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I found your fingerprints on my shattered heart. I'm a lousy spider, entangled in a love web. Love is an addiction I can't quit. Love isn't a science, you can't calculate the feelings. Can a once in a lifetime love find a second chance? Sometimes when you love someone you gotta forget your own happiness. And remember theirs. When love and determination work together, expect a masterpiece. |
Sunday, March 30, 2008
那一天手心里的爱我放不开
3/30/2008 08:33:00 pm
not a blogpost. just a quick update.17mar08 i was damn happy he probably have forgotten about it, but i haven't. 18mar08 i was damn happy too. i think J8 is a damn cool place =D i think mac is a damn cool place too 19mar08 i had lunch with jaslin shiuan and jarryl. and FISHY CO! fish and co -.- i got to know chicken and pasta :) 20mar08 watched RULE #1 with osman and jaslin i think it is damn scary. should be M18 not NC16 i found my twin on this day. <3 21mar08 went for easter svc with huimin =) ate dinner with yishi and went home with a bloody mess :X 22mar08 went for ah yuan's wedding. omg his wife is freaking pretty! jap woman! DAMN HOT AIR STEWARDESS! i met some long lost distant relatives! AND THEY ARE SO FREAKING HOT. just.. SHORTER THAN ME 23mar08 went for study session with jaslin. haha talked all time. and bought jackets she bought 3 i bought 2 and 1 adidas shirt. 3stripes is better than 1 swoosh! i think doughnut factory make great doughnut :D 24mar08 had netball and then ptm duty. ate dinner with jarryl. got to know junhao and edwin =) 25mar08 i think derrick hoi damn hot. i rlly think so. i damn addicted to him. DERRICK HOI DAMN HOT. buay tahan! 26mar08 i think there is nth much today ^^ 27mar08 econs test was cancelled. sucked like crap got sent out of class. sian. hais. dunno.... met _____ at J8 at 1040pm it was mac again. poor _____, his finger has a wound. 28mar08 HAPPY BDAE TO YONGSHENG PRIS AND ZHENGRONG! decorated the class with cherie and michael. ate dinner with jaslin osman michael bong and fabian just so terribly affected by some people. who i thought were my friends i meant who i thought WAS my FRIEND. i understand that my actions were misleading but now i know we are awkward because you are reconsidering the friendship. why must you treat me like that? WHY WHY WHY. cause i m unworthy? 29mar08 damn sian damn damn damn sian spend some time to think about alot of things. THANKS BOB FOR CALLING ME. and saying that i sound like crap! haha. but it nice talking to bob! you called from the pineapple under the sea! just very thankful for people arnd me! thanks bob seriously. =) thanks joel for being concerned. thanks gary! MEOW MEOW MEOW. i wrote this on my handbook "if you need to consider the friendshipbetween us because of someone, you are not worthy to be my friend. seriously." 30mar08 woke up late today. but watched svc online. i liked it. how to not procrastinate Activate your planner Break things down Create deadlines Deal with the mess Encourage yourself Face your fears Goals review Hang on Initiate now this seriously rocks had cg meeting too i rlly missed weiting my ass like crap she rocks :) 那一天手心里的爱我放不开 anw tuesday suck i have netball from 4-630 but lesson end at 5 and guess what 4to5 pe then 5-630 netball OMG. no wonder cj people look freak skinny. damn man. Monday, March 24, 2008
i lost my sense of identity
3/24/2008 11:15:00 pm
