我不是你想像的那么勇敢

敗犬

I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart.

I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web.
Love is an addiction I can't quit.
Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings.
Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance?
Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs.
When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

change of plan!

4/30/2009 10:46:00 pm

wnted to wtch 2ep of TLW, but sian my mum at home. she will nag nag nag agn! I wna watch 17agn! =D it seems nice leh! i want zac efron =D His hotness can melt anyone HEH.

watching some channel U show now, quite sad! shall watch channel 8! some repeated shows =D Po Jian Er Chu (:

super duper uber tired. Syf rehearsal killed me ):
and mum is nagging at me agnnnn!
what if I grow up to be like her! NAG AT MY KIDS LIKE A MACHINE
then I should be a tcher. HAHA

quite emo during AAPC today. I dont thk i will ever get an award la, so slack :\ and Josh did damn well la. I thk the only time my mum can come to sch to talk to the principal will be when I killed someone or punch someone in the face. Or best, when my skirt is TOO SHORTTT. zzzz, still cnnt believe that i gt caught for short skirt when my skirt is like one of the longest in school. They shld totally deisgn ankle length skirt la. will look totally awesome, make us look like nerds (: so even if you re not smart, you look smart.

I also gt killed my court shoes today. borrowed shoes from Su! it was 2size smaller. I nearly cried la! the best thing abt today? councillors get their private stash of FOOD from reception. we eat like funfair lidat (: i brought damn alot of food for the class! :D rocks to have sc in class right? i bombed them with puffs and sushi la! OWN =D and i let the CCS pple take also!! =DD

was abit emo today on the way to acjc. hy n cl knows why.. BUT WRONG INFO LOR. and cl damn funny huh use secret code! luckily i smart enuff to decode larh! was happier on the way back. MUAHAHA (: acjc pac damn big lurh. then everytime the lights off cl and i will do some kissing scene. DAMN JOKE LA. but i am used to it la, we always play this. we gt damn alot of scandalous pics tgt =p and HY was damn sick on the way back. a few of us were discussing abt changing the script to a nc-16 rating. WHY NOT R21! whoooo! =D ok i am hnstly influenced by HY's horny mind. SAVE MEEEEE! :P

i keep yawningggggggggggggggggg. shld slp soon. SINCE CNNT WTCH TLW ): I AM UPSET!!!!

Right here waiting - Xueting's version, for Yishi (:

4/30/2009 09:44:00 pm

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
(yah yishi makes me go insane, the i-wna-pull-my-hair-out type of insane)
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
(when she sings, it KILLS me)

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
(cause we can NEVER be together forever, hw to tolerate her)

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
(cause i rather wait than to go with her)
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
(like i said, i rather wait here)

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
(she makes me cry)
But I can't get near you now
(that sounds great)

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
(first insane, now crazy. she is powerful)

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
(i wonder how I(me, me, me,) can survive)
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance (to run away!!!)

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

BFF WILL BE HATING ME FOR THIS.firstly, i spoil one of her fav song. by adding words. then i posted this with her looking :D WAHAHAHA
what a great diff btw this and love story. WAHAHAH

only similarity: i insulted her singing in both songs. HEH

haha yishi, rmb, i will alwaysb e right here waiting. YOU KNOW WHY :D

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

HY IS EVIL

4/29/2009 10:22:00 pm

hy is being evil again. he say IN HIS BLOG tt sitting beside me is a torture. SO BITCHY LAH! totally, tml i am gg to punch him. But he is right la. i am evil abt the gay part! everyday i just go up to him and say " you r gay right? u r right? yes right?"

HY SO R U DPRSSD? IF U R TOO BAD :P
nah, we HOW TIGHT (: haha hy will probably interpret it to be sth DIRTY. as usual =P i haven blog about ALL the dirty things he say in sch. those tt i contribute in, i will not mention HAHAHA. maybe i AM being evil. I GET TORTURED BY HIM MORE LIKE IT. everytime laugh at me when i give stupid answers ): at least i m trying. and that shows i m nt slping...

mr lim told my mum "when your daughter dont slp in class she talks" =\
IF I DUN TALK HW TO LEARN RIGHT =) *justify justify*
hehe, but most of the time is just nonsensical stuff la

hmmms shall blog abt all the SICK stuff hy said YTD. haha, hy u r DEAD :D

4th bird coming he inprepret as 4th bird(BIRD) CUMMING
hole for insertion FOR MATHS he interpret as hmmms you know what(YKW)
rpc agn n agn abt maths results he interpret as HUMAN REPRODUCTION haha
holes btw the books (probability) he interptet as holes btw the BOOBS. he mentioned the word CLEAVAGE somemoreeee
then cause his correction tape is retractable, he kept saying IN OUT IN OUT which means YKW
the worst... HE SAID MY KUEH LOOK LIKE BARLEY GAO HARDENED. barley gao is obvsly nt barley concentrate! thk along the line of body fluid =\
the best. HE ACTUALLY SAID AYUMI PORNOSAKI :D for once he insult ayumi!!! WAHAHAAH
thats about all la, I din record today's list =p

BUT HY I STILL LOVE U AS A FRIEND. its ok! I will influence you in a postive way! and ytd I was enlightened about Kamasutra. MY GOOOOODNESS I TOT IT WAS ABT FOOD. cause makansutra =\ it was about sex positions. goodness lurh. Mr Wee was talkin abt it in class. at least now I know what does "69" means. SICK.

TML NO BIO TEST FOR XUETING :D:D YAY

red thread is gettin interesting. I LOVE THE SHOW. I AM AN ADDICT NAO :D

and I love BFF. thks for everythg U you said. 14feb was the best DATE ever. =p

Monday, April 27, 2009

Reflections

4/27/2009 08:32:00 pm

On another note, I finally admit that I have a problem. That is what I call chronic loneliness. I am shunned, I appear happy, but actually deep down I know it isn't how I feel. Inside it is an empty shell, one that haunts me relentlessly. I do the best in whatever I do, but somehow its just to fill up that hole in my mind.

took this from Chang's blog. I guess thats how I feel ):
maybe Chem and Econs CA is making me emo.
ok, just Chem. I AM SO NT GG T STUDY FR ECNS LURH.
its BORNG. so I M NT GG T WST MY TIME STDYNG FR IT.
take it that I am tapping into Audrey's sympathy for students. she is too nice alrdy.
listening to Bai Se Feng Che nao, lots of emotions well up. ZZ ):

Mao Zhua Lao Shu, Zhua Ji Zhi?

cause I had a bad day ):

4/27/2009 05:59:00 pm

damn emo

1) yishi knows why
2) FAIL NAPFA AGNNNNNNNNN. zzz
my 5stations alrdy can get gold alrdy, just the frigging run ):
to top it all up, I have econs CA and chen CA tml and FITNESS 100 ):
its only monday and I am good game alrdy ):

I DUNO WHAT TO DO ANYMR ):
and Nithya copied me today! she said "sucks to be me"
hah, when I say that phrase, I meant it.
its nt like I have no limbs, so I cnnt run.
I AM NORMAL AND HEALTHY BUT SO FRIGGING LOSER IN RNNG
whats wrng w me ):
rlly dno wht I cn do to pass the 2.4km run =\
and I dun uds why they cant let us get a bronze? why must strive for silver for the run
dun get silver jiu suan le lor.
I try so hair for silver wasted cause my points can get Gold alrdy.
my run alrdy forfeited my gold alrdy. try and run faster only for silver also nt point! =(
RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRR, life sucks honestly ):
the funny thing is my itnues is playing "Go Girl", what an irony =\

tried singing Lian Ren Wei Man just now, Vien wna sing this for the finals.
I guess its manageable lurh. =[
I WILL TRY. singing so much easier than runningggg.

