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敗 犬 |
I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart. I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web. Love is an addiction I can't quit. Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings. Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance? Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs. When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece. |
Saturday, May 31, 2008
ET.
5/31/2008 10:48:00 pm
Justin Timberlake - My LoveHurricane Chris - Hand Clap Stevie Hoang - One Last Try Leona Lewis - Take A Bow went for dance concert. ET ET ET ET MAKES ME HAPPY (: I AM SO ELATED DELIGHTED! went home with shiuan and eggy today. ryan just gave me good news. i gg click 5 concert tml :D YES! SO HAPPY but sth scary happened today! fabian saw _____ then he was like "xueting, _____ leh" then the SUPER PRO ACTOR ME WENT LIKE " huh? why u random? " TRIED TO LOOK INNOCENTLY BLUR! but i guessed i failed! WONT GET HONG XIN DA JIANG ALRDY! arghhh. worried. hope nth happens Friday, May 30, 2008
super nice yo. take a bow
5/30/2008 10:07:00 pm
Oh, How about a round of applause, YeahA standing ovation Oooooo, Yeah Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah You look so dumb right now Standing outside my house Trying to apologize You’re so ugly when you cry Please, just cut it out [Chorus] Don’t tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught But you put on quite a show You really had me going But now it’s time to go Curtain’s finally closing That was quite a show Very entertaining But it’s over now (But it’s over now) Go on and take a bow Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone) You better hurry up Before the sprinklers come on (come on) Talkin’ bout'Girl, I love you, you’re the one This just looks like a re-run Please, what else is on (on) [Chorus] And don't tell me you’re sorry cuz you’re not Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught But you put on quite a show You really had me going But now it’s time to go Curtain’s finally closing That was quite a show Very entertaining But it’s over now (But it’s over now) Go on and take a bow [Bridge] Oh, And the award for The best liar goes to you (goes to you) For making me believe (that you) That you could be faithful to me Let's hear your speech, Oh How about a round of applause A standing ovation But you put on quite a show Really had me going Now it’s time to go Curtain’s finally closing That was quite a show Very entertaining But it’s over now (But it’s over now) Go on and take a bow But it’s over now But it’s over now hmms. sounds like my state now. that last time i used to face all kind of pretence. and i think i have quite alot of nominees for BEST ACTOR. like serious. =) those who are so good in faking kindness. to get sth out of me. hw sad can life get? TML IS DANCE CONCERT I WANT TO GO and the girlsgang are wearing sth nice. i only want to dress slack ): SIAN. why not like amk de? so slack wear slippers also can! SLACK WITH BIMBO! i love "ET" heh heh replies to tags (;
5/30/2008 09:51:00 pm
to yishi: THANK YOU BFF (: so sweet of you. yummy sweetto SAI BILL: omg la. i miss you and i priolly wont go go chalet. causei alrdy burnt 2 weeks of holidays as in next week gg for council camp. COUNCIL YO! to hades: you pathetic la. see so many people concerned about me you come and talk cock. NVM I LOVE YOU K? muacks muacks. to geraldine: HEY HEY GIRLFRIEND YO! miss you la. my skinny/bony/meatless SEXY girlfriend <3 hearts! to jolyn: HOW SOON HUH! POSTING FOR TODAY! and probably other days (: WEDS! went out with twin and alvin to study. stupid shui an sms jaslin ask jas if i am studying or looking or alvin. HAHA SHIU AN WHAT DO YOU THINK? lol la. then went to cut hair. my hair look like a piece of lousy art now la. thurs went to sch for chem! my chem results damn good 6/30! WAHLAU EXCELLENT LAH! today fri went for bio bio results got 8.5/30! I DAMN GREAT LEH! so smart yo (: great results. EXCELLENT LORH! nvm siah. i buck up abit. or maybe alot i damn sian today. but what i am about to blog will make hades happy. i am srsly damn sick of friendships. i thk i shouldn't put in so much thought cause i think i have done enough. i have done my part as a friend. or maybe more than that alrdy. if the f/s doesn't work out, it isn't guna be my fault (: I HAVE NO REGRETS! so yup, i dont rlly wna give a damn alrdy (: i am so freaking tired liao i mean like i have always been sparing a thought for you until my friends tell me to stop being so nice everything i did was cause u my friend. for you i push away so many things and now i have to face the same thing again that actually i misjudged! that u r not that great? that i dont have to do so much? that u r not worth it. it hurt so badly to feel that i have found sth or rather someone that i feel very very impt and u disappoint me just like that what a disappointed. i need to open my eyes and see. tml got sch dance concert yo! duno what to wear! DONT WEAR. haha. of course not. wear random yo (: and cherie will say: DONT SAY YO XUETING DUN SAY YO Wednesday, May 28, 2008
