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敗 犬 |
I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart. I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web. Love is an addiction I can't quit. Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings. Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance? Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs. When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece. |
Friday, January 30, 2009
I NEED A BREAK.
1/30/2009 10:11:00 pm
XUETING IS STRESSED OUT. STOP GIVING SHIT TOO HER(like as if she hasn't had enough).this week of school is just shitty, and given tt i was only in school for 3days? it must have been really f up, TRUST ME. wed: sch and then stayed for council till VERY LATE(f). 7pm? then din manage to get blood donation done. double f. so forget it lor. thurs: sch then had china trip briefing stuff so din get to eat lunch. ate break at 10am.. did rockafella till 7plus? by the time reach home so late? 8pm? thats like 10hrs w/o food. fri(today): DID NOT HAVE BREAK. had pathetic cereal for breakfast. ate some of chongloon's bread for break, thanks brother. u're always there for me when i need u! or rather ur bread is always here (: had council at 1pm all the way till8plus? rched home and ate at 9. wahlau all these like testing my stomach. see if the acid will burn a hole in me. the worst thing is the f-ed up prize presentation for the chinese new yr card. yea i know cherie did everything.. did the painting.. and so it seems the whole card was done by her. and so the class worshipped her for tt. of course she must be given credit for the nice art work and stuff. but surely me and chong deserve some credit for coming out with the design? i thought of the happy NIU yr and the chinese words in spiral.. chong thought of the bull's tail and nose ring. just damn f-ed up that in the end cherie gets everything, i meant all the credit. like we are f-ing invisible. like we din contribute a f. i wanted to help paint and everything but since tt tym they insisted tt cherie should paint the card since i am so f-ing untalented la. it's like hello? talking about class unity? maybe i should just blame myself for being so untalented la. i dont deserve it. though hongyun was really nice to shout my name when mr lim announced we won. but still. that small voice of hongyun was drowned out by all the voices who shouted "cherie".. i can still rmb chongloon saying "its ok la, its a class effort".. i dont even think the rest of the class gave a fabout it. SCREW THE CLASS. I HATE IT SO MUCH. and like the class is not f-ed up enough.. council is damn stresssssssssssssssssssssing. i turned up to class and 3 people asked me why i look so stress. by 20 i will look like i have given birth to 20kids. mother of 20 and a dying husband. somewhere along that line. blood donation, rockafella, orientation. I JUST WANNA CLOSE MY EYES AND SLEEP AND NOT THINK ABOUT IT. and all the stupid test and FA coming up. i am so f-ing tired i just wanna drop everything. drop dead and die. this very moment. the last thing that is so upsetting is to know tt i rlly dont matter to you. tt i am so foolish to not move on. that i am so f-ed up cause i should know tt i am nothnig to you. and i will never be anything to you. i have been crying damn alot these few days. mostly due to dry contact lens. but today just couldn't control. i unglamly teared at the bus stop. so freaking loser. it is always at night when wild thoughts enter my mind. and i find it very hard to focus on what is important to me. i should just brace myself.. its just a few more months. i kinda forgot mass dance :( Wednesday, January 28, 2009
tired tired drained drained
1/28/2009 11:58:00 pm
MASS PE TOTALLY SUCKED MY ENERGY AWAY! :Di wasn't the last few to come in this time round, freaking miraculous man! given that i walked the second round around the school! what the hell man??!! maybe walked thats why never come back last few.. i walk faster than i run -.- thats what longl egs are for right. but i think i super underperform during dynamics exercise. i freaking gave up doing straight jump la. and my SBJ is super bad(as usual). still at 2.5m (joking, prolly 1.4m) but at least i din die or what la. XUETING JIAYOU! bio tut was like ZZZ, literally cause everyone was falling asleep ): i rlly wanted to pay attention. the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. haha. or rather i was just in a bad mood ): neh mind! ate lunch with hongyun and neva. i frigging love them la. so cute la my pw grp members and ebc members. whee. then went for council! whiched sucked my energy(note tt i alrdy have v little left due to mass pe).. then damn draining. but was kinda slack during council.. cause everyone like damn sian also. ): i am just damn tired.. but was glad to leave!! went tpy w hy to meeet clar (: sat at MOS BURGER and talked and vandalised my handbook =p then went off. thanks sexies for sending me to the bus-stop! i am still the sexiest :D SUPER TIRED. came home and was so tired i think i frigging slept awhile b4 dragging my fat-filled body to the bathroom to bathe. DAMN IT. i think i will look like a zombie when orient starts man. OMG AND ORIENT SHIRT DAMN TRANSPARENT. ONCE WET MEANS DIE. ARGH! note to self: stop slacking, eat vitamin c, and collect scan results, ask doctor abt LBP! Monday, January 26, 2009
Frienship
1/26/2009 10:12:00 pm
Now, your idea of a good friend is still the personwho gives you the better of the two choices. Holds your hand when you're scared. Helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you. Thinks of you at times when you are not there. Reminds you of what you have forgotten. Helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer. Stays with you so that you have confidence. Goes out of their way to make time for you. Helps you clear up your mistakes. Helps you deal with pressure from others. Smiles for you when they are sad. Helps you become a better person. However most importantly loves you! friendship, damn it. such a simple word. but it's screwing up my life. llala
1/26/2009 02:28:00 am
http://you.video.sina.com.cn/b/7632304-1322655024.html
DAMN IT I AM ADDICTED
1/26/2009 12:07:00 am
http://www.watchthelword.net/page/7i have to post this link. just in case the freaking comp can get working and let me watch my sexy THE L WORD. argh... i am dying liao. withdrawal symptoms lor! I CNNT STAND IT ANYMORE! :D it's too nice. guess it's not that bad being a lesbian, or is it? why the world like that? SHANE! Katherine Moening is SO HOT Sunday, January 25, 2009
proud to be a cjcian (:
1/25/2009 06:51:00 pm
GO WATCH THIS VIDEO PEOPLE.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ya7Y9gO_W5o i am not from cjc dance but i guess our dance too goood too goooooooooooooooooooooood alrdy. ELEVATOR, WOMANIZER, FREAKSHOW. yes man, like the emcee script says.. the dance is sure to sweep you off your feet and SEAT(added by me). get ready for some action! (: totally blown away okay! note this cute guy in black shirt and red scarf. SEXY DANCER (: omg la. IT IS A FREAKSHOW. i never realised he dance so sexily (: but yeap, no loveo r crush. just admiring his dance moves okay (: STILL FAITHFUL TO SHANE! WAHHHHH, she is and will be the one and only (: packing sucks! argh!
