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敗 犬 |
I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart. I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web. Love is an addiction I can't quit. Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings. Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance? Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs. When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece. |
Thursday, July 31, 2008
SO LONG SINCE I BLOGGED! =O
7/31/2008 10:54:00 pm
okay shall blog about the pleasant n unpleasant things in school!and of course about yesterday's career day. which was also about pleasant and unpleasant things too. okay ytd career day. i guess the talk which most councillors wna go for is the PILOT one everyone wanna see the HOT GAB ROD.. 'S FATHER! and of course HOT GAB ROD WAS THERE. duh. it was quite interesting la. talks were as usual. i swopped and swopped. DAMN FUN =) i had TEACHING talk initially. then BUSINESS. then .. then.. PILOT TALK OF COURSE. then SMU TALK. hehe. =) but actually. sad to say.. i NOTICE some PEOPLE are really quite DISGUSTING. of course i wont name them. and i WILL NEVER TELL ANYONE. cause i dont believe in the I TELL YOU, YOU CANNOT ANYONE IS I SAY DE. cause it totally doesn't work. oh whatever. anw today main highlight. I FAILING CHEM I CONFIRM FAIL BIO and MR GOH TOR HENG which someone smartly named. GTH = GOR THOR HENG = GO TO HEAVEN/HELL but sadly, we ALL prefer HELL. so we should say "now is go to hell lectures!" oh anyways he is super MOOD SWING lah. like whatever. he scolded me today say i bad influence. he only interested in his BIO BOOKS. but since he was quite nice to me ytd. my bitching shall stop here. i have to go complete my stupid chinese compo. DAMN IT argh. AND TODAY DINNER WITH HONGYUN DAMN FUN =D WE TALK COCK ALOT :) YEAP YEAP. 無法歸類
7/31/2008 08:37:00 pm
無法歸類DERRICK'S NEW ALBUM SIAH. i dunwan to go crazy abt idols during promos! can support but dont FENG (: i can control de. i took so long to get over the weijian craze lor. 6months siah. that is total of 1yr of craze plus trying to forget BUT WEIJIAN SO CUTE YO! i have damn alot of his pics plus those shirts he signed on. SUPER DUPER CUTE LAH (: okay NO CRAZE NO CRAZE heh heh. but he ZHEN DE KE AI LORH! wo wan dan le! but anyhow. he damn CUTE WORHHHHHHHHHH Sunday, July 27, 2008
SJI CONCERT NIGHT YO
7/27/2008 12:29:00 am
I shouldn't love you but i want toI just can't turn away I shouldn't see you but i can't move I can't look away And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop Just so you know This feeling is takin control Of me and i can't help it I wont sit around I can't let him win now Thought you should know I've tried my best to let go of you But i don't want to I just gutta say it all before you go Just so you know It's gettin hard to Be around you Theres so much i can't say And do you want me to hide the feelings And look away And i dont know how to be fine when i'm not Cause i don't know how to make the feelings stop Just so you know This feeling is takin control Of me and i can't help it I wont sit around I can't let him win now Thought you should know I've tried my best to let go of you But i don't want to I just gutta say it all before you go Just so you know This emptyness is killin me I'm wonderin why i've waited so long Lookin back i realize it was always there to be spoken Now i'm waitin here Been waitin here Just so you know This feeling is takin control Of me and i can't help it I wont sit around I can't let him win now Thought you should know I've tried my best to let go of you But i don't want to I just gutta say it all before you go Just so you know HAIS HAIS HAIS. EMO YO alrighty, today went for cg. then chiong for sji concert :) not bad dancers super super SUPER good like totally. and there was fun la and then I CAME UP WITH the facesuit apparatus. omg. it was THE RED JUMPSUIT APPRATUS that sang face down. i totally shitted myself la omg and belmond's friend LENNON WHATEVER called me MISS CHINA omg la. like totally bastard me. but then again it's SJI la. dont bastard people abit weird. HAHAHA i not offended la, just amused. but anyways so tired now cause tml got svc. argh. eyebags + uncomplete work = shit i want to be your guardian angel. Friday, July 25, 2008
