我不是你想像的那么勇敢

敗犬

I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart.

I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web.
Love is an addiction I can't quit.
Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings.
Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance?
Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs.
When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece.

Sunday, August 31, 2008

i need you.

8/31/2008 06:10:00 pm

finally got my correction tape =]
thank god my toa payoh popular.
withdrawal symptoms of correction tape: lost brain
uncle and rafe kor came over and gave out wedding invitation card!
so happy for people who are getting married, so blissful!
and then look at my miserable pathetic state.
emo over ONE person, emo over ONE incident.
shiuan said he wants me to talk to him like the past.
LIKE THE PAST = PRETEND NTH HAS HAPPENED
wo zuo bu dao.
IF YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS,
YOU WILL NOT HUG HER OUTSIDE MY CLASS.
YOU WILL NOT NOT NOT BASTARD ME.
i hate you yet i will watch your video again and again.
i will watch from the 4th min and 11th sec,
watch it for 5 seconds,
drag it back to the 4th min and 11th sec.
watch it again and repeat what i did for one hour.
thats what i will do.
because thats the only way i can look at you
and smile at you.
i cant do that in school
because everytime i look at you, i want to cry.
i want to scream. i want to slash my wrist with the penknife.
ARGH.

:(

way back into love

8/31/2008 05:59:00 pm

(Drew Barrymore)
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

(Hugh Grant)
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
Oooooh.

(Drew Barrymore)
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

(Hugh Grant)
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

(Drew Barrymore)
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Chorus]
(Both)
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Friday, August 29, 2008

straightjacket feeling

8/29/2008 08:49:00 pm

Back me down from backing up
Hold your breath now it's stacking up
Etched with marks, but I can deal
And you're the problem and you can't feel

Try this on, straightjacket feeling
So maybe I won't be alone
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me again

Trust you is just one defense
Off a list of others, you don't make sense
Beg me time and time again
To take you back now, but you can't win
Take back now, my life you're stealing

Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

And when that memory slips away
There will be a better view from here
And only lonesome you remains
And just the thought of you I fear
Grip falls away

Yesterday was hell
But Today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all I ever thought you would be
That face is tearing holes in me
But today I'm fine without you
Runaway this time without you
And all the things you put me through
I'm holding on by letting go of you

zen me ban, gan jue tian you suan

8/29/2008 08:20:00 pm

ryup i think today's celebration was great.
although i must say there are flaws but still.. we did it.
MANY SAID THE DECORATIONS WERE NICE.
omg. I THINK THE STARS VERY NICE :D
wheeheehee. first major project.
i give myself 65/100?
went back to amkss after cjc celebrations!
everything went quite smoothly.
except when miss ng wanted to talk to me.
and make her comments abt what i write in my blog.
omg, i am so sorry la. LIKE TOTALLY NOT,
oh my, cant write this right? its social IRRESPONSIBILITY.
goodness. disgusting.
i was totally grossed out when she asked me
"so did my words hurt your childhood"
or sth like that. oh come on la.
say until i last time very bad. SAMUEL CHENG LEH?
he very good councillor meh?
JIMMY TOK? haha. plain ignorance or blindness.
but i think if she din reject me that tym i wont be where i am today.
i should show a BIT of gratitude? yes? no?
neh mind. i dont intend to look for an answer too.
and the person at the GO very guai lan can.
wahlau its just a few minutes then dun let me take my cert.
I WAS SO FREAKING PISSED CAN. CAN CAN CAN.
wth la i DUNWAN to step INTO AMKSS.
ITS SO DISGUSTING OKAY.
then i must go back and TAKE THE CERT.
not as if i am top scholar or some shit. IRRITATING LOR.
and sth happen in cj today.
very scary lor
i mean i not scared anything will happen but very DISGUSTED.
i am not afriad to fight but i think fighting wont solve anything.
I WILL ONLY FIGHT FOR SELF DEFENSE.
like seriously.
having lived for 17/18 years fight over something lidat.
wtf la seriously.
and the next disgusting thing.
SOME PEOPLE actually look very good.
alot of people eye candy them in school.
but their character and attitude sucks. SERIOUSLY.
i mean how disgusting can they be la. WTH.
i thought ta men shi hao ren. but sad to say..
ren bu ke mao xiang. sad lor zhen de sad.

today chu le yating mei you hao shi.
in cjc see so many disgusting events.
PLUS I TEARED FOR THAT JERK AGAIN
at amk kena bastard
at SIM HAPPY =)
ting love ting love ting.

ta sheng wo de qi, wo gai zen me ban?

