaper who nobody noticed on the day of prom and the day seemed pretty fine. I think for them to laugh at me so openly, it just means that they are close to me. Who goes up to a shtranger and tell them they are ugly? Or just laugh at their faces? I think I will miss this crap when we part, like as much as I hate them teasing about my bald spot, I would want them to be my side and laugh at me. At least, they will still be here for me. Like when I got reprimanded by some disgusting bald man, they were there to comfort me and go for a movie with me. There is also Vivien and Qiaoyi, who will take care of me when I am sick. Tyas, who runs with me for 2.4km! I don't know why I am digressing. Met Yishi for NTUC-STOCK-FRIGE-DAY and desserts! We took turn to queue for rojak cause it was friggggging long. It is nor rojak, it is BALESTIER ROAD HOOVER ROJAK. even the President eats that Rojak :D And I must praise myself, I bought MILK, flavoured one though. I am going to conquer this. I miss out on too much things in life because I fear milk. That stench just sucks and Chong forbids me from saying that it is SMELLY ): I am going to watch 企鵝爸爸 now! It's 9pm! Then I will watch channel U for 1 hr and back to channel * for Taiwan Long Juan Feng before going back to Channel U for Coffee Prince (2hrs), whoo! ): HOW CAN!
11/27/2009 02:22:00 pm
Joel says: and SUJU sucks hahahahaahaha i cannot stand the idea of SUJU-M and SUJU-H XUETING WANTS NITROUS OXIDE ESJSB+SUJU = IMBA says: OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!1 but sj is fine right? w/o all the H and M? Joel says: at first its fine but when i heard bout this H and M thing im anti suju now XUETING WANTS NITROUS OXIDE ESJSB+SUJU = IMBA says: got T also Joel says: haha wah irritating XUETING WANTS NITROUS OXIDE ESJSB+SUJU = IMBA says: HUH DUN ANTI SUJU! SLP!
11/27/2009 02:36:00 am
gg to slp now. ITS DAMN EARLY. anytime is earlier than 430am. HAVE BEEN SLPING AT 430AM EVERYDAY, no joke :\damn tired, so wont type in proper sentenceeeeeeeeeeeeee CONGRATS TO ME! I AM DONE W EHB SERIES! starting on FULL HOUSE. it's damn NAISE la, vivien intro me to watch though (: THANKS VV! ok I have to go to slp now. I am actually feeeeling tired. it's a miracle. and partly cause i promise yongqiang I will slp early. suppposed to slp at 2 but SJ is damn addictive :D I HAVE DAMN ALOT OF DRAMA TO CHIONG >=[ I am so BUSY :D OKAY GG TO KOOOOOON ALRDY, GOOOODNIGHT YONGQIANG! :D twinkle twinkle little star :D Thursday, November 26, 2009
awesome, own own own
11/26/2009 03:19:00 am
it's amazing how they turned such silly dance steps into something so cute. how many of us would actually dare to do something like that? they are so good they look amazingly hot even with those I-M-SILLY-LAUGH-AT-ME moves. I think it is just being naturally confident from within. I want to be like them too!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wtRTwo8t4lM&feature=related oh a random note, it seems quite suitable for mass dance (: NEXT UP! no more silly dances, but hot dance! guess which one is my favourite move! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZatRNhWW_w8&feature=related they own in chinese dance too :\ & 1 min 11 seconds onwards quite similar to CJC 2008 2nd intake dance! OWNNNN http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ec1f25cel0E&NR=1 holy crap its thursday!