MWAHAHAAH I THINK ITS COOL. student kids
7/25/2008 11:31:00 pm
1.题目: 原来小朋友写: 原来他是我爸爸。 老师评语: 妈妈关切一下 2.题目: ..一边........... 一边............ ..> 小朋友写: 他一边脱衣服 ,一边穿裤子. 老师评语: 他到底要脱还是要穿啊 3.题目: 其中> 小朋友写: 我的其中一只左脚受伤了。 老师评语: 你是蜈蚣？ 4.题目: 一... 就.... 小朋友写: 一只娃娃就要一百块。 老师评语: 老师笑到不行 5. 題目: 你看 小朋友写: 你看什么看! 没看过啊 6. 照样造句 例题: 你 (唱歌) 我(跳舞) 小朋友写 : 你(好吗 ) 我(很好) 老师评语: 你在写英文翻译吗?? 7.照样造句 例题: 别人都夸我( )，其实我( ) 小朋友写: 别人都夸我( 很帅 )，其实我( 是戴面具的)。 老师评语 : 什么面具这么好用??? 8.题目: 好... 又好.. 小朋友写: 妈妈的腿, 好细又好粗... 老师评语: 那到底是细还是粗? 9.题目 : 陆陆续续 小朋友写: 下班了，爸爸陆陆续续的回来。 老师评语: 你到底有几个爸爸呀? 10.题目: 皮开肉绽 小朋友写: 停电的夜晚，到处很黑，我吓得皮开肉绽! 老师评语: 看到这句... 老师佩服你。 11.题目: 欣欣向荣-比喻生长美好的样子. 小朋友写: 我的弟弟长得欣欣向荣。 老师评语: 孩子，你弟弟是植物人吗 还有一个更瞎的 小朋友写: 欣欣向荣荣告白。 老师评语: 连续剧不要看太多 12. 题目: 谢谢....因为...... 小朋友写 : 我要谢谢妈妈,因为她每天都帮我写作业...... 老师评语: 原来你的作业是妈妈写的!!!!!!! 13.题目: 难过 小朋友写: 我家门前有条水沟很难过。 老师评语 : 老师更难过...... 14. 题目: 天才 小朋友写: 我３天才洗一次澡。 老师评语: 要每天洗才干净 15.題目: 一… 便 …>> 小朋友写: 我一走出门，对面就是便利商店. 还有一個更瞎的… 小朋友写: 哥哥一吃完饭，就大便。 老师评语: 造句不要乱造... 16.題目: 又..... 又 ..... 小朋友寫: 我的妈妈又矮又高又瘦又肥。 老师评语:你妈妈......是怪物吗? 17果然 上课小朋友说：昨天我吃了水果，然后又喝了凉水 老师：这是词组，不能分开造句. 小朋友又说：老师，我还没说完呢，果然晚上我拉肚子了！ 老师：………… 18 瓜分 小朋友：大傻瓜分不清是非 老师：小傻瓜也分不清 19 好吃 小朋友：好吃个屁 老师： ……… 20 况且>> 小朋友：一辆火车经过，况且况且况且况且．．．． 老师：…………… NI AI DE BU SHI WO =(
7/25/2008 10:22:00 pm
WAHLAU TODAY NEARLY CRIED DURING COUNCIL MEETING.i tried my best to get into council, get into exco. then realised wo yao de bu shi zhe xie i told jaslin that maybe netball is better for me. but she told me this if you've nvr gotten into council you will nvr know you wont like it and even if u r in netball you might not be happy casue you will be thinking about council hais. but council have nvr been enjoyable i guess? fill up the form: stress nominees camp: tired + headache campaign: kena suaned ltc: physically and mentally drained elects camp: tough decision making say pledge: kena bastard and i realised the reason i want to get into council is to prove to ng kae pheng that she underestimated me back in sec sch condemned my life since sec 1 deprived me of a chance to serve the school. thats y i was determined to get into council and exco and show her she should open her eyes bigger. like totally. but now wo yi dian dou bu kuai le. zhen de hen bu kuai le. wo man man de shi qu wo ai de yi qie. or rather, wo cong lai dou mei you yong you guo. zuo tian wo zai ci de he ni shuo hua, liao tian hui dao le kuai le de cong qian yi shi zu cheng qian gu hen hui tou yi shi bai nian sheng wo zhong yu ming bai zhe ju hua de yisi. wo zui xiang gao su ni de jiu shi: wo bu hen ni, wo zhi shi wang le zen me ai ni 1 sec to meet 1min to know 1hr to develope an attraction 1day to fall in love 1life to forget. if we are not meant to be, i will use the rest of my life to forget you. all emo thoughts in my brain now. and i so tired now. i am a confused NSK. haha ni mei you xiang xiang zhong ai wo. Thursday, July 24, 2008
WE THE CITIZENS OF SINGAPORE
7/24/2008 09:24:00 pm
i should have PULLED THE FLAG LIKE SERIOUSLY?wahlan eh. i freaking missed out 2 lines from the entire pledge. LIKE OMG? the whole school was laughing la. WAHLAU WAHLAU WAHLAU WHY WHY WHY. i just realised the "w" was alliteration! omg la. i felt like shit totally pls. LIKE HONESTLY WHO WOULDN'T get bastard by classmates teachers and fellow schoolmates. today kena bastard the whole day alrdy. I WILL MAKE IT UP THERE ONE DAY SAY THE PLEGDE WITH PRIDE WITH SERIOUS FACE AND CORRECT WORDS IN SUPER PRO ENGLISH that will make everyone shut up. well, though got people bastard me today also got people stand up for me la. and i did stand up for myself too. using the "f" way. I am truly repentant! if the teasing persist tml, i will give my super buaysong face. that XL GL FACE COMBINED. if i know the person nt very very bad i just cry instantly la. CONFIRM WIN ONE. whatever la. i dunwan to give a damn abt it anymore. so what if i fail? i not human? i also make mistakes! alot of mistakes! i wont apologise to anyone for my rudeness cause u all DESERVE it. by bastarding me, it shows u dun respect others. i wont respect u too. SO I WILL PROLLY APOLOGISE TO SPORE THAT I M SUCH A LOSER. we the citizens of singapore pledge ourselves as one united people regardless of race, language or religion to build a democratic society based on justice and equality so as to achieve hapiness prosperity and progress for our nation. Wednesday, July 23, 2008
CHANGYUAN'S SAYINGS!