I HAVE FINISHED DINNER. GNA NAP (:

Sunday, April 26, 2009

wo bu shi ni yang de mao! MEOW

4/26/2009 11:38:00 pm

random title, ignore it. =P
woke up early today! had svc, if i late i will be hanged!
since no one from cg here early, i went to talk to jingyan! SUPER LONG NEH CATCH UP
happy that we still can link and click la! =D SI DA TIAN WANGGGG!
then i love today's worship song (: very catchy and touching.
after svc fellowship w cg and then went study grp
I FELL ASLEEP AFTER LIKE 2MINS. goodness then Bff came and knock my head :X
then we went off.
i took to city hall and i din realise it was pouring lor.
totally gt drenched because i love nike more than myself
main point is nike bag is from yating and shiyong!!
so cnnt let it get wet :D :D its precious
got drenched when i walked to bus stop
got drenched again when i alighted and walked to riverwalk.
technically speaking, i cant get drenched twice but...
mtt was tiring but fun :D
and Boon said HI to me. I am still damn scared of him =\
but yup, smiled quite alot today. and i keep teasing yixuan! =P
SF members put up a performance and I thk this girl is totally cool la.
she plays the tambourine(sp), and shei s HOT =D
i think she s totally awesome! and this other girl also! =D
random, i am reminded i haven catch up on TLW
mon suppose to watch but mum at home so cnnt or she will say i keep watching pointless shows
nvm! I WILL FIND TIME (:
tlly gg to slp nao, so frigging tireddd ):
and headache! I am abt to die ):

ZZZ and Vien and I haven brainstorm abt our song ):
RAHHHHHHHHH super worried for the finals ):

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Archery Drama Bff (:

4/25/2009 08:37:00 pm

Woke up at 7 ): Slept at 130 cause I was doing laundry (so guai). then super tired la, drag myself for archery! LAST LESSON TODAY! YES YES YES! its was alright la, left early to go for Syf Drama.

Drama was fun except that I keep NG-ing. its hard to be a mother age 53? with an 18 yr old son? and a husband from china! =\ but quite fun la, we just joke joke abit. though the director was quite pissed la, cause we keep screwing up ): initially i not on form then keep laughing, the last 3 rehearsals for today I nehhhh laugh then damn good (: practice a bit of singing with Vivien. quite ZZZ cause its very hard, we super different key ): and I dunno I still emcee for the Chinese Singing Competition not! Cause I am in the competition. that time anyhow sing thought wont get in de lor. but since we got in, must do a good job! All the way Xueting&Vivien! (:

went with Hongyun to Tp then after tt met w Bff. went cut hair with her (: Her seaweed still there though, but sheh as a newp arting. right parting! same as me! =) but I wanna cut my steps and bangs. END OF THIS YR WILL TRY (: Or rather when my hair grow out first. I M BALDING LOR. must admit le ): stupid hongyun sure laugh when he sees this ZZZ

I wna complain abt HY :P
Xt: I got you ... woooooooooooooo under my skin..
Xt: I got you ... woooooooooooooo under my skin..
Xt: I got you ... woooooooooooooo under my skin..
Xt: I got you ... woooooooooooooo under my skin..
i duno hw many times i sang the same line in class
Xt: I got you ... woooooooooooooo (then gt cut by hy)
Hy: under my dick
Xt: wahlau hy whats wrong with you.

LIKE DAMN RANDOM I TOT HE WNA SING CAUSE HE SANG "UNDER" I TOT HE WILL SING THE CORRECT DE. zzz right, Hy damn horny! in class somemore!!!! then Bio lesson was talking about some tandom things la, then he was like "tandom = tampon + condom" then I was like "HYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!" cause damn unlike him! He finally reveal the real side of him. Horny bitch =P and there was this time when Nevaa was talking abt Ayumi in a lingerie ad right then Hy got so excited and then asked like which bra ad!!

Clarence made fun of Ayumi Hamasaki ytd. He said "Ayumi Homosaki", which got Hy damn mad. I shall continue.. AYUMI HOMOSUCKY (: Hy, you can beat me in school IF YOU DARE. haha, you silly gay in the closet =) WAHAHAH. nooooob nooooob

Back to Bff, we are smsing now! she just left my house (: I MISS HER ALRDY ):

shall pack my house. suppose to pack!!!!! ): I shall pack till about 10 (: THAT INCLUDES FILING. I used to hate pple who dont do filing but my worksheets are like all over the place. BUT I NEH LOSE A SINGLE WORKSHEET BEFORE. so I am still neat. I am a neat freak when it comes to filing (:

Go Xueting

Friday, April 24, 2009

HAPPPPPPPPPY DAY

4/24/2009 11:58:00 pm

WHOOOOOOO. happy day for me today! Today is MY DAY =D only Nutty and Hongyun knows why, hehe (: I enjoyed council today and it makes me realllly happy! and actually thats the reason for me being so happppppy today. I am gg crazy =D

of course gt depressing things.. like My Eugene asking me abt work then I was like hmmm arhhh orrhhhh. then he was like telling me I must submit 24hr timetable to him.. tell him how I will manage between council boyfriend and school. then I try to explain I got no bf, he dunwan listen! TSK TSK! Anyhow assume lah, he not economists lorh, he biology tcher pls =\

Bff suppose to cut hair but shop close ): so tml she gg cut :D

Today I damn guai, after sch go home!!! And I slept lor (resting is a must), till Bff called me to go down cut hair. Then come back alrdy talk to Nutty (: WE TALK LIKE DAMN ALOT LA. everyday talk and talk and talk and talk. Haha, she knows like everything about me?!?! And the best thing about her? She IS TOO KIND alrdy la, I always bully her :D
i m tired blog tml ):

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Enviromental Week is Driving me Insane!

4/22/2009 10:41:00 pm

Mirotic-ing now! (: Cannot resist DBSK! DBSK can turn any lesbian straight and turn any guy gay. Haha. Which reminds me, Hy went for NS checkup today! then Christopher was liketelling him they will make guys take off their pants to check if they're gay, then we were all damn interested laaaa, I mean Nevaa Nithya and I and of course the victim Hy! cause like honestly, I will never get to go for NS checkup! so just very interested. I honestly dont know how they are going to test for gayness la but nvm, I dunno if HY step out of his closet! :P its funny to just tease Hy! and say "you're gay right? you're right" and "haha Ayumi is just a decoy!!", we are mean but yup, they always call me MAN also! then say my voice deeper than normal guys! ):

anyhow chem was funny today, someone was asking Violent(Violet) Teo about chem la, then I rasie my hand cause I got question then Violent just stopped the person and listened to me and said "omg, Xueting is learning, this is a miracle", then the whole class laughed! I totally got OWNED ):

went for council! I thought end sch at 1! I was wrong, ended at 2!! ): so only had 1hr for myself. CCA till 6 then rched home damn tired.

ate dinner and watched Red Thread. Damn nice. Got Nithya to explain stuff to me :D Talked to her for damn long.

Blogghopping! Found out lots of interesting stuff =D LIKE WHR IS THE BEST PLACE FOR ONLINE SHOPPING :D Super tired nao! Will attempt maths and slp sooooooooooooooon. Not gunna risk the eye bags!:D

Was reading my archives and I realised what Nutty said was true. I rmb during March I was damn upset and emo la, then there was one day she called me then I just random cry then she said sth like when you are older you will think to yourself: "omg I actually had to talk to Nutty about all these? And I cried for all these silly thnigs?" So she is right, I am older now, I just turned 18 recently and I am alrdy thking abt what she said! So true la, must seriously build myself emotionally. But ok la, I sprained my right thumb last weds, and I cried! It felt like 12yrs ago, when I fractured my elbow and dislocated my shoulder, I mean how cool is that!