11/26/2009 01:45:00 am
its thursday alrdy! :DI am toooo tired to blog in proper paragraphs, so here goes my crap! I was out with HY & CHONG & QIAO & VV on mon! tues I was out with QIAO & HY & CHONG :D and guess which ZZZ we saw at ION. jitao SUAY SUAY UNTIL I DREAMT OF ZZZ, like what shit, NIGHTMARE :( went out with ting(da jie, lol) ytd, which is weds. shopped until my leg wanna explode. Okay, I dont rlly know how can human legs explode, but whatever. I should totally pose that question on EHB. on a random note, EHB IS A MUST-WATCH :D I saw Qiao and Mel while I was with ting, damn coincidental :D anw I did O.S today! at ting's house though! we are both happy now! I think? heh, and I went out with an empty bag but came home with damn a lot of things. I wanna eat Waffle Couple Fondue :D it looks damn yummy. shall drag yishi go some day. IT WILL BE BFF FONDUE (: couple fondue is too gay for me , lol. and DARYL CHEE just asked me on msn if I am LESBIAN. wahlau I wna go sing KBOX ltr(thurs)! shall ask CHONG & VV! VV is coming over to my house ltr, to get raped. lol no. to get her dresses which I borrowed from ting. I am such a gd frend lol, cause VV took damn gd care of me in China & Batam. heh, I rmbed the rape case that took place in my hse 6yrs ago. damn scaryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy SHALL NT DISCLOSE IT. I am tired. done w laundryyyyyyy shall slack and slp sooon! I think I am definitely having moooood swings. but then again, my perception will not change regardless of whether I have mood swings or nt :\ I thk I have had enough of tolerating and compromising. in order for me to nt be a hypocrite, I have decided to be MYSELF to the max. like if I am damn pissed I will not be hesitant to show it out. Unless I am forced to contain my emotions of course. SO DONT BLAME ME IF U THK MY ATTITUDE TOWARDS YOU SUCK, haha. thats just the real xueting lol. anw I suddenly thought of sth on a pencil case that I saw. I AM NOT HAVING PMS, I JUST RLLY HATE YOU. Tuesday, November 24, 2009
let's think
11/24/2009 02:03:00 am
I kept thking about what bff said to me on sat in the cab, the conversation ended in the cab but in continued in my mind. It never occurred to me that comparisons ain't all that fair. As much as I hate this word, I have to use it, there isn't such thing as CETERIS PARIBUS in real life. It is just a theory in Economics (yucks). I thought of it, sometimes when we compare ourselves with others or when they is a comparison, what is our basis of comparison.Like if you were to compare results, what is your basis of comparison? Is it the time you have to study? Or that you are naturally inclined academically (Joshua Goh)? Simply because you spend much more time mugging? All of us overlooked that so whats the point of comparing? It might seemed so important but sometimes it is just for the sake of your pride; that it makes you feel good knowing that you're better than someone else. There are so much variables that we have to consider yet we missed out on all of them. I once read an essay about education and examinations, like how unfair examinations can be. Precautions are taken to ensure that there is no cheating but people do cheat their way through, how then do the results reflect a person's hard work and intelligence? Maybe it determines how scheming and cunning man kind can be? It does not matter whether you had met with an accident on the way to school, you mother passed away or you are ill. Nobody really cares what is happening to you, your life is just determined by a piece of paper. Your qualifications. Your employer is not interested to know if you can sing, dance, juggle or fix the computer. Well unless you are a singer, dancer, juggler, IT technician. Talents are usually overlooked. At the end of the day, we are just being exploited for what we can do for others. I AM DAMN EMOTIONAL NOW. I DUNNO WHAT ELSE TO WRITE. the funny thing is that I SHOULD BE HAPPY. SHOULD. I don't know what happen. reasons why I should be happy 1. I went to shop 2. I am going shopping tomorrow 3. I watched Super Junior's Intimate Note 4. I am talking to Liselle! 