7/23/2008 11:46:00 pm
WAHPIANG DAMN TIRED TODAY.today break was 11-12 then after tt at 2nvr go eat then council meeting 245 till 630 WAHLAUWAHLAU. siao la. then chiong for bs. till 9pm leh. i think i will become superwoman soon. or rather superDEADwoman la. like seriously yoh! and mr lim had a blog for gp. inside alot of you dem ei de. or rather i still nt v sure what is gp and stuff. my brain = nth one lor. i fit the BRAINLESS requirement of being a bimbo. cause i obviously dun have the looks. but what the shit. i dun care. ytd had installation. DAMN ROCKS LA. i love 34th student council pls YAY YAY YAY. to love and forgive is to rekindle the spirit of humanity. OMG LA. changyuan's quote of the day Monday, July 21, 2008
WEITING'S WORDS OF WISDOM
7/21/2008 12:14:00 am
KWANNIE ;D - N399 A Family That Loves (L)// says:dont ever think of changing gays KWANNIE ;D - N399 A Family That Loves (L)// says: cause we cant even change normal guys WEITING'S WORD OF WISDOM. damn classic. however amusing but true. its like a DUH thing. cause nan ren got warped mind. girls OBVIOUSLY not like nan ren. duno what i talking about but WHATEVER. zhi lian ni hua shen de die. Sunday, July 20, 2008
bye bye.
7/20/2008 10:28:00 am
This is for my peoples who just lost somebodyYour best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye As a child there were them times I didn't get it but you kept me in line I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes On Sunday mornings, and I missed you But I'm glad we talked through All them grown folk things Separation brings You never let me know it You never let it show because You loved me and obviously There's so much more left to say If you were with me today face to face [Chorus:] I never knew I could hurt like this And everyday life goes on like "I wish I could talk to you for awhile" Miss you but I try not to cry As time goes by And soon as you reach a better place Still I'd give the world to see your face And I'm right here next to you But it's like you're gone too soon Now the hardest thing to do is say bye bye (Bye Bye [3x]) Bye bye And you never got the chance to see how good I've done And you never got to see me back at number one I wish that you were here to celebrate together I wish that we could spend the holidays together I remember when you used to tuck me in at night With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight I thought you were so strong You'd make it through whatever It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever [Chorus] (bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x]) Bye bye This is for my peoples who just lost somebody Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady Put your hand way up high We will never say bye (no, no, no) Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers Lift your head to the sky 'cause we will never say bye [Chorus] Saturday, July 19, 2008
BFF :)
7/19/2008 10:12:00 pm
haha just went to yishi's blog.spend alot of time together. i mean quality time i suppose? everytime i think that spending time is very important in a firendship or that if i nvr spend time with the person means we are not close and then i will look at our friendship and tell myself you are doing fine with yishi aren't you? dun fret about little things. a short recount of today (: went ptm. one word. screwed. i guess it was? cause i was so quiet. CAUSE I WAS DETERMINED TO LOOK GUILTY! but anyways, dun think i suceeded. went out shopping with mum though. at NTUC. i love buying food la. heh heh. main point: i bought PI PA GAO. i think half the world duno what's that but i dun care. HAHAH. went cg then svc la. today i lead games. SORRY ISSAC! he got sabo-ed thrice cause of me! =( but i liked it anyway as in the way he danced. LIKE OMG LA. i nearly rolled pls. and went svc with ys! then talked abt scar on her leg?!?! then hse said she left a scar on my leg!! HAHAA!! cause of what happened in pri6. LIKE SERIOUSLY! i holding skewers i think then i run and was looking for her like " yishi yishi" then PIAK I LANDED ON THE FLOOR with skweres in my knees. how tasty? like totally man! then the tcher miss sth then was like trying to calm me down cause i this big piece of charsiew was like screaming like a WIMP. haha. its just fun to talk about the past. happy memories i guess are good? well bad ones.. then TOO BAD lor. listening to MOVE ON by RAIN now. like seriously very pei lor and i like mariah carey song BYE BYE. stupid yishi intro lah!! HAHA. i damn tired now. i want sleep :( YANWS YAWNS. i love yishi aka BFF. thanks girl. i never regret spending 9yrs of my life with you. I KNOW U DIN REGRET TOO LA. hahaha. BEST FRIENDS FOREVER worhhhhhhhhhhhs air supply.