Thursday, August 28, 2008

ai shang ni bu shi wo de xuan ze

8/28/2008 11:53:00 pm

YAYNESS. its thursday and my face is beaming!
cause tomorrow is teacher's day celebration!
the highlight is not tml got no school!
the highlight is NO COUNCIL tml =)
no meeting but have stupid set up siah.
RIDICULOUS LA. must help clear up.
anyway sian today clarence neh come school!
cnnt suan him during chinese period ARGH!
so hongyun bokseng and i called him PUSSY. haha.
i miss CLARENCE =(
my GB leh! HAHA

IMPT HIGHLIGHT OF THIS WEEK.
i had chem test i flunked =)
i ttok econs test i hope i WILL PASS
or get S la. i have been U-ing since yr start.
and my council tcher in charge TEACHES ECONS.
confirm die.
AND THIRDLY
the stars in the hall vehhhh nice!
i draw and cut de ;)
AND PUT UP DE.
the "cjc mtv" also veh nice. I CUT DE.
whoooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
XUETING TEH ROXXOR

rched home so late today!
1050 lorh! dad kept calling.
but thanks to mr marc lim i can rch earlier
or not rch 11 lor.
eye bags le lor. SIAN.
neh mind after tcher's day i free le free le.
then after promos jiu DIE le.
so many projects.
COUNCIL = PUT ONE LEG IN GRAVE
i want to go sleep alrdy! cnnt take it alrdy!
XUETING YAWNS

i am such a loser.
it pains me to see him.
i cant stop staring
even when i know he is a jerk.
i deserved to die, CONFIRM.

she looked so forlorn with her broken heart
he broke her heart and looked so smug.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

family outing =)

8/23/2008 10:50:00 am

woke up early to eat breakfast with mum and dad!
shiok la.
walked to eat breakfast!
i forgot the last time we actually ate breakfast as a family!
like on a saturday morning =(
NEH MIND, the point is we ate tgt today!
hehe.
and i am freaking broke.
later got council duty. WOW
can watch drama duty for free. kaixin kaixin!
i am beginning to like council work.
although ytd i had alot of cuts on my fingers.
but i like duty SAI KANG!
like hands on! i hate proposals! i cant freaking do bullet point
i realised pple have bullets when i use FULLSTOPS as bullets!
wo noob wo noob. bwang to the max.
neh mind now i know =p
i shall go online listen music and decide what to wear for concert ltr.
must wear black! shiok =0

MEOW OFF

Thursday, August 21, 2008

UPSET

8/21/2008 11:27:00 pm

bio test is over
and so is my life like seriously!

but wo jin tian finally shiok during council
get to talk. SHIOK.
and so silent.

cool or cool.
hopefully i dunnid to address stuff again.
stress lor must keep straight face
and cnnt tou xiao.

i love night studies. WO XI HUAN DU SHU
du si shu
si du shu
DU SHU SI!

=p

just talked to ridzal again.
i also duno what is wrong with me.
i also duno i so affected for what.
is just 1 out of all the people in my life that hates me!
and i am affected!
gosh!

WHAT HAPPENED TO THE HAPPY GO LUCKY XUETING?

LIFE SUCKS :O

i am sc hod i cant control my wing
i am class dc i cant control my class.

I BANG WALL

CHERIE SMILE FOR ME PLS

8/21/2008 10:51:00 am

doing pw now! in the school lab.
likeseriously i did finish
with SUPER HIGH QUALITY work, like TOTALLY

and i am so happy..
told shiuan and cherie about my HAPPINESS.
but today it would happen.
cause.. cause..
well maybe tml?

cherie is sleeping on my shoulder.

and she is singing a love song to ....
JESUS.
of course not me.. duh!
someone else WILL sing to me like TOTALLY!
meow.

there is a bio test later and i am going to screw it
upside down inside out. SERIOUS.
if i can write more than 2 sentences, it is a breakthrough
and i ought to recieve a nobel prize for that.

dont understand why cannot have bio tutorial before lecture, meaning before break!
or not during break i will worry then not eat properly
then not good for MY HEALTH.

omg the freaking bell just rang!
bio lecture now.
MEOW MEOW.

and i think cherie should start SMILING FOR ME

cause i am going to invite her to my house TO BAKE COOKIES FOR ME =p

mwahaha and she is reading everything i typed!

