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敗 犬 |
I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart. I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web. Love is an addiction I can't quit. Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings. Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance? Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs. When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece. |
Saturday, February 28, 2009
ready to blog about Rockafella (:
2/28/2009 07:51:00 pm
(EDITED AND UPDATED VERSION)Fri 0800-1300 SCHOOL(boring) 1300-1700 preparations for rockafella! main job scope: JASLIN'S P.A 1700-1740 bathe with Jas, Grace, Shimun! 1740- 1830 more preparation! 1830-1900 check tickets! punch a hole in Hansel's ezlink card ): OKAY I KNOW I AM A RETARD. i was checking the ticket then damn sian i punched a hole in his ezlink card and his ticket.I SUCKK. then the hole like so damn obvious ): SORRRRY and before I forget.. CI sold 850 tickets for ROCKAFELLA 5 :D WE ARE SO COOL WE AINT FAKING THIS! okay back to the topic was hanging arnd doing security and then went up gallery to find ryan and xavier! was listening to SOUND OF LIGHTS from there (: great job lizanne and band! awesome awesome yea. then went down to listen to TEAM EARTH & CHRONIC LANE! seriously some CJCIANS are just RUDE. I am sorry but yea it just kills me to see people behaving like kids. I mean even if the performers are not your friends, the least you can do is sit down and PRETEND TO ENJOY. and not MAKE COMMENTS loudly like as if its your house. if you rlly hate the performance so much THEN LEAVE THE AUDI, nobody will point a gun at your head and force yuo to stay right. even if you rlly think the singer sucks or what, I think it is just PLAIN RUDE to say things like "faggot", "gay", "where is your drummer". what if people say lousy stuff when your friends' bands are playing. HOW WOULD YOU FEEL. I am speaking from an organiser of the event point of view, I just want my event to run smoothly without hiccups so I cannot tolerate chilidish acts like this that sabotage my event. A HUGE NO IN YOUR FACE. and the worse thing is councillors play a part in it too. I FELT SO STUPID ASKING JOSH CHEW TO HELP ME OUT LA. I din understand why he wouldn't help me then someone gave me a revelation. and the simple reason is JOSH CHEW BAND DIN GET IN SO OBVIOUSLY HE NT HAPPY. and damn it I din have the brain to think of that and I actually asked him to help me quieten down the people. damn it. and i asked tessa wong to help me. which was another freaking big mistake. i was thinking that she might help me get gabriel tang to keep quiet then probably the rest will keep quiet but NO. she get just "you want you do it yourself la". and of course my brain was so stuck I forgot that she wouldn't help me cause gabriel tang was there. DAMN IT. 2mistakes at the SAME SCENE. luckily Gwen was there to calm me down. thanks daughter (: I honestly dont hate anyone and have no intentions to make enemies but if I have to make enemies to get my job done, I will. went out cause was so damn pissed alrdy and then I nt rlly into H.A so nt rlly in the mood to stay. saw Mrs Leong waiting for J3s that were late ): poor thing. but 2 happy things! at least Russell and Zul got their tickets! thats 2 right things for Rockafella night (: then Evan/Ivan approached Mrs Leong and asked if his parents could come and watch him then I had to find Mr Leong! and Mr Leong said YES! (whoa) somemore don't need justifications =p and anyhow i went to the audi ext and then kinda broke down cause it was just damn sian to be in the audi. Jaslin told me to get Class Act(guest band) into the andi ext so i had to run back to the audi ): so tired. and yes if u are wondering why run.. because the connecting doors btw the audi and audi ext are locked. I had to run from the audi to the foyer and out of school and to the back to get to the audi ext. anyhow fetched Class Act and went to the audi ext. then had to run back to fetch Evan/Ivan's parents. tiring. council can give you abs too. LOLOLOLOLOL. and so after tt realised tt his parents are at the gallery I ran back to the audi ext to tell Evan'Ivan the great news. and then it was FRIED RICE PARADISE performing. I was just innocently watching by the side then suddenly was called out to do security. I thought like stand by or what la. then siao de I din expect people to be moshing. FREAKING