5. I watched Super Junior's EotHB EP 1 6. I bathed I am just confused :\ Totally must blog about my EVIL mother. She was so mean towards me. She started complaining about how much money I wasted for my braces, and she asked me to use the money for plastic surgery. She even said that I LOOKED UGLY, which is like CONGRATS TO ME. How can anyone be so mean, like she asked me to use the money for braces on cosmetic surgery and liposuction. I tried to tolerate her, hence the blogging, to let off some steam. Evil evil, this is not the first time she says this kind of hurtful words to me, it is verbal abuse. I am pretty sure it is not going to be the last. I admit it is my fault that I am fat but I was born with my looks. I cannot help it that you chose the wrong baby at the China orphanage right? You could have picked someone taller, slimmer, smarter, someone with straight teeth. Sorry, I am not your designer baby. Not forgetting that you blamed me for having low blood pressure, with you doing all these crap to me, I wonder why I don't suffer from HIGH blood pressure instead. Miracle isn't it. What does she expect me to do? Go crazy about my weight? Freak out at anything I eat? Turn anorexic? Cut my eyes so I have bigger eyes? Use strings to straighten out my teeth? Pinch my nose to make it sharper or use a chisel to sharpen my face?!?!?! I admit I can make changes about the way I dress like ironing my clothes and cleaning my bags. I CANNOT CHANGE MY FEATURES AND MY WEIGHT CAN I. ok, I can. I can change my diet, just wait till I freak out at anything she cooks and count all my calories. The one that will be freaked out is her. I will join Chongloon's drink-water-suck-air gang if it makes her happy. Once I slap on make up on my face, she will start saying how bad make up is for the face. I promise I will never grow up to be like my mother. If I do, I will not get married, I will not give birth to a kid and screw his/her mind. alright I am tired, I shall sleep. I cannot believe that I actually resisted the urge to start on EP 2 of EofHB. Life sucks, I am listening to SJ songs and I am glooooomy. Someone stole the old Xueting. HELLLOOOOOOO I M ALIVE
11/24/2009 01:25:00 am
survived bio and chem, as in like duh, I am typing here but CHEM sure was hell. I didn't finish the paper LIKE out of 40 i did 28? It was damn challenging, tikaming 12 qns is NOT A JOKE. I dont rlly care now.YOU KNOW I HATE IT WHEN YOU LIE, EVEN IF U WANT TO LIE, AT LEAST PUT ON A GD SHOW. Sunday, November 22, 2009
simple pleasures in life (:
11/22/2009 01:50:00 am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SDS-w-NxizY&feature=PlayList&p=5BEE922C11B3AE8D&index=29I thk Siwon looks kinda hot here (: Saturday, November 21, 2009
Composer Tay, lol
11/21/2009 09:56:00 pm
anw was waiting w yishi for bus, then my bus came. I thought it would be funny to text her this (and I did), lolSorry Sorry Sorry Sorry my bus my bus my bus just came you just you just you just have to wait for wait for your bus baby! LOL :\ She say I can go form Super Junior E (for English), I wished :D I had a fruitless day, but it's ok. I gave a miracle offering today :D It was kinda like a breakthrough for me (: And EBC bought shirt to go Genting. One BRIGHT BLUE and the other RED(ris low), seriously damn attention seeking. but that's our aim lol :D EBC FTW !! excitement
11/21/2009 01:57:00 am
I can totally do SOMETHING now, damn proud of myself. Way to go Xueting. Oh yes, I have nothing better to do at 2am in the night/morning than to blog about my achievement of course.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Damn sweet, must spam (:
11/20/2009 08:48:00 pm
[HENRY]LOVE~OH BABY MY GIRL~ 你是我的全部 甚至让我觉得你是我的幸福 神给我的礼物 透过时光机就算 回到上个世纪看幸福结局 不管你是穿着旗袍还是长裙 只要一个眼神确定 心不再怀疑 茫茫人海相遇 [KYUHYUN] 我想不惜一切告诉你 千言万语不敌我爱你 Would U Marry Me? 向着流星 默默许愿 默契永恒不变 [HANGENG] 每当你微笑进入梦乡 多想让你靠在肩膀 Would U Marry Me? 希望你能成全 我所有心愿 [SIWON] 把你烙在心底 I DO 时时刻刻爱你 I DO 就算狂风暴雨 不让你受委屈 I Do 爱你的心不离 MY LOVE [DONGHAE] 美丽的你穿着白色婚纱 我穿着礼服光着脚丫 我们就这样看着彼此发呆 星星月亮做伴 I SWEAR 不需要语言 用心体验 再不离开我的公主 STAY WITH ME [HENRY] 哪怕有一天我们变老 也要努力微笑并肩跑 [ZHOUMI] Would U Marry Me? 不知是否愿意 来牵手同行 [RYEOWOOK] 不管爱情多艰辛 I DO 相信命中注定 I DO 我珍惜每个和你的日子里 I DO 把你放在心底 MY LOVE [KYUHYUN] 我早已经为你 预定了幸福结局 我正为你许下誓言 别怀疑 推开你爱情的心门 让我们记住最美时分 Would U Marry Me~ [DONGHAE] 把你烙在心底 I DO （RYEOWOOK：I WANT TO DO ） 时时刻刻爱你 I DO （RYEOWOOK：I WANNA MARRY U） [RYEOWOOK] 就算狂风暴雨 不让你受委屈 I Do 爱你的心不离 I Do [DONGHAE] 现在能给你的是我一生一世无尽的爱 虽然钻石闪耀它无法比较 也许微不足道 但是请相信我 我会付出全力照顾你陪伴着你 这是我们守护的约定 我对你爱不离 我们彼此信任相信爱 仅此而已… [HANGENG] 我们相爱到永远 I DO why bother abt the title
11/20/2009 06:27:00 pm
econs was bad, I had no idea what I was doing, actually I was doing nothing. I remember writing the word cheerleading on my paper. LIKE WTF HAS CHEERLEADING GOT TO DO W ECONS. I am damn disgusted with myself. I am beyond redemption!and on a random note: 我完全没有任何理由理你 Funny!
11/20/2009 09:46:00 am
http://popseoul.com/2007/12/26/lee-teuk-love-his-height-increasing-soles/compared to the leeteuk in this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wl0YSViutd0&feature=PlayList&p=A4BDE86E6D51A794&index=55 Hey, it's friday!