HONGYUN SAY I KEEP BLOGGING!
HE BUAY SONG LAHHHH.
ask him fight later

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

it's not over tonight..

8/20/2008 11:10:00 pm

XUETING IS HALF HAPPY HALF SAD!

alot of things have been racing through my mind! and i dont know WHY!

so upsetting lah!

I AM LIKE SO EMO PLS
BUT RLLY GLAD WEITING CALLED ME JUST NOW
I NEED A FAMILIAR VOICE

i think my attitude damn bad recently.
i must CHILL.
i was so bad to poor shiuan ytd.
why i always fail to keep my COOL
why wei she me! argh!

although i apologised to shiuan but i still feel bad...

and the teacher's day auditions.
neh mind.
NEH MIND
NEH MIND
NEH MIND.

actually i mind alot.
cause
for the auditions

joshua missed trainingS
hongyun printed like crap
hongyun and josh missed chi lesson
richmond learn the guitar part till so late
christopher go crazy over learning a new song
i myself drink all the disgusting drinks
i myself so unhappy

but i must learn to say NEH MIND and CHILL

and BIO TEST TML!
neh mind i will do WELL
i guess.

i think night study is efficient and fun!
i finally learn stuff in bio
cellular respiration and photosynthesis so interesting NOT
haha.
mr goh thor heng going to scold me alrdy =p

it's not over tonight..

Monday, August 18, 2008

should i give up?

8/18/2008 11:39:00 pm

stayed for night study
freaking used the whole time there to do maths
omg integration so hard lor.
integrate then i disintegrate ah!

class is sian.
i dont know whats wrong with ridzal
actually i know.
domonic told me
ridzal is just unhappy that i always bastard dominic jiayi and regan
like when they talk i ask them shut up
yet i can talk so much myself.

sian.

I HATE LIFE LA.

talked tocherie and shiuan ytd.
cherie and i are lesbos, NAH OF COURSE NOT.

and shiuan..
she will nvr understand why i can nvr be part of the grp agn
its all part of NOT BEING SO CLOSE
isn't it?
i dont think i am being too sensitive.
but today i just realised..
no everyone appreciates what you do.

or rather, i am guilty of being what she thinks i am.
and i know i shldn't have been so..
SIAN SIAN SIAN.

i feel so emo la.
i told cherie and pris about XXX
lets just call him SPHERE

sian la. SPHERE AND I BWANG
DAMN BWANG.
sphere like AMENTITIES
so now i more bwang.

MY BWANG LIFE AND I.

i super bwang la.
even hongyun also say my fav word: bwang

i iss amk life.
i wanne emo on my own.

but today very happy night study with LISELLE.
so damn cute lah pls! =)

AND SHE IS SO LUCKY.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
i just visited a website. totally awesome =p

Saturday, August 16, 2008

wont go home w/o you

8/16/2008 10:50:00 am

ahhhhh
shouldn't have put down my name for the tcher's day competition..
NOW HOW NOW HOW!
siao lehhh!!
now dunno what to sing
but if nvr get pass audition then its fine (:
HEHE
den at least dunnidl et people throw eggs =p
sian sian sian.

i think wont go home w/o you is nice

BUT LTR CNNT SING NICELY BWANG

Friday, August 15, 2008

slack time for council arriving!!

8/15/2008 11:04:00 pm

SIAN is the word for COUNCIL yo
whatever.
had a bad day, bad week.
but its alright! one more week to go!
AFTER TCHER'S DAY I HAVE NTH TO DO WITH COUNCIL (:
no major project, no whatever shit and stuff.
I can be like what everyone else is or have been.
DONT LISTEN DURING MEETINGS (:
just sit in a corner, be passive.
i want to learn how to keep very very very quiet.
ask me for suggestions...
i just shrug my shoulder and shake head.
ask me to volunteer...
i just crap nonsense say i not free.
ask me to meet my project deadline and hand it proposals...
i just pretend nth was delegated to me!
omg its like so totally cool (:

but today thanks ot ANDRE AND BEL
cause we got them into damn deep shit ):
and kinda screwed the mass for assumption's day ):

i feel so bad today
when mrs leong scold me i also lazy to rebutt
lazy to give a shit
i just merely stare into space
and focus on daydreaming.
i dun really care what she has got to say
cause all the tchers wna say is that
i am at fault, i should wake up
lidat dunnid sit down talk, send email also can.
i am sick of being a hod that is HELPLESS.

well it just shwos how pathetic CI is because we need help from CA
because our wing got people but DUNWAN help.
then we BO BIAN BORROW PEOPLE
like what a joke seriously, i am DISGUSTED.
yucksss

brainstorming for songs now..