i love twin
5/28/2008 01:44:00 am
TALKED TO TWINDAMN HAPPY STILL TALKING TO TWIN SO STILL DAMN HAPPY FINALLY CLEAR THINGS UP YO! I HEART TWIN Monday, May 26, 2008
you give love a bad name
5/26/2008 09:26:00 pm
my whole day is ruined.and again i say ONE TWO THREE SCREAM i feel like spewing out all the vulgarities i know. i feel so dumped. anyway the day started out well. went breakfast with shiuan and jaslin. but then found out they gg for ICS event. wow, i din even know that it was today the second wow thing. i am out of the plan. okay i think i have to face it? that i am not impt? that i am easily or conveniently forgotten. that people dont rlly bother? maybe i am just not used to jc life. that people dont do this partners to partners. i rlly find amanda/bimbo/moomoo/bitch i so miss sec4 life. i am with her and she is my friend. so buddy buddy. i cant even find anyone i can call buddy in class or in school. everyone has their buddy buddy and xueting is easily dumped. so many friends and yet none of them is someone i am rlly close to. superficial relationship. its more or less expected. xueting just go in suddenly. spoil the perfect four. cherie with jas and mel with shiuan. i should decently get myself a friend. someone who is my buddy buddy. i never knew i was THIS pathetic. that i dont even have a friend. how sad. i am extremely displeased. i cant watch k7 and kuma perform is one thing. being ps being forgotten is another thing. i miss pae. i know jane will not dump me. i will gwen will not. i miss sec 4. i know amanda will not dump me. i know cybil weiting cuiting angeline renjie guohao will not. i miss sec 2 i know amanda will not dump me. i know huanqing jolyn will not. i dont have alot of friends last time but i know each and everyone cared about me. my partner renjie who will steady run with me every week. cheer me for 2.4km run, do 5 stations with me. guohao my dearest who will always tell me that i can. who bought me a book. cybil my girlfriend. the one who studied with me through o levels. yating. the one who never left me for 5yrs. despite everyone she loved and love her hate me. yishi, my best friend for 9yrs. the one who endured all my nonsense. the one who i have cried with the one who laughed with me. the one whom i have spent half my life with. i trust myself. i have myself. i know i wont dump myself. sometimes even the people whom u thk close to you will ps u people whom others think are close to you will also ps you. face the world. face reality. and as if my life isn't screwed enough, i had an awful evening. life sucks. an awful start for my day and an awful way of ending it. can life get any worse? we are always pursueing we want then when we get it, we have the fear of losing it. and then we lose more by trying to hold on. just because you are in love, you dont abuse the privilege for being in it. if you dont know love, you dont deserve to be in it. Sunday, May 25, 2008
5/25/2008 10:01:00 pm
Addictive content in my personality is 84% Beware!!! people easily get addicted to me Lets101 - Free Online Dating Network =) thanks chong
5/25/2008 09:47:00 pm
happy day!out with chong in the morning :D to orchard! bought my stuff at john little. got 20% storewide and with chong's card another 20%! WHOA! shall list all my auntie stuff i bought. ZA oil blotter paper $4.90 i bought at $3.136 LOREAL massenger blah blah. $39.90 i bought at $25.536 LOREAL hydrafresh cleansing foam $9.90 i bought at $6.336 LOREAL purifying toner $13.50 i bought at $8.64 HAPPY LOR! chong more happy. bought 3 shirts and one shirt for his significant half AND I AM NOT THE ONE! met jinkai and jia ai. he tried very hard to say that he is my bf. BUT FAILED TERRIBLY! went to meet jas and shiuan. talked to chong's friend on the fone. very funny conversation. but then chong left. after jas left chong left. andden shuian and i left too. so tired when i got home tml got stupid dental. i seriously damn scared. ): BUT I MUST NOT SCREAM as i will be in uniform so cnnt! SHALL GO EAT MY TOUHUA LIAO! will blog later if HAPPY 5/25/2008 12:13:00 am
=D
fun sat =D
5/25/2008 12:04:00 am
went for cg :Dthen svc and cg out with jas for our always short but sweet sat shopping like always 2hrs only ): sorry twin. but church is impt yo! anyway ryan is such a bad boy. cause he has a ________________ NO FAIR. the world is no fair =p but i guess i wouldn't get one cause i am humji =\ anw twin had fun shopping agn and i am very very very very happy (: the cream i wanted price went down agn cause chong chong got the discount card. so yup $69.80 become $25.50 =x i pro or pro? WHY I SO GOOD AT DISCOUNT YO? tml must get my toner and stuff too (: HAPPY HAPPY! nets it yo! and finish building fun liao. i think mum cnnt take it if she sees how much i zap out yo. i dont think dad can take it either. and tml gna zap somemore. what is becoming of xueting? HAHA! dont care. zap le zai shuo bah! tml will be happy yo. i mean today! its sunday alrdy! Saturday, May 24, 2008
SCREAMING IS A MUST!