1/25/2009 03:44:00 pm
i found your fingerprints on my shattered heart.the love that you promised as never fulfilled. i am a lousy spider; entangled in a love web. i am the center of gravity, get attracted! you weren't the past, you are not the present, i guess you wont be my future either. i try so hard to fly but your love weighs me down, i try so hard to forget you but memories of us keep coming around PACKING MY HOUSE NAO. DAMN DIRTY ARGH! Stay With Me - 蔡旻佑
1/25/2009 12:55:00 am
日光离开夜钢琴键离开了指尖 小提琴离开了音乐 泪水离开眼 五线谱离开了和弦 我却离不开你的画面 找遍世界 想找一种永远 在你周围 想留住时间 Stay With Me 留你在我身边 把眼泪埋进我胸前 把一切抛弃在后面 Stay With Me 不准让你走远 你是这个世界唯一相信的不变 夕阳离开街 十二点离开了昨天 偶像剧离开了配乐 听你的誓言 像音符弹奏在耳边 我们的爱没有完结篇 找遍世界 想找一种永远 在你周围 想留住时间 Stay With Me 留你在我身边 把勇气放进心里面 把一切不可能实现 Stay With Me 不准让你走远 世界那么善变 爱是唯一的不变 Stay With Me 留你在我身边 把勇气放进心里面 把一切不可能实现 Stay With Me 不准让你走远 世界那么善变 爱是唯一的不变 你是这个世界唯一相信的不变 oh~~ Kinda emo, the truth always hurts
1/25/2009 12:02:00 am
Woke up at 11am today, I guess it’s relatively early given that I slept at 2am this morning. A round of applause for myself. Listening to Womanizer, it is like my favourite song now. Not that it is new or what, just that I think someone is a womanizer, like honestly.Supposed to meet William at 1245 to buy New Year snack for cg but I was late! So in the end he went to buy then I met him at Bedok then walked to cg together. I think walking with someone is so much better than walking alone la. At least talking distracts you from the sun!! Like as if I am not hot enough, the sun got to shine so ever brightly. Which is so totally annoying cause I am already damn black or rather tanned. But we got to rayner’s house safely and cg was fun la. Games was rather funny cause William totally owned me cause he scared me! I think I too lousy liao lor! Our team lost but I guess sportsmanship is most important la, if you shu bu qi, THEN DUN PLAY LOR. Yes I am directing this at someone in particular but don’t get me wrong. I don’t hate you, I just hate the way you behave like a loser when it comes to games. Overall fellowship was quite fun la. Rushed for service since there is no service on Sunday. I am going to play a prank on Seowli tomorrow, call her and scare her. Anyhow, service was great la. I think Pastor Kong is totally awesome. Today’s message is like one of the best messages ever. Great way to start the Chinese New Year knowing that god is the god of Chinese people. It’s a damn awesome feeling la, was totally blown away by the message. Went out with Ryan, Yishi, William, Evan, Evonne, Marvin and Jinghui to Bugis! We just talk crap on the way there la, that was how ARM FAT DAY was founded. HAHA. I guessed EBC is just too great la! =D How awesome can we great please? With a pragmatic President, a resourceful Vice President and an efficient Assistant Vice President, we are Singapore’s future leaders! LOL. Met Hongyun at Bugis then Ryan, Shi, Hy and I went to meet Sara for dinner.. at 9pm! Totally late and crowded siah, but kway chap is worth every bit of my body’s fats. LOL. Walked to Bugis street but Ryan and Sara had to leave so Hy and Shi and I walked around lo, really liked a pair of shoe but din buy it cause wasn’t ready to part with my $26 for a pair of shoe which I don’t think can last for 1yr. I am just damn chor lor with shoes, so only sports shoes which are durable are worth the splurge! But Hy and Shi left also so I went to look for William and Evan and Jinghui. Walked around then I went home also. Damn tired now and I just cannot get some people and things off my mind. I should learn to take things lightly.. if I am not worth their time.. they are not worth my time. So I should move on and stop thinking about useless crap. I should honestly focus more on studies! Or I will end up retaining. Cause if I fail CT, I can go bang the wall, in a physical and sexual way. I will be damn dead if I freaking retain. All that I did for orientation will be freaking wasted la… NO WAY MAN. Retaining is the last thing I want. To be exact, I don’t even want it. I am so freaking tired.. I want to sleep like NAO. I love you, if you know who you are (: Saturday, January 24, 2009
thinking of you AGAIN
1/24/2009 01:04:00 am
hai, damn emo. feb17 is going to come ): SIAN SIAN SIAN. feb 17 dun come can anot?????? damn sian! but feb 17 is also sushan's birthday! damn contradicting la ): I RLLY DUNNO WHAT TO SAY! i just damn emo ):because you left, i was torn apart just wait and see, i'll mend my own heart only for myself and not for you reminding myself that i won't feel nor tear for you. Friday, January 23, 2009
happy chinese new year
1/23/2009 11:44:00 pm
omg la. NEW YEAR CELEBRATION damn cool. at least the stupid emcee-ing is over alright! i am sure all of you remember HONGYUN as WAHSEH. =D so dude, now you more popular than me in school alrdyyyyyyy la :D highlights of the day shouldbe hongyun's wahseh, fulin's hahaha and me and clara's professional emceeing skill. totally siannnnned by facil stuff. as in just very sian to end at 438, when francis said lastest was 3pm lor. i just feel very bad for making bff wait like an idiot. argh.. din manage to get my report. was suppose to rch tantockseng at 4.. but released at 438, like wth la. din wanna leave early JUST IN CASE people buaysong. this is not a suggestive sentence or comment or whatever, but i guess i prefer PEOPLE WHO ARE STRAIGHTFORWARD. thanks for showing me the BUAYSONG face. =D totally appreciate it. went to novena to meet bff and bought black top for orientation. ZEUS IS THE BEST HOUSE! :D walked arnd w bff somemore and decided to have steamboat so asked hy over :D so we ate abnd we bitched and we ate and we bitched. =) then stupid yishi go back early. then hy and i washed up and watched youtube video!!! so no life right? :P BLEHHHHHHHH sent hy to busstop.. so devastated to find that HAPPY DE SPA is gone.. now is some CLUB 188? wtf? sianl. anyway got more things in life to be sian about. SO NOW DOUBLY TRIPLY SIAN. i just want a good bathe and i want to sleep. or not eyebags tml siah ):I LOVE BFF AND YATI(maid aka hongyun) i must say STEAMboat is very nice. (: let us not forget our pact! share with each other 7yrs down the road. about **** *** we can share different perspective (: WAHAHA (: MEOW I'M STILL ALIVE
1/23/2009 12:06:00 am
yes its a miracle, i am stil alive, and blogging when i should be sleeping. cause I'll be waking up in 6hrs time. DAMN IT. argh.goodnight, thank god i am still alive.. YOU'RE A WOMANIZER >=[ Monday, January 19, 2009
HELLO ELIBERDY
1/19/2009 08:36:00 pm