7/19/2008 09:04:00 pm
I'm lying alone with my head on the phoneThinking of you till it hurts I know you hurt too but what else can we do Tormented and torn apart I wish I could carry your smile and my heart For times when my life feels so low It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know Chorus: I 'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you I know you were right believing for so long I 'm all out of love, what am I without you I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong I want you to come back and carry me home Away from this long lonely nights I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too Does the feeling seem oh so right And what would you say if I called on you now And said that I can't hold on There's no easy way, it gets harder each day Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone Chorus Oh, what are you thinking of? What are you thinking of? Oh, what are you thinking of? What are you thinking of? BLUSH :D
7/19/2008 08:58:00 pm
OMG U MADE ME BLUSH :D
Friday, July 18, 2008
PTM = INSTANT DEATH
7/18/2008 08:34:00 pm
okay today was like so funny la.i went to buy my skirt. cause the teacher say i must have long lnog skirt wahlau i might as well wear sarong. WHICH REMINDS ME NEXT THURS I MUST WEAR ETHINIC COSTUME TO SCH okay duno hw to spell but ya lor. wahlan eh. I DUNNO FOR WHAT ALSO LOR! i look so ugly in uniform alrdy still must siasway myself in front of everyone larh. but nvm siah. wo jin li lor councillors mahhh.. WE ARE DIFFERENT. and today had 2nd ex-co meeting. 3hrs. steady but alot of cock also. i meant TALK COCK. haha. my 2nd step into endless pit. i just kept thinking about nominee's camp. i was having a splitting headache then.. but a 3-message-long sms sent me to sleep smiling. hais. april april april. WHY WHY WHY. sui ran bu xiang xiang xin ni shi ru ci de jue qing dan shi wo ye zhi dao ni zhen de bu shi wo xiang xiag de wan mei. mei bu gou hao, yao wan mei. being good is not enough, you need to be PERFECT. wan mei wo yong yuan zuo bu dao. wo yong yuan bu hui shi zui hao. dan shi wo hai shi fang bu xia :( AHHHHHHH NI ZHE GE WAN BA DAN =[ tml ptm confirm die lor. all fail mr lim sure tell my mum.. "xt is gone take her home pls, she beyond hope alrdy" Thursday, July 17, 2008
原来你什么都不想要
7/17/2008 11:17:00 pm
我知道这样不好也知道你的爱只能那么少 我只有不停的要 要到你想逃 泪湿的枕头晒乾就好 眼泪在你的心里只是无理取闹 以为在你身后 是我一辈子的骄傲 原来你什么都不想要 我不要你的呵护 你的玫瑰 只要你好好久久爱我一遍 就算虚荣也好 贪心也好 哪个女人对爱不自私 不奢望 我不要你的承诺 不要你的永远 只要你真真切切爱我一遍 就算虚荣也好 贪心也好 最怕你把沈默 当做对我的回答 原来你什么都不想要 YAWNS
7/17/2008 10:47:00 pm
SO TIRED RECENTLY.but today i will only sleep at twleve! HAHA cause it is someone's special's birthday =) i am so tired cause of council =( SIAN SIAN SIAN yawns pls Wednesday, July 16, 2008
meow!
7/16/2008 07:06:00 pm
hai, countdown to fear-day : 2it is someone's birthday! should be a happy event. but, still.. afte what happen. i can no longer be the one that bring joy to you. cannot be the friend that share your happiness. well at least i can wait for you to ask you out. to accompany you when everyone else is not available. even if i am just a substitute, wo ye yuan yi =) zhi shao wo hai you bei li yong de jia zhi. for people who always tell me that its a pity that my friendship ended up in such a way, well dont cry for me, cause i alrdy did it for myself. i am such a freaking loser la! and anyway its been 3 weeks alrdy. i guess the VERY STRONG ME will get over it soon yo =) yupyup. in life, people come and go. and i am very very very happy recently. and vivien said something to me today. she said just focus on what you want you want to do and dun focus on your bad mood. LIKE WOW WOW WOW LA she is a rlly nice girl =) must learn from malaysian scholar yo! =) OKAY I AM GG TO DO STH IMPT. HEHE. xueting loves you, you, you and YOU! fats are disgusting, so am I
7/16/2008 06:50:00 pm
it has been damn long sincei blogged DECENTLYwell well well, back from council installation rehearsal. so tiring lorh. keep walking ): but good thing is 2 rehearsal nia! tml full dress lorh! WAHLAU must wear heels siah :\ i alrdy very tall (compared to the council girls) then wear heels = KING KONG :( DAMN IT! if i trip and fall damn siasway lorh! dunwannnn! arghh.. so frustrating. did napfa during pe today. omg shuttle run improved. SIT AND REACH LOWEST AMONG ALL MY LIFE. 40cm? LIKE WTH SHIT? standing broad jump is stupid la. i damn sian of it alrdy! running must jiayou lorh. SIAN. wahlau i cleared napfa le lor. then jia li hai wna redo. DAMN IT DAMN IT. tamade. i should bang the wall lor. who ask me so FAT siah. and i hate hate people who laugh at at people. in front of my face somemore. like wtf? its like indirectly shoot me and then smile. made me so pissed today la. =\ and i broke sth during chem spa today. like wtf man? $1.80 for a conical flask. i doubt they paid $0.80 for that lahhh! and the swayiest thing was when i recorded my name... it was below some DISGUSTING SHIT. like okay whatever? damn it lah =( TALKING TO WEN NOW! sry wen happy belated birthday ni WEN wo ai ni you duo shen wo ai ni you ji fen =) my ans: MAN FEN and omg listening to shi jie wei yi de ni =X why the shuffle wanna torture me also? sian diao alrdy. =( wo yao shui jiao. wo hen lei. zhen de hen lei. tired of you, tired of life. Tuesday, July 15, 2008