DUN MAKE EMPTY PROMISESDUN DUN DUN hw are you going to make it up to me? you can never make it up to me hw joy just starts in my heart when we could movie tgt hw sad i was when you just couldn't be bothered? tot u damn on? or rather i too stupid? to let you manipulate lidat AND TODAY GOT INTO NETBALL the part abt getting in quite okay i like the personal training with xin sth. thk i was damn happy for my classmates to witness me throw in damn many balls basketball background :) sum ass from bball called me SUSHAN SUCK SUCK SUCK i hate people who call me sushan i m so much better smarter taller IN WHAT WAY ARE WE ALIKE MAN SUCK SUCK SUCKS! damn insulted am i not worth a part of someone's brain NT WORTH? there are people who know me as the same time as him WHY THEY RMB ME BUT NT HIM HE SUCK LA JUST SUCK ARGH ate dinner with gia-ty just now ^^ i love ty group :) Sunday, March 23, 2008
wo bu hui chang ge =|
3/23/2008 06:38:00 pm
DAMN HAPPY!bought 2 adidas jacket and an adidas top SMILING TO MYSELF went out with twin today :D she bought 3jackets. i thk we are deem fit for each other. we decided to wear the green jacket to sch tml :) SMILES SMILES SMILES! -pasta and chicken chop- RANDOM! i need to spend like crap la! =D but was rlly happy twin and i shared 6 dounghnuts. i rlly love doughnut factory de doughnut like damn seriously :) and i love twin and THE BEST NEWS OF THE WEEK i haven't been studying like crap man! fri had svc sat had wedding today suppose to study but who cares :P v v v happy dunnid buy chinese tb thanks to chuan damn weird just calling my the last name but them he only got 2name first and last. quite cool. thk hei s rlly nice to lend me his book! cause he dun rlly know me!! like only know him when i sent him his video and then when i saw him in the canteen but rlly rlly happy ^^ chinese is crap >=[ STUDY SIX YRS HMT to ultimately take H1 chinese >=[ SO DIULIAN. i rlly suck loh =\ sian. i want go singing with shiuan and twin alrdy :) listening to xiaozhu's song super freak nice :) 这首为你点播的歌 如果我先哭了 怎么唱到最后 是的感情不是k歌 音阶一字不漏 不见得感动 我也懂拿麦的手不能颤抖 曾握着就能感受你比我难过 谁写的歌词那么适合放手 我怎能舍不得 我努力唱完主歌 我忘了走音没有 我到底哭什么 哭什么 明明搞笑的 我努力唱好朋友 我忘了是谁哭了 就算你不记得 这首歌唱完的是我 这首为你点播的歌 如果我先哭了 怎么唱到最后 是的感情不是k歌 音阶一字不漏 不见得感动 我也懂拿麦的手不能颤抖 曾握着就能感受你比我难过 谁写的歌词那么适合放手 我怎能舍不得 我努力唱完主歌 我忘了走音没有 我到底哭什么 哭什么 明明搞笑的 我努力唱好朋友 我忘了是谁哭了 就算你不记得 这首歌唱完的是我 我努力唱完这歌 我忘了破音没有 你心里触动的 下一首已经不是我 我努力唱到嘶吼 我不怕剩我一个 只要你能记得这首歌给我最爱的 Wednesday, March 19, 2008
LIFE SUCKS. =)
3/19/2008 11:13:00 pm
i need to rant rant rant rant rant!this is so freaking unfair! =( HATE MY BLOODY PW. i din even expect to be grouped with THEM. i m just damn stucked. just v emo. why grouped with the people that i m super uncomfortable with? when all the homework is drving me crazy, i get the bloody pw group. anw i thk ________ badmouths me abt christ n cherie. IF U THK THAT I M JEALOUS OR WHAT GO AHEAD. like whatever okay. at least i m not being kicked out. i dun rlly give a damn. actually i do. ever since 2nd intake i know chris likes cherie and so i just get out of it la imagine we are still playing the husband and wife game so awkward. take it as doing good deed bah :) bless the 2 who are so deemed fit for each other just damn buay song that SOMEONE actually warned ______ to be careful abt me like i will go break them up? and what do i want? christopher? what a joke? you can say that i m jealous or whatsoever but cannot say that i gt bad intentions la WTH. i cant be bothered abt my own love life okay i bother but the one i bother about dun bother ;( i want to cry so much. i alrdy try very hard maybe sometimes i try to hard i feel like crap. i miss gwen so much. someone that waits for me at the door. to lock the door to walk down with me. and then i dun appreciate i nvr give back that love what the fook was wrong with me? she was so damn nice to me. trying her best. the best daughter award goes to her. other than school i m so stuck with other stuff. CCA HTC ROLE i dno la. i cant cope MASS PE. 2.4km 19mins SCREW ME LAH! where is renjie but rlly thanks shorty for running with me shiuan and jaslin are rlly nice thk mel is nice too :D I DNO I DNO I DNO damn damn damn hais FIVE FOUR THREE TWO ONE. HAPPY. switched mood :D PMS damn weird feeling today. HAI HAI HAI emo finish le go sleep. Sunday, March 16, 2008