Alright enuff of blogging, back to tutorial since Mr Lim makes people stand when they dont do tutorial. I manage to escape the checks everytime! I thk I got honest face, cant help it! :D

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

NAI-SE SO-ER-ONG

4/21/2009 07:59:00 pm

(孫燕姿)擁抱的時候心情有點痛(x1)
(孫燕姿)也許提早感受到寂寞

(蔡健雅)離開的時候只聽見沉默
(蔡健雅)除了沉默我還能怎麼做選擇
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)別對我抱歉別總覺得對我虧欠
(蔡健雅)現在他在妳的身邊就對他好一點

(孫燕姿)不要再讓你們的愛敗給了時間
(孫燕姿)(蔡健雅)既然遇見了永遠就不要說再見
(蔡健雅)不要再讓你們的愛輸給了永遠
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)我們曾經過那麼多考驗
(孫燕姿)最後還是回到了原點

(孫燕姿)總有那一天相遇的瞬間
(孫燕姿)確定那些冷漠的從前已走遠
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)別對我抱歉別總覺得對我虧欠
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)現在誰在妳的身邊就對誰好一點

(孫燕姿)不要再讓你們的愛敗給了時間
(孫燕姿)(蔡健雅)既然遇見了永遠就不要說再見
(蔡健雅)不要再讓你們的愛輸給了永遠
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)我們曾經過那麼多考驗
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)最後還是回到了原點

(孫燕姿)我應該就走開就算感情還在
(蔡健雅)我應該就放開對他不再依賴

(孫燕姿)不曾有過的片段
(孫燕姿)(蔡健雅)這是屬於你們的未來

(孫燕姿)不要看到你們的愛敗給了時間
(孫燕姿)我寧願選擇離別
(孫燕姿)(蔡健雅)沒有一句怨言
(蔡健雅)直到你能若無其事聊起了從前
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)我才發現彼此都了解
(蔡健雅)(孫燕姿)默契是最寶貴的語言

I am so tired I wna drop dead

4/21/2009 07:05:00 pm

woke up and heard the sound of rain. SIAN WNTED TO RUN 2.4KM! went to gym instead. the canoeist TOOK ALL the equipments so I am left with WEIGHTS. which I am not interested in ): So just slack around then went class. Had SD, which is like ZZZ la, play games only, prepare for YOG! went for break. I am still not used to eating in the canteen. You xie dong xi ni xi guan le, jiu gai bu diao. But circumstances forces people to change, after all change is the only constant in life.

have been msging chong the whole day since break. when we are in the SAME CLASS, when we should be TALKING, when we are BREAK BUDDIES, when we are JIEMEIS. I thought the greatest obstacle btw our f/s had been overcomed but no.. I am wrong. And I duno why things change so much within 6days?!?! I was just very annoyed and pissed with him for what he said on thurs. Cause I asked if he gg for Econs remedial then eh say he gg and I said I dunwan go. so he said tcher will give answers so I thought is like rlly GIVE as in give the paper or sth then I tell him okay I photocopy or copy from him the answers then he was like "no I am not gg to lend you" so I thought he joking but in the end realised he was serious. So I was like thking whats wrong w him. I know I have nth going on so I SHOULD be gg for remedial but I honestly didn't wna go and he is gg no matter I go or not. I dont see what is wrong since it does not make him any worse off if he lends me his answer or sth to copy. If he doesn't wna go but I wna go then I will just let him copy, or in fact if tcher give out anything I will make sure I take for him. Apparently, our f/s is worth less the answer given by the tcher. I mean like Chong is like one of my damn good damn tight friend. Like we share dark secrets we do crazy things, we went through so much. Our friendship was tested for LIKE ONE YEAR? It is like kinda a loss, cause its like he is important to me and I know I am/was important to him. Like this year was the biggest test we ever went through together? And we finally got through it then this has to happen. Was talking about it to my canteen mates(anyone who eats at the same table) about it. Then Shavi said I am like Jiayi, dont want go for lecture then still want his attendance to be marked. I get her point but I thk Jiayi dont for lecture is offence, if he dont want go but still want lecture notes and want to copy from his friends I think its fine. He paid class fund so he deserve the notes, if his friends are WILLING to lend him the notes then I think its alright if he wants the notes and the extra info the lecturer gave. I am not unhappy abt like attendance or what, cause its like just remedial.. I was just disgusted by Chong's response. I can ask the tcher for the answers also but I asked HIM of all people who was gg because he is my friend? I can ask Tyas or Hannah?!?! And I am sure they will lend me, but I asked Chong cause we are like MUCH MUCH CLOSER/TIGHTER? I am apparently wrong and stupid. Yup, it sucks to know what you believe and trust in is all screwed up. I hate this.

The worst thing is I keep seeing Chong's ballooon floating in my house. It's still alive! And like Shiuan's and Mel's balloon died alrdy! Mine survived damn long la. I was super super super touched when I saw the balloon, cause IT IS THE FIRST HELIUM BALLOON I GOT. and I just made a random remark that I liked balloons when I saw Pris's balloon. I mean it is nice to know that people pay attention to what you say, what you like.

Which reminds me, I haven gotten Shiuan and Mel their present. And Cherie! I dunno what they need/want/like! I think XX and YY made a valid point, they asked me why I want to be so nice to them when Shiuan and Mel didn't even do anything for my birthday. One side of me agree with XX and YY and start to think I am actually quite dumb la but the other side of me tells me that its the last year I can give them a present since we are going to graduate and drift apart.. So I think I will buy their present! and Fel's present too! Though I received the same remark that I shouldn't buy for her since she didn't do anything but still.. she is my classmate =\ just that XX and YY were saying she baked muffins for some girls but given that I got her sth for her SYF she didn't do anythnig for me to thank me or anything so she dont deserve a gift. Well I cant possibly get her nothing when I give the rest of the girl gang gifts. So nevermind, last yr alrdy! =D

Had fun at gym with Shavi and Hongyun. Hy keep kajiao-ing me! Bad boy! and good news is my best boy never get DQ for swimming today! Jiayou BB :D

practising song now. Cant believe Vivien and I got into Semi Finals/ Finals for singing comp. damn ZZZ. I din even go and find out. Someone msg Vivien that she got in then obviously I am in cause we are tgt.. so DIE MAN I DNO WHAT TO SING. cant sing Jay agn... RAHHH

Monday, April 20, 2009

DBSK (:

4/20/2009 11:33:00 pm

have been spamming mirotic! its damn nice. tml i am going to bring my DVD PLAYER to school. then hongyun can put the DVD which he BOUGHT. haha, only Yishi, Hongyun and I uds this. MAINPOINT IS DBSK ROCKS LURH. I am gg to die soon cause they cause global warming (HOT HOT).

quite upset about Napfa ):
did personal best for INCLINE PULL UP! got A
personal best (though damn lousy) for SBJ. freaking 166cm ):
did personal best for SIT UPS! 48 in 1min! previously was 43!

DEPROVE IN SIT N RCH. previously 53cm, today did like over 10times to get 48cm ):
deprove in SHUTTLE RUN. best timing was A of 11.2s. previously 11.8s then improve.. today deprove to 11.4s FREAKKKKKKKKKKKKKK

the main thing is ny points can get gold BUT BECAUSE OF THE FREAKING RUN... stupid 2.4km I can only get silver. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I think easier for me to push my C in SBJ to A than for me to push my D in 2.4km to C. Rawr ): Today I sweat like mad lurh! Think Mr Ha damn sian of me keep forcing him to help me retake.. My stupid shuttle run la.

I plan 5 items except jump all get A de then SBJ C.. then now lidat. Argh! Shall try 4items A and SBJ B and run C. MUST GET MY GOLD. last year taking Napfa =D

I think in sec 4 I did 4incline pull up only. LOL, JOKE SIOL. and last time my shuttle run like 12.3sec?!?!? HAHA. and yes my SBJ last time 1.2m!!!! JOKE JOKE =\

I must keep trying. Cnnt let the people around me down. ALL THE WAY XUETING :D

ahhh. Mirotic damn nice..
"I got you under my skin"

DBDBDBDBDB! =D

I want Book of Bunny Suicides! but not selling anymore... SAD SAD SAD ):

Sunday, April 19, 2009

RAWR

4/19/2009 10:52:00 pm

must blog about SOMEONE
annoy me to the MAX.
my name is XUETING. if you cannot rmb it, TOO BAD.
stop calling me CJ GIRL, it irks me.
ur name also some cheena name and I MADE AN EFFORT TO RMB IT
(ok maybe I rmb ur name cause I rlly detest you)
But the point is you're rlly annoying, and I told you before I dont like you
YOU obviously dont care and have no respect for me.
IF U CBB(cant be bothered) to rmb my name, THEN DUN BOTHER TALKING TO ME LA
annoy me only LIKE SUPER DISTURBING.
I CBB ABT U TOO
one more time you call me "CJ GIRL", I will give you my famous stare
which means YOU GG.
don't test my patience. I MEAN IT

Fun Day!