try the fun :D
7/15/2008 09:14:00 pm
1. On a blank sheet of paper,WRITE NUMBERS 1 through 11 in a COLUMN on the LEFT. 2. BESIDE the NUMBERS 1 & 2 , WRITE DOWN ANY 2 NUMBERS YOU WANT.DO YOU HAVE A FAVORITE NUMBER? 3. BESIDE the NUMBERS 3 & 7 , WRITE DOWN THE NAMES OF TWO MEMBERS OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. CAUTION: DO NOT LOOK AHEAD or IT WILL NOT TURN OUT RIGHT 4. WRITE ANYONES NAME (like FRIENDS or FAMILY...)next to 4, 5, & 6 . DON`T CHEAT OR YOU`LL BE UPSET THAT YOU DID 5. WRITE down FOUR SONG TITLES in 8, 9, 10, & 116. Finally, MAKE A WISH ARE YOU READY? HERE IS THE KEY TO THE GAME 1. THE NUMBER of PEOPLE YOU MUST TELL ABOUT THIS GAME is found in SPACE 2 2. THE PERSON IN SPACE 3 IS THE ONE YOU LOVE 3. THE PERSON YOU LIKE but your relationship CANNOT WORK is in SPACE 7 4. YOU CARE MOST about the PERSON you put in SPACE 4 5. THE PERSON YOU NAME IN NUMBER 5 IS THE ONE WHO KNOWS YOU VERY WELL. 6. THE PERSON YOU NAMED IN 6 IS YOUR LUCKY STAR 7. THE SONG IN 8 IS THE SONG THAT MATCHES WITH THE PERSON IN NUMBER 3 8. THE TITLE IN 9 IS THE SONG FOR THE PERSON IN 7 9. THE 10 TH SPACE IS THE SONG THAT TELLS YOU MOST ABOUT YOUR MIND 10. AND 11 IS THE SONG TELLING HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT LIFE 11. NUMBER 1 IS YOUR LUCKY NUMBER i think it is very true! or at least for me yo! Sunday, July 13, 2008
brought son out today. MUMMY LOVES YOU
7/13/2008 09:35:00 pm
 my son clarence :)  clarence shiuan me!  josh and i during first ptm. WHEN HE BOTAK  my second dad. haha  i look like this in pae =p  SONNY AND I DE DOUGHNUTS =) enough of pictures for today! :D UNIFORM STEALER SHLD DIE
7/13/2008 10:24:00 am
OKAY DAMN PISSED.OMG LA THE UNIFORM STEALER. steal my 2 sets of pe. and 1 set of uniform! GRRRRRRRRRRRR. pe shirt x 2 = $18 pe shorts x 2 = $12 uniform shirt $10 uniform skirt $10 OMG FIFTY BUCKS :( argh. XIN TONG LA. jeksuan sure very happy i go get a big big big skirt then after that will be LONG then uncle jeksuan will be very happy. DAMN IT LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! damn pissed. MEOW MEOW MEOW i lead sad sad life! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR if i see the person one day right, the person sure die i confirm CALL POLICE and when the police haven call right. i wear glove and whack the person. HEH HEH hurt.
7/13/2008 09:00:00 am
i talked to sonny yesterday!i had theu rge to scold him son of a bitch but since i am the mummy .. so i didn't! but we were just talking about random stuff like f/s and r/s dunoo very sian. argh! when you left, i was deeply hurt it took me quite some time to get over you, to learn to lead life by myself to learn to divert away my attention from you i told myself that i have courage and i wont shed a tear for you but i failed terribly. and so i told myself it's fine, i can cry but i must get better and as each day pass by i must love you a little lesser until the love is all gone now that i am doing fine, now that i am moving on don't you think it's very selfish of you to want to come and interrupt? to disrupt my peace and stir up my feelings. to make me rekindle the love? if you can hurt me once, you can always do it again i was hurt once, but i am not going to let it happen again. you shall not enter my life again. no more. i just dun love you, no more yup shall show this to TING and tell her to write it to ** wahahahaa Saturday, July 12, 2008
soccer ftw
7/12/2008 11:12:00 pm
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7/12/2008 01:34:00 am
I Wish I Could Tell YouI wish I could tell you how I really feel without you wanting to leave. I just want to show you each and every day how much you really mean to me and the way you make me feel whether you are near or so far away. Too many years I have felt so alone and empty that I felt dead inside. Then I remember the day that you came into my life, you turned my world upside down and ignited a fire inside my heart that I can never put out. I never dreamed I that could feel this kind of love inside again. I look into your eyes and see all the hurt and pain that you have been through and a hollow scar that was left there. I wanna cry out to you: Can't you see I can feel it too! Never having anyone that cared or that really gave a damn that you gave and gave and got nothing in return accept more heartache and pain. You give and give until there was nothing left inside but empitness and sorrow is all you can find. How stupid and foolish they must have really been for they didn't even realize how lucky they were for you to be apart of their