SCARY. jumped off the stage and tried to control the crowd. so freaking crazy! first time controlling the crowd, a big crowd that just shakes head and scream. it is just scary when you see J3s moshing and then you cant exactly scold them cause they are your seniors ): but you have to get the job done so I did what I needed to do. MAKE ENEMIES. if you never make new enemies that means you weren't fierce/anal enough while doing security. the hardest person to control was Timothy??!?!? first crowd was down already then he was standing so we calmed him down. then I just had a very bad time with some J3s. it is so damn freaking hard to be friends & security at the same time ): then Timothy started standing up again? and went crazy? so Bel, Josh and I had to stop him. wasn't easy I must say. but now at least I know I must always be alert! :D then FRP was done and class act performed. another semi mosh but luckily with the help of Mr Tan, Mr Li, Mr Leong and Miss Olusen(idk hw to spell) the crowd was under control! PHEW! Bel and Josh was rlly strong. I guess it is good when you have councillors that are responsible and willing to sacrifice themselves I was part of the crowd last year and it is really a different feeling to be just an audience and an organiser. well, at least I manage to feel what the CI wing felt last yr. just rlly glad that Rockafella is over. really learnt alot from it. some people look good on the outside but they are just not what you want on the inside. it is scary to know that people that you adore, eye candy, admire are people with characters and personalities that SUCK ttm(josh chan taught this. ttm = to the max) hai, but still, people who dont know them continue to exalt them. may everyone wake up to their senses! when the concert ended, everyone was damn buaysong! cause no encore. honestly I thought there would be encore. THE CI WING DID PLAN FOR ENCORE ALRIGHT. so yea, stop blaming the council people. if you think this event is easy, YOU(the so awesome) can try organising it. I CHALLENGE YOU. when everyone cleared the hall the council super on form, immediately we turn off the lights and started dancing? NO! we started clearing the chairs! took damn long to clear the audi and then went for debrief. took damn frigging long but worth it. every drop of sweat for rockafella night is worth it. every sleepless night is worth it (: every scolding by yating for giving her weird requirements for the tickets is worth it. and every tear I dropped cause I argued with Mr LCK regarding Chronic Lane was worth it (: CI ROCKS TO THE MAX! went to TPY to meet Yating and Abel and realised I was so dumb so walk such a long distance when I could have taken the bus! I realised that when I saw Keane at macs! and he was like "eh weren't we on the same bus?"! rawr! I seriously think I left my brain at home ytd! one more thing to prove my point. I fasted from 7 to 7 and after HY bought my dinner I left it in the council room and then guessed what? I din eat from 7am to 1030pm! smart or? I would have blamed it on the day and date if ytd was Fri13th but it wasn't. so I guess it was just a pure bad day ): HAI, let it go! and something to think about, or rather refelct about my incapabilities. when zachariah was thanking the people on stage yesterday i was thinking.. wah so nice, he naming everyone from CI then i realised it just stopped at daryl keane jaslin grace and tessa. then it dawn on me that i was so insignificant. well compared to the rest what i did was nothing. which leads me to my nxt point. i dont have to be the i/c for the next project. nt even sure if i will do a good job. argh. honestly. at retreat i alrdy realised tt. because all the members from Ci said tt their lowest point was OCIP WEEK ): something for the pple who missed out on ytd's GLORIOUS EVENT ORDER OF BANDS: PANIC AT THE AUDI SOUND OF LIGHTS TEAM EARTH CHRONIC LANE NOW PLAYING HASTILY ASSEMBLED FRIED RICE PARADISE CLASS ACT (guest band) note to self: I am still amazed at the fact that HE can look so goooooooood in such a simple outfit. No wonder all the girls are mesmerized by him. Argh, that includes me =\ ROCKAFELLA (its over)
2/28/2009 12:57:00 am
thought of sth for rockafella while bathing!ROCKAFELLA: YOU CRASH, WE BASH! sth good to prevent pple from crashing. damn tired now. I JUST WNA SLEEP. very affected by all the minor and major things that happened. but I'm glad rockafella is over! NOW THERE IS COMMON TEST AND THEN ENVT WEEK! go Xueting and yes, forgot to mention, hang out clothes! Wednesday, February 25, 2009