5/24/2008 02:29:00 am
went to angeline ang's blog. she is sosweet with del :D i am so glad this r/s lasted for so long. so happy for them. seriously. very nostalgic about the past. maybe life would have been better if i went to poly instead? i dont know what i am doing now la. aimlessly looking for nth. not studying not doing anything. I MEAN LIKE WHAT SHIT CRAP LA. WHAT YO WHAT?! dunno. life sucks. i need to get away to somewhere. sometimes its not about my life. but what happens in other's life affect me too. i need to draw the line :( ONE TWO THREE SCREAM QUIZ!
5/24/2008 01:01:00 am
About YouEye Color: black surrounded by white Hair Color: originally black. since jerksuan is nt going to ever view my blog. i would say brown now Height: 177cm. dont know to be proud or sad. but i thk 180 is a nice number. Favorite Color: black, black black Screen Name: SUAT Favorite Band: click 5 Favorite Movie: WHAT HAPPEN IN VEGAS? damn sweet yo Favorite Show: eh i rlly cant rmb? Your Car: i dont own one. i will answer this qns SOON Your Hometown: CHINA LA Your Crushes First Name: i am not dumb enuff to do this =p Have You EverSat on your rooftop? no Kissed someone in the rain? no Danced in a public place? yes Smiled for no reason? YES. i smile for a reason too (: Laughed so hard you cried? yes Peed your pants after age 8? no Written a song? yes Sang to someone for no reason? yes Performed on a stage? yes Talked to someone you don't know? YES. that someone will be JONATHAN? Gone out of your way to befriend someone? no Made out in a theatre? hell no Gone roller blading since 8th grade? i dont think i went before 8th grade =\ Been in love? if you count liking someone w/o the person liking you back, then yes Who was the last person to Say HI to you? shiu an Tell you, I love you? shiu an Kiss you? shiu an Hug you? jaslin Tell you BYE? shiu an Write you a note? i cant say Take your photo? eh i dont rmb? Call your cell phone? shiu an Buy you something? erm i dont know. NO ONE! Go with you to the movies? shiu an jaslin clarence chong Sing to you? i dont know. someone should sing to me Write a poem about you? sadly no one Text message you? shiu an Touch you? pls redefine this qns When's/What's the last Time you laughed? when on the fone with shiu an Time you cried? i dont want to count back la Movie you watched? what happen in vegas Joke you told? erm forgot Song you've sang? shi jie wei yi de ni Time you've looked at the clock? twelve sth. Drink you've had? ice water Number you've dialed? shiu an Book you've read? i didn't mention i dont read? Food you've eaten? tofu skin. LOL Flavor of gum chewed? dunno! Shoes you've worn? puma. (tuna) Store you've been in? forever 21 Thing you've said? i love you. TO SHIU AN! Can You Write with both hands? yes i am ambidextrous Whistle? yes Blow a bubble? yes Roll your tongue in a circle? yes Cross your eyes? yes Touch your tounge to your nose? no Dance? like a chicken? yes. Stay up a whole night without sleep? yes Speak a different language? yes Impersonate someone? yes Prank call people? professionally? no Make a card pyramid? yes Cook anything? yes Finish The Line If i were a ... boy, I will not make stupid comments about girls I wish ... i weren't fat. So many people don't know that ... I love my gp tcher? okay random. I am ... pondering over my pimples. My heart is ... surrounded by fats =p Friday, May 23, 2008
KAI KAI XIN XIN
5/23/2008 09:36:00 pm
went out with twin shuian and osman todaywe ate for like erm 5hrs? cool. shiuan and osman left first. twin and i shopped :D then we went down orchard yo. i bought my cream stuff the person damn good la. i suppose to buy the cream. then suppose to have free toner and free cleanser. then cleanser cap spoil then she give me so many free gift to bu chang. got so many free moisturiser and free sunblock. wahlau. abit kuiben. and i very determined to buy the anticellulite cream. i have issues with my legs now. i mean thighs. i mean fat sticks. i damn gross out by my fat sticks now. just applied huanqing's