lives, which I know may never be for me. Now there are no strings and no commitments that binds; a void of emptiness where all the hurt and pain abides. Now there are no feelings of any kind left to share; This is what you are telling me. Can't you see this pain is killing me? I wish I could tell you what you really mean to me and for you to give me just one chance to take all the hurt and pain away. I would replace it with my love and I'd wrap you so tightly in it that you would never feel a chill again and I would gladly show you every day the way I really feel. I pray that one day soon you can love me too in the same way that I have learned to love you. Then I will shout it from the roof tops so the whole world can hear me yell; WITH YOUR LOVE - YOU HAVE GIVEN EVERYTHING RIGHT BACK TO ME! Your warm, gentle touch and the little things that you do shows me how much you really care and how much I mean to you. I think you must be reading my mind and the unspoken thoughts that I have about you; but then you turn and you pull away leaving me completely Mystified! NICE POEM :D Friday, July 11, 2008
perfect cut
7/11/2008 06:30:00 pm
THE SHOW "PERFECT CUT" DAMN NICEthough wang tian cai NOT AWESOMELY HANDSOME anyway had a great day in school la! but fell asleep in econs lect. eh expected? hah. during break was quite amusing la. i told hongyun abt my baby then there was awkward silence then continue eating then he ask me when it happened. then i was chewing so i use my fingers do a "3" then it meant sec 3 then he dun get it asked.. "13?" or "march?" cute huh he thought it belonged to some bastard from cjc. HAHA NOPE i am against STAIRCASE SIX! but nah, then we just continue walking up to class. damn retarded but still i must say that.. hongyun has been a very supportive friend after what has happened! i am damn tired. i think today is week 2 of not gg out with HER week 2 of not eating recess week 2 of not talking on fone other than council and 9weeks after the saddest thing that has happened to me =( i lead sad life. why siah why siah! and its damn nabeh la. i fail so many subjects. SIAN SIAN SIAN WHY LIDAT. must work hard liao lor. or not die siah! xueting jiayou! 我知道我变漂亮了 - 《一切完美》主题曲 过去的批评嘲讽 (Let it go Let it go) 过去的轻蔑冷落 (Let it go Let it go) 有些人口不饶人 却忘了瞧瞧自己 又有什么资格 时刻都善良待人 (Let’s move on Let’s move on) 时刻都做好本分 (Let’s move on Let’s move on) 有些人心思浅薄 绝不是宽容 自暴自弃的理由 也许 确实也受过言语打击 也许 从来也没什么好际遇 但千万别将勇气深锁在阴影里 我们又不会妨碍这世界（的）美丽 我知道我变漂亮了 我知道我被注意了 曾难过 失落 微笑一下就过 外在的美貌容易戳破 内在的美好细水长流 我知道我变漂亮了 我知道我也豁达了 不自卑 不埋怨 就算还差一点点 用内涵弥补一切缺陷 内在的美 迷住每个人的眼 用内涵弥补一切缺陷 内在的美 迷住每个人的眼 Thursday, July 10, 2008
xin shang xin tong bu tong
7/10/2008 09:13:00 pm
SIAN LIFE DAMN SIAN.flames to dust. lovers to friends. i think everything is like so awkward. everyone is talking to me about THE THING why why why stop asking me dun push me for the outcome. ITS BAD ITS BAD CANT YOU SEE? notice that i eat recess with others? notice that i dont wear a smile on my face anymore? REALISE CAN CAN CAN? but still.. thanks to all who have been by me. but i will learn to be happy la. it doesn't make sense to keep on holding on to something that is the past. my mood is always affected whenever i talk about this. :( Sunday, July 06, 2008
screwed up ):
7/06/2008 09:55:00 pm
YAYNESS I HAD SLEEP AND I AM HAPPY!i will be happy tml (: I GUESS? HEH HEH HEH HEH. okay i laugh like a laotiko was digging out old chinese songs and found some rlly nice ones. awwww so i went to dig for lyrics too (: damn tired la. i slept and i was tired. i think it was cause of the DREAM. the dream was bad. nightmare. OKAY HALF A NIGHTMARE. anw just abit about today? pastor talked about DISAPPOINTMENTS. omg the right message for me la.. DISAPPOINTMENTS IN R/S (in my case friendships) and of course the r/s kind of r/s. i think i REN(endure) too much. supress all my feelings inside. i know what clarence say is true. i pretend to be happy on the outside then bury all my feelings inside and sometimes sth small can trigger me and make me cry forever. i am very stuck. i ask myself "how to retract a love that i have already given out" OKAY I SUPPOSE TO BADMOUTH SAMEER HERE BUT SINCE HE SAY HE GOOD BOY SO I SHALL BE NICE. CAUSE SAMEER TAUGHT ME HOW TO RECOGNISE SPAIN FLAG GOOD BOY YO! and thanks huanqing for the very GOOSEBUMPS INDUCING WORDS. touching worxxxzxzz. HAAH. the lyrics to MY SONG 我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台 每当天黑推开城门对着夜幕发呆 看着往事一幕一幕 再次演出你我的爱 我把电视机打开听着别人的对白 也许那些故事可以给我一个交代 你要的爱我学不来 眼睁睁看情变坏 认真真看情感慨 不能给你未来我还你现在 安静结束也是另一种对待 当眼泪留下来伤已悄在 分开也是另一种明白 我给你最后的疼爱是手放开 不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海 感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白 把爱收进胸前左边口袋 最后的疼爱是手放开 不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪 感情就像候车月台有人走就有人来 我的心是一个车牌写着等待 我把收音机打开听着别人的失败 哽咽的声音彷佛诉说着相同悲哀 你的依赖还在胸怀 我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开 感情中专心的人容易被伤害 DAMN IT WHY AM I CRYING practise what u preach!