I can never protect something that don't belong to me. should have established this long ago, but its ok, it ain't too late.had a great day in school. was doing work in class early in the morning cause I slacked through the weekend. all the steamboat partying and ECP was too much for a slacker like me. and need I add, BLOGGING? hah, but was fun during assembly lurh, did ROCKAFELLA announcement. I dunno whatwas wrong with me, I was just damn anal about holding the pompoms. Kinda had a row with Grace also, I know I shouldn't be so anal. I know how it feels like to have people not wanting to do what you ask them to do.. so I shouldn't even be anal abouti t. Hold pompoms hold pompoms la, not like anyone would notice it is XUETING. I frigging hate myself for being such an anal person. I deserve a slap. argh.. but I guessed we did quite a good job la, I hope. Doesn't matter.. it's all over. Not all things in life are reciprocated, especially love.. After assembly had bio tutorial, MR YEOW honestly too cute plus sexy. He is just plain adorable for a man his age, I like him and MY FRIEND(you know who you are) like him too. Isn't he just so lovable? argh.. next was like break. chongloon and i just spent the whole of break eating bread. YES I AM PATHETIC. i am just rlly broke and in debt thats why i dont go down for breaks anymore.. i am not trying to avoid anyone or what.. i am just trying hard to save money. but i guess i will be eating break in class foreverrrrrrrrrrr lor, since i have a break partner to stuff bread with. HAHA, its like back in sec sch days, when amanda and i had no money to eat.. we will just eat cup noodles. joke =\ and somemore now all the handsome cute boys graduate, no incentive to walk 5storeys down and up again. yes during chem tutorial.. miss teo finally admit she is pregnant :D I KNEWWWW IT haha. but i hate chem tut cause i am always damn lost lahhhhh! argh.. and i am really not catching up with work.. i should totally stop slacking. or not will be last in class again! everyone is mugging.. YES EVERYONE. i should just wake up and not spend so much time on useless things. esp on unimportant things and people.. like for example stop pondering over whether my gp teacher is gay or not and if he is striaght will i get a chance with him. HAH had maths and it was boring as usual. gp was great. anything that includes gabriel wee is great. =D HE IS TOO AWESOMEEEEE. i never enjoyed doing a compre tt much lar. he just makes me happy (: went to eat lunch with HY CLAR N BOK. did some pull ups also. ok i meant fake pull ups, i just hang neh pull. stupid bokseng hongyun and chongloon all laugh at me. all you suckers. i hate you all. HAHA, naw joking. i love you all la =P but it was damn hilarious la. eat lunch and then started on chinese ppt. which is unfinished ARGH. i hate it. so ridiculous and stupid. =\ NEH MIND you xie ren bu bi deng dai leave me alone, alone to bleed leave me alone, let me die in my sleep you say you'll be back but look at the time why not just tell me truth, you'll never be mine Sunday, January 18, 2009
1/18/2009 02:58:00 pm
OohOoh, ooh Ooh, ooh From the minute that you got my attention I was taken and I have to mention I was trying to not let it show But I knew I wasn't gonna let you go From the way that you came right to me Looking all hot with the style that threw me No one would've ever known it You would be the one who take this heart and hold it You got that extraordinary way Got to be next to ya every single day You do something that I just can't explain Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me Ooh, I love you so Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go Yeah Do you know it Ooh, I love you so Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go I just want you to know You can say anything you want to No stress 'cause I understand you We got a vibe you can't define Wanna everyone know that boy is mine We won't fight and stop and stare at the way you hold me You take me there at times I feel I lose control Forget everyone but the hand I'm holding You got that extraordinary way Got to be next to ya every single day You do something that I just can't explain Wanna take the chance and tell you you're the one for me Ooh, I love you so Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go Yeah Can you feel it Ooh, I love you so Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go I just want you to know Please know this I'll always be right here And you don't have to look Nowhere else babe Don't think for a minute This love will change Oh you should know that Ooh, I love you so Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go Yeah Can you feel it Ooh, I love you so Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go I just want you to know Ooh, I love you so Just look in my eyes, they'll tell you where this could go Yeah Can you feel it Ooh, I love you so Look in these eyes, they'll tell you where this could go I just want you to know Saturday, January 17, 2009
thanks people, you all rocked :D
1/17/2009 11:42:00 pm
WOKE UP EARLY TO GO FOR DENTAL APPT. not exactly early la, 10plus but still.. I hate the dentists.. drill extract pluck pull screw. but the session went quite ok la, survived it. then went for cell group. sit the bus until my butt rot lor! gave offering message.. was a bit shaky la, partly cause of voice spoil(pirated version of BRAIN SPOIL, a t25 joke), and partly cause damn long never give so abit shaky la. fellowship for awhile then went to find hongyun. cause cherie and neva late! horrible people. the 4 of us freaking cycled damn long la.. we cycled for like damn long then went to this place take some pics then cycled back. cause cherie and neva went so fast we couldn't catch up so hongyun and i bought coconut juice. i drank 1/4 le put in bicycle basket then it freaking spilled to left 1/4 lor! then i finished the drink then put it in. then i put my bag also. then in the end hongyun wanted to put his in my basket so i nice la ok la let him put. tragedy happen.... the cup of coconut juice spill on me and flew out of the basket cause i was cycling on some rocky areas. stupid hongyun just kept laughing la. horrible shit. but we returned the bikes and went towards boonkeng's seng siong. silly vivien and chongloon actually got lost cause they forgot to alight.. SUPER BLUR. in the end only hongyun cheire and i and neva went to buy food for steamboat. wahlau $47 lor. hahha. like funfair lidat! carried it home and went to meet vivien and chongloon cause they finally found the way to my house. the whole gang of us just started preparing and everything la. like cooks wanna be. then we just sit and eat and joke. then clarence joined us. then we eat and joke somemore. haha, it was a fun experience la. when my mum helped to take pictures. she freaking obiang la. say 123 like shout command lidat. piangs. dad was abit better. then vivien left.. so we continue eating.. then chongloon neva and cherie(boobs) left also. so only left hy clar and i sit down in the living room likea bunch of pregnant ladies!! so full lor! eat like no tomorrow lor.OMG LISTENING TO "ANGEL" NOW back to eating.after tt clar n hy left too. i went back and packed. and did some washing up. haha. bathed and i damn tired now =\ i wanna sleep. there's service tml and i have all my homework undone. i am dead like nothing siah. WE TALKED ABOUT MR GABRIEL WEE AT EAST COAST. OMG I CNNT GET HIS IMAGE OUT OF MY MIND :D HE CAUSES GLOBAL WARMING. haha. but i think i should be faithful to ELVIN. sorry elvin, i still love you. hehe. elvinnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn Friday, January 16, 2009