3/16/2008 06:25:00 pm
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jie su bah
3/15/2008 11:28:00 am
wan le wan le wan dan lei did a video of US ytd. using the song shi jie wei yi de ni. zhe shi jie zhi you wei ni de ta but wo bu shi ta de wei yi. bu yong deng dao monday. i msged him from tuesday till ytd. DOU MEI YOU REPLY. =( I YAO KU SI LE! wo suan le suan le! give up bah. b4 wo yue xian yue sheng, wo xian give up. jian shao zi ji de tong ku. i like this line wo wei she me yao wei le ni yi dian dian de shi she er gan dao kuai le since we were nvr meant to be i shldn't try to make things work out. but the beautiful memories will always be with me and HIS EX GIRLFRIEND know that i view her! whatever man! >=[ dun care dun care. ta bu xi huan wo wo jiu bie xi huan ta =D its such a crystal clear thing la. SHI WO BLIND. lol. so from now focus focus focus on studies le. =] Friday, March 14, 2008
managed to change my uniform!
3/14/2008 07:55:00 pm
super happy now =Dcause managed to change my uniform but quite sad though. wo men yi jing 3tian mei you shuo hua le. that includes msn, sms, phone. SIAN its such an awful feeling. went for chem lecture today. i think it was a total crap. CAUSE I TOTALLY DUNNO WHAT WAS GG ON LA. then project was a flop too. we more or less did what had to be done! but then just not completed yet. i seriously think its damn cool to present things with video. DAMN COOL. i rlly like it cause i female lead mah! for one small part only. BUT STILL :D NVM NVM DEADLINE IS THURSDAY! we still have hope? or at least i hope so. think so. wish for so. i damn damn damn confused now. i cant wait for monday to come :D but then what if bu shi hao xiao xi leh. if shi huai xiao xi wo hui si. but i want to know his answer =D wo yao mian dui shi shi! FACE THE FACT rather than waste my time ;D wo ke yi move on. focus more on my studies? cause all my studies very screwed up wo yao jiayou on my stuff! and dun let him distract me! :D Tuesday, March 11, 2008
ni yao li kai wo zhi dao hen jian dan
3/11/2008 07:01:00 pm
Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.If love isn't a game, why are there so many players? A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug until its from the one ur thinking of. Monday, March 10, 2008
wo bu pei
3/10/2008 09:01:00 pm
wo gao bu qing chu wo yao de shi she meactually i know what i want i want to know if my love is reprociated why must my schedule revovle arnd you you wna stay in malaysia you stay la YOU STAY. you gt competition you go la YOU GO you dun wna reply my sms YOU DUN REPLY :( ni de tiao jian na me hao, ni bu xu yao wo. 3storey bungalow vs 3room flat. smart vs stupidly stupid muscular and well toned vs obese kid i rlly suck i rlly rlly suck. argh. wo bu pei wo zhen de bu pei in the first place ta mei you yao wo. =D ta bu xi huan wo =D ta de qian nu peng you chao ji piao liang =D YAY. =D Sunday, March 09, 2008
if everyone cared. =D
3/09/2008 06:29:00 pm
super crazy abt nickelback recently. like particularly 2 songs =DFrom underneath the trees, we watch the sky Confusing stars for satellites I never dreamed that you'd be mine But here we are, we're here tonight Singing Amen I, I'm alive Singing Amen I, I'm alive [CHORUS] If everyone cared and nobody cried, If everyone loved and nobody lied, If everyone shared and swallowed their pride, We'd see the day, when nobody died And I'm singing Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive And in the air the fireflies Our only light in paradise We'll show the world they were wrong And teach them all to sing along Singing