Monday, August 11, 2008

CHINA FTW

8/11/2008 11:34:00 pm

CHINA IS LEADING IN OLYMPICS

WITH 14 MEDALS

NEXT IS KOREA THEN MEI GUO!

WHOO

CHINA FTW FTW FTW FTW FTW!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

JAROD JONATHAN CHASE

8/10/2008 08:19:00 pm

i watched finished ANOTHER GAY MOVIE ytd.
even the tile is cute la.
but thanks to huanqing i get to watch
HEHEHEEH.
wahlau the jonathan chase inside damn cool.
inside he is jarod.
HE DAMN SHUAI.
how can anyone look so good?
SIAO ONE LAAAA
sian la. but he gay.
bu zheng chang! SIAN SIAN
he so freaking cute lor.
even weiting thinks he is cute pls.
ARGH. HE IS LIKE SO TOTALLY HOT.
wahlau today i kept saying sian.
AND I LIKE JAROD. wahlau.
HOT GAY GUYS ARE NOT ACCEPTABLE.
UGLY GAYS ACTUALLY ARE ACCEPTABLE
because they take each other then the girls dunnid eliminate. HAHA.
I SHLD DIE FOR SAYING THIS BUT.
WAHLAU SIAN LA.
SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN SIAN
COUNCIL IS STUPID TO THE MAX.
proposal undone everything shit.
then tml still must go school do wr lor.
i still rmb last week de pw.
what shit pls.
AH PW SUCK
SCH SUCK
COUNCIL SUCK
HOMEWORK SUCK
SIAN SIAN SIAN
i wish i can spend my life singing
even if assholes make comments
about my height
my weight
my looks
i just wna sing and dun give a damn about them.
SIAN.
EMO THEY BEST

Makes Me Wonder

8/10/2008 07:35:00 pm

[Verse]
I wake up with blood-shot eyes
Struggled to memorize
The way it felt between your thighs
Pleasure that made you cry
Feels so good to be bad
Not worth the aftermath, after that
After that
Try to get you back

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to try
(Yeah)
So this is goodbye

[Verse]
God damn my spinning head
Decisions that made my bed
Now I must lay in it
And deal with things I left unsaid
I want to dive into you
Forget what you're going through
I get behind, make your move
Forget about the truth

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you

[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye

[Breakdown]
I've been here before
One day I'll wake up
And it won't hurt anymore
You caught me in a lie
I have no alibi
The words you say don't have a meaning
Cause

[Bridge]
I still don't have the reason
And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder
If I ever gave a fuck about you
And I...and so this is goodbye

[Chorus]
Give me something to believe in
Cause I don't believe in you anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,
It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling
But I don't believe it's true anymore
Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
(Oh no)
So this is goodbye
So this is goodbye, yeah [x3]
(Oh no)

BEAT BOX

8/10/2008 06:41:00 pm

i like to beat yishi
she like to box me
together we beat box!

SAID BY THE RJ TOP STUDENT

privacy is important

8/10/2008 06:10:00 pm

freak. i hate people who dont respect privacy.
damn it i was just using the comp and my dad walked towards me with like my bag of photos.
annoying to the max.
looked through my stuff.
luckily i took out some alrdy.
or not i bwang.
then he was like saying why he cnnt see
i mean like wtf la can see but ask la
parents = big meh?
sian.
anyway i pierce my ear again :D
i hate it lor.
and i freaking hate council
because it is stupid
because it makes me cry
because it is a waste of time and brain cells.
and for people who din cooperate with me
wait till yuor project comes, you will get everything back
i can choose to keep quiet now
but your time will come.
and good luck to you then.
it will be you crying.
or swallowing your tears.
YOU NOOB SHIT LOSER.
lousy ass.

and my dad is complaining to my mum now.
WHATEVER.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