omg funny
1/16/2009 11:47:00 pm
was looking for songs then tried finding a song which i danced to in pri sch. wont a prize somemore! dance competition.yishi you will miss this! BESTFRIEND:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BAfu2MBYEew the next few just damn old and huai nian. SAILOR SONG:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NDErgD9YNyc&NR=1 SUPER DUPER MAN:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3XRFdFKvQgI&feature=related happy day :D
1/16/2009 11:10:00 pm
had a great start today. totally went for check... by the pe tcher. he wanted to check my socks. wth.. SO ANNOYING! anyway got to class.had gp and bio today. seriously my bio teacher is like the nicest man on earth. so i am lucky. he looks kinda cute too lol. and next.. my gp tcher is the hottest man in cj la, since gabriel rod left =p OMG i just realised my gp tcher is a gabriel too :D and my gp tcher being so hot and sexy makes me a double lucky girl =) had make up chem lesson after bio lect.. but wasn't listening.. CAUSE.. i was thking about my gp tcher =\ goodness i should reflect. =\ damn it. had lunch w classmates and then went for cny emcee thing. should be grateful to get in la.. since i never get in for oientation de. bloody waste my time la. council sucks. argh. monday doing announcement for rockafella. everybody pls support =) ate w hy just now. CHEER UP DUDE. i am here :D YEAAAHHH 2highlights in my life 1. i am in chinese cultural society. this is my 2nd cca. cause i want to perform for syf drama :D 2. i have an eye candy now :D super cute :D Thursday, January 15, 2009
i want to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep
1/15/2009 11:55:00 pm
so frigging tired. my eyebags are bigger than my eyes already. and i have so damn alot to do la. council proposals, cny emcee shit. DAMN IT. can the world stop? and yes, i should NOT waste my time on blogging. but the few days of school have been damn jialat for me alrdy. only 4days and i am reduced to a wrinkled piece of paper. goodness man. tomorrow got 3 bio period. LIFE SUCKS MAN. honestly.. nothing gets worse than this!! but i will overcome it. after prientation and rockafella and blood donation i wna rest lor! :D but i doubt can la.orienation emcee nt final also. sian i hate to be at the mercy of others. or rather i hate to be chosen by PEERS. its just weird to have peers judging peers. AWKWARD AND AWFUL. its like such a strained r/s. i dun second tt. this kind of judging shit.. next time i just ask tchers to do and make decisions. make things and life happier for everyone. damn it. my eyes and fingers are giving in to fatigue. ARGH. bye every1. tml will be better i guess? hope? wish? pray? Wednesday, January 14, 2009
this is going to be emo so bear with it.
1/14/2009 11:35:00 pm
these few days have been so miserable. i forgot the last time i cried so miserably for a friend. i forgot the last time i drank tears. but i know this is just the starting. i will cry more and swallow more tears. listening to "Empty", the lyrics: maybe we're trying, trying too hard. Yes maybe i shouldn't even try. some things are beyond my control. I used to be so confident about f/s.. but now.. our f/s is so shaky, so vulnerable. could it be that we never had a strong foundation? perhaps you dont rlly know me and i dont rlly know you. and yes, we might never have achance to ever find out abt each other again. we will start by not hanging out much, then we will talk lesser, then we will just not talk. next we will become hi bye friends which will be reduced to passerbys then total complete stranger. we are like enclosed in 2 different worlds, and the thing that prevent us from talking to each other, from opening up to each other is trust. when people say "things will never be the same again". i used to think abt it negatively.. until i found you.. then i think to myself.. it can never be the same again because it is only going to get better. but i guess i am wrong, all along i have been wrong. when people say this.. it is normally a bad sign. the only comforting thing i bear in mind is that we once had great memories, and we were there for each other. all these past tense i am using just made me feel more nostalgic about the past. the shuffle is on "退后", why all emo songs only.. which reminded me.. i cut a bit of my wrist today in the chem lect. damn it, life is too emo alrdy. I NEED TO MOVE ON.so many questions that i pose to myself yet i have answers to none of these questions my mind is so weak, i am so tired my soul needs a resurrection so many times when i feel like giving up especially when i feel so sore i always remember what you said "someone is worth fighting for" Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Tired.
1/13/2009 09:47:00 pm
damn tired, physically and emotionally drained. It's not easy being me. Sometimes you can try so hard, but you get nothing in return.I AM SO TIRED OF CRYING. I AM SO TIRED OF WIPING MY EYES WITH TISSUE. I HATE MY SWOLLEN EYES. nibuhuimingbaiwoweishemehuirucijueqing jiuxiangwoyongyuanyebuhuimingbainiweishemekeyizhemerongyijiubawoqudai anyone wanna cut wrist together? can contact me asap. Monday, January 12, 2009
1st day of school =D congrats
1/12/2009 08:56:00 pm
Congrats first 2 lesson no lesson =p AND I DAMN HENG. i din do duty today cause i was busy refering to my friend's work. HAHA. but the point is assembly damn long.. cause santa claus talk damn long ): 2hrs of class interaction damn goooooooooooooooooood la. apparently i sit beside some ugly now la! omg chongloon is gna kill me but SORRY U'RE UGLY(HAHA). and i dun like to sit beside mugger.. i'll damn stress de ): SIAN. argh.went for break. i can sense the weird feeling btw us, it's damn obvious... but you know what? if u dun care for me.. i dont give a damn about you too. just damn emo abt orientation stuff. talked to mich and xavier.. nt tt i want talk to them. IS THEY WANTED TO TALK TO ME. damn sian. good and bad outcomes good: i didn't compromise and i didn't cry :D bad: i cried after i left the council room. and my pe tcher who saw me in pe like 20mins b4 the talk SAW ME CRYING LIKE A WIMP. i look like such a loser. ITS OKAY. I AINT GUNA GIVE UP. I AM NT GNA GIVE IN TO RIDICULOUS DEMANDS. NO WAY NO WAY NO WAY! XUETING ALL THE WAY. yes i m guna keep my stand NO MATTER WHAT. unless BP, TJS OR LCK personally tell me that i cnnt be the emcee. OR NT I M NT GUNA GIVE IN. some things in life are worth fighting for.. someone said this to me " someone(you) in life is worth fighting for." DAMN IT. ARGH Sunday, January 11, 2009