11/20/2009 01:22:00 am
word of the day: ECONOMICSISSTUPIDit IS one word :D Thursday, November 19, 2009
OMG LIFE SUCKS
11/19/2009 03:11:00 am
OMG I HAVE TO POST THIS.2min 33seconds to 2min 57seconds. OMG THEY FREAKING KISSED FOR 24SECONDS. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lJk9SP_OvCY Addiction! RDD is <3
11/19/2009 01:57:00 am
I am currently in love with GBB & RDD(Ring Ding Dong). he main point is my hair is wet and I can't sleep. Who cares really, I don't have a paper tomorrow. Hold on,. don't rejoice for me, next Monday will be the kill. It's alright really, I am already DEAD since A levels started. Life just isn't fair, I mean SERIOUSLY the physics people are having it much easier than the bio students, we always have OVERLAPPING paper with damn little days to study. Gp and Bio is no joke, both heavy content, not to mention bio and chem. Either someone points out the rational behind this screwed up arrangement, I think for now I will hate Cambridge. Did they go through the course of planning a logical and fair(as much as they can) time-table. It's not just science, the arts people have PAPER everyday. We have no time for like final revision or to look through our notes, not everyone is like Joshua Goh, if we were, we would be in Harvard, not CJC. I totally digressed, damn it. The word digressed reminded me of Miss Karim, and Mr Krishna :\The main point is I have alot of dramas to watch after A levels. 1. My Queen 2. 家门的荣光 3. Cruel Temptation 4. Taiwan Long Juan Feng (czr ftw!) I forgot what else! I totally found the link to watch all of 家门的荣光, yes. The next step is to get Shiu An to give me the link for Cruel Temptation! Impatient me has skipped to the last EP of 家门的荣光 because I need to see if my cute boy is together with his beloved, who is 6 years older than him. Actually, after knowing the ending, I don't really want to watch that show, after all, the only selling point is cute boy 李玄镇! (: OMG I TOTALLY WATCHED WRONGLY. CUTE BOY DIN END UP W HIS BELOVED ARGH. DAMN IT Wednesday, November 18, 2009
11/18/2009 09:35:00 pm
If there is one reason to commit suicide, that would be the Econs paper. I was damn suicidal during the paper, I knew it was going to be tough for me, but definitely not THAT tough. I had damn a lot of time to shake leg and just look around. If I had a penknife with me just now, I would have slashed my wrist and wrote a suicide letter with my blood and freak Cambridge out, damn it.Went out with Chongloon after that, we shopped around town to find presents and in the midst of it, we shopped for his Prom clothes. Both of us agreed on pink top and grey vest for him! Nice. Then we went our separate ways. I am damn glad that there isn't any paper tomorrow so I can watch my Taiwan Long Juan Feng tonight, in peace. Life sucks, I am dying to die. word of the day (by yishi)
11/18/2009 12:35:00 am
CONCEPT
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
coooool siol (:
11/17/2009 01:09:00 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPl_4BPiCsY
ONE MORE DOWN!
11/17/2009 12:24:00 pm
I am waiting to burst out in happiness, I just have 1 more week to go. Post exams activities have been lined up. Priority goes to EBC, of course. Seriously, going to Genting is a form of escape from the boring Singapore! I am considering a trip back to Penang, looking for sponsors (my aunts) to pay for the tickets. Food and lodging will be provided because I have relatives there, and my cousin offered to be my chauffeur so transport is not a problem. I just need some $$, which I will extort( I mean ask) from my parents :DMeeting MUMMY JOYCE next Fri? Kbox or sth with Chong going P! no, P does not stand for Penang :\ Genting with EBC (HIGHLIGHT) Batam, hint hint Bff (: I am saving up to buy a Christmas Tree :D FOR XMAS, I WANT A 5MILLION DOLLARS TV! (Hongyun buy for me :D) Monday, November 16, 2009
move on!
11/16/2009 08:14:00 pm
If you're reading my blog, you're wasting your time on someone with an extremely mundane lifestyle. click on "heyo" on the pink patch, go to links and click on "Jon Chen". Now move, be intrigued by his writing style, I seek your forgiveness for filling you in on shallow thoughts from my daily life.If there is one thing AMKSS has taught me well, that is, "The only constant in life is change". Bored, as you can see
11/16/2009 01:50:00 pm
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:Xueting Xuet Deifonid THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD: Xt tingXue Xueting Deifonid THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES: sang did the laundry :D poke at my wisdom teeth THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: tall eyes good at telling lame jokes THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: tall hole-y legs MY DARK SKIN ZZZ THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS: china china china THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF: losing what I have now not getting my desired job being __ THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: specs hairband earpiece THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: god friends parents THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS: phone computer iTUNES :D tv THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS: SJ :D shinEE idk THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY: bomb cambridge eat and eat sleep THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT: Wedding Dress Ring Ding Dong Sorry Sorry (Sorry Sorry) THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS: love a hamster