cellulite cream for me. i need i need to stock up. anyway damn cheap lorh! LIKE FREAK CHEAP. the one i wanted was $39.90 then the refill i also want! then refill $29.90 total $69.80 now sell $39.90 plus 20% discount. MUST STOCK UP YO! $32 only ^^ MUST MUST MUST DIE DIE DIE MUST BUY YO. so i wun have flabby legs anymore. it wont help by feeling good. i need to actually look good. i dunwan buy clothes alrdy. this ggs i want to buy shoes buy bags buy accessories. i want to buy products. :D hopeless me. too bad bah. time to think about myself. i shouldn't blame others for pointing out my flaws. maybe i should be thankful and reflect about it. shedding of fats is a must. i weigh like a gorilla. CHEERIOS TO XUETING AND ALL THE FAT KIDS THAT WANT TO JIAN FEI. suppose to meet huanqing today but rushed home. we will meet yo! Thursday, May 22, 2008
GP ESSAY PWNED MY ASS LIKE SERIOUSLY
5/22/2008 11:03:00 pm
arghh...the gp essay sucked sucked sucked. i din know a SINGLE TOPIC. din know amything like damn serious. studied one topic MASS MEDIA and then nvr come out la. damn it siah. own my ass like srsly. and derrick hoi will be so disappointed la. not that he will expect me to have a good grade. he shouldn't. cause he know i wont freaking pass. wont even scrape pass bah. i can face the fact. as long as its not a super bad fail i will be freaking thankful le la at least a Subpass la. or not i will keep bleeding liao lor. went out with SHUIAN TWIN CLARENCE CHONG today. ate at subway at the fareast branch. good food yo. then watched movie WHAT HAPPENED IN VEGAS. damn awesome la. i admit that i was so pms just now b4 the movie or maybe it wasn't pms. i am just v pissed with chong for commenting about my fat legs. u know i have fat legs why cant you just leave them alone? like they disturb you in any way? i enjoy being fat cnnt?!?! and dont compare me with others. esp my besties. esp my twin. dont hurt my self esteem. everytime u choose not to guard your tongue i get hurt. i am not pleading with you that you cannot hate my fats just dont say it in front of me? LIKE IT IS GOING TO MAKE THE FATS GO AWAY. its not a constructive comment AT ALL due to deep hatred for asian men i am like totally gna hit on angmohs la. not like i have some good calibre or some shit but i like angmohs. ASHTON KUTCHER. CAMERON DIAZ. wahlau she is freaking hot. like SUPER FREAK SIAH. but the typical kind big boob. small waist. sexy legs. SHARP SHARP SHARP SHARP NOSE (: the movie should be NC 16 lah! too sexy alrdy! its a damn good movie. when everyone is piahing for midyears i go out for movies. awesome so going to get kicked out of council liao la. screw me. but i got no intention of going back to netball. i join interact la. or some guzheng? cool? or library club? DONT CARE. DONT WANT TO GET OWNED YO. next tues got briefing from JEKSUAN. must fill in my blood group. YES FINALLYYYYYY I GOT IT LE. same as twin. she rlly my twin. I LOVE TWIN. i cant live without twin. i DOES love twin =p i WERE a good person. if derrick hoi sees this he will screw me la. or rather screw himself that i am so screwed up. i am partially happy causei saw JONATHAN HAN just now. like damn omg. went to cine like damn alot of times nvr meet him today finally see him again. WAHLAU DAMN HAPPY but i damn damn damn happy. HIS SMILE DAMN MEGA WATT wo yao bei dian si le lor! XUETING WANTS TO PLAY ONLINE MAHJONG NOW. and she is going to do what she wants yo! maybe i should consider losing weight intensively. purpose 1. i look more humanly. purpose 2. shut up the mouth of evil yup yo. (: Monday, May 19, 2008
dont say goodbye :X
5/19/2008 10:25:00 pm
listening to junyang's song now. v nice :Dcalled twin she didn't pick up :( sonny guna call me later shiuan called me just now too (: i am a happy girl was out with k7 and twinny today i had a happy day. i noe that i can face his name with a different feeling now. its healing. well done xueting. i am going on strong. (: SMILE YO doing up my stuff now. happy glueing session for me YO! monday alrdy!