sian. NO MOOD FOR ANYTHING
2/25/2009 12:02:00 am
had a hard time packing rockafella tshirts! damn freakinggg tired la.highlight of today: talk by LESLIE LUNG. he is damn entertaining la. i laughed till i rolled la! (not literally) his talked about sexuality not bad, but a pity no Q&A la! =( maths lect boring as usual. CHEM LESSON KENA BY VIOLET TEO AGN. wth la! go toilet also cnnt. all store our urine then become bladder stones then even if u r damn smart u die b4 o levels also no use right. wth DAMN IT CONFIRM IS CAUSE PREGNANT THATS Y LIDAT sian la. i think i am getting more grumpy nowadays sth which is confirm nt due to my mood I GET ANGRY WHEN PPLE MAKE FUN OF MY NAME. like yah u can joke about it. but when u see my face change can use brain to think and realise i am angry? its not like sec sch friends. when they call me SUET instead of xueting i feel closer to them LIKE HONESTLY MUCH CLOSER. but obviously JC friends not v close still wna try and test my pateince is rlly cmi. i think i must brighten up my mood. have been too strict and harsh with people around me. but then again. not like i am having a good time from people. something that was good today was tt i get to talk to jaslin in the ci room (: i mean like i forgot the last tym we rlly talked?!!?! hah stayed for night study with debrajane & tianyu! i damn loser kept stoning and falling asleep! =( rch home and took much effort to kill 3cockroaches. one of them white! highly evolved species i must say. which reminds me of bio make up lesson. THE LESSON WHICH NVR CAME. MR YEOW AH!! sian dun uds one topic will affect the rest de lor =( SIAN. tml got council agn. & although mr ang ytd damn suck he nt bad today. BUT SERIOUSLY SCREW HIM FOR MAKING FUN OF MY NAME. i dun think anyone in CJ has the closeness to me to call me SUET/SUAT except for POHGUOHAO! cause he was my sec sch classmate! heh as the every rigth cause we're damn tight. so to the rest please stop making me pissed with those lame jokes abt my name if you want to impress me, TRY HARDER, MUCH MUCH HARDER. or not you can forget abt being friends. =) was thking abt some stuff.. i rmbed william asking me what kind of guys i like.. i guess after sun's talk w wt .. i like guys with confidence :D I TOTALLY CNNT STAND GUYS WHO HAVE NO CONFIDENCE like always worry abt how people think about them physically. i mean i tot guys damn OK with anything de? the worst is GUYS WHO FEEL INFERIOR TO THEIR FRIENDS. sorry i nt being evil or anything but i think GUYS SHOULD feel gd abt themselves all the time cause to me NAN REN must be damn confident and comfortable abt themselves i am so obese and yet i can be confident and face people i dun uds why guys who r so much skinnier always think they r nt of the RIGHT size. its HIGHLY PATHETIC. (sorry i have no sympathy for this) i will just freaking die if my bf constantly worry abt his weight & his hair. IT WILL SUCH A CHORE TO LIVE W THIS KIND OF PEOPLE. guys with confidence are the best! they carry themselves with charisma which makes them DAMN ATTRACTIVE even if they have avg looks. LIKE DAVID ARCHUL:ETA. actually he is better than avg. he is freaking hot. avg looks + confidence = hot avg looks + no confidence = GOOD GAME! and to ys: wo bu xi huan jerks lor =p wo xi huan you confidence de lor!!! =p I FOUND MY TYPE LE! Saturday, February 21, 2009
In The Sun
2/21/2009 10:44:00 pm
I picture you in the sun wandering what went wrongyou've fallen down on your knees asking for sympathy and being caught in between all you wish for and all you see and trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in may God's love be with you, always may God's love be with you I know i would apologize if i could see your eyes cause when you show me myself you know i became someone else but i was caught in between all you wish for and all you need i picture you fast asleep a night that comes you can keep away may God's love be with you, always may God's love be with you, always may God's love be with you, always may God's love be with you Cause if i find, if i find my way how much will i find if i find, if i find my way how much will i find if i find, if i find my way how much will i find, you, you, i find you, you I don't know anymore what its for i'm not even sure if there is anyone who is in the sun will you help me to understand cause i've been caught in between all i wish for and all i need oh maybe i'm not even sure what it's for anymore than me may God's love be with you, always may God's love be with you, always may God's love be with you, always may God's love be with you cause if i find, if i find my way how much will i find if i find, if i find my way how much will i find if i find, if i find my way how much will i find, you, you, i find you, you super nice song by Howie Day (: i am watching the L word and i am crying! =( its damn sadd ): mystery revealed (:
2/21/2009 09:35:00 pm
let e mystery b revealed! XDmy "date" on vday is none other den my beloved bff! =D hahaha. actually its nt realli a mystery le since wt kind of revealed it in her tag. lol. i have been grilled in sch bout it. lol! hahaha=P anw dat post was obviously my idea k (since yishi INSIST it is nt her idea >=[ ). haha. even though she was e one hu typed it out. but e idea n outline came fr ME(the great and creative) ^^ hehe. n we r nt les!!! hahaha. we r perfectly straight ^^ lol! anw e post is true too(: haha. refering to ys as a "date" is appropraite since she was out with me lol. i did pay for all my stuff cos she didnt ve enuf money w her juz dat she paid me back on sun. haha. we did hold hands for a while too juz to c e response of e public SO YUP STOP GRILLING ME IN SCHOOOOOOL! :D songs to get from irish and songs i want
2/21/2009 07:07:00 pm
circus - britneyscandalous - get low - lil jon vibrate - petey pablo no such thing - john mayer 5 minutes to midnight - boys like girls you give love a bad name highway to hell (: i need spare shoulders
2/21/2009 12:07:00 am
the burden is so heavy i can barely breathei need some external support here. or i will crash before rockafella5 2009 things just sucks now. rockafella sucks all my energy away. like alot. and also i am proud to announce i have failed 4 of my CAs alrdy. GOOD JOB. fail 1maths, 2chem, 1bio, 1 econs. SHIT THAT MKES IT 5. i am so tired i cant even count. DAMN IT argh!!!!!!! I NEED TO SCREAM. I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT DAMN IT. Wednesday, February 18, 2009
i have had enough
2/18/2009 10:24:00 pm
today is just a bad day for xueting and her bff(yishiii)hai. chem test was rlly rlly rlly horrible i told sec 2 maths 3/20 was bad enough i did lower than that for chem today. I AM SO DUMB. and council was bad la I AM SORRY BUT YES YUEQUN I DO HATE YOU for a reason and that is for what you said xt: the seat comfortable or not is according to individual what. bigger person will feel less squeezy, smaller person feel more relaxed mr leong: cannot judge lidat, (and more blah) yuequn: ya lor, say big people, discriminate yourself (hahahahaah) THANKS AH YUEQUN I AM SORRY I AM FAT AND YOU ARE PETITE. i am sorry i am not in health and fitness and council. i am damn sorry okay. SORRY THAT I AM BIG LA. i never comment on you alrdy damn good liao. YOU SCREWED UP ORIENTATION LA. your logistics committee. wtf. not like you doing alot for rockafella. damn pissed. so random come and tease me. and then francis damn pissed with me for the internship thing. grace: xueting forgot to tell us about the internship xueting: eh francis, sorry i will tell them on friday.. francis: trust you to forget about it. dont talk to me, i dunwan to listen.. council was bad enough casue of yuequn.. then after council i just wna escape home and hide myself from everyone who just keeps bothering me about rockafella. and blood donation. JUST DAMN JIALAT. hai, can go die la ): but i think francis response was what got me really affected. want to burst into tears so much. thats why i am not a vp.. i am just a hod. cause if keane went for the meeting today. he confirm would have told us abt the internship.. so i am just freaking lousy to forget all about it. sian la. i dun look forward to fri at all. fri chem and bio test council meeting and after tt paint banner for rockafella means i cnnt attend church cg (emerge) if fri cnnt finish.. sat must do again.. means will miss make up cell.. TSK TSK TSK council is sucking me away from my church friends ): and the worst thing today hasn't come yet. i am just damn affected by some other stuff. the world is too distracting. I JUST WANNA JUMP OFF A CLIFF. It's all about love SANG BY XT'S BoyF :D
2/18/2009 12:37:00 am