xueting is emo elmo
1/11/2009 11:38:00 pm
只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里梦想中 属於我们的婚礼 却成了 单人结婚进行曲 在这场爱情角力的拔河里 爱我还是爱你 你选择了自己 wo~ 撒娇的 可爱的 迷人的 爱哭的 照片里 曾经的 都是你喜欢的 如今我还在原地 你却走回你的记忆 你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没 你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落 分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过 我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我 你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽 分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑 爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛 沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你 只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里 梦想中 属於我们的婚礼 安静了 在我枕边的梦里 我知道相爱原本就不容易 爱不是一加一 努力就有结局 wo~ 撒娇的 可爱的(撒娇的 可爱的) 迷人的 爱哭的(迷人的 爱哭的) 照片里 曾经的 都是爱着你的 连假的泪还温热却没有人握我的手 你说我爱你太多 就快要把你淹没 你害怕幸福 短暂一秒就崩落 分开是一种解脱 让你好好的想过 我想要的那片天空 你是不是能够给我 你说我给你太多 却不能给我什麽分 不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑 爱情是一道伤口 我们各自苦痛 沉默是我最後温柔 是因为我太爱你 EBC LASTEST OUTING! AT TEOHENG :D
1/11/2009 08:30:00 pm
woke up at 740 today :D bathed and then met BFF to go church tgt =)arrived at 9! met seowli too =) tricked seowli abt my GLOW IN THE DARK shirt. seowli so gullible laaaaaaaaaaaaa! cutesy. praise and worship was good. but the word was the best la. OMG JOHN BEVERE damn good looking lor. he honestly look too cute too cute. after svc went to withdraw $ w ryan. then marvin knew tt ebc having outing =\ then evangeline knew also. HAAH. anyhow EBC went to buy coke(not cock) at 7-11 =p then we headed to the busstop. THEN WE SPAM YISHI'S DOUGHNUT. so annoying la ryan kept asking us to do lesbo pose! we took bus 12 and it took us frigging long to rch the silly place. we totally start singing and took videos WAHAHAHAH. the highlights of today are: "hao xin fen shou", "girlfriend", "sexy naughty bitchy" and a hell lot of songs la. my silly club members v bad, when i sang xin bu liao qing.. they totally laugh cause they saw its damn oldies la =( wahlau i like to huai nian mahhhhh! the most classic should be GIRLFRIEND bah, yishi and i fought to be ryan's next girlfriend. it's funny cause i was ryan's EX! haha. and xiao jiu wo la. honestly if we upload those videos nobody wna b our friends le lor!!! so i guess we must filter first. those nt so siao de then can upload bah or not facebook only got 2 friends HAHAH. we must remain very reputable :D i received presents from my club members today! ryan gave an ultra cute hamster postcard! :D to remind me tt i am a hamster killer =p yishi gave me PI PA GAO and cutesy paper clips and a EBC BOOKLET FOR RYAN AND I :D goooooooodness la. sweetness my club memers =p after teoheng singing session we went to eat katong laksa andl aughed at LIU YI DAO. wth right.. then we went home. oh no! i went tpy w yishi :D then went home HEHE. i love my club members. photos and videos ltr :D Saturday, January 10, 2009
现实中幸福永远缺货
1/10/2009 08:50:00 pm
i like my blog title for this post. cause its damn true. its 9oclock arldy! i shall go and bathe.. pack my bag for church and school of course. i am going back to prison on monday. AND I AM SINGING NATIONAL ANTHEM(thanks the andre the bitch, haha). what a sabo la, i forever zou ying one ): i rlllllllllllllllllllllly dunwan to sing during morning assembly! i just want to pull flag leh =\ i want to be LOW PROFILE haha. damn it, i have to make sure tt i can sing on monday. both songs somemore! argh, anthem and school song. I HARDLY KNOW THE NATIONAL ANTHEM. screwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwed la. =(and my chem homeowkr not done! whatever hydroxyl tutorial la! I FREAKING DUN UDS. notes dun have answer also. ARGH. shouldn't take chem h2 in the first place. BLOODY HELL. i suck at all my subjects. WHY AM I IN A JC? kuku. this stupid feeling of emptiness sinks in when school is about to start. the damn class. the damn cca. the damn canteen food. I HATE SCHOOL. cant wait for alevels to be over, then i will go find a job and make money! WHOO. then have to wait for results and try to squeeze into a uni(if can get in la). then will graduate.. then get married give birth wait for children to grow up then wait for my turn to die. DAMN NICE NAISE NICE
1/10/2009 07:56:00 pm
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q6Amis1W1vc&feature=relatedby my love:CAO GE Open House was a GREAT SUCCESS
1/10/2009 11:28:00 am
honestly, to me OH 2009 was damn good (: so it really doesn't matter to me even when TJS gave such a sucky debrief about it. to me, i think its VEH NAISE. i dunwan to think about how bad it is compared to other JCs. so yea, it doesn't matter (: i had fun doing duty.. wearing cute boards and doing the "questions? ask me!" dance! and of course watching performances in the pac la. omg the freaking choir damn ZAi. argh. i want to go find the girl and take up singing lessons from her, she totally imbar one okay!!!!!!! emcee-ing for irish and cheryl was good effort man, a bit of stutter here and there.. blah blah. dance was damn good even though i watch the perfromance b4 -.- cause our dance is too goooood too gooooooooooooood. and oh i help to bring people around. 2girls from scgs and 2guys from ACS(I). One of the ACS guy look damn familiarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! but not tt I think he cute or what ok, just familiarrr! And yes, ytd I danced with Andre for mass dance to showcase our very own Cjc mass dance to the public. It's too gooooood tooo goooooooooood liao la! After the whole OH and 2hr debrief(hah), CI packed up abit and grabbed all the freeeeeebies. LOLOLOLOLOL. Obviously we dont have lanyard la. DAMN IT. Suck la, I want the lanyard lor! =( its damn nice can! Argh ): neh mind, I lost my black lanyard from Prom de ): EMOOOZZZXX. I think lanyard damn cool la, but print damn ex lah! Siao de. however, the lanyards are damn sexy. Went for CI dinner, actually 5 people only la.I MUST SAY I AM DAMN PISSED W SUM PPLE. GROSS AND SELFISH. SUCKER. OH YES, I AM NT THE ONLY 1 DISGUSTED. SHITZO. Anyhow, i went to collect my fone again.. from St Michael's terminal though, not sony erisson service repair center. I freaking lost the fone on the bus la.. then i called the terminal.. they found it and sent it back ot st michael's terminal. YAY (: or not i have to tell my mother right.. i will be damn emo la! =\ Thank God I found it (: BFF COMING VOER LTR. YES THERE IS HOPE FOR MATHS AND CHEM PAPER. I AM SO NT GUNNA DO ECONS PROJECT. SCREW IT. Thursday, January 08, 2009
GAME!