5/19/2008 12:06:00 am
spent sunday afternoon with mum.went to ntuc. AUNTIE LUCKY. of you dont catch the joke, nvm. dun ask me to explain. saw a rabbit chocolate. thought of lucky. his rabbit the one with brain tumour :X the one that died. and i thought of the CONCEPT MAP. well, it ended lidat. it was damn heartache for me to tear it all away. to tear away my hope. the pinch. and there are so many memories of us. i haven been to J8 for so long. cause i din want to face that place. to face the place which i used to love the place where we had so many memories. it's like a stab to my heart everytime i look at the places we have been to. the pain. is like OUCH. hurt so badly. maybe i haven gotten over him. it will take some time. he is my friend now. thats what HE says. and thats what i COMPROMISED with. it will stay that way. period. anw very determined to hit on caucasians! so tall! :D FOR ME YO! YUPYUP. will go hunting for angmohs with JASLIN. we must be happy yo! if you are happy and you know it slam the keyboard! ahkgsghsk gg bh gudssbsfbsrm WHOA! went dinner with mum and dad (: YUMMY FOOD. then went bugis. wanted to buy my PC. BS but then didn't but the TSB was damn ex. so din get anything. retail therapy failed. went orchard met twin. retail therapy failed again. i want to spend $ also cannot!! so sad with life! but nvm. PROJECT SMILE AND PROJECT BE HAPPY MUST WORK. i know HE is very happy with life. so i must be happy too (: YEAP YEAP. wo xiao wo xiao wo de yi de xiao Sunday, May 18, 2008
flying :D
5/18/2008 02:34:00 pm
happy happy happpyyyy.im feeling strangely happy today, dunno why(: haha. doodeedums quoted FROM k7! i feel happpyyyyyyyyyy. at least i am not thinking about him. one day when i am finally over over over him i will open up our folder. and relish those memories cause by then i will be strong (: so strong. heh heh. it will all be over soon. v crazy over the song i am yours (: super nice. kept playing it listening to my old songs now. so nice all the songs so meaningful. i guess i can be a happy kid. 2weeks of emo post. i am over! THE DAYS I THOUGHT I'LL NVR GET THRU, I GOT OVER YOU :D:D from the first day, i took 8 days and tot it was rlly over. then i fianlly knew what was on your mind it hurted so badly. but then i got over it now too! at least i dont cry on the bus anymore. i am so perfectly fine without you. i will be happy. tml should b studying with twin and J8 (k7) WAHAHAHAHA. twin twin twin. the super shopping queen. who spent $360 in 150min! i lose. HAHA. nvm. my shopping power resume when the real GSS starts :D:D but my bank accounti s running now! BAD BAD SIGN! but heck. spend first then worry? :D thats the way to go man! HAPPY MAN. thats me :) happy man
5/18/2008 01:56:00 pm
VERY VERY HAPPY.woke up went online and dominic gave me a link some youtube video. made me happy wow i miss that happiness. ever since i met mr jerk from t15 i haven been happy. i am happy now (: thanks dominic. exactly 2 weeks le. and ytd was the 3rd month of meeting him. i miss miss miss everything but i said he was my good friend so i lost lost lost. nvm, happy talking to k7 now (: t15 do have nice people. gg for dinner to celebrate daddy's bdae ltr! WHOO Friday, May 16, 2008
not a new song. but very nice eh
5/16/2008 11:02:00 pm
Well you done done me and you bet I felt itI tried to be chill but you’re so hot that I melted I fell right through the cracks and now I’m trying to get back Before the cool done run out I’ll be giving it my bestest Nothing’s going to stop me but divine intervention I reckon it’s again my turn to win some or learn some I won’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait, I’m yours Well open up your mind and see like me Open up your plans and damn you’re free Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love Listen to the music of the moment maybe sing with me A lá peaceful melody