Sometimes I wondered what I'd be when I grew upAnd then I remembered it was anything I dreamed of I could be a poet or a singer Or I can be a scientist But before I make that decision, lets talk about my list Lets talk about love, lets talk about peace And living in perfect harmony Lets talk about hugs, and talk about ways that we can share Lets talk about you, lets talk about me Lets talk about how we can be one big family Lets talk about love, lets talk about love Sometimes I feel like I want to give my friends a call To tell them what I'm dreaming and everything I want I want us to be a little closer And to always reach out a hand To be kind to one another And always understand It's all about love, it's all about peace And living in perfect harmony It's all about hugs, it's all about ways that we can share It's about you, it's about me, it's all about how we can be one big family It's all about love La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la Everybody has a heart, everybody has a smile Lets wrap a bow around each one And give it away once in awhile. thanks hongyun for helping me with chemistry today BEST TUTOR AWARD. hah and NO MORE GORY ANIME! =p i am worried for BFF. text me when you see this yea? haiiii Sunday, February 15, 2009
HAPPY V DAY POST (:
2/15/2009 09:59:00 pm
bff came to my hse for a while for early dinner at bout 5(: I actually suggested candlelight dinner a couple of days ago-.- crazy! we r both straight k! hahaha. anw my mum cooked for us in e end(:went to novena w my date aft dat!XD juz to clarify, i m nt a dating sort of person k. heh. i ve nt had my 1st date yet. i m an innocent little gal ^^ (gg out w a guy whom u simply regard as a bro/gd fren is nt considered a date but gg out w a guy u dun realli noe may b considered a date in my defn). hee. anw rush down to novena to spend quality tym w my beloved=D went shopping!XD it felt lyk ages since i last shop(: (shopping for gifts nt counted) wanted to lk for a new pair of shoes for date to go sch(: n date found 2 dat were rather nice(: at least both of us tot it was nice(: e 1st pair which date bought eventually was fr fila ^^ e other was a slightly pinky adi ^^ date wanted to make date's mum go w to novena again 2dae to buy e shoes since didnt ve enuf money. but i was so nice to swipe my card(: hehe. so date could bought it ytd juz b4 we went home(: went to lots of sports shop to lk for date's shoes. went to secret recipe for cakes aft shopping for sum tym(: i made dis sugary heart for date ^^ so sweet!!! n i paid for the cakes first(: we held hands for a while too. lol. anw we shopped again aft dat ^^ bought nail polish! went to o2skin n tried their nail polish(: painted 5 of my w tester. haha. n bought 2 small bottles in e end(: dey didnt ve e color i realli wanted though:( once again i took money fr my wallet. haha. saw lots of damn nice cards while shopping(: date saw a jacket w a silver butterfly on e front which was quite nice(: bought it ^^ i swiped my card again(: its lks quite small though cos its short. but 1 size bigger would b too big. date hate it when clothes r liddat. haha. rush home aft dat cos it was getting late.. heh. i had a gr8 vday!=D oh n i calculated n realised dat i used lyk $111.10 for date=/ heh. such a nice number. hahaha thx for such an awesome vday date!=D Saturday, February 14, 2009
special someone
2/14/2009 11:47:00 am
was in a random conversation...xt: joke la. i dont believe you can find someone special in like just 6days la. person x: din you find yours too (smirks) xt: ehhhhhhhhhh Damn confused now. Spamming "crush"
2/14/2009 01:30:00 am
very very super uber ultra damn confused. but shall tok abt YESTERDAY.went to school. slacked in CI room. I hate gg up to class. or rather i damn lazy. =\ went for bio spa. SO TADPOLICIOUS. break was taken up by MISS VIOLET(VIOLENT) TEO. but i witnesssed a very sweet scene. HEHE. (shiu an ahhhhhhhhhhhhh). and then GP was boring to the MAX. i am not that attracted to mr gabriel wee alrdy. though i still think his body is hot. and i am super interested about his _________. then bio lect was Mr Teo i think? OMG my life dominated by teo(s). SIAN. then met up with ig26 for gift distributing session =D I LOVE MY IG. then went to canteen see see song dedication booth. Fel dedicated mass dance 09 then all facils started dancing. LOL. JOKE JOKE JOKE? and yes, i was part of the joke. finished up my lunch and went for meeting. din even start on time. councillors were dancing in scc. NO GOVERNMENT. haha. then went for meeting. (: today meeting damn slack. END AT 6pm lor. WTH EARLY LIKE SIAO. took 2hrs to rch lex house for cg. SIAO LA. but cg was alright la. (: rched home at 12plus. with cabbing! so thats nt alright at all. =( ate leftover for dinner. went to bathe and then coughed. and there comes out all the lunch and dinner. marvellous. i think my body damn screwed. HAIIII. forget it. I CANT BELIEVE I AM SPAMMING THE SONG "CRUSH". siao la. but i rlly like the song for nao. HAI. damn it. why do i keep running from the truth. all i think about is you. learning to let go, understanding that we are meant for each other. keeping my emotions to myself, eliminate all feelings that i have for you. Thursday, February 12, 2009