7/06/2008 12:05:00 am
NDP PARADE DAMN COOLanw yup. thats all i am going to say. I LOVE SPORE. i wont say much more cause it is just going to be what i have been saying recently. i am human, i can be tired too. no i cant be tired, i alrdy am. and i realised whatever i say to console others i can say to myself too. "ur heart is tired, u need to rest, or not u will breakdown" "taking a break doesn't mean u give up" and the whatevers i said. WHY CANT I APPLY IT TO MYSELF? Saturday, July 05, 2008
LOSER = ME
7/05/2008 12:04:00 pm
i am such a loser la.reached home from council meeting and was happy waiting for lunch. then ask eh mummy go buy the cheese biscuit okay? she start kaopehing me about me spending money like no link?!?! gosh man i saving alrdy lor. very long nvr swipe my card alrdy i obviously know we are not rich. and i obviously know with $50 a week i must be thrifty. i try my best! i saved $25 this week! and i rlly cut down alrdy. i spend $ only on food lor. grrrrrrr. so unfair towards me ): and cut down cause i know holidays spend alot. so i now cut down and spend only cash if no cash den i dun spend WAHLAU WAHLAU SCOLD ME ): then scold me for the council badge :X school give one then mr leong say buy one more so we pay la though $8.50 for badge quite ex. but is NECCESSITY mahh must discuss separate issues during separate occasions la. just dump all crazy scoldings on me. I ALSO GT FEELING ONE OKAY. and now youths EMO alot. ltr i nt happy go cut myself how? =x okay i wont do that but might still emo. esp now so many problems i am only 17 lahhh!! friendship problems, or rather complains. result! CHURCH! family! ): why am i such a sad kid. and ytd chuan sang a song "all i wanna do is grow old with you" back in love with the song again! (: note to self: in my life, there will be people who come and go. i can try very hard to keep everyone with me but by doing that i prevent new and better people from entering my life so i MUST LEARN how to let go of what is the past and WELCOME the future with open arms. Friday, July 04, 2008
the million dollar question
7/04/2008 10:45:00 pm
morning mood: horribleit pains me to hear "eh why ______ not seen huh, tot you twin. haha" and "eh why now i see ______ nvr see you. haha." i HATE the haha(s). its not funny at all lah. be sensitive and realise... realise how hard i try to change the topic. PLEASE? realise how tears well up in my eyes CAN? and STOP ACCUSING ME OF BEING IN A LESBO R/S thats damn RIDICULOUS. friendships can also undergo hardships! dont be a frog in the well =.= well ______ and i talked. i cant say outcome was good or bad. to some of my friends, you would say good cause now i am damn free i can always go meet you all (: to some others dont cry form e cause i will be doing it myself. well, at least we talked. at least i faced it anyway. i am fine. i rlly am. i have some time to cry b4 it's 12. cause after 12 i will get over it. i am nt gg to start crying now cause i know i wun be able to stop by 12. too emo too blog. will any words be able to describe my hurt now? NO. i wanna say WHAT IS THIS THIS IS TOO MUCH Thursday, July 03, 2008
the sayings of changyuan
7/03/2008 09:50:00 pm
ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says:wanna know something about yourself? ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: i damn worried for the whole day ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: i forced myselfto sleep just now i so i wouldn't think ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: myself ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: I SUCK LOR ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: thats why changyuan dun like me ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: >=[ ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: nope. you're an unfocused beam. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: I never said that! ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: but yes, you're unfocused. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: you have to concentrate on what you want, have a direction in life. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: what do YOU want? ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: i want _____ to tell me whats going on, i want to finish eom i want to study for bio spa. i want to whack dominic ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: HAHA! short terms. but nonetheless amusing. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: what do you want in the long term ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: what do you most yearn for? academic success? career? friends? family? ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: i want to promote to j2 like seriously. i want _____ to come back :'( okay sry emo i want my friends to always be my firends. aka changyuan (: ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: hmmm. you want to go to J2 ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: fine. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: Dream of it, breathe the air that you know you will when you're J2. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: but thinking and visualising it isn't enough ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: work towards it! nothing is impossible. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: as for _____, telling you as a friend, he's a jerk! there are much better guys out there. don't give a damned to him. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: he's not worth your tears. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: what has he ever done to touch your heart? ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: good question ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: see? ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: nothing. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: all he has done are things he should never do. ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: very true cy very true ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: so forget about him already. ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: :( ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: come on, you can do it. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: as for wanting your friends to be with you, it's easy ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: you know what to do. ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: i dont even know waht went wrong btw ______ and i ): ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: hmmm. alright. maybe give her some breathing space ting;XUE i am ready for it, just end my life with one blow. says: yah i guess and most people guess we spend too much time together. i dunno la. in the same class. argh! ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: no. it's not spending time together too much ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: let her reflect on the events of the day ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: don't push to ask what happen ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: make her feel comfortable with you ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: then no such thing would happen again ting;XUE if you need distance, i'll give you distance says: the awkwardness alrdy start alrdy. it;s alrdy very clearly known alrdy. we decide to talk. hopefully tml i will put on a good show in front i nearly broke down and cried today. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: you need to build strength to stand alone xue ting ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: not all the time would someone be with you all the time. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: sometimes you'll be alone. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: would you then have the courage to continue down the path you have chosen? ting;XUE if you need distance, i'll give you distance says: i dont know? :'( i know i am not strong enough ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: then why don't you build it? it comes from inside, the will to never give in.. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: cast from steel, it never breaks. try it. ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: it helps ChangYuan. The pain poured into your song of sorrow moves me so. says: instill the will within you in one night, i was awoken. he spoke so much into my life la. there are damn alot of stuff for me to emo about. but i thank god. at least for now, for bimbo and changyuan. maybe i am so unfocused for god too. i dunno what i dunno. ultimate blurness. maybe what happen or WILL happen is a way for me to get back on track with god? i need to talk to mel like seriously. things are getting bad. :) FML
7/03/2008 09:11:00 pm
if you 2 BREAK UP, there will be many people crying in OUR heartsin this is break up for friendship not LESBO R/S ok. but i am just very comforted that many people see us as good friends. damn tight? SO WHATEVER THE OUTCOME TML.. i will not screw up my life. I WILL BE STRONG 30 things to do in an exam when you know you're gonna fail anyways.