无法归类

8/09/2008 02:59:00 am

我就是无法归类
我就是自成一类
谁都学不会干脆
你们欣赏就对

我就是无法归类
我就是拒绝归类
现在你了解了没
我只让你们跟随

王子的高贵艺术家的吊诡
单一规则全被我踩碎
诗人的聪慧外加尖锐
在我身上同一时间交汇

平不平庸我不理会
完不完美也没什么所谓
我用我的方式进退
只有酷和我对味
超出你的想象范围

我就是无法归类
我就是自成一类
谁都学不会干脆
你们欣赏就对
我就是无法归类
我就是拒绝归类
现在你了解了没
我只让你们跟随

无法归类拒绝归类自成一类
无法归类拒绝归类自成一类
无法归类拒绝归类自成一类
无法归类拒绝归类自成一类

简单搭配却尽量着前冲
从来跟风我都觉得是种浪费
拒绝暧昧浪漫与生俱来
拖泥带水不是我的作为

平不平庸我不理会
完不完美也没什么所谓
我用我的方式进退
只有酷和我对味
超出你的想象范围

我就是无法归类
我就是自成一类
谁都学不会干脆
你们欣赏就对
我就是无法归类
我就是拒绝归类
现在你了解了没
我只让你们跟随

我就是无法归类
我就是自成一类
谁都学不会干脆
你们欣赏就对
我就是无法归类
我就是拒绝归类
现在你了解了没
我只让你们跟随

我就是无法归类
我就是自成一类
谁都学不会干脆
你们欣赏就对

我
无法归类拒绝归类自成一类

无法归类拒绝归类自成一类

你走天桥我走地下道

8/09/2008 02:48:00 am

阳光照耀不到你的心像冰冷冷的地窖
把我心燃烧也得不到拥抱

所有争吵让一切的美好停在我的手表
漫漫的消耗消失在每分每秒

把你握牢却捏碎了
真心无法作比较
就算我爱得很霸道

看你走上了天桥我走下了地下道
你和我的爱情就遗落在街角
看你越过分隔岛我转进单行道一路把过去甩掉忘了
曾经说过要一起到老（忘了曾说过要一起到老）
我的眼睛已模糊失焦
在这条曾经说过要一起走的幸福大道

Friday, August 08, 2008

crabbies

8/08/2008 07:46:00 pm

today is china's olympics!
haha. but the day din start out very well.
cause we had to walk to school to ccab!
like omg very far? gosh lah!
it is ridiculous! cause my headache started
argh then go there high with all the councillors
as coded by the emcee of today's event
"they are counciloors, they are entitled to be crazy"
true true
after the step up event had council meeting
settle arldy then i went home slept from 1-7 lor
woke up ate dinner.
really felt like zhu. =)
and now watching tv showing crab siah.
NICE NICE

they recommended:
blk 55 tiong bahru road #01-59

Thursday, August 07, 2008

drowned by my own tears

8/07/2008 11:24:00 pm

today is yet but another emo day.
i freaking cried and cried.
till i was so tired.
imagining a conversation
40mins
35mins i am crying.
i know Mr leong must have felt that i was damn miserable.
casue that freaking mr wong went to complain to him
cause fortunately/ unfortunately..
he was council president.
well so naturally i lost the case. and i cried and i cried.
i felt like a total loser.
i walked out of the counselling room
with tears, looking so pathetic.
my shirt and skirt wet with tears.
i din even have a tissue with me.

i went to assembly, suppose to do flag.
my eyes so puffy girlfriend was so concerned la.
she kept passing me tissue.
i was crying when they were saying the reflection and prayer.
i teared when the national anthem was being sung.
i just felt super grieved. so loser.
then jiajie saved the day.. cause he also screwed up the pledge..
then i laughed a bit.

was damn emo during sd period.
semi tearing but was better.

chem lecture was the sex.
cause that new lecturer totally look like some china man.
and he was like the highlight of the lecture
not arenes alkanes alkenes.
then gp tutorial was fun.
presented on steoreotypes.
was funny lah. cause can target people in class.

bio lecture was sleep inducing.
but break was cool la.

then after break bio tutorial then pw
than maths remedial
then bio remedial (half)

THEN EMT MR LEONG AGN.
my proposal like shit.
rlly shit. at least thats what i infer from what he say bah
i am like super stepped on la.
i tried to end the conversation lor.
so that i wouldn't cry in front of him.

had discussion with keane and talked with su too!
then talked to mr leong again.
he talked about some stuff irrelevant to council
and once again i felt like shit

studied in school with hongyun
then headache was rlly bad.
so when hy went off
i talked to nat and sham!

after that reached home.
i am tired
of all the things

i am tiring of crying
my eyeballs are super tired.
really super super.

and amanda yaw talked to me yesterday! =(

hais.

kwannie posted sth on her blog for me.
i am highly touched.
ku le lor.
owning le.

headache.

and i just realised
getting into council is not worth it AT ALL.

i was never and never will be a LAW BY LAW person
i break the rules.
i dont deserve to be a councillor.

i think recently we screw up alot.

councillor screw up pledge
sleep in lt
talk in lt
stone in lt
use phone in lt
and all GET CAUGHT
sian.