1/08/2009 12:23:00 am
kopped from CATHERINE.The rules are simple. 1. You shall put your music player on shuffle. 2. You shall press forward for each question. 3. You shall use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING! 4. You shall give your own comments on how it relates to the questions. How are you feeling today? ni bu yao shuo bao qian eh this is harder than GP. ask me to stop saying sorry to myself and others? or rather ask the person who made me upset not to bother about apologising? do you know i dunno what this means though. do you know? ): Will you get far in life? guan huai fang shi. maybe I will go far in life if I am more caring ehh? wu jin de si nian. i get far by having aloto f memories? HUH. i dunno damn random. How do your friends see you? Do You Know eh, if they know they know lor. If they dunno, I also dunno gao shou. i guess i too good too goooood What is your best friend's theme song? 808 eh i will have 808bestfriends? gao xiao? omg this is seriously getting hilarious =\ What is the story of your life? Linger. omg, so true. as least for story of my lovelife. heaven knows sorry on earth now.. so i guess i dont know? =p What was high school like? yuan you hui. eh i treated highschool like a funfair? TRUETRUE. everyday have fun neh study =\ in the ayer OMG YES THROW UR HANDS IN THE AIR AND DANCE! How can you get ahead in life? My happy ending. okay, I can get ahead go anyway and have a happy ending. yay man. chen zao by making use of the opportunity while i still can! What is the best thing about your friends? if you come back erm, after they slip away they come back? take control they control my life so i dun screw up like SOME PEOPLE What is in the store for this weekend? zhu wo sheng ri kuai le i am damn lonely this week? or will be lonely next week? the man who cant be moved yes pls, sumone wait for me at the corner? How is your life going? love remains the same. yes the state of my love life remains the same. damn my life aint gg anywhere yi sheng jue wang OMG DAMN IT. why such a song :X What song will they play on your funeral? All rise. omg, maybe i will resurrect? good joke man. girls on top. LOL THIS IS FUNNY. who dancing on top of my funeral! =\ What do your friends really think about you? Superman (from hot shot) yay i am superman! wheeeee. wo shi superman ni shi loser =\ this aint a scene, it's an arm race. WTH? eh i have no comments... Do people secretly lust about you? Yes I love You (SHE) i guess people rlly love me huh.. baby baby i guess what it rlly means is "maybe maybe" How can I make myself happy? If I never see your face again omg, this is so freaking funny. HAHA. but whose face leh.. SECRET SECRET wu fa gui lei i cant categorize how i can be happy :X What should you do with your life? cang ying de yan lei what has my life gotta do with flea's tears? maybe it's a hint to ask me take a wider look of my life. HAHA lucky omg? just try my luck in everything? ZZZZ Will you ever have children? You make me wanna. haha, sounds horny i guess!!! break it off. HAHAHAAHAHAHHA. sorry it's such a horny answer =\ i am just interested in what i must break off. LOL as you can see, orange is when i played it for the 1st time on 27th of dec. the red one is the new one :D enjoy! Wednesday, January 07, 2009
meet-ting-day
1/07/2009 11:28:00 pm
went to school. did a hell lot of work. why the hell did i even bother to stay back so late to pack council stuff. I nt suppose to care le lor, sian diao. Still stay back so late like as if i am superman lor. do so much, even forgot lunch. until i carry the m1 bags till i wna faint.. like physically i couldn't see for a while. i bet its gt sth to do with the low blood pressure tt my ocotr has been mentioning.. argh! wth la. but today jaslin said she will hire me in her factory next tym, so i guess a levels i will just try my best la, i alrdy gt a job in the future. haha. i was damn tired but i travelled to tpy to give hy his jacket.. then i met ting for lunch lor! we ate doujiangyoutiao and rojak! :D then we went shopping. WHEEi bought damn alot today, I SUCK. argh. Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Open house can CLOSE DOWN liao la
1/06/2009 11:59:00 pm
i should never have bothered about open house.initially i dun care then i chose to care then dun care then care and it keeps changing until the day i was asked to cancel ebc outing to move boxes i decided yes i should care about council. esp open hse is my wing's event the more i shld make sure it goes well as a hod seriously i am just another substitute. when they have nobody to be the emcee they will ask me, and blah now they found sumone they just kick me aside la to prevent such events from happening in my life agn.. i will NEVER volunteer my help to any council events again i am not willing to be your last resort i will let the event crash. it doesn't concern me AT ALL. since i am nt impt at all. to make things worse.. tml i still have to turn up for council meeting its like saying yes when u dun mean it but i guess for this wing, we dont have a choice this sucks honestly. I HATE COUNCIL and yes other than openhouse, i do hate orientation la. maybe it's been a mistake to changep artner. DAMN IT. Cat will NEVER dump me to dance with some other people i am sure even if she had a bf, she will dance w me lor. damn it, advantage of dancing w michael is tt i dun have to feel weird dancing w a girl disadvantage, half the time he will be gone to dance with gwen TODAY :D woke up and talked to hongyun. i am glad everything is fine again. i am feel sry for him and myself. but thats beside the point. called bff and we decided to collect fone in the afternoon. slacked around the house for a bit and packed my room. ate lunch and waited for yishi to come :D she ate lunch while i bathe and she cleaned the bowls. HAHA THANKS BFF :D we went to orchard and SONY ERICSSON was damn disappointing. takes damn long to repair my fone, LOUSY LOUSY tsk tsk. so yishi and i went to watch YESMAN. it's a freaking nice show la, i like :D then we rushed to sch for band concert yo. i tot damn little people la, apparently its damn packed la. what the helllll! had to sat at some ulu place and i fell asleep. was happy in the end cause the ending piece damn good :D i happen to look for liwen bel and tianyu during the intermission and tianyu was like teasing me.. arghhhhhhhh. tianyu i am gg to take ur life la. STOP IT STOP IT. long story, shitzo. went home and camwhored w bff on the bus. walked home and was damn tired. ate a bit more of dinner and then talked to huanqing. ate part 2 of dinner and talked to EX BOYFRIEND on the fone. haha. went to bathe in the end, so damn tired of life. I AM SORRY I AM SO ANAL. IF U R ASKING IF I HAV TO SHOW MY TEMPER TO YOU, THEN THE ANSWER IS YES. CAUSE I THINK U FREAKING CAUSED THE TROUBLE, I DUN WANNA SEE UR FACE. Email from Joshua Goh.