It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved So I won’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait I’m sure There’s no need to complicate Our time is short This is our fate, I’m yours I’ve been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer My breath fogged up the glass And so I drew a new face and laughed I guess what i’ma saying is there ain’t no better reason To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons It’s what we aim to do Our name is our virtue I won’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait I’m sure No need to complicate Our time is short It can not wait, I’m yours Well no no, well open up your mind and see like me Open up your plans and damn you’re free Look into your heart and you’ll find love love love love Listen to the music of the moment come and dance with me A lá one big family (2nd time: A lá happy family; 3rd time: A lá peaceful melody) It’s your God-forsaken right to be loved love love love I won’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait, I’m sure There’s no need to complicate Our time is short This is our fate, I’m yours No please, don’t complicate Our time is short This is our fate, I’m yours No please, don’t hesitate no more, no more It cannot wait The sky is your’s! Thursday, May 15, 2008
zzz. BU KAI XIN
5/15/2008 09:20:00 pm
very xin sui now.abit lag. but just super xin sui. to know that we cant go back to the crap friends. even though i hate you doing all that to me, i miss every moment i spent with you. waiting for you at J8. watching you finish your vanilla cone. missing one train after another so we can spend time talking. i have to cast all these memories aside. to watch you go. talk to other girls. say hi to everyone else except for me. to see you get on with life. and me, the pathetic me, stuck in the past. it hurts to know that you are walking pass and not looking in. but it hurts even more to know that you can do everything you did with no emotions attached. that you are: not who i think you are. or who i thought you were. or who i thought you will be. the tears keep falling and i pretend that i am happy in your presence. that i am so damn fine without you. when actually pieces of my heart are falling apart. i dont even dare to open the folder of both you and me. or the movie i did using all the pictures we took. so afraid that all these will bring tears back to me again. so many problems happen after i am in cjc! why? i rlly feel for jaslin. but sometimes i feel so bad with her around i hate it when people stare when we say we are twins then they will start saying " one so tall one so short " when actually all they emant was ONE SO SKINNY ONE SO FAT ONE SO PRETTY ONE SO UGLY. inferiority complex? i guess so. that i know i am not as good. but jaslin is like my best best friend. at least we are building on the friendship. but when all these comes, i feel so pressurized. want to get away. want to run. suddenly thought of cherie. and her cadbury boost for jas and i when we were damn hurt. so sweet of her. and shiuan who brought food for me today. if not for all these friends, i would have died in school. drown myself in my tears. and chongloon and clarence. i feel very blessed to have them. even if chicken is a jerk the rest of the world is not. (: i will stand up and smile one day. Wednesday, May 14, 2008
keep bleeding keep keep bleeding
5/14/2008 09:48:00 pm