Amen I, I'm alive Singing Amen I, I'm alive [CHORUS (X2)] And as we lie beneath the stars, We realize how small we are, If they could love like you and me, Imagine what the world could be [CHORUS (X2)] We'd see the day, we'd see the day When nobody died We'd see the day, we'd see the day When nobody died We'd see the day when nobody died second song. I'm through with standin in line To clubs I'll never get in It's like the bottom of the nineth And I'm never gonna win This life just hasn't turned out Quite the way I want it to be (tell me what you want) I want a brand new house On an episode of cribs And a bathroom I can play baseball in And a king size tub Big enough for ten plus me (so what ya need) I need a a credit card thats got no limit And a big black jet with a bedroom in it Gonna join the mile high club At thirty-seven thousand feet (been there done that) I want a new tour bus full of old guitars My own star on Hollywood Boulevard Somewhere between Cher and James Dean is fine with me (so how ya gonna do it) I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame I'd even cut my hair and change my name Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars Livin in top houses Drivin fifteen cars The girls come easy And the drugs come cheap We'll all stay skinny Cuz we just won't eat And we'll hang out in the coolest bars In the VIP with the movie stars Every good gold digger's Gonna wind up there Every Playboy Bunny With their bleach blond hair And well... Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar I wanna be great like Elvis without the tassels Hire eight body guards that love to beat up assholes Sign a couple autographs so I can eat my meals for free (I'll have a quesadilla haha) I'm gonna dress my ass with the latest fashions Get a front door key to the Playboy Mansion Gonna date a centerfold that loves to blow my money for me (so how ya gonna do it) I'm gonna trade this life for fortune and fame I'd even cut my hair and change my name Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars Livin in top houses Drivin fifteen cars The girls come easy And the drugs come cheap We'll all stay skinny Cuz we just won't eat And we'll hangout at the coolest bars In the VIP with the movie stars Every good gold diggers Gonna wind up there Every Playboy Bunny With their bleach blond hair And we'll hide out in the private rooms With the latest dictionary and Todays who's who We'll get you anything With that evil smile Everybody's got a Drug dealer on speed dial well... Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar I'm gonna sing those songs That offend the censors Gonna pop my pills From a pez dispenser Get washed-up singers writing all my songs Lip syng 'em every night so I don't get 'em wrong Well we all just a wanna be big rockstars Live in hilltop houses Driving fifteen cars The girls come easy And the drugs come cheap We'll all stay skinny Cuz we just won't eat And we'll hang out in the coolest bars In the VIP with the movie stars Every good gold digger's Gonna wind up there Every Playboy bunny With the bleach blond hair And we'll hide out in the private rooms With the latest dictionary and Todays who's who We'll get you anything With that evil smile Everybody's got a Drug dealer on speed dial well.. Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar Hey hey I wanna be a rockstar Thursday, March 06, 2008
EMO. =(
3/06/2008 07:21:00 pm