STUPID TEACHERS SHOULD REFLECT TOO.
gross

Wednesday, August 06, 2008

tears drop again and again

8/06/2008 08:19:00 pm

it's amazing how i can cry twice in a day
cried cause of gp.
CAUSE THE SHORT TCHER GUAILAN
serious
scold me for not putting on badge i mean like what can i do lor
i wna go change le lor
u duno the badge cnnt throw into washing machine?!?!
of course i wna take out la.
LOSER ASS.
then scold me for not looking at him when he talk
PLS YOU SO FREAKING SHORT
i give you face then look straight
of course look over your head right
WHAT THE HECK?
then since you FORCE ME to look at your EYES
i have to tilt my head to a 45deg to look at you
MAKES YOU FEEL SO MISERABLE RIGHT?
it doesn't rlly make me feel bad you know.
YOU LOOK BAD BEING SO SHORT AND PATHETIC
oh whatever.

BUT TODAY ECONS TUT WAS THE SEX LA.
I TOTALLY THINK MISS LIN IS THE COOLEST WOMAN
hahah. i mean like TOTALLY.
she is freaking cool la. not an action banana.
=) i think i will miss her when she is gone

but council is really bad la.
i cried so much lor i think i siao one lor.
i duno how i can have so much tears!

and i nearly teared in class after school
why?
cause some disgusting people
HUG OUTSIDE MY CLASS
if you need GET A ROOM
horrible horrible.
BLEH.

HAPPIEST THING TODAY.
CLARENCE'S BDAE =)
had fun smashing his face lor. COOL LOR
but i lied to him twice today. sorry ~
THIS ONE IS CONFIRM MUSTN'T SAY TRUTH
or whole day will be ruined.. so..

SO NOW CHIONG COUNCIL PROPOSAL. SIAN

I LEAD A SAD LIFE.

ARGH!

EMO

i wna go back amkss.

i dunwan be dc, sc, hod.
i wna be back the suet theng in amkss.
at least i was filled with laughters =)

i wanted to find a friend today and i couldn't

sushan huimin.. hai.

huanqing angeline weiting..

all i had with me were EX GOOD FRIENDS
the people that nvr rlly treasured every moment i spent with them.
at least not as much as i treasured them.

let me cut myself with the penknife.
let me see the blood and rejoice.

Sunday, August 03, 2008

DOU NIU YAO BU YAO

8/03/2008 05:45:00 pm

watching superband now.
the person rlly cnnt make it.
why the dou niu yao bu yao
sing until like..
SI NIU YOU SHEI YAO?

chiong-ing the proposal.
council again.

and had a bad day doing pw.

why am i hating school now?
i love sundays and saturdays.
DAMN SIAN.

recently i find myself tearing over useless stuff.

i will not cry over HIM
i will not cry over friends who only make use of me to get what they want.
i will not cry over people who treat me as GARUNG GUNI.

i can have control over my emotions.

if you love someone, let them go
if they return, both of you are meant to be
if they dont, you know you did the right thing.

Friday, August 01, 2008

WU FA GUI LEI

8/01/2008 11:11:00 pm

EMO EMO EMO
VERY VERY EMO
wo hen lei
i dunwan to think lor
but i rlly feel so bad today.
i want want want.
but i listening to WU FA GUI LEI
so abit happy siah.

but i am rlly tired today.
i rlly regret joining council i really really really regret.
i know i am unhappy.
its worse than bio tutorial
worse than pe napfa
worse than failing midyrs.

SIAN.

and today

i rlly want to say hi.
WANT TO DE.
but i cant bring out the word.

if i say MEANS WO YUAN LIANG TA
means i am saying its fine
i hate you hanging out with HER.
argh...

hais.

AND I DUNWAN TO BE ANYONE SUBSTITUTE.
dont dump unwanted stuff/people to me.
i am not garung guni lor.
IDIOT.
damn damn damn it.

The (OWN)er

09 Apr 1991
madly_in_love_4eva@hotmail.com
pls do not laugh at my email :(

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