its okay to hurt me. GO AHEAD YO.bastard bastard bastard. just very disappointed. but not like its not expected. like what he said bah from the moment he start making those mistakes i want to forget his face le. (: marvellous. totally hurt and dumped me. continue with your lies alright? just go ahead. not like they dunno the truth we are all entertaining you :D i used to blame myself that its yuor faukt now i guess i am wrong you are the problem. i am perfectly fine or at least i will try to be (: NO ONE GIVES A DAMN ABOUT CHICKENS LIKE YOU. stupid boy. listening to songs now (: first nice song 如果你眼神能够为我片刻的降临 如果你能听到心碎的声音 沉默的守护著你 沉默的等奇迹 沉默的让自己像是空气 大家都吃著聊著笑著今晚多开心 最角落里的我笑得多合群 盘底的洋葱像我永远是调味品 偷偷的看著你偷偷的隐藏著自己 如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心 你会发现 你会讶异 你是我最压抑 最深处的秘密 如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心 你会鼻酸 你会流泪 只要你能听到我 看到我的全心全意 听你说你和你的他们暧昧的空气 我和我的绝望装得很风趣 我就样一颗洋葱永远是配角戏 多希望能与你有一秒专属的剧情 the sond nice song 夜亦如此的颓废 思念不放手让我睡 你最喜欢听的爵士音乐 幽暗的忧伤的残念 而我站在照片的左边 快乐离我越来越远 每年这个季节特别有感觉 我好想你想再见你一面 让我们重来好不好 再一次温暖的拥抱 求时间停在这一秒 倾听你的耳语心跳 许多事曾经是煎熬 回头看突然都明了 用一切换你的微笑 而我站在照片的左边 快乐离我越来越远 每年这个季节特别有感觉 我好想你想再见你一面 让我们重来好不好 再一次温暖的拥抱 求时间停在这一秒 倾听你的耳语心跳 许多事曾经是煎熬 回头看突然都明了 用一切换你的微笑 就像在歌的转折 总有一些期待 真心才能诠释的爱 我们重来好不好 再一次温暖的拥抱 求时间停在这一秒 倾听你的耳语心跳 许多事曾经是煎熬 回头看突然都明了 用一切换你的微笑 the third nice song. 多想要找到一丝挣扎在你脸上 可是你美得冷得淡得像月亮 等著你的那辆车灯闪一下 像催你草草断了我们的过往 约好要每年回到初拥吻的地方 划一个记号写下相恋的感想 等明年我剩一个人坐在堤防 该唱首什么歌来纪念爱的傻 让你逃亡又让你回航 让你依赖我也让你倔强 只要你微笑 带一点感动的泪光 我就得到可以再给的力量 我让你飞翔又让你说谎 我让你苛求我也让你奢望 我还以为爱 就是要体贴的退让 我们一起盖的罗马 你却跟他拆了城墙 踩过我用挚爱建筑的天堂 太绝对的爱变成了活该 朋友要我责怪我却只想重来 也许这就叫爱 我让你飞翔又让你说谎 我让你苛求我也让你奢望 我还以为爱 就是要体贴的退让 我们一起盖的罗马 你却跟他拆了城墙 踩过我用挚爱建筑的天堂 多少日子盖的罗马 你用一夜拆了城墙 踩碎我曾让你栖息的胸膛 emo like siao. just now cried on the bus. i think i scared the uncle. sorry uncle. u happen to sit beside a girl that was cheated by her schoolmate. i mean FRIEND. what rubbish. you dont need me. you need someone who can give you what you want. which is obviously not me goodbye to you. Tuesday, May 13, 2008
xin tong bi kuai le gen zhen shi
5/13/2008 09:24:00 pm
wo zui tao yan na xie ming zhi gu wen de ren. wo yi jing shuo de hen qing chu le. nan dao ni bu ming bai ma? ni bu ben, ni zhi shi bu xiang jie shou wo ai shang ni zhe ge shi shi ba le. wo hen xiang hen ni, ke shi wo xuan ze qu qie shou ni, ba ni dang zuo wo de hao peng you. wo hen tong ku, dan shi wei le bu yao rang ni you geng duo ya li, wo ning yuan wo yi ge ren ren shou zhe yi qie. zhi yao kan dao ni kai xin, wo jiu kai xin. ni gen ben bu yong guo wen wo ai de ren shi shei, shuo le you you yong ma? ni zhi dao da an, jiu suan dang mian gao su ni wo ai ni you zen yang? wo men xian zai shi hao peng you, wo zhi xiang wei chi zhe duan you qing.Labels: its a fuck emo day every part of you make my heart ache
5/13/2008 07:08:00 pm
[Verse 1:]Where were you when I said I loved you? And where were you when I cried at night? Waiting up, couldn't sleep without you. Thinking of all the times we shared. [Chorus:] I remember when my heart broke. I remember when I gave up loving you. My heart couldn't take no more of you. I was sad and lonely. I remember when I walked out. I remember when I screamed I hated you. But somehow deep inside I'm still loving you. I'm sad and lonely. [Verse 2:] No one knew all the pain I went through. All the love I saved deep in my heart for you. Didn't know where I would go, where I would be. But you made me leave. And plus my heart it just,it kept telling me so. [Chorus:] I remember when my heart broke. I remember when I gave up loving you. My heart couldn't take no more of you. I was sad and lonely. I remember when I walked out. I remember when I screamed I hated you. But somehow deep inside I'm still loving you. So sad and lonely. [Bridge:] There was nowhere else to go, oh. Nobody else to turn to, no. For the rest of my life, I promised myself I will love me first genuinely. [Chorus:] I remember when my heart broke. I remember when I gave up loving you. My heart couldn't take no more of you. I was sad and lonely. I remember when I walked out. I remember when I said I hated you. But somehow deep inside I'm still loving you. Sad and lonely. I remember when I walked out. I remember when I gave up loving you. My heart couldn't take no more of you. So sad and lonely, hey. I remember when I stormed out. I remember when I gave up loving you. I was sad and lonely. Saturday, May 10, 2008
if i were you.