wholeheartedly, seriously :\ ice skating cycle with no hands :D THREE THINGS YOU REGRET: joining council coming to cj trusting you, basket THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: trust fun romance THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD: my bloood :D i totally support blood donation co2 for plants to photosynthesize donations when i can afford. TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order): I am hungry my mother is not cooking i love a levels THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: tall skinny fair THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: love concern humour THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO: sing like VITAS lol pee standing up produce sperms HAHAH THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST: basketball volleyball evan yap , lol THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE: shopping vouchers movie tickets hot korean guy :D THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE: I DUN GET THIS THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES: msn youtube sing THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW: eat sleep sing THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: heh, nt telling (: THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY: OMG OMG OMG KOREA Switzerland Hongkong :D THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS: Pikachu Dora the explorer Raichu????? THREE BOY’S NAMES: Bill John Tim LOLOLOLOLOLOL THREE GIRL'S NAMES: scarlet xueting :\ margaret THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: date korean guy lol scuba diving bungee jump THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ OR DIE PAINFULLY: lol everyone :D Sunday, November 15, 2009
Wedding Dress
11/15/2009 10:59:00 pm
the song by Tae Yang from Big Bang is damn nice! ESJSB introduced it to me & then he sent me the song. Guess what, I having been spamming it from afternoon till now. It's very meaningful and the beat is awesome. like you can do contemporary dance with ithttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DydYJ5uBSsc&feature=related it's count on itunes is 106, awesome! I can do SOMETHING now, I am damn shocked that I can do it. I used to think that it is quite impossible but I did it. Nothing much to show off, just a personal achievement. the lyrics (: I would argue Then you would cry As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger My heartaches behind these shadows My face brightens up as I see your smile I worry that you might notice my feelings And I get scared that the gap between us would widen I hold my breath Then I bite my lips Then I pray that she would leave his side. Baby, please don’t hold those hands Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever You, who never understood my feelings Baby, please don’t hold those hands Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever By all means, be happy with him I’ve been living the lies for too long ROMANIZATIONS niga geuwa datugo niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun nega ibeun wedingdeureseu nae mameul mollajwotdeon maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun nega ibeun wedingdeureseu budi geuwa haengbokhae neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge nega ibeun wedingdeureseu the romaji is for me(and you) to follow and sing (: Saturday, November 14, 2009
You need to go
11/14/2009 09:09:00 pm
Even though our f/s only lasted for a few months, I never forgot those happy moments. It's funny how I can be so honest with you and tell you everything, when I have only known you for one month. I want to know if you have the special power within you to make people trust you and open up to you, so quickly and readily. Or for the very least, I know I can be honest with you without fearing that you would not accept me for anything. You were my support for 2 crucial months in my life. Then you left, that was when I crumbled into pieces and you didn't bother to look back and pick me up. You will never know how I feel, but you don't need to. I am going to let go of you bit by bit.Missing you is like a habit, yearning for you is like an addiction. Something interesting! when you have a habit, you start by kicking H, so you have ABIT left. then you kick the A, but that BIT is there. remove B away and IT is going to be easier to deal with. take I away and T is all alone. finally get rid of T. I suddenly thought of this, but it is just an improvisation from someone. 陳昭榮
11/14/2009 12:30:00 am
my new idol is 陳昭榮. He seriously looks damn good and he is damn good at acting, I am going to watch the 345 eps T-drama just for him.I look forward to end of A levels, I look forward to freedom :D Friday, November 13, 2009
Amkss
11/13/2009 09:25:00 pm
talking to kwan, I MISS AMKSS BIG TIME.was talking to desmond tong a few days back, I MISS HIM LIKE SIAO. but people becoming father alrdy, NO CARE ME ANYMORE. lol, he never did. WO YI XIANG QING YUAN ONEEEEE I wna go back amkss soooooon :D 有些事情就不要拆穿
11/13/2009 12:52:00 pm