1/06/2009 02:26:00 pm
Hey everyone!Thank God we're back in Singapore safely... Well here are some pics for your viewing pleasure! Actually, what I think may be better is that someone who has facebook or friendster can get all the soft copies from me in class via thumbdrive and then share it around? Sorry I don't use either network and dun hav photobucket or stuff like that. If that's the case, i'll bring my comp to class next wk and all those with pics bring em, so then can store in my comp and then can transfer around to those with thumbdrives or CDs. Ok? Anyway what i REALLY wanted to say was THANKS for being such a great class! Not just during the OCIP trip, but during the whole J1 year we've endured together. I feel great to be part of such a class with so much character...it was heartening to work with such exceptional people! Yes, even you Jia Yi :D We're a team, and no matter what be it PW, Promos, OCIP, Comp Season, or A Levels, we're gonna weather it together by the grace of God. Because we can. You guys remember the times during the OCIP, right? It's just obvious evidence of how awesome we are as a class, because even with our shortcomings and problems and squabbles and what not, all of us chipped in an made a little difference in the lives of those children in the orphanage Al-Jabar. I bet alot of us feel a greater sense of belonging to the class now, and that it's super being in T25..Well, that's how things change. Some of us may still be unable to get along, but hey, we're a class. And so, with just 1 year left, what are we to do? I say that with this opportunity which has united us, we should continue to build upon our friendships and bonds. I tell you, it'll be a long time before any of us will stop laughing at Chang Yuan for singing his heart out on the bus, nor will I forget how chris, chang yuan, shiuan, ridzal and so many others came to help my group so many times throughout the trip. You see? It's these shared experiences, sufferings and plain times of bullshit that unite us. These are things that will be hard to forget. So, as you browse through these pictures, let them remind you of the SPECTACULAR times we had as t25 in Al-Jabar, and give you that assurance that we'll be there for each other in good times, and in bad. In sickness, and in health. For better, or worse. 3 cheers for T25:) God bless everyone! And please share all the photos you've taken (this means u, felicia and chris :D)! I love looking at photos. Joshua Goh PS Thanks also to everyone who helped me clear up the pink paint stain on the pavement! You girls rock :) Thanks also to my Team members, cos' u made being ur team leader the easiest and most enjoyable job during OCIP. Hehe Thanks also to my retarded Room Mates, for the endless night time entertainment and retardness and lameness!(especially you Bok Seng, I doubt you'll be going lousy poly full of strangers when you've got great classmates and room mates like us, right?) Thanks especially to Vivien and Tyas, our 2 outstanding coordinators! We rarely see what goes on behind the scenes, so none of us can really understand the huge amount of work they've devoted to this project. Still, I hope this little thank you note suffices! Oh btw if u nd help wit the report, just send an email! And thanks above all to God, who gave us everything we ever needed: each other. Our Heavenly Dad never keeps us out of His sight, for He is the most loving of Fathers. Anyway, thanks again and get ready for school! Oh, and we still have the $60 Haagen Daaz voucher so be ready... OMG LA JOSHUA LIKE TYPE ESSAY LIDAT! And yes I do feel guilty upon hearing the word "homework". DAMN. fotos u might like :D
1/06/2009 12:16:00 pm
 kiss shi :D  1234 tell me tt you love me more  pimp ryan! with hot babes :D  great success =)  unglam 1  unglam 2  unglam 3  unglam 4  unglam 5  unglam 6 aka unglam finale seowli la! bully us. keep taking unglam shots of us. so we took 1 of hers too :D  retard 1  retard 2  retard 3  retard 4  retard 5  retard 6  retard 7  retard 8  喜  怒  哀  乐 thats all I'm tired. if you want more pics go to my bff blog. i lazy to upload liaoooooooo Monday, January 05, 2009
back from Batam Trip Ocip 2009
1/05/2009 11:04:00 pm
Batam Trip was fully awesome, it is damn fun to be with your class away on another island. The big treat is we have no homework(actually have, but we dont do hmwk, except Joshua). Another big treat is that I bought damn alot of shirts for myself, whee. Not to forget, I have gotten myself a girlfriend(MEGAN THE SEXY QUEEN), who speaks French. She taught a big group of us how to speak the following:Would you like to sleep with me tonight/tml? Would you like to bathe with me tonight/tml? Would you like to kiss me tonight/tml? I like(I mean love) my girlfriend :D Hah, its rlly fun to be in Batam. However, I only brought $50SGD so couldn't buy much. Have to be budget la, cant help it, I so ke lian LOL. But everything I bought were great buys! Bought countless tops, random tshirts la but super nice. Main point is the most expensive top I bought(for my mum) was only $7, the rest just dirt cheap. 3 shirts for $10SGD still exists people, go down to Batam to grab them! We went to 2 shopping malls la, 1 of the malls damn nice.. the other one damn cui la. But I spend equal amount at both malls so aint rlly tt bad la. I spam clothes at a certain shop, everyone else did. It was cheap and NAISE. Listening to Lady Marmalade now, thinking of Marc Lim. This guy is none other than my gp tcher whom I think is quite hot. He claims to be straight la, but he honestly look damn gay la! I am thinking of him cause there was a french sentence in the song: "Would you like to sleep with me tonight/tml?" and he understands it, wahlau during the Batam trip I still keep saying that line. Omg, I so freaking siasway la, KILL ME! On top of that, he understands what "fellatio" means, so means I am double dead. Not surprising la, he is a GP tcher to start with. And he freaking cute-sy la, fancy reading a lit book during the trip, sorry I forgot to mention.. he is a lit tcher also. DOUBLE OWNAGE IN VOCABULARY AND LANGUAGE AND EVERYTHING RELATED TO ENG. Plus he so fit, his sexy hot legs and chest. Sadly Marc is only 168? DAMN. Food at Batam was great la. We had great food everyday except at the orphange, sorry I abit anal =\ Let me just sum up the activites we carried out Fri 02Jan08 went to ferry terminal(thanks Chongloon dad), boarded the ferry and was damn disappointed with some people(my ex GOOD FRIEND, and yes, dont come and ask me if it's you). rched there and din get to check in to our hotel, so we had lunch at the "933 seafood restaurant", nt bad la the food. Had fun eating with Mr limS and Mdm Indra and my lovely classmates =) Then we went to the orphange and decided what we wanted to buy to renovate the place, I wanted to rip down the place and rebuild everything la, honest. But I didn't, we went to the hardware shop to do some SHOPPING and then went back for dinner at the same 933 place. Had coconut juice which weren't tt yummy, but still, I shan't complain. Had reflection and went to the poolside to see Richmond and Clarence scandalously swimming. then I went to bathe :D slept with MEGAN GF, happy night :D note to self: Some people are not selfish, they are just FAKE. They obviously want you to give them what they want.. or not why will they even bother asking.. right? Another note: Koreans damn hot, HEHE. Sat 03Jan08 Started work at the orphanage, I guess I will be a painter in future, I am rlly good at it(hehe)! My group cleaned the second storey of the girl's dorm and laid the flooring, cemented the leaky areas on the first storey, painted and cut the plywoods needed to be fixed to cover the walls so water dun leak when the rain comes, got the contractor to stand on zinc roof(goodness) and repair the roof. How awesome was that? We help other groups around also la, abit of painting and plastering of walls, coolness. Then we went back to the hotel to change(not bathe =p) then we went to a shopping mall! Had to settle our own dinner so I ate w Hongyun, then we went shopping. I bought 3tops for myself(yay) and hairclips and tops for friends. Then we had to go back to hotel for REFLECTION AGN =\ then slept with HANNAH in our room this time. Sad to say, we are too attractive. 