i dont know how to be happy.or shld i even be happy. i know that after all i did, i will still be just your friend. cause AFTER ALL. you are just being FRIENDLY. overly-friendly. thats why i have the wrong idea. maybe i should wake up and get on with life BEING UR FRIEND hao peng you ye bu cuo. 轻轻的一个吻 已经打动我的心 there is a purpose why i chose only this line AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! so freaking stressed! HELP HELP HELP. and i duno if its stressed out or stressed up. WHATEVER. MY ENGLISH SUCKS ANYWAY =D though mr gp tcher likes me :D TML MUST DO ESSAY. CHAO JI KENASAI LA. i have 10 wishes 1. remain as a htc w/o getting into trouble 2. get into netball. 3. get into student council 4. hope the girl taller than me gets out of my sight 5. tan jek suan dun rmb me as a fat kid who has small uniform 6. michael tan thinks that i m a good student 7. finish all the bloody holiday assignment 8. ta neng gou ping ping an an hui lai xin jia po 9. get into yilun cg 10. do 80sit up today! 3/06/2008 07:01:00 pm
你沉默低下了头倔强地抹去了含在眼角的泪光 我傻傻望着窗外来来往往的人 紧握着一只喝空的杯 是真的不懂得心疼 真的不懂爱吗 为什么我始终学不会 要让你心碎不要让你流泪 明天你将离我有多远 对你始终不曾说再见 被遗忘的语言在记忆里搁浅 我在默默地失眠 使我漫不经心的燃烧 你的付出热情和骄傲 你对我有多好 我爱你有多少 我被遗落的心只有你知道 时间已停止流动 我的心已落在你我错身的瞬间 我抬头望着天空 你泯灭的心走进我 就将要各自飞 是真的不再有牵挂 真的结束了吗？ 你知道我始终放不下 始终不能面对 你不再是我的宝贝 明天你将离我有多远 对你始终不曾说再见 被遗忘的语言在记忆里搁浅 我在默默地失眠 使我漫不经心的燃烧 你的付出热情和骄傲 你对我有多好 我爱你有多少 我被遗落的心只有你知道 明天你会离我有多远 对你始终不曾说再见 被遗忘的语言在记忆里搁浅 我在默默地失眠 使我漫不经心的燃烧 你的付出热情和骄傲 你对我有多好 我爱你有多少 我被遗落的心只有你知道 遗落的心只有你知道 BIG TIME EMO. i duno why. just very upset about alot of things. but i am very thankful to god for the people that are really by my side. THANK GOD. anw i am so screwed up today. but i cannot blame anyone though. i am responsible for the class. so if i dun report to the parade sqaure on time. I M DOOMED. and i am. detention till 5 =( got caught for my unifrom. FROM SCH START MEANING TERM TWO I AM GOING TO TUCK IN MY UNIFORM EVERYDAY. WEAR WHITE BASED SHOES. i am what. LOL. HAVE COLLAR PIN EVERYDAY. and look like a retard :) and i am so serious. anw think daryl had a rlly cool nick on weds or tues. he wanted to say *ucking mathematics. but he wrote MUCKING FATHEMATICS. hw cool is that! well next time i know. BUCKING FIOLOGY CUCKING FHEMISTRY EUCKING FCONS GUCKING FP CUCKING FHINESE cool. think the bio one not bad. anw i guess its abt the class that i am upset with. maybe i aint good enuff. and i failed to realise that. and try to be the htc. try so hard for what? clean the board? haha. dunno what i want with my life also. LIKE WTF? i am very sian with life alrdy. but too early for heaven. spend 2hrs wtaching youtube. MUST REPENT AND OD MY WORK. i am kinda catching up but h2 maths is really hard. BUT IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIDAT. i can do it. MATHS =D BIOLOGY. ECONS GP CHINESE i just kant cope with CHEMISTRY. like kuku la. =( I DUN LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE IT. and quarreling with mum now. SIAN SIAN SIAN LA. tml a levels results released. DAMN IT LA i very scared for yating loh. HOPE SHE GET ALL As. =D and GL AND LY too! they better do well =)) and GR!!! hahahahaha. and tml i will see JNL. damn it. and I HAVE GOOD NEWS. WILL ANNOUNCE 11 DAYS LATER. yay! anw just very scared abt the netball thing and the councillor. DIE DIE MUST GET STUDENT COUNCILLOR =D DIE DIE MUST DIE DIE MUST. in cjc either join SC or odac or canoe or not = no life. no recognition. i am kinda okay w not getting into dance. not cut out for it. but will take classes outside =D with HM ;D yay. happy happy. anw i posted the song for a reason. MING TIAN =( Sunday, March 02, 2008
I AM WHO I AM
3/02/2008 12:53:00 am
WO ZHI ZHENG XUE TINGMY NAME IS TAY SUET THENG ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wo bu shi wu su shan my name is not ng su shan :( I M NOT A SUBSTITUTE. you guessed it right. i will put down the phone.. AND CRY. =( ying wei wo bu yao zuo yi ge dai ti ping boo.hoo.hoo. I LOVE HIM
3/02/2008 12:35:00 am
everytime i look into your eyes, time stops as you are as beautiful as snow
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