I was afraid, I was so panicky. It was a peaceful morning but I didn't know how to react when you ran off. I was scared, I wanted to catch you with you, really, honestly. Such a scene caught me off guard. Guessed I was one step too late. I just stoned for a while and then I went to find you. Just to see if you're okay. My heart really ached, because you're important. Yeah, its not because you were important. You are, and you will be. A part of me just refuse to let go of you. You're like the tip of a needle, the more I hold on to you, the more I get hurt. At the end of the day, you won't belong to me.Maths was OK, like do-able not nope, I don't see an A. I don't know what I am doing. It's fine, I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. there is no room for redemption. I am never going to touch all these disgusting subjects again. At least not for another 8months or so. I feel so disappointed, like seriously, why did I ever bother about whether you bother or not. I am damn screwed up, I should have known that "期望越大失望越大" holds true for all scenario. No, I am never going to expect anything from you ever again ): To Bff, get well soon. I need you to be alive and kicking to kick me! Hah, MISSSSS YOU LOADS. I saw Teo Ser Luck on TV today :D Jealous? Thursday, November 12, 2009
(:
11/12/2009 10:01:00 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xW_GKgGPS4Y&NR=1&feature=fvwpyishi watch 1min 05sec!! the song is as emo as me ):
11/12/2009 05:19:00 pm
是有过几个不错对象 说起来并不寂寞孤单 可能我浪荡 让人家不安才会 结果都阵亡 我没有什麽阴影魔障 你千万不要放在心上 我又不脆弱 何况那算什麽伤 反正爱情不就都这样 我没有说谎 我何必说谎 你懂我的 我对你从来就不会假装 我哪有说谎 请别以为你有多难忘 笑是真的不是我逞强 我好久没来这间餐厅 没想到已经换了装潢 角落那窗口 闻得到玫瑰花香 被你一说是有些印象 我没有说谎 我何必说谎 你知道的 我缺点之一就是很健忘 我哪有说谎 是很感谢今晚的相伴 但我竟然有些不习惯 我没有说谎 我何必说谎 爱一个人 没爱到难道就会怎麽样 别说我说谎 人生已经如此的艰难 有些事情就不要拆穿 我没有说谎 是爱情说谎 它带你来 骗我说 渴望的有可能有希望 我没有说谎 祝你做个幸福的新娘 我的心事请你就遗忘
CHEM PAPER 3
11/12/2009 11:42:00 am
the paper was relatively manageable I guess. I mean, you don't need to know every detail of the topics tested but still.. I wasn't spared.there is stats paper tomorrow, I don't want to screw up like paper 1 again. I never want to screw up another paper again in fact. I think it's damn mean to comment on your friend's result, right in his/her face and comment on their stupidity. IT'S NOT LIKE YOU'RE THE VALEDICTORIAN. I really hate YOU sometimes :\ Wednesday, November 11, 2009
GDBYE GP NOTES
11/11/2009 05:10:00 pm
I am done for for GP, and no I am not exaggerating to make any of you taking A levels feel better. It's just that I can't write, at least I know I can't write as well so those people who have their essays published in KS BULL. the good thing is people who write in KS BULL gave me great insights for the AQ, but then again, that 8 marks component is not going to make any difference in a 50 Marks paper, considering that I screwed up my summary. Oh yes, I screwed it up big time. I was done summarizing 2 out of 3 paragraph and I only have like 50 words? I think I shortened the paragraphs without even capturing the gist, God knows what I was thinking about.Forget about the Bio Paper, that was what I told myself on the way out from the exam hall, I had half an hour to stare at the paper without writing anything. I don't expect much for Bio, C or D is fine. A? Dream on or bring an miracle on. Went to Ntuc with Shiuan, she kept making fun of me and *, Shiuan you're so mean. LIKE SERIOUSLY, EVER SINCE I TOLD U ABT * YOU HAVE BEEN MAKING FUN OF ME NON STOP! Karma will find you, one day! :P On a random note, I bought chocolates, for myself(I finished it on the way home) and my friends. I was buying the choclates and Shiuan said "Xue.. you're going to turn fat". In my heart I was thinking "No Shiuan, I am not going to turn fat, I am fat". And Megan taught me something which I think applies for me and not for her(she is so freaking petite). [I don't THINK I am fat, I KNOW I am fat] owned. there is chemistry tomorrow and I am doomed, I don't know why the hell I am taking A levels, I am so freaking unprepared. Oh no, that was an understatement. Life sucks but whatever, we have to go through this. At least I made it this far, at least I didn't retain last year. A funny conversation between A and B and me Xt: go work la, can earn money what. ask jimmy leh A: huh but now got the ite students they also holiday, dunwan work with them B: they ever study meh? the funny point we are trying to bring out is that ite students don't ever study and everyday is holiday for them. but that is just over-generalization. there are muggers in ites too. Its is politically incorrect to laugh at them. we should repent. interesting words: ambidextrous ambition ambivalence ambiguous ambiance Get your facts first, then you can distort them as you please. Mark Twain Tuesday, November 10, 2009
NAISE
11/10/2009 08:09:00 pm
for YOU, cause I know you read my blog :DHomosexuality is neither a disorder nor a disease, but rather a normal variant of human sexual orientation. the most humane definition of homosexuality. i had to bold the words in purple :D mucking fathematics
11/10/2009 06:20:00 pm
OWNED BY MATHS.GOODBYE CRUEL WORLD from hero to zero
11/10/2009 01:18:00 am
I don't know what I am thking about.actually I know, I am thking about you. yea, thats what I am thking about. you're all I think about, at this very moment. WHEN I SHLD BE THKING ABT MATHS. wanted to write sth here but shall wait after the GP paper is over. ITS OK I CAN WAIT. :D to you: don't be scared. You can do it. weren't you telling me over the fone "can do one, can do one, this kind can do one". your broken english is funny but nonetheless encouraging (: AND OF COURSE. special thanks to ESJSB and QIANGQIANG! the only 2 people who don't take A levels but wished me gd luck. thanks :D HI MATHS HERE I COME TO YOU. I AM GG TO EMBRACE YOU SO PLS BE NICE TO ME. I ASPIRE TO BOMB CAMBRIDGE ONE DAY. and salvage everyone from this SCREWED EDUCATION SYSTEM. THE MARKERS ARE OVERPAID AND THIS A LEVELS IS JUST ZZZ. i promise to type in proper eng after the gp exam lol and I am gg to intro some VERY INTERESTING WORDS :D Monday, November 09, 2009
I told you..