4/19/2009 07:34:00 pm

woke up early to go for svc (: I think Bff and I rched at 9 =D was talking to her about stuff la. I saw her on fri.. then ytd.. and then today. HAHA and I was disturbing her about stepping out of the closet =p then she was like.. "I am not in the closet" .. so I said "so you are out of it la!" then she was SPEECHLESS! its just funny to tease her and see her give the helpless face. and sth sad and funnny. I was eating my bread while walking then I was talking to her then I look back at the bread the custard dropped out of the bread THEN I WAS DAMN EMO la ): second thing, we were jaywalking then then just imagine 4lanes. we going to rch third lane alrdy.. then we stopped btw 2nd and 3rd and guess what.. police car drove past on third lane. OWN la. I was so freaking scareddddd! thank God we weren't.

svc was kinda funny la. had drama again! I love drama la! so entertaining and keeps me awake! =D the last of the drama was sth more for adults la (since about sexual life=p) then pastor was like just saying "if you uds you uds, if not its ok" then LEEYISHI SO MEAN TURN AND SAY TO ME "I might not uds but I am sure you will!!" then give me the cheeky face somemore. I am not dirty minded I am just being exposed to the adult world more! Haha, and plus I from mix school, in a class where guys rape each other EVERYDAY. and of course JC expose you to more stuff related to our topic, hah. I think the actors damn professional lah, honestly I think ask me go act I will just laugh and laugh. Learnt so much about r/s and marraige in 2months. Must keep all these notes and go through them when I am married! Hopefully not much problems la, I cnnt imagine me quarreling with my husband, as long as he 1) stays faithful 2) remain straight. Minimum requirement!

after svc went off with Ryan and Bff. Ebc so naturally la! Ryan was being bitchy in the train station. THREATEN ME(your president) somemore! and then I tell him to stop he still don't care!! He deserve instant death lah! Ryan must die =p went bedok with ebc to eat (: then went macs to study. I KEEEEP SLPING. then when shi tried to wake me up I just give her the buaysong face and went back to slp. I rmbed once she came to my house then I just keeping slping and refuse to wake up and then she sat beside whr I slept and my mum scolded her for having a friend like me! POOOOR THING. anyhow, went for SF MTT and enjoyed myself.

AND TAN BOON SAID HI TO ME. For past 3weeks, I got shocked by him (cause he random ask if I ok and then the whole SF looked at me and started saying "smile" like damn loudly. I got damn stunned) and scolded by him (cause he said hi and I din know he said hi to me then he was like "can at least learn how to say hi?" in a damn fierce tone. then when MTT started he started talking abt hw we shld learn to greet one another). I mean honestly I quite scared of him la!! but today he played for svc praise and worship. I HONESTL:Y THK HE FREAKING AWESOME. dno why la, just awesome!! (: I was telling BFF and Ryan that he is the SF in charge and then I was telling Bff hw ZAI I thk he is. honestly, I want to be like him! ZAI!

slpet on the bus, nearly overslpt! tday is just tiring for me. I ate dinner and I am gg to do the laundry ltr. Clothes and piling up like MAD. emo liao la! =x why cant washing machines hang out the clothes automatically?!?!

AND I LOVE MY NEW 3in1 SCANNER PRINTER BLAH. my cousin rocks! (:

I HAVE BIO SPA TML! all the best to ME!

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Archery, Drama, Shopping(oops)

4/18/2009 10:17:00 pm

Had archery in the morning. Suppose to start at 8 but started at 9 instead. Wahlau slack there for 1hr lor, lidat can clock 1hr for NYAA. Own la. but then shoot for 2hours then go for drama liao.

went home to bathe and freak the traffic jam! =( I think stuck for like 20mins? I nearly bang the windows of the bus! but of course I didn't. was totally scared la, cause scared late for drama. since I said I can reach at 1 I should! it is not right to give a promise and then not deliver it right? so anyhow chiong home once I got out of bus!

went to buy bean curd for hongyun. and then totally got own by the uncle and his wife. HONGYUN YOU OWE ONCE FOR THIS! =p

then went for drama. first scene wanna do my scene do I did lor. was quite sian. cause wanted another role and I asked myself if I will fight for it and sacrifice my friend. but decided that friends dont snatch from one another so I took this role which I dont exactly like la. too late, too bad =\ which reminds me, Hongyun Yishi and I were laughing about the snatching thing. Super hilarious, like totally.

went Cineleisure to meet Yishi with Hongyun. we went for fooood first. Hy ate his beancurd while Shi and I ate our Korean delights. HAHA, we are evil but WE ARE JUST LIKE TT. Hy started the thing about Shi liking me and blah. HAHA SRY YISHI I HAVE TO REJECT YOY =P its like we know each other for 10yrs alrdy, get together abit weird right. but poor Shi kena bullied by Hy like damn jialat. after tt went to NUM! saw alot of funny things lah, and a pretty cute boy (: then guess what... WE WENT TO TIMEZONE. at first cnnt enter cause Hy and I in pe! ): so Hy put on his formal shirt which he brought for the drama. I put on jacket! We how desperate. We got nth to do, play basketball until damn happy then we BO LIAO go play DDR! I totally got owned la ): so end up taking neoprints. yay! we decorate until damn gay! cause we ALL GIRLS mah =P then went to TAKASHIMAYA! (:

to satisfy Hy's pregnancy craving, we all ate icecream! YUMMMMMY! super duper nice lor!! and saw some seniors too! but the main pt is icecream! anyway went to them to buy clothes! on the way we kept talking crap. about stepping out the closet. So I was teasing hy admitting he is gay and Shi admitting she is les. Then I told them I stepped out of closet liao. I am a man. HAAHH. anyway Shi bought 2tops and Hy bought 1 (: I think we all took 1hr la. Confession of Shopaholics?!?!

sth random
Hy and I saw hot and cute guy today then I was like just stealing a glance. then when the guy alighted I was saying "He hot la, damn gooood looking" Hy was like "I must admit"
then long silence.
then I went like "you mean I must AGREE? not ADMIT"
LOL!!!! I think I smart =p

Damn tired nao ): Wna slp after bathe liao! cause tml will be a long busyyyyyyyyyyyyy day! ):

Mao Zhua Lao Shu, Zhua Ji Zhi?

Friday, April 17, 2009

My Dad Crazy!

4/17/2009 10:40:00 pm

dad: when is your balloon gunna die
me: dunno
dad: so when it is out of helium, you gunna throw it away?
me: no?!?! I am keeping it
dad: why? who gave it to you?
me: friend
dad: which friend
me: friend la, you never see before
dad: guy or girl?
me: guy
dad: good I have one more son-in-law

long silence

me: you crazy ah? one son-in-law enough? how many you want?!?!?!
dad: haahahh ahahah hahahaha hahaha

goodness my dad HOW CUTE?!

long silence

dad: must brush teeth
me: i do
dad: braces painful. must take care. people in your school have braces?
me: ya
dad: how much did their braces cost?
me: around 4k to 5k. some 8k or 9k
dad: ok. must talk to mummy and I more. then we communicate more and build love in the family

long silence

OMG. so scary =\
so random talk about love :x
I am not used to it!!!!!
I prefer keeping quiet and listen to my songs. should put on earpiece alrdy! =\
I think my dad is just affected cause my mum is not eating dinner with him cause she alrdy ate at work

I had a conversation with her just now

me: I cannot go outside and eat dinner and come home and then not eat your dinner. you can cook dinner and then eat dinner outside.
mum: that was my boss. she ask me eat with her
me: still.... its about the issue, not who's involved.

RAWR ):

out with BFF (: smile miles

4/17/2009 10:09:00 pm

had such a busy day! all tewtorerears! was like totallllly sianed. math was okay lurh but chem was like busy? like everything we did was wrong cause no graph ): then gp was alright la. with hongyun crapping... HAHA. then went for break.

happy birthday Mel and Shiuan! (: pretty girls of T25 (: then was talking to Hongyun and best boy(haha clarence, be happy ok) about SHOOT SHAG MARRY! I think damn fun. its like damn ridiculous la. I mean play shoot shag marry opposite sex still can. we play same gender la. totally promoting homosexuality HAHA. =p

Bio so tired. but mr yao gave out one sweet that was rlly nice! I wanna know where to buy lor! some wintermelon sweet, those typical china sweeeeet but nice =D Hongyun dont jealous okay!
chiong chem hmwk for Violet(Violent) teo after sch! then went council. celebrated Poxian bdayy! cake very yummy (: then had combined meeting with Environmental Society. quite okay la! I need help for song for announcement! (: any kind soul??!!? with a creative mind?!?!!

then went TTS to take report. I waited for HALF AN HR. go in doctor talk for LESS THAN 1MIN COME OUT. I PAID $25 TO LISTEN TO "the report is fine, nothing wrong with the scan. everything is alright. is there any questions you want to ask?? no? you can go now"

fantastic. Met Bff at town. waited for another 30mins! I am always waiting! =P then we went kfc eat her dinner! and then went subway eat cookies and I recopied my econs. It loooks nice and awesome nao (:

I am tired! Shall rest today! tml got archery and Syf Drama rehearsal! I damn scared la. ltr I screw up ): damnnnnn scared!

go bathe nao!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Disgusted

4/16/2009 07:29:00 pm

Struggled to wake up this morning, think I would have woke up late if not for Dad. Uhh, I am thankful! Had biology tutorial first period. I was like zonking off alrdy. Hongyun and I damn stoneee ZZZ. then had Maths lecture luh, was like just slacking around. super hard to stay awake! =( went for Econs tutorial and I think Miss Audrey is damn nice lurh, as in she is blur in a cute way =\ but still.. too goooood to bully (not I do it) hah, and she is so petite! I like what Nevaa said today

Audrey: Is it on? *points to projector*
The class: Yes.......
Audrey: rlly? I dont thk so
The class: but tcher the projection is there alrdy. see the blue light.. not from the sun right..
Audrey: oh isit... after long wait.. OH I forgot to plug it in.. hahaha wake you all up, very good
Nevaa: Wake you up. (in the typical Nevaa tone)

I laughed for like 5mins continuously, couldn't take it. and plus the typical Nevaa facial epxression. Totally own Miss Audrey in a fun way la. I thk the FA was best la. we suppose to do on our own then we just end up discussing then she was so flustered. Cute I must say!

Went up to class and ate some of Chong's rice, then decided to go down and eat canteen foooood! Bought Fish & Seafood (: yummy (: I love talking to Nithya Nevaa Hongyun and Clarence =D my lovlies :D

bio and chem lect was sleep inducing. I lost to temptation! Snoozed awhile. like damn damn short period of time only. So not that bad la =\ Gp tutorial was fun though.

Went for econs remedial. I think it was a good thing I went though. Sometimes small incidents can give you great insights about the people and things around you. I am enlightened and I am glad + thankful. (: I gave "friends" a new definition. Did chem tewtorerear with Hongyun's help. Thanks buddy man!

went home and had dinner. Bff came over to take her present. Can tell from her expression that she really liked the present. I bu cuo right (: Sorrry make you wait so long.. but worth the wait right? I hope you like it. I am creative, cant be helped =P and I love your present for me. Hehe, yours is super gay but nice though. And you put in 100% effort lah! I also =p Muacks. she was reading my conversation with random people and yup, just updating hee and also discuss about some stuff. feels great to chat (: and tml I am gg to TAN TOCK SENG. damn scared =\ but I thk should be alright la! and I cant wait to do my braces la. although I damn scared of the extraction ): bo bian! my teeth over crowding ): 2yrs and it will be fine (: YAY

I love the fone from Yating. Haha, the fone is super awesome. Better than Nokia lastest light weight and pre cracked fone. Will post pictures over the weekend. You all will find out why it has such a unique name. Hah

I WNA WATCH "17AGAIN" rawr!

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

DELUSION

4/15/2009 11:09:00 pm

hmmmm sth happened. and I realised sometimes life just sucks. but nvm, I will take it easy.

gave Yating a surprise at her house (: she was shocked la! Too cool alrdy la, Abel and Xueting rocks! =D And we ate up Dongdong (: I hope Ting had a great birthday! =D I love you Ting! (: hope you love your cake and your card! MUACKS! =D kiss you :D

totally injured myself today. cannot use my right hand, I mean right thumb. and I cant sms, write, use utensils. I am handicapped in short. Luckily I am ambidextrous or else I kill myself. CCS was fun today lurh! But still, I am worried about some stuff. Haha, its alright. I will stop thking about it ):

I miss someone ):

I LOVE TING (:

4/15/2009 12:49:00 am

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YATING.
I love you to the power of infinity.
in maths it goes like: love^infinity.
ACTUALLY THE EQN MAKES NO SENSE, but nvm! she wont't uds :P
yup, and I am done with part 3 of present for Bff.
super belated Vdae present put hey got substance one okay! (:
self proclaim but when she sees it, I bet she will wow. HEHE -cross fingers-
NT GG FOR COUNCIL TODAY BUT CCS INSTEAD.
Mr LCK will kill me. like honestly. its just confirmmmmmmmmmm
talking to bestie now, she totally own my smartness.
alright man, I will paint my toes okay! and I will show you next time.
CAUSE YOU TOO CUTE ALRDY (:
srsly with all the good and great girls in my life, I dont see why I should stay straight!
okay nah, just a joke. I THINK.
which reminds me! I have yet to catch up on THE L WORD.
rawr, stuck at season 2 ep 5! I honestly want to complete season 2 soon.
AT LEAST SEASON 2! Or not I really bang head on wall and die =(
I miss the show like DAMN ALOT. rawr ):
alot of things pissing me off also. I mean, upsetting me!
so Bff, rmb I said I am happy and you know why..
now I am sad and you know why toooooooo ):
SCHOOL TML. so I am going to just brave through it.
just 6 more weeks then END OF TERM 2. YES!

Oh yes, was glad I chatted with Jaslin just now.
it has been like forever since we last talked!
was telling her about my day and yup, I think we still can click! (:
take care Jaslin! AH PEK TOO CUTE :\

Monday, April 13, 2009

YAWNS

4/13/2009 11:12:00 pm

Super duper this morning. had to literally drag myself out from the bed. wth lah! ):
and then quite late for school. but met nutty at canteen (: do chemitry tewtorerear!
Aseembly was bad. kena by Mr lim. hongyun got it worseeee..
then GP was okay la, Mr Wee good mood (:
Maths tutorial so so only. was trying not to talk to hongyun. cause Mr lim will KP.
break ate with chonglooon (: yummmy!
then bio make up lesson I TOTALLY SABO HY. =P
then chem and econs lecture was sleep inducing. BUAY TAHAN!
chem tewtorerear was alright only la.
EXCEPT FOR THE PART WHEN VIOLET TEO SCOLDED ME N HY
we only laugh once. KENA WARNING.
JOSHUA LAUGH WHOLE PERIOD NEH KENA. intelligence discrimination?
freak lurh. then pe
din get to do 2.km -.-
as in I ran 5rounds cause Tcher Shavi say 5 haha.
she is rlly sweet la, my personal pe coach lurh. v helpful classmate (:
I did 5rounds and got cramps.
FREAK LURHHHH DAMN PAIN. nearly died.
first time I run and get cramps?!?!? I am getting old ):
but I took damn long to recover la. my leg hurts nao ):
and I did this one round sprint. freaking got back pain like at 3/4 of the run. FREAK.
damn sian.
I am going to do better I hope. I ran despite having cramps on my right fooooot!
xt the best =p
studied chem spa with hy! we how hardworking la
actually half the time watching youtube video =\
guilty guilty. DAMN TIRED NAO):
shall slp pretty sooon. will read up a lil bit more. so feel less guilty (:
i am frigging tired. but I am doing sth impt. RAWR

HY AND I CAME UP W STH: SEE YOU TAKE BLANKET SUPER WHITe (:

Sunday, April 12, 2009

EE happy (:

4/12/2009 11:57:00 pm

I am such a toot. I think I hung up on bff agn! this morning ):
sry dear. this always happens when you call me! ONLY WHEN I AM SLPING. normally I will pick up and talk normally! just that when I am tired I dont pick up ANYONE'S call.
woke up and ate some noodles my mum cooked.
my parents THE BEST, they went on hot date then after that never buy breakfast back ):
so mum cooked and I ate (:
then cousin came! and gave me back all my pictures and blah. like 4months alrdy?!?!
and he offered to buy NEW PRINTER/SCANNER/PHOTOCOPIER 3 IN 1
yeah finalllllllly, hongyun said the printer and scanner in my house can throw
i agree. like totally =X
and then went for strikeforce.
gooooodness I suppose to go East COast for MTT
but then smart me tot it was near mac's! Then it wasn't ):
so I cabbed down. $11 =\
DAMN SIAN. the $ was supposed to be for bbq de.
I intended to eat there will 830 then go home. but then there goes the money!
I wanted to use nets for the cab but the uncle cute! the machine spoil ):
anw MTT was fun!
received a comment saying that I looked photogenic.
both gooooood and bad la ):
good because it proves my mum's point wrong. SHE ALWAYS CLAIM TT I SMILE DAMN FAKE. like damn hypocritical ): then force me smilewith mouth close?!?!
bad because it means I look like real life. which is true, I always give buay song face :\
jasmine & kyla keep calling me cool girl cause I refuse to smile at them last time!
kyla introduced me to her sister and I smiled and then she was like :omg she smiled at you, she din smile at me that time"
SRY LAH ): I am happy today mah! (: promise to smile more k?
had fun taking fun shots with kaili(sp), kyla, jasmine, yixuan! (:
then left with Jasmine after the shots (:
I am damn tired on my way back la.
and was damn hungry.
ate my dinner at 9!
from 10am to 9pm nothing in my stomach. FASTING =\
but dinner was great (leftovers :\)
better than nothing, I am grateful.
DID GP PPT. FREAK. stupid Vietnam War, arghhhh.
Gg to slp NAO! I am tired ):
2.4km tml! I AM GNA FREAKING PASS! and get my gold! MUST!
who is the best? XUETING! (:

I am happppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppppy.
Bff knows why.
HAAHAHAHAH.
and for the first time since 5million yrs ago, I actually chose a happy song from itunes.
hah, instead of choosing some emo songs.
GOOD JOB XUETING.
project smile #3! (founder: cute yip jing wei, haha)
nights everyone! (:

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Easter 2009 (:

4/11/2009 11:18:00 pm

met Hongyun to go service, HONGYUN YOU GOOOOOD U LATE :\
hahahahaha 1hr somemore. u die die die :\
then chiong for svc!
drama was so-so only ): but still touching
everytime I see the whipping and nail to the cross part I will shudder.
its just very scary but touching love of God (:
went tampiness mall with cg to eat!
My Bff and Hongyun very nice to my fries
so I very nice to their foood also :P
nice journey back! (: played Taptap!
haha and there was a story about Ipod Untouched :P
then bus with Yishi back. I love Bff (:

and then was telling her about random stuff!
I mean there are always lame updates la.
hehe, I love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu Bff (:
We were talking about lame Pri Sch stuff on the bus
and then I say she can beat me lor with her muscles
then I said "You can be vampire and kill me and can punch me too"
then she suddenly so excited lift her hands want to punch me
I SCAREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
my bff is violent! :P

gg to do laundry liao. SIAN.
tml cousin coming over to do computer! yay! (:

坏人 EMO post ):

4/11/2009 11:10:00 pm

那一扇车门
关出我们的裂痕
一声就震断了回头的路程

爱无法均分
以后就留给你们
也许用伤害结束爱才更动人

容忍的人其实并不笨
只是宁可对自己残忍
既然爱不能恒温
祝福就给你下一个人

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

三个人从不对等
总有个人必须牺牲
那永恒就等他带你完成

你是好人也是个坏人
对我坦承只为了朝他狂奔
不能放任所以放了
这点痛我还能忍
我是好人也是个坏人
分得够狠你才有借口转身
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人
宁愿爱一点不剩
也不忍看恋人爱成路人

POV

4/11/2009 01:37:00 am

Getting tired of asking
This is the final time
So did i make you happy?
Because you cried an ocean
Theres a thousand lines
About the way you smile
Writen in my mind
But every single words a lie

I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
But you said it don't matter
I'm looking at you from another point of view
I dont know how the hell I fell in love with you
I'd never wish for anyone to feel the way I do

Is this a sign from heaven
Showing me the light
Was this supposed to happen
I'm better off without you
So you can leave tonight
And don't you dare come back
And try and make things right
Cause I'll be ready for a fight

I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
But you said it don't matter
I'm looking at you from another point of view
I dont know how the hell I fell in love with you
I'd never wish for anyone to feel the way I do

I never wanted everything to end this way
But you can take the bluest sky and turn it grey
I swore to you that I would do my best to change
But you said it don't matter
I'm looking at you from another point of view
I dont know how the hell I fell in love with you
I'd never wish for anyone to feel the way I do

And you said
And you said
And you said (Do)
And you said
And you said (I do)
And you said it don't matter (I do)

And you said
And you said
And you said
And you said
And you said
And you said it don't matter

Friday, April 10, 2009

Thanks Yating & Shi!

4/10/2009 09:22:00 pm

Woke up early today! erm.. given that I slept at 3?
went out with Yating!
wanted to go Kbox but... hai nvm!
went to Takashimaya to eat with Ting instead (:
we ordered so much! (:
then we walked to Fareast! (:
bought a pair of nice flats!
SUPER AWESOME LOOOOOOOOKING lurh
will post the picture on blog sooooon -cross fingers-
then sat down with Ting and she gave me my present.
she gave me..
a..
a..
a..
NIKE BAG (: SUPER NICE LOOOOOKING.
and I bet it caused a bomb!
but reallllllly useful. CAUSE I ALWAYS SO POOR THING
use my converse bag!! and always borrow bag from her!!
so she bought me this bag! gift from her and Shiyong.
stupid Shiyong had to go back army ):
and stupid Ryan not free! careful k, might kick you out of club =p
anw met Yishi up, super happpppppy (:
we walked around and went to Doughnut Factory for icecream! =)
then we saw Calvin Leong.
then I was like "eh you think Calvin gay? he with a guy lehhh"
someone Calvin wearing RED SHORTS (lol)
so we were just debatingggg haha
WHICH REMINDS ME
ytd I saw gays at Fareast!!!!!!
was walking with Nithya and Hy and Shavi
then I was walking in front among the 4 of us la
I turn back
then I saw this guy kissed another guy's hand
then I just turn in front pretend never see
then I told them about it after the guys walked pass us
they were like "why never ask us to see"
I was like "yeah sure so I should have pointed out they were gay in front of them? haha"
funnny incident la, you dont see them everyday, well maybe you do, I dunno.
and came home to watch TWILIGHT with Yishi!
nice to have her with me cause she could explain.
I am just 4months slower =P
the movie was nice la (: EDWARD SO HOTTTTTTTTT
but his father is hotttttter.
suddenly I remember the ROAM club.
Rich Old And Married. Cybil used to say that I only like ROAM men! =p
just because I think Mr Ong is hot lor :P (he is what)
back to the movie, it was just awesome.
then Yishi left ):
but I am glad that I spent today with her! (:
She was with me from 8th to 9th april (:
cause she stayed over (: and then today I saw her also.
seeing her tml also (: happpppy.
lucky I'm in love with my best friend! BFF (:
and tml there's service! (:
HONGYUN COMING TO EXPO EASTER SVC (: happpppy!
Easter so fun la (: I want egg hunt :X
but thennnn again... sian tonight I wna watch "Alone"
although watched last year already! =\ but shld be scary still..
nvm, I how brave.
and I want complain. Yishi just now scare me lor.
Only both of us in the house just now, then she was like "maybe I am vampire"
wth I timidddd lor =p but she not la! HAHA. then again, I'll never knowwwww :\
I trust you! (: if you want, suck my fats? not my blooood! =p
thanks everyone for your gifts and smses and hugs and handshakes (:

happy(for now) girl (:

Thursday, April 09, 2009

Happy Birthday To Me (:

4/09/2009 11:59:00 pm

Went to NDH this morning then schooooool.
had maths tutorial then break (:
sucks to know on your birthday that you got a C for pw.
sucks to know that 80% of the cohort got A/B.
well, life sucks. but it goes on!
had chem lecture and I teared, I don't why!
I was just tired and I slept and the tcher was like "that girl over there"
good thnig she didn't say "councillor still sleeeeeep"
I HAET IT WHEN TEACHERS JUST JUDGE BASED ON THE BADGE THAT WE WEAR.
so yup, councillors also will be tired one okay!
ohhhh forgot to mention! T25 celebrated my birthday and Hannah's birthday!
April babies (: not April Fools! the cake look so yummmy (:
then bio tutorial! (: thanks Chong for Balloooooon and Tshirt!
I got the balloon before break so I din expect the shirt (:
the shirt is awesome I tell you! but I was scared!!!
cause he was like "I hope it fits"
then I was like thinking if it's a dress or something cause its like...
I WILL PUNCH HIS FACE IF HE MAKE ME WEAR DRESS!
the shirt was customized!! (:
it says "I am Queen" and "punch you"
haha. cause I always tell Chongloon I am his Queen!
and I always punch people in a way that they dont get hurt.
I just draw a circle on my hand while saying their name and I punch my hand!
thanks to Michael who taught me that! =P
back to the topic, Hongyun gave me surprise tooooo!
He told Nithya to pass him the present then there was plastic sound
then I was sneezing (alright, like usual) and I heard plastic.
then I was just thinking "wth Hongyun and his uncle plastic stuff again"
then he passed the present to me then I was like stunned. HAHA
then I say open ltr after tutorial he TSK me (on MY BIRTHDAY) =p
so I open during tutorial.
I OBVIOUSLY WANTED TO LISTEN TO THE BIO TUTOR (lie #1))
haha, the present so cute!!
in a relatively gay box, flowers outside and purplish pink inside!
then there was a Flesh Imp Tshirt!
bracelets (which I thought was sex band, wth) and hp chain!!
BLUEBERRY JAM!! and Koala Bear toy (:
Hair tie. this one i want to COMPLAIN.
Nithya and Hongyun was like "eh must use in school okay"
I was like "none of the colours acceptable for school la!"
then Hongyun was like "we thought of it when we chose these colours that you like. but then we think like you also dont follow school rules so no point"
HAHAH SO MEAN RIGHT. (but valid point)
I AM STUDENT COUNCILLOR I V OBEDIENT DE LORRR (lie #2)
there was a really cool card too! from Paperchase! (:
and a super duper lovely gay pen! its too cute alrdy! (:
so yup, thanks Hongyun Nevaa, Nithya and Clarence!
I love the present okay. I will use the hairtie and make sure I dont get caught okay?
Gp was relatively ok la, Mr Wee seemed happpppppppy!
and the cake was cut so everyone could share.
I took a bite and I thought I arrived in Heaven. cake so frigging nice (:
I love love love it. The chocolate just burst in your mouth! BURST
but the cake that I brought home suffered a major accident and it looks horrible now ):
but still, I think it will taste goooood (: Bagus!
Pe was reallllly just ok. Cause I was damn tired ):
Went for shaved ice session w Nut, HY and Shavi!
then met HQ for dinnnnnnner.
damn sad today cause school ended DAMN late lah! ):
then so sian ):
Huanqing treated me to Pepper Lunch! so salty.
and Peach Tea so sweeeet!
none the less, today was great.
I ate the cake that Yishi gave me toooooo (:
so now I am fulllll and happpppy!

I watched Marley and Me! cried during the last part! ):
it was damn sad la.
esp what Owen said at the last part of the show.
its a DAMN DAMN DAMN sad show.
I think its touching. Cant believe I cried la ):
was suppose to watch with Yishi last night but I guess its fated I watch it alone
I just wanted to watch and cry and let out all my feelings
I succeeded! So great man!

I am tired, I am sleeeeeeping!

Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Say goodbye to sexy seventeen!

4/08/2009 07:00:00 pm

okay in the first place not sexy :\
but still.. last yr's birthday was bad.
i think this yr will be worst.
given that i have been damn moooody since like march?
and my mood is NOT picking up. EMOZZXXZZXX
but whatever. 5more hrs and I will be older.
believe it or not, i dread birthdays.
when i was younger i want to grow up faster but now, i just want things to stop.
soooooon will be 20, then 30, then 40, then 50 and maybe poooooof, die ):
and there i go, xueting, off from earth ):
but bff is coming over ltr. I KNOW SHE SURE GET ME STH GAY FOR MY BDAE.
like write the sweetest thing on the birthday card or sth.
IF ONLY SHE IS MY BOYFRIEND, but too bad =P
its ok, not BF, but BFF. haha. BFF are forever (:
was just asking my dad if i will meet my prince charming tml.
i doubt so, unless my prince charming is a dentist. HAH.
CI celebrated my bdae today (: and keane's too (:
nice cake Jas, awesome chocolate fudge. love you! and CI
hope tml miraculously the LOFL will appear and give me 18roses
and a really nice floaty balloon that says "I LOVE XT"
awwwww. i shld wake up my idea );
there is no prince charming ):
Tml out with huanqing.
Fri out with EBC and then with ting n sy! (:
YEAHHHHHHHHHHH (:
but sunday... SIAN =x
nvm! dinner now. blog ltr (:

Monday, April 06, 2009

爱到最后一秒也不委屈

4/06/2009 08:26:00 pm

看来我遇到了个劲敌

爱情也碰到了新危机

当你眼光中出现了

从来都没有过

欲言又止歉意

为难是三个人的习题

爱情怎能对价成友情

成全不是我的主题

却又无路可去

如何能停止爱你

你说再见的表情

怎能带着怜悯

如此结局唯一原因

只因为我爱你

爱到最后一秒也不委屈

男人的心情

比起后悔三人都败

我起码够慷慨

痛到最后一秒也不委屈

因为我爱你

一边爱情一边友情

我都曾经尽力

看来我遇到了个劲敌

爱情也碰到了新危机

当你眼光中出现了

从来都没有过欲言又止歉意

为难是三个人的习题

爱情怎能对价成友情

成全不是我的主题

却又无路可去

如何能停止爱你

你说再见的表情

怎能带着怜悯

如此结局唯一原因

只因为我爱你

爱到最后一秒也不委屈

男人的心情

比起后悔三人都败

我起码够慷慨

痛到最后一秒也不委屈

因为我爱你

一边爱情一边友情

我都曾经尽力

我练习祝福你

先练习原谅他

闭上眼睛

世界下起雨

爱到最后一秒也不委屈

男人的心情

比起后悔三人都败

我起码够慷慨

痛到最后一秒也不委屈

因为我爱你

一边爱情一边友情

我都曾经尽力

爱到最后一秒也不委屈

男人的心情

比起后悔三人都败

我起码够慷慨

痛到最后一秒也不委屈

因为我爱你

一边爱情一边友情

我都曾经尽力

Sunday, April 05, 2009

I love Lee Yi Shi <3

4/05/2009 08:14:00 pm

We were both young (pri 3) when I first saw you

I close my eyes and the flashback starts

I’m standing there

On the floor of class 3E

I see the class, see the homework, the teachers

I see you make your way through the crowd

You say hello, little did I know…

That you were Lee Yi Shi, you were my new classmate (and future bff)

And my daddy said “stay away from ZhengXueting” (in case we lesbians)

And I was laughing on the staircase

Begging you please don’t ROLL (hahaahah)

And I said…

Lee Yi Shi take me somewhere, we can barbeque

I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is ZAO(run)

You’ll be the ketupat and I’ll be the satay,

It’s a local delight, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the playground to see you

We keep quiet, because we’re dead if they knew

So close your mouth

Stop eating dried kiwi from my house!!!!

Oh, Ohhh

Cause you were Lee Yi Shi, I was a closet mugger,

And my daddy said “stay away from Zheng Xueting”

But you were everything to me (awwwwwwwwwwwwwww)

I was begging you, please don’t ROLL

And I said

Lee Yi Shi take me somewhere, we can mug and mug

I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is ZAO(run)

You’ll be the scholar and I'll be the slacker

RJ and CJ, thats is the difference.

Lee Yi Shi save me, they’re trying to tell me not to FAIL

Common Test is difficult, but it’s real

Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess

Let's screw Common Test, baby, just say yes

Oh, Ohhh…

I got tired of studying

Wondering if I were ever gonna get As

My faith in CHEM was fading

When I met you up for shopping in town

And I said:

Lee Yi Shi, save me, I’ve been slacking for so long

You keep studying with me but I never pass (sob)

Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think

You knelt to the ground, pulled out guitar and sang(omg scary singing)

Study hard Zheng Xueting you'll never have to fail again

You are smart, and that’s all I really know (self praise I know)

I talked to your dad-we're nt gunna be lesbians (we weren't in the first place)

It’s a true friendship, we're just BFFs

Oh, Ohhh… Oh, Oh, Ohhh…

We were both young when I first saw you.

I AM SRY TT THIS IS A SUPER BELATED VALETINE'S DAY PRESENT.
I LOVE YOU (:

Thursday, April 02, 2009

a burdened(very very veryyyyy) heart.