I am damn unhappy NAO
2/12/2009 10:35:00 pm
i din have a great start for today. woke up and it was alright. until i left my house. the moment i left.. i coughed.. and i vomitted breakfast out. i coughed again and more breakfast came out. i only had a cup of cereal and then i donated it all to the dustbin. I JUST DONATED BLOOD YTD AND NOW MY CEREAL IS WANTED AS WELL. next.. to top it off, i vomitted blood. LIKE WTH. rephase.. cough out blood ): waited for 5hrs to get on the bus and when i rched tpy, i waited for another 5hrs to get my concession. made it to school with much effort cause i was so tired la. so lethargic everyday! i need energy.managed to chiong council stuff ytd for rockafella! thanks yating. you saved me again, as usual. but the sad thing is i din manage to tell her about the current state of my life. =( had rehearsal for SYF drama today. so i have a part to act liao. just say a few linesthen she put me in. somemore i din even do my best la. giggling through the crying part. maybe amkss has trained me well. LOLOL. maybe it is just in borne. i am v upset. super duper upset. i dunno why. ok i DO know why. i just refuse to accept reality ): i thought i was better than all this mess i am into. it sucks to like someone and be so uncertain about the other person's feeling and it sucks more to know that it is not going to work out. it is just that my heart cant seem to register that fact. and i hate to always put on a false front, smile when i rlly wna cry but at least this shit thing is helping it made me wanna cry. so it kinda built my mood for SYF drama. well done la, but i am damn tired. all i wanna do now is to let out some tears DAMN EMO NOW. i think crush is the nicest song ever. ): i wanna watch "he is just not that into you". kinda like the title of the movie la. Sunday, February 08, 2009
Bu ke yi ai shang ni.
2/08/2009 11:36:00 pm
Argh damn vexed now.work work work and more work. i think my whole week and weekend is burnt and instead of gg out on vday with bff, she should come my house and help me with studies. i need more coffee everyday now. I DUN WAN ALEVELS. if i screw up, then i cnnt even be toilet cleaner i think. =\ which is quite saddening. tml must go sch early copy my notes and stuff (: at least got copy notes make me feel less guilty lor ): I WNA GO SLP NOW! but i slept from 6-10 just now. OMG OKAY THE LAST DAY TT I WILL EVER SLEEP SO MUCH (: (as if) but nvm. XUETING AND IG26 FOR THE WIN Saturday, February 07, 2009
Hero
2/07/2009 10:28:00 pm
Damn it man, Orientation is over. means it's BACK TO SCHOOL. sian to the max la. no more ogling at cute guys. or rather.. CUTE GUY. i just look at 1 (: HEHEhappy abt cg multiplication. but RYAN I WILL MISS YOU TRUCKLOADS ): bff and i are stuck tgt agn! hw come i cant seem to get rid of her :P hah. she just left my house like half an hr ago! main pt is i like this song in hq blog. OST by Mariah Carey There's a hero If you look inside your heart You don't have to be afraid Of what you are There's an answer If you reach into your soul And the sorrow that you know Will melt away And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you It's a long road When you face the world alone No one reaches out a hand For you to hold You can find love If you search within yourself And the emptiness you felt Will disappear And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you Lord knows Dreams are hard to follow But don't let anyone Tear them away Hold on There will be tomorrow In time You'll find the way And then a hero comes along With the strength to carry on And you cast your fears aside And you know you can survive So when you feel like hope is gone Look inside you and be strong And you'll finally see the truth That a hero lies in you Thursday, February 05, 2009
4down, 2more to go!