5/10/2008 10:05:00 am
i am up on a saturday morning, feeling lost.as usual. even since last sun, i have been feeling like this. i cant be myself, cant concentrate, but i know he is coping well. after all, he is not the one being hurt, he inflicted all the hurt on me. so why would he give a damn about me? since we are just friends. i have alot to say to him. but i cant. because we are friends. just friends. i cant be the happy girl i used to be. the one who go crazy, make everyone laugh. now i cry, i weep, i emo. i stone. i stay out late with my friends. to keep my mind occupied. stay away from him. changyuan tell me to throw away all the bad part of my brain. but it aint all bad memories. we had great memories. okay maybe me. he may not even remember right. my diary has every detail about our meetings, too much details. all the details make me weep. love all, just trust a few. why didn't i learn this earlier? love you, love you, may i love you, tell me what to do. all the songs i listen to now are all about love. but do i understand love? ytd mel called me, i told her and she said " you are strong " i am not. i pretend to me. i cant breakdown on the fone and cry. i breakdown on buses, in bathrooms, in the girl's toilet. i know time is really a big factor. but my mid years are coming. i cant screw it up cause of one heartless guy. maybe he is not heartless, just that his heart is not with me. i would have felt better if he said " i have got pre u sem, pw, 4h2 subs, fencing. i cant cope taking care of another person. but all the things i did is because i have feelings for you, not because i want to make use of you, not because i feel like you are a victim for me " even if thats a lie. at least it would save me a few litres of tears. monday was the worst. to tell the whole thing agn and agn. it was damn hard to repeat my hurt. two words. extreme pain. its like continuous stabbing. the hurt is there. i WILL get rid of it. cause xueting must be strong. (: Tuesday, May 06, 2008
jerks.
5/06/2008 11:27:00 pm
i guess blogging is my only way out.i need to do something else other than cry. i have been crying since sunday. why. i dont see why this must happen to me. it was a peaceful sunday right. a peaceful sunday afternoon since you wanted to be friends all along. why did you do all this? why play with my feelings. you dont hug your friends. you dont kiss them. well maybe you do. maybe you do it too often, thats why. make use of my feelings for you and do this to me. well done, if your intention was to hurt me congratulations, cause you did it, and it was a good job. to be honest. i feel like crap. feel so used by you. that i am a freaking loser that entertain you. i appreciate you for that little notebook. that you bother coming up with sth last night even though there was a test today you like to say " lets be honest " right? let me be honest. only the first page is worth reading. the rest is just like crap. my friends say you need literature lessons. i dont see why i shouldn't agree. i know you want to be friends (after everything that you did to me) i get it kay? i just need time to register. you dont need to msn/sms/wrtie notes to tell me that we are only friends. seriously, it is not helping the situation. you're just making it worse for me you know, doing all this. i cant act like nth happened continue being your friend. everytime i look at you i feel like hiding. you used to be the person that i wished would walk pass my class everyday. but now you are the one i dread to see. i am stating facts, being honest, being YOU. i hate 17feb. if i can box you in school i will really do it. you jerk unhappy things aside spend the evening with clarence and chong ytd spent it with them too. and jaslin. i cant stay at home. stay at home only emo. cant be alone. i cried on the bus on the way home. i guess i have to be stronger. teach me to choose my friends next time. choose right people, not jerks. the happier i appear in school, the more shit i feel inside. suppressing too much and screamed at dominic today ): sorry dom. i din mean to. sry. i miss my ex life. it was happy. WAS Thursday, May 01, 2008
I AM IN STUDENT COUNCIL.
5/01/2008 01:15:00 am
'In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.'i am in student council! SCREW ME. A DREAM COME ALIVE :D i rlly feel super good now :D I DAMN HIGH. though the feeling haven set in but damn shiok =) I KANT BELIEVE IT. FCUK ME |
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