6 people sharing 1 room lor, we damn tight =p, I had the privilege of bathing in Room 406, hah. note to self: I should stop disliking the wrong people and GOOD FRIENDS never let you cry. So obviously some people are just so selfish, they make you cry because they lead screwed up lives. Sun 04Jan08 back to orphanage again! Painted the windows that we ordered. The blue was splendid though we had a bit of problem with the paint initially, I guess miracles come at the right time. It took damn long to dry though, so shitty. Other guys came over to clean the rest of the cobwebs and I guess everyone did a damn great job la, fully awesome 2T25. Went back and went to the gym for the aircon, felt so bad when everyone were working out la. I went upstairs and changed to swimsuit. I was damn scared to go and swim cause of my overflowing fats on my body and in my body and within my body. But had a great time with Joshua(hot bodyyyy), Changyuan, Clarence(bastard who laughed at me), Richmond and Christopher :D Thanks to Vivien because she encouraged me to not think about other's comment so I went down to swim. Sure got people spoiler make comments but I din rlly get affected la, the swim was too relaxing alr. Went up for dinner(buffffetttt), ate for like 1hr plus before Mr lim dragged the group leaders and Tyas and Vivien to a 2hour long reflection. DAMN IT, then I went up to bathe b4 gg to the poolside to enjoy the breeze :D I like it there man, so windy and can look at the pool, so calming to the soul! note to self: I can try my best to be nice, but if others cant bring themselves to believe that I am trying, forget it. I can live w/o losers. Another note: I will never cry again for people who treat their good friend as junks la, I am not your bitch/slave, I will stop bothering about you. Mon 05Jan08 woke up damn late and felt damn shiok. We only went to some Polo Ralph shops la, useless lor all so EX, siao! Then we went to temple then went shopping! Bought 2tops for myself and for Mum also la, and for friends also! Thanks Chongloon for a top and lunch, sorry I am living off you again! But yea.. thanks man. Din manage to buy donuts though, saddening! Went to board the ferry and back to Singapore! Fell asleep la but luckily I slept, so freaking tired and giddy lor! Thanks BFF and RYAN DEAR for fetching me, thanks BFF for dinner alright? LOVE YOU. I din collect my fone cause they insisted on watching Xiao Niang Re so as the President of EBC, I had to be nice to my members(exco). We damn democratic la =D So had dinner and gave my members their presents lor! Went home with them and them parted with Ryan at lavender! Manage to unpack and watch Xiao Niang Re :D so happily full now, just ate again! I hate my mouth! note to self: Love just creeps into your heart. The point is it makes a silent entrance but a grand exit. Damn. Was talking to Michael just now, I thought he was unlike Keane la, but still.. I guess every guy wna dance w their girlf bah, so he asked me if he could dance with Gwen. I very much want to cry but I said " yea" and acted damn cool about it. Well, I will just dance with someone else la, it's time i stop caring about orientation. It sucks so much la. Damn JC life. Thursday, January 01, 2009
secondary school
1/01/2009 11:31:00 pm
I admire people who still keep in touch with the sec sch friends, too bad la, I not rlly interested in sec sch friends cause I know my friends back then probably cant be bothered. JC's life is damn good, but I miss those rlly tight friends in sec sch. One example, Huanqing lor.aiyah damn no mood. I kinda miss 4/4 though there weren't rlly close friends there except bimbo and angeline cuiting and cybil. sry if i missed anyone out, OH AND MY DEAR RENJIE :D back to reality.
1/01/2009 08:42:00 pm
1st emo post for 2009. WHY SIAHjust thinking my current life now, argh. I dunwan to go back to school, the damn competitive place, full of stress from schoolwork and loads of crap from council and loads of bullshit from teachers. i damn sian to go for batam trip, but for the sake of NYAA, I shall go through this crapshit. get it over and done with, I am waiting for xiao niang re to start and for bff to come to my house. the emo me have just finished a ritter sport choclate, super duper yummy. actually got so many flavour, I rlly cnnt tell the diff btw the flavours. I need: 1. memory card for phone (lost it, argh) 2. earpiece for phone (lost it, argh) 3. earpiece for mp3 (spoilt it, argh) 4. earpiece for comp (spoilt it, argh) emo now as usual, I totally need my jaychou songs =( 心跳
1/01/2009 07:43:00 pm
想跟我吵架 我没那么无聊不懂得道歉 我没那么聪明 好想要回到我们的塬点 你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰 我又在摇头 有那么点后悔 爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走 但身不由己出现在胸口 两颗心能塞几个问号 爱让我们流多少眼泪 你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳 你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳 逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒 等着哪一天你也想起 那悬在记忆中的美好 HAPPY NEW YEAR, its 2009!
1/01/2009 10:49:00 am
what the hell are you waiting for!to prove tt I wasn't drunk last night, I am gg to blog about last night, wheeeeeeeeeeeee! let's start! =) morning I went to meet PO, KEANE, JON for open house event thingy la. apparently I had the privilege of waiting at the bus stop with KEANE VAN DUMB/STUPID (wahhahahaha). then I went home to have lunch and woke up damn blooooooodily scared cause of my nightmare. i freaking dreamt tt my mother was a murderer, goooooodness me la. main point was I hurry bathe and went out to meet Jas and Bel. We bought Daryl's present and went down to J8 =) I returned my books then we walk over to Daryl's house, good joke siah, walk for damn damn damn long, but it was worth it. cause the drinks there VEH NAISE. haha, it was a great success, it was just play games talk cock eat food then we had to play water bombs. that was how everyone got wet.. except some who were smart enough to hide la. I was just being spontaneous lor, so I played and kept attacking Grace and Keane. SORRY KEANE TT MY WATER BOMB HIT YOUR HEAD, I hope you're alright. Some unhappy events took place but nah, I shall nt blog abt it, too explicit for CJC's image alrdy! I drank abit at Daryl's party la, then abit seh also, but not to the point that I am drunk or what la. I walked to bishan mrt w Daryl's cousin la, then they were talking about him and cookie cutter, LOL. i managed to walk to the washroom at bishan then changed b4 gg to Vivocity to meet some of CG people. Meet awhile talk talk for about 5mins then I went with Yishi to drink somemore. Not to mention, I met Debrajane and Nat Wee ytd at Vivocity also. Main point, I went to buy drinks with Yishi right.. then b4 that saw Clarence, I dunno what shit I mutter to him then I continue walking. great joke, the first day of the new yr and you see your friend in a almost-drunk state. anyway, went to 7-11 buy 4bottles of alc. walked to some place to drink then i broke one bottle b4 drinking! DAMN IT. damn expensive la! the world sucks. then I drank my bottle and I took some of Yishi's drink also. CRAZY I know, drinking so much and not thinking abt the consequences. We struggled to the mrt and then finally when rched boonkeng.. the great joke happen. I walk for less than 100m then i start vomitting alr, like 4times in total. then we went to the swing and we sang and all that crap then we went home. tried to slp but couldn't then we revealed damn alot of secrets I guess. I totally go crazy with my side la, reveal all that crap shit. Damn it, thats the worse part of being drunk, you unconsciously reveal all ur darkest secret, SADLY. it was damn bad, so we decide to eat prawn noodle, the maggi kind. and that kinda woke me up la, so I got better but Yishi din rlly eat so yeap, she went to slp , I just cleared up then I went to slp too. totally not a good experience, and definitely not a good way to start 2009! but hell yea, BFF stayed over at my house and thats the main point. I love BFF, and yea sorry I din tell you about how I feel earlier, so now we know and yeap, no awkwardness yea. and YOUR SECRET IS SAFE WITH ME. =) going to listen to SHAN HU HAI now, so emo, I want to cry alr. and ni yao de bu shi wo. and shao nian. na shi wo men dou hui bu qu de cong qian. FREAK WHY I SO EMO. i guess only Bff know, haha, I think I am damn dumb. |
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