11/09/2009 12:43:00 am
I KNEW IT. THIS KIND OF OUTCOMEWILL SURELY COME. I SWEAR I AM GNA GET SCREWED FOR A LVLS. but i kan kai alrdy. dont do well not equal to failure in life. i wont emo anymore. i paid for the papers so I am gg to get it over and done w. my ambition in life no need some A lvl cert WAHHAHAH thank god :D I M GG TO DO LAUNDRY NAO. basket. Sunday, November 08, 2009
HSM SIAO!
11/08/2009 01:47:00 am
jitao hy too funny. i was telling him on prom night i m gg to dance sry sry.then he say : so now u thk u hsm 3 la HAHAH. i must ADMIT(lol hy) tt I am too into those scenes suddenly every1 stand up n dance. HAHA. its damn funny. tt tym tchers day during break i was telling tvxqhc tt I wna ask the councilors play SRY SRY then everyone suddenly dance in the canteen. THAT WILL BE AWESOME. anythg related to Sj is too gd too gd :D:D 蔡妍 too hot too hot.
11/08/2009 01:07:00 am
蔡妍-两个人http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_D_oooSWjLY&feature=related蔡妍模仿杰克逊http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m6u-bN761IY&feature=relatedshe TOTALLY HOT LIKE NO MOTHER =D Saturday, November 07, 2009
so i (:
11/07/2009 02:03:00 am
Friday, November 06, 2009
SO I
11/06/2009 11:53:00 pm
woke up in someone else's house, on someone else's bed, with someone sleeping beside me. But fully clothed. And yes, that someone is SHIUAN lol.then met bff for breakfast. it's funny how we wanted to have breakfast near her block but end up walking to the market. SOMEONE REFUSED TO WALK ME TO THE BUS STOP ): kiddddding la, I know you're tired ): went to sch, studied with weiliang. he offered some chem paper, got me pulling all my hair out. WHEN I DUN HAF MUCH TO START WITH/ LEFT. it sucks ok. I am so bald. and we ate lunch with DESMOND. and yes, did I mention tt he walks DAMN FAST like on the way to the canteen I cnnt catch up la. then I like running lidat. I thought I had long legs. damned. and yup, talked to gwen, she is FULL OF CRAP. like ALL SORTS OF NONSENSE. so I had to ask her to shut up HAH. and yup, talked to Hongyun for like 1 hr today. So funny. I keep threatening him about BW and GBB lol, too bad dude, your ba bing in my hands :D shang nao jing :D talked to chong online, he started the convo and then we went on to topics which i dread. It's nt his fault, I mean we're on the same boat. Like srsly, just tt he knows his destination, I don't. I have 2 destinations to choose from though :D on a random note, I am DAMN HAPPY tt my period came this week. LIKE I WAS DAMN HAPPY. cause I damn scared tt if it comes next week I will freaking die from cramps. Last month I had cramps tt I scared Chongloon. cause he sat beside me in bio lect. and I grabbed his hand like every 5 seconds :\ IT WAS TT BAD. then he so innocently ask " huh you tong ah ", joke but cute. YOU WILL NVR UDS. hah, I was calculating, that guys have 2yrs of NS, thats abt 104weeks of shit. Girls have menses like every month and each time it last for a week. thats like 12weeks every yr, and it will last for about 30years. which is 360 weeks. SO IT IS MORE WORTH IT TO BE GUY. and you dont have to give birth! ): a random convo tt I heard recently abt men and their wives and their mistresses. sth abt whether men can take paternity leave if their mistresses are giving birth. I think it is quite valid. AFTER ALL, the newborns are gg to be SG CITIZENS. so why not? just thk abt this MAN: hey boss I need paternity leave BOSS: why your wife gave birth quite some time ago didn't she? MAN: yeah, but now the one who is giving birth is my mistress JOKE SIOL watching some drama with MAMA now. damn funny. the coffee prince show, that guy act gay with another guy (which is actually a girl) just to avoid gg for matchmaking. ITS DAMN FUNNNNNY. then my mum kept saying " gay la gay la" cause I din get the story initially. She damn ji dong even though she watched this before. AUNTIE JIU SHI AUNTIE :\ It's late and I am tired.......... perpendicular bisector (: Chongloon knows what this means! & dude, thanks for the songs! EVEN THOUGH GT A LOT OF ERRORS! Wednesday, November 04, 2009
I am fine. definitely, maybe
11/04/2009 11:16:00 pm
I M GG INSANE ):summary of today did 1topic of econs for like5hrs. SLAP ME LA. did maths. IT WAS PATHETIC. because din have enough time with mr lim :\ but whatever. my gf and I and daryl are gg to start a fruit stall business. HAHA random but whateverrrrrrrrr. we even though of the name alrdy! haha, I thk weekie came up w it. gd job girlfriend :D WHOOOOOO I feel happy today because of some stuff. ok la, 2 events. only bff knows abt it :D I thk i told chong.. ah whatever. MY STM IS RLLY BAD but but but the zhong dian is I am happy (: you caught my eye.. like I was fixated on you.. but I am not supposed to even look at you ): EPIC! :D