4/02/2009 09:51:00 pm

with great authority comes great responsiblity - spidey (:

hmmms so much have happened in 24hours? i am so freaking tired. but i am glad. that i have said what i wanted and what i realllllly feel. guess i wronged joshua abt ytd. and today was just so bad cause i thk i avoided talking to josh the whole day. josh is rllllllllly a nice guy, like i can hardly find anything to bitch about him (although i always tell him he is boring.. but he is rllllly nice)

the good thing: i talked to jiayi. WHICH I WANT TO PAT MYSELF FOR. cause it took him so much courage to talk to courage. ITS THE FIRST TYM I TALK TO JIAYI ONLINE AFTER ADDING HIM FOR 1YR 3MONTHS. and I was damn scared he will punch me today? cause I promise myself and my mum I will not get into such trouble. but i also know that guys have this policy that they dont hit girls (although they all thk i man), but i was rlly glad there was peace. and i tok to him online and he din scold me and he din use vulgarities and i was just rllllllllly impressed that he defended joshua. cause thats what brothers do? like "yi qi", like something that guys have which girls dont really have. I MEAN the spirit. not like organs or what. Yup, and jiayi was reasonably peaceful so i just rlly thank god (: and he said bye to me before ending the conversation. i know its such a small thing. but given jiayi, who nvr ever talk to me in class before.. said bye.. its like gift from heaven?

so for people who keep saying i popular and i have lots of friends, and that i get along with everyone.. look at the incident and then think again. i dont have that much popularity. and i am not that well liked after all. probably because i am sc and dc. back in amk, no rank so i m just a crazy student, like everyone else. and i had no troubles. but now.. life seems so much harder. and i dun thk jiayi will ever talk to me again about random stuff as a classmate or a friend. i will be contented with the fact tt he doesn't hate me. and i am really proud of myself tt i din lose my temper this time. cause i thk i shld rlly change my temper, even kindhearted hongyun say i have bad attitude means it must be reallly horrible ):

good thing 2: ridzal talked to me peacefully just now. like super no fierce tone or what la. just prolly like erm emotionalless tone. but neutral better than bad tone. so i m grateful too. its all that i ask for. to be friends with the bunch of guys. they are fun and cool too. and i know ridzal is well liked by some other people too. just fated tt me n him nt gd friends. as long as we r peaceful i m glad.

bad thing: i rlllllly want to talk to joshua now. but he din reply ): i know josh wont be angry or anything, he has never blown his top, okay la, at me.. once only.. but so far he is like the nicest holy human that i know personally. hai, just tt sometimes i liked the joshua back in pae. the joshua back then was just different.

just wna thank nutty and nevaaaa and hongggyun for being such great buddies these few weeks esp these few days. haven rlllllly thanked them but they were my emotional support. so yup just thankful for them. and yishi(bff) too (:

everytime i see you, the knife goes deeper into my heart.
something random, but i am emoing now so i came up with it.
council tml.. i dunwan see mark li. i know he is nice but.. but.. but..........

thought abt alot of things. but i guess i will just rest first. my eyes need to rest too.
personal aim: not cry so easily and be much much much braver! and continue to believe in what i believe in, regardless of whether others believe in it or not.

miss olusen said this to me during rockafella: you did what u thk is right, and even if u made enemies, at least u held on to ur values.

SO I GUESS I MUST NT GIVE IN SO EASILY ALSO (:

way to go(:
tml may be/can be/WILL BE a better day!

CI maybe coming my house (: YAY

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

I love Yishi

4/01/2009 10:22:00 pm

shi (: says:

no matter hw horrid those mean ppl fr ur sch r dun care bout dem k

here 4 u!

haha

THATS WHAT BFFs ARE FOR.
and I am talking to Keane now. Don't know why I am doing this also, but I guess I need to talk ):

I just wannnnnnna cry ):

4/01/2009 08:39:00 pm

today was just evil.
Morning run was horrible. I think I abit no hope. But Nithya was awesome. kept cheering me on (:
Assembly was ok cause I managed to bathe on time!
Gp was retarded, Mr Wee flared up at us. Like wth..
Econs lect was usual lor, Mr Kwee is seriously damn cute (: always zao xiahhh (out of tune/pitch)
Pe was okay lor, I said "triple threat" then the answer was correct then I was like okay.. but the class seemed surprised that I know. Thanks to AMKSS's pe tchers(Mr Handsome Lian So Cute)!
Break was evil evil evil evil. just damn sian to be in the canteen. In the canteen you get to see 101 people that you dont want to see ): but nvm, ate chinese wok anyway! the last time I ate wok was like urm during orientation?!?! dont want to rmb it.
and digressing.. ytd was taking bus16 with John to go to Joo Chiat then after that I was on the bus for so long I din look out, the moment I look out, I was at Kallang... the very place where I did dragonboating for Orientation this yr. I just hate it. I had to freaking look out of the window at that time, so damn annoying. Arghhhhh..
And then went for Gp lect.. then after that went outside Scc with Nithya and Neva to talk (: thanks mocca and latte =P I love your company (:
Then tragic happened...

Sms convo:
Jy: Eh Jiayi here u know u so righteous i can get expelled u know? The chers all tell me one more major offence im expelled. So if im expelled thanks a lot.
Xt: But if i mark got problem later will die also. It doesn't benefit me or what but i think must be fair. Its ok if you choose to hold it against me. But i dont think i did anything wrong actually.
Jy: Eh i seriously dun want do shit to u ur tone can dun be so Ccb think u very big ar i sms so nicely to u u dun gimme tad tone
Xt: No i mean i understand your situation but you know the consequences of skipping lecture? I dont think it is right for me to help you mark attendance.

firstly what tone i use siah?!?! cnnt expect me to reply jiayi with (: (: (: ?? i somemore tell him if want blame me its ok. cause i dun think i am at fault LIKE HONESTLY. then i where got bad tone?!?! so peaceful alrdy. A BIT TOO DEMANDING. and which part of his 1st sms got nice tone?!?!?

And from RELIABLE SOURCE, some FRIEND of Jiayi went around spreading to others thats IT IS MY FAULT that I din mark Jiayi's attendance. OH SO YOU THINK I HELP HIM MARK IS THE RIGHT THING TO DO? why not lets just ask ANY TCHER to decide on who is right. if he knows he make one more offence he will be expelled.. he should reflect and try his best to behave what! Like I am responsible. One impt thing why I have to say he is not there. Jiayi obviously wna pon, and dominic worse just keep telling me jiayi in toilet. Of course i worry right. if i mark and jiayi so playful or what he got mishap the school will be held responsible?!?! cause by right he SHOULD BE at lecture (if i mark his attendance). Its damn hard being a dc, every morning makr their bloody attendance. then some bastards have to be late. make things hard. then nvm, still come and give me problems. I ALSO DONT WAN GO GP LECT. but i went. so if everyone who dunwan go went for the lect, what right does jiayi have to not attend? I WOULD HAVE BEEN UDSTANDING IF DOMINIC HAD A BETTER EXPLANATION. if he said jiayi went toilet cause he stomach ache? but dominic so obviously WANTS me to know that JIAYI IS PLAYING TRUANT. nth I can do about it? So its rlly TOO BAD if he is expelled. AND I CAME TO SEE THE LIGHT TT JOSHUA HAS INDEED BEEN INFLUENCED. thanks joshua, I told you would have udstood the situation and think about how to encourage jiayi, but no u din, u just stood there and your face tells me you wanna say "xueting dont waste my time. you are at fault for not marking his attendace. you dont deserve to talk to me". sry daddy, i know u dont thk u changed.. but i thk u have changed..

council was worst. IT SUCKS. and since mark li goes blog digging. if mr li u see this. dont be shocked it's meant for you. I KNOW U DONT LIKE ME BUT I AM SORRY THATS ME. I DO THINGS MY WAY. AND I GET THINGS DONE. I AM SATISFIED. I CAN FACE IT WHEN MY PROJECTS FAIL, WHEN THINGS ARE NOT PERFECT. IF YOU CNNT, I CNNT HELP YOU. if you hate me more after reading this I cant help it either. i dont thk i am being too sensitive. I can sense that you're damn buaysong.. ever since ROCKAFELLA. whatever. AND I KNOW I M NT PRETTY IN UR EYES. GUESS WHAT, THATS ME, NT PRETTY LIKE THE REST BUT I AM SORRY THATS ME.

THE WORLD SUCKS.

and cheer up Teresa (: Mummy is here for you. Some people are just jerks. They don't care about how you feel or what is important to you. They only care about making themselves feel good. Having what they want is the only important thing in their life. But dont worry, I wont leave or forsake you! (:

The (OWN)er

09 Apr 1991
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