2/05/2009 08:09:00 pm
Yup day 4 of orientation is officially over (:i hereby wanna say that i actually appreciate councillors MUCH MUCH more. not that the non sc facils are bad, i'm just nt used to it lurh. NOT ALL SC FACILS ARE VERY GOOD TOO. i mean if you're talking about being good at running away from responsibilities, some SC facils are definitely very good at you. i just wanna thank god that i am here and not dead and in heaven. cause there is too much good stuff in CJC alrdy. i am in charge of IG26, a bunch of i-dunno-whats. cause i aint rlly tt close to them. first day i was gamesmaster so i couldn't be with them. and this games thing caused me my high fever, so i wasn't on form on tues. weds was alright. TODAY JUST SUCKS. i am damn sorry i cant play the drums la. i am damn sorry i cant clap to the beat you want it la. sorry alright? zeus house is too mighty la, i cant do what you all want ok. i am damn busy with F.P alrdy, so no point in doing walk in also. i hate it when people have to PURPOSELY dig a role to fit you in. i am damn fine not doing walk in. i now uds why people can dislike their "house" so much. overall not like i enjoy orientation. its just tt my ig is quite likeable. sometimes they do silly things that make me laugh. i just wna thank MR ML! thanks for the ride and thanks for the advice (: i appreicate it. at least i know i am nt alone all by myself. i can do this man. i realised ever since china trip. i am much more independent (: i can run 2.4km alone i can run 2rounds around school alone i can plan stuff alone i can go rahrah alone i can give up someone i love so that someone else gets loved. i can ignore the loser who has been spamming my c-box (HAHA) i can survive without food for 12hrs (in school) i can be nice to pple i dun like. argh Sunday, February 01, 2009
JOKE
2/01/2009 01:35:00 am
......: i dont think its fair for you to blame the whole class...... and i thought cherie is your friend??? shouldnt you be more mature.... you are being selfish too..... wanting others to worship you too...to the dotty person. lol i dunno what to say. hah. obviously trying hard to talk sense into me when he/she knows nothing about the situation. nvm. like what poxian always say... "A for effort". good try. jiayou in making more sense in future. and btw cherie is still my friend. its nt abt cherie. given anyone else i would have wrote the same thing. its abt the issue nt the person involved in the issue. meaning even if its yishi(best best best best best friend), i would have posted this too. and sorry i dun need people to worship me, not dead yet. and of course i am selfish la, i should have just not come up with any idea for her right. in tt way everything she does will be her credit. i am damn selfish for coming up with ideas to help her do the card in a chinese traditional way plus mix creativity. i should so freaking reflect. like NAO(now) so freaking tired. need a rest damn badly ):
2/01/2009 01:12:00 am
left my house yesterday at 840.. hoping to reach home lastest by 8pm.. guess what i rched home at 1240am?!?! shiok or shiok? stupid or stupid? i cant believe i actually piah so hard for council la. somemore i am just hall decor -.- what the hell la.but v happy with my design though. i rock la. i never knew i could do so much also. i guess its the help of everyone. i am so tired i dunwan to bathe. arghhhhhhhhh. but i will go and bathe man. or nt stink the whole house la. can die. I CNNT STAND SOME PEOPLE. YES THEY SHOULD JUST SCRAM |
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