11/04/2009 01:18:00 am
Jo . #23` HF. ESJSB+SUJU=IMBA says: y ur dp is liang xi mei! CJCJDNH (: insomnia ESJSB+SUJU = IMBA says: i like him/her lol Jo . #23` HF. ESJSB+SUJU=IMBA says: why suddenly got liang xi mei i cant believe u like liang xi mei dun like me alrdy CJCJDNH (: insomnia ESJSB+SUJU = IMBA says: HAHA u nonsense la Jo . #23` HF. ESJSB+SUJU=IMBA says: wo lian liang xi mei de shui zhun dou mei you CJCJDNH (: insomnia ESJSB+SUJU = IMBA says: WHY U WNA BE IN MY DP WHEN U R ALRDY IN MY HEART Jo . #23` HF. ESJSB+SUJU=IMBA says: AWWWWWWWW ultimate own CJCJDNH (: insomnia ESJSB+SUJU = IMBA says: yes (: Monday, November 02, 2009
the angel, no, the devil.
11/02/2009 11:38:00 pm
was bathing just now and thought of people, just random people that floats into my mind.good news is I am gg to have WHEELIE (or whatever spelling) on the 24nov! I am gg to take gd care of it :D but no, I am not telling anyone what is it! keep the suspense! and back to the person I was thking about. just random but yea, this person has helped me damn alot. then it struck me, we are not like besties, bff, gd friend or whatever buddy shit, but yea, this person is special! I dont have a name for him, he doesn't have a status, but at the same time he has a status. I was just thking abt how much this person has helped me, its like a mutual thing. we help each other in times of need. and yea he promised to help in in whatever I need, as long as it is up to his ability. how many people can promise this, and MEAN it. so yup, a special thank you although you'll never get to see this. AND NO, I DONT LIKE THIS PERSON LIKE HW I LIKE LEE SUNGMIN :D and yay, genting trip is confirmed =D bestie's mum called me to confirm this afternoon. which leads to my next point. daryl was nice today HAHA! we were buying drinks then i was on the fone(with bestie's mum) & i took out my money alrdy but then he paid for the drinks and keep pushing my $ back into my wallet. its like hw my mum behave with my aunts. they always fight to pay for stuff and just push back the money into the other person's wallet. its like a sibling thing. and since I have no sibling I wouldn't know. But yea, I appreciate daryl for tea :D we sat and talked abt me. like hw I was adopted and stuff. sometimes I miss my "parents", people I have never seen, people that I can't put a face to. Daryl was just telling me to look on the bright side, I have a family now, and I have education. Really a much better life compared to being in China. i kept joking abt this last yr when I went for OCIP to China, I was like telling Chong Vivien and Hongyun "eh if I not adopted, you all will meet me today also, like in this orphanage". although it was a joke, I will not rule out that possibility. took bus home w qianhui and we chatted :D she is my pri sch schmate! who knew we will be friends even though WE HAVE NVR TALKED TO ECH OTHER IN SCH BEFORE. she is a rlly nice girl (: I am like kinda affected by a lot of things now, I am telling ESJSB nt to emo, but here I am emo-ing over shit stuff. not shit as in shit but yea shit as in crappy and useless stuff ): I WNA START A FIGHT (random) srsly, all that is in my head now is just A and C. LIKE I WANT A AND C SO BADLY, URGH. I really want to text you and tell you that everything will be fine because I am here and I will be here for you always. However, a part of me refuse to reach for the phone and type in those simple words that will probably put a smile on your face(even though it will not make your problems go away). Reason? You're the last person I want to lie to. The truth is, I can see myself leaving you, I am not doing it now because it is not the right time. Maybe the situation will change, I don't know. But for now, I am not going to give you any false hope or any delusions. I have had enough of making empty promises. I know you have had enough too, and you don't deserve any of this crap. Destroy, destroy, destroy (yishi don't laugh) Sunday, November 01, 2009
): why like this
11/01/2009 04:13:00 pm
I thought our differences were what kept us together, now I don't think so anymore.不在乎天长地久只在乎曾经拥有 and thats enough for me.
we don't need to last forever. whats the point if we go through each day hating each other more at least if we part now, I will still have beautiful memories of you .... |
The (OWN)er
09 Apr 1991madly_in_love_4eva@hotmail.com pls do not laugh at my email :( 回到过去
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