7/03/2008 12:06:00 am
1. Get a copy of the exam, run out screaming "Andre, Andre, I've got the secret documents!!"2. Talk the entire way through the exam. Read questions aloud, debate your answers with yourself out loud. If asked to stop, yell out, "I'm SOOO sure that you can hear me thinking." Then start talking about what a jerk the instructor is. 3. Bring a Game Boy. Play with the volume at max level. 4. On the answer sheet find a new, interesting way to refuse to answer every question. For example: I refuse to answer this question on the grounds that it conflicts with my religious beliefs. Be creative. 5. Run into the exam room looking about frantically. Breathe a sigh of relief. Go to the instructor, say "They've found me, I have to leave the country" and run off. 6. 15 min. into the exam, stand up, rip up all the papers into very small pieces, throw them into the air and yell out "Merry Christmas." If you're really daring, ask for another copy of the exam. Say you lost the first one. Repeat this process every 15 min. 7. Come into the exam wearing slippers, a bathrobe, a towel on your head, and nothing else. 8. Come down with a BAD case of Tourette's Syndrome during the exam. Be as vulgar as possible. 9. Bring things to throw at the instructor when she/he's not looking. Blame it on the person nearest to you. 10. As soon as the instructor hands you the exam, eat it. 11. Every 5 min. stand up, collect all your things, move to another seat, continue with the exam. 12. Turn in the exam approx. 30 min. into it. As you walk out, start commenting on how easy it was. 13. Get the exam. 20 min into it, throw your papers down violently, scream out "Fuck this!" and walk out triumphantly. 14. Arrange a protest before the exam starts (ie. Threaten the instructor that whether or not everyone's done, they are all leaving after one hour to go drink.) 15. Show up completely drunk (completely drunk means at some point during the exam, you should start crying for mommy). 16. Comment on how sexy the instructor is looking that day. 17. Come to the exam wearing a black cloak. After about 30 min, put on a white mask and start yelling "I'm here, the phantom of the opera" until they drag you away. 18. If the exam is math/sciences related, make up the longest proofs you could possible think of. Get pi and imaginary numbers into most equations. If it is a written exam, relate everything to your own life story. 19. Try to get people in the room to do a wave. 20. Bring some large, cumbersome, ugly idol. Put it right next to you. Pray to it often. Consider a small sacrifice. 21. During the exam, take apart everything around you. Desks, chairs, anything you can reach. 22. Puke into your exam booklet. Hand it in. Leave. 23. Take 6 packages of rice cakes to the exam. Stuff at least 2 rice cakes into your mouth at once. Chew, then cough. Repeat if necessary. 24. Masturbate. 25. Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About 5 min into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand ANY of this. I've been to every lecture all semester long! What's the deal? And who the hell are you? Where's the regular guy?" 26. Do the entire exam in another language. If you don't know one, make one up! 27. Bring a black marker. Return the exam with all questions and answers completely blacked out. 28. Every now and then, clap twice rapidly. If the instructor asks why, tell him/her in a very derogatory tone, "the light bulb that goes on above my head when I get an idea is hooked up to a clapper. DUH!" 29. From the moment the exam begins, hum the theme to Jeopardy. Ignore the instructor's requests for you to stop. When they finally get you to leave one way or another, begin whistling the theme to the Bridge on the River Kwai. 30. After you get the exam, call the instructor over, point to any question, ask for the answer. Try to work it out of him/her. Wednesday, July 02, 2008
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7/02/2008 11:51:00 pm
i am supposed to be doing EOM.i MUST do EOM. but i am doing everything THAT IS NOT EOM and chong talks to me online I tink that u and jes will figure out ur probs soon de. U two are twins, rmb. she hav her own frens so it takes time to really know her since u know her only this yr. dun tink as urself for being someone who intru into her cycle of frens. I mean, u’ll figure it out de. U’re more matured and juz handle it the way u tink is right bah. the fact is i cant handle things the way i think they are right because i will never to hurt her and myself. i just want to minimise the hurt for everyone. but it is impossible. i am too insensitive. always wanting things my way. i din even think about the friendship. why friendship problems keep happening. argh i wna sleep. AND WHY WHEREVER I GO I KEEP SEEING YOU! =( screw Mid Years!
7/02/2008 09:20:00 pm
okay its rlly bad.I WILL FACE THE MUSIC. dum daa dee daa dee dum. chem was screwed. i hardly pass. =( and bio one of the lowest in class. ok math was rlly bad. i mean.. sth like 20/100 is not glorious AT ALL. like if i go back amkss desmond tong will slap me la. deepa will also slap me. i wonder if cheesiong and tongwaihan received the invitation card la! wahlau eh if they can witness i will be damn happy. their ahlian student now sc exco! AND GOODIE GOODIE TODAY NO SC MEETING (: FREAK HAPPY! jolly good! to someone: maybe we have been spending too much time together? maybe you are sick of it? maybe you would like to talk to me? maybe we can talk things out? i admit it's my fault to always want to spend time. i know its has been more than once that i ASSUME tt we will be spending time together i know i am such an ass. i know i shouldn't assume that you would want to spend time with me. after all. i wasn't exactly in the picture right? the four of you were so happily together. and i just cut in and try to make merry blah blah. extra. the perfect word for me. i know my attitude today towards you sucked. during pe and after school. but i felt really horrible today during pe. but at least now i know i will not let this kind of situtations happen AGAIN. never ever ever ever. i dunwan you to be caught in between actually you will nvr be caught in between. because you will always sacrifice me i guess. because i am NEVER as impt. because i will never be compared to them because i lost by the days from 02jan08 to 19feb08 because i am not good enough. because i dont deserve your attention. its stupid that ytd i was pissed with you. then i looked at the note you gave me and i smiled. sometimes i wonder if life is really worth it, then i look at your smile and i know it is. its a damn nice quote. can use for lovers and friends. can express a million emotions,. but its useless if it is not reciprocated. I DUNWANNA